"Will you pee for me?"

That's the question my Aunt asked me one day.
I was 10 or 11 years old. She had called my Mom, who then sent me over to her house. I walked over, and went in. We visited for only a few minutes and she asked "Will you pee for me?" I laughed. And said "yeah." This is something my Grandma would always say too, when she had to use the bathroom but didn't want to get up.
But my Aunt said "No really, I need you to pee in this cup for me."
And that's all I remember. I knew it was because she needed clean pee for a job, but did she tell me that??? I don't remember. I knew it was because she smoked weed... but I doubt she told me that... Maybe I just assumed that was it, since I knew my Mom did??? I remember thinking how dark my pee looked, and wondering if that was normal! Since I had never seen it out of the toilet before (remember, I was a kid) but that's all I remember...

Over the years, I have heard that question quite a bit since that day. From family, mostly my mom. Mostly for jobs, but once for my cousin who had to pee for child protective services... (I now have a lot of guilt over that one, but that's a story for another time...) That's just what happens when everyone you know is on drugs except you. I didn't mind at the time, I kind of thought it was funny.
Of course NOW, I have conflicting emotions about it. First I wonder- how did they all know I wasn't on drugs anyway? What if I was on crack, or even just smoked some weed, and didn't want to tell??? And just peed for them anyway? You know how stupid kids can be... that is definitely something that could have happened!!! But most of all- Being a parent now, I just can NOT picture asking my son to do that for me. OR letting my brothers ask him. And have to explain why? Umm... No.
But I grew up a lot different then he is... Which is good :)

Why this little trip down memory lane you ask?

WELL, today reminded me of that first day that I was deemed the designated family clean pee-er.
Ray's brother called today, and asked him to pee for him! Unlike me, Ray had NEVER in his life been asked this favor. On one hand, I could think of it as depressing... that after all these years, no one in either of our families can pee for themselves...
BUT I am looking at it in a positive way. When he got off the phone and told me what his brother wanted, we both smiled like 'wow can you believe it!?!?!'

So today he peed for his brother for the first time... and since his brothers can't stay off drugs, and can't keep the same job for long, I'm sure it won't be the last!
As for Ray? He was never addicted to hard drugs or anything, hasn't touched ANYTHING like that since he's lived with me. But he's been a pot head since he was about 14. He smoked it DAILY for at least the last 10 years.

But today marks his 114th day- weed free.
His brothers test came back, and he is officially, CLEAN :)
I am so proud of him :)

Now to get our food addictions under control...

What I ate Today:
Lunch: 348
Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat with 1 tbs miracle whip, pepper jack cheese, jalapenos. 6 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch. water
Iced Coffee: 105
large glass with 3 tbs hazelnut liquid creamer
Snack: 165
2 pieces (1/2) WFC Almond Chocolate bar
Dinner: 675?
2 cups macaroni&cheese + hot dogs, 1/2 cup leftover green bean/corn mixture, water
Snack: 165
2 pieces (1/2) WFC Almond Chocolate bar
Snack: 140
1/2 cup cottage cheese and 1/4 cup fruit cocktail. Water
Total Water: 30 oz
Total Calories: 1598
Macaroni and hot dogs is my son's favorite meal, but I hardly EVER make it for him anymore. I'm going to guess 3 times since February? I don't like hot dogs like I used to, but I do like these Hebrew National all beef, all natural ones ok. 150 calories each.
Those dang candy bars! Ray called his nephew over and bought more of them! I told myself only 2 pieces a day won't hurt, but I already messed that up. But tomorrow I'll have my last 2 pieces.
It's not great, but I think I'm doing a little better everyday...

Last night pizza was avoided. Ray said he was ordering some after our son was in bed, after we had already eaten dinner! I told him "go ahead, but I'm not having any!" and I wouldn't have either. I was determined not to. He must have known it, because he didn't get any.
Today we took a nap, and he wanted up at 11am. Because he wanted to go eat at Florentine's... I told him I didn't want to, I have to weigh in tomorrow. But it sounded like he really was planning on it... when the alarm went off, and he didn't hear it... I didn't wake him up! lol, it felt very sneaky, but I REALLY didn't want to go. I know I would do BAD if I went to a buffet today.
So when he did get up, he was going to order pizza! He asked what bills where due before he gets paid again, I told him. And that we really can't afford to be spending money on fast food... So he actually got a little pissy about it! I acted like I didn't know, and asked him what was wrong after a while... he let it go and all was well... but that shows me that he is just as addicted to fast food as I am... I think even more... I just always go along with it (eagerly), until now.
I'm sure I'll be faced with it again soon, and I can't say how I'll handle it... but I feel good about how I did today and last night. One day at a time...

BUT If he can kick his other habit, I know we can get through our food addiction. :)

I am still feeling pretty good... even the weekend task of putting up Christmas crap isn't overwhelming me... so that's a good sign.
I will see you tomorrow for my weekly weigh in, I hope it's good! I'm still weighing in daily at my Weight Loss Tracker, so I feel good about it :)

Well, I hope you enjoyed today's post and my little trip down Dysfunctional Family Avenue lol. I hope someone tells me they are also a designated pee-er so I don't feel so alone!!!! Ha! A girl can hope can't she? Don't worry, I know this shit isn't normal... but what can I do but laugh? It's better to laugh than cry right? :)

Have a great night everyone :) See you tomorrow!

The Golden Rule... ever heard of it???

I try and live my life, treating others as I would want to be treated. It seems NO ONE around me has ever heard of this!
My family aren't the only ones, just the most frequent offenders. I swear i must be adopted.... uh. I won't go into details, just that no one ever sticks to what they say, or finds it important to put others feelings into consideration. And I'm tired of it. They are having a cookout today over at my brother's, he really wants me to go but I can't. I can't stand to me around my Mom and Step Dad right now... Sitting there yesterday for 7 hours didn't help... at all. Step Dad did end up replacing the brake pads. I do appreciate that, but that is the LEAST of my worries with the car. So I'm still waiting...
I feel so bad I can't go to the cookout, but I don't want my son there anyway. I am in a depressed mood, and I can't fake it today. I never do... but if I tried today I know it wouldn't work. So I would be no fun.

So I'm spending the day doing laundry. I just got used to the idea of going to the laundromat to dry my clothes, and I actually like it! It takes 40 minutes to dry 5 loads of laundry, instead of all day. It's pretty great...
But now? I don't have a dryer and am not supposed to be driving my car! So I will be hanging clothes all over the house I guess! Ugh.

YESTERDAY
My day yesterday was just... stupid. That's the only way to describe it. On top of everything else, it was about 60 degrees!!!! I was freezing my ass off all day!!! It was just in the 80s, I was in shorts and a shirt 2 days ago sweating, now I'm in pants FREEZING!!!

My step dad had said he would call me early in the morning so I could bring the car over and he would drive me home. That's fine... I guessed he wanted to look at it and make sure of everything that was wrong with it. I was going school shopping with mother in law later in the day. WELL, he didn't call me until 12:30, and it was time to go shopping. So I bring the car, and he doesn't want to keep it and look it over. He wants to go get parts now. So I tell MIL to just go with Ray and our son, I'll be home later. So they all went shopping, which is fine. She was getting his school clothes, shoes and back pack. I was SOOO relieved when she told us this. WELL, she got his shoes and 2 T Shirts... Don't get me wrong. I SO appreciate this. She didn't have to buy ANYTHING, and I know that. BUT I didn't take him school shopping because she was doing it all! Now he starts Tuesday, I don't have a car, and he still needs everything else! ugh...

THE CAR- feel free to skip this if you don't care about the Car Adventure lol
We needed to go get 2 parts, sway bar links I think. I say "You don't want to look at it and make sure I need them first?" He says No, because I do need them. So we go. Advanced Auto Parts #1 don't have them, but 2 other Advanced Auto parts do. One at each store. So the guy calls each store has them hold them for me. We go to store #2, and get it. We go to store # 3 and the guy doesn't have one on hold. He has the part, but it's $16 more than we just paid for it! I'm pissed and let the guy know it (because he had a horrible attitude), they should have had the part on hold for me!!! AND it should be $16 cheaper! So we leave, deciding Step Dad would look and make sure we need BOTH and not just one anyway. As we are leaving I realize we are leaving an Autozone... NOT the store we had been dealing with, Advanced Auto. I tell step dad, and instead of going down the road where the WOULD have my part, we go home to check it out. So store #3 has this part on hold for me, but we don't go get it... So he checks out the car, and says I need brake pads... but bad news. You know the part we went all over for? The sway bar links? Those are fine and we DON'T need them. So, we go back to Store number 2 and return the part, and get brake pads instead. We go home. He installs the brake pads, when he's done, tells me we DO need the sway bar links.....the one we just returned, and that is on hold for me because 2 stores only have 1 each... instead of going to get them, he wants to do it tomorrow (today). Uh... Ok. Fine...
This all took 7 hours. I didn't eat or drink anything this whole time... I am so stressed out it ain't even funny. SO I drive the car back home. Even though it's grinding and really loud, that's not the main problem. Through all of this, the main problem is the alternator. It is going to go out anytime. The noise it's making gets worse every time I get in it... I am not supposed to be driving it. I don't want it to brake down. But he wants to get a used one on Tuesday, instead of me paying $180 for a new one... I'm all for saving money if it won't die on me... so whatever...

So by last night, I was pretty tired. I read about half my blog roll and had to go to bed...

Today, they are having a cookout and Step Dad isn't even THINKING of going to get these parts... which is ok. I understand he's busy... but when I left last night, we were getting them today. that was the plan....
So now I don't really know what's going to happen. I just know I couldn't sit over there again today and be happy when I'm so stressed out... not to mention.... I am not supposed to be driving the car! ugh...

What I ate yesterday:
Breakfast@ 10:30am: (144?) iced coffee and 1 chocolate chip cookie
Snack @ 7:15pm: (152) 10 tortilla chips, 2 tbs salsa con queso, water
Bites while making dinner: (150?)
Dinner @ 8:30pm: (about 750) 1 piece of 3 cheese tomato lasagna, 1 piece of garlic toast, milk
Total Water: 25 oz
Total Calories: about 1196
I didn't plan on going all day without eating like that. I was starving, but I took my time eating dinner. I was going to get a second plate but thought- I do NOT need another plate. Especially with the chips and bites while cooking, even though I think I am hungry I am not. So I told myself I would wait 10 minutes and if I still wanted it I would have it. AND I didn't :) I think I will do that from now on. Before getting a second helping, wait 10 minutes. I think this is the first time I have ever only had ONE piece of lasagna lol.

Everything was better once I got home. I got on the treadmill too
15 minutes/ .58 mile
Total Days in a row: 26 :)

Be back later with a post for today. I'll keep it short though lol. Just my eating and treadmill, since you already know the rest of my F'd up day! LOL :) Hope you all have a good one!

Yesterday- BAD, Today... BETTER

Yesterday I ate, and ate, and ate some more!!! I wasn't thinking it at the time, but I think I hit rock bottom. I think I was actually back to where I was before Jan 1st 2010. I ate whatever I wanted, whether I was hungry or not. It was HORRIBLE.
I can't even remember everything I ate... as painful as it is, I will try!

Here's what I ate yesterday:
5am snack: Large Bowl of cocoa  krispies ff skim milk
Breakfast: Fiber One bar with 9.5 oz iced coffee
Snack: A lot of pasta salad
Snack: 1/2 cup (only because that's all there was left of) crap salad with 3 large crackers
Snack: large bowl of ice cream
Lunch: 1/2 frozen pizza with light ranch
Snack: iced coffee
Snack: a few tortilla chips
Dinner: about 20 tortilla chips and cheese, 2 cups of taco soup, ff skim milk
Snack: another large bowl of ice cream
Total Water: 40 oz

Ugh, it was horrible. But I didn't think so at the time, I thought it tasted good and I didn't care. WHY? I have NO idea. BUT today I felt awful about it. Knowing that this is the first time I actually feel like I am right back where I started. So today I didn't want to over eat. I want to start over.
I definitely need to improve, but I did better. I went to the store where they sell those cookies I was eating the last few days (the best chocolate chips cookies I ever had) but I walked right by them. I KNEW that if I bought them I would eat all of them.

So here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: Fiber Plus Bar, 9.5 oz iced coffee (which I nursed for about 2 hours)
Lunch: Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat, 7 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch, water
Snack: 1/2 cup pasta salad
Snack: about 1 cup of ice cream
Dinner: Romain Salad with cheddar, croutons and 2 tbs light ranch, 2 medium slices of pepperoni pizza (take home and bake from grocery store) water
Snack: Chocolate eclair ice cream bar
Drink: iced coffee
Total water: 40 oz

I definitely need to improve, but I don't feel like it was just mindless eating of the last few days. I am not going to return to that.

If you have been reading what I eat at all, you will know that I used to have these 9.5 oz bottles of Beaumont iced coffee (cheaper but just as delicious version as a starbucks frappuccino) once in a while as a treat. Then everyday. Now it's twice a day an usually with something else sweet!!!! That HAS to stop. ONE a day for now, and with NOTHING. It is a treat by itself and I don't need cookies or anything else with it! I need to ween myself off of those things!!!

It is SOO hot and humid today. I am having trouble staying away from the ice cream. I bought those little freeze pops tonight, and am hoping that will satisfy the cold sugar cravings. Not the best thing, but a lot less calories then ice cream! I know, have to start eating my fruits!!

It is raining right now, which is good. It is bad because there is no way I can get on the treadmill tonight, I would not be able to breath because it is so humid. I swear to you I am sweating just sitting here writing this. But it is good because it keeps all the ignorant pieces of shit that live here inside! I haven't talked about where I live yet... and I'm not going to in detail right now. I just get so angry, these people should be thankful they have somewhere to live- but instead they are out causing trouble, ruining this place. It gets worse every summer. I don't complain often (I think this is the first time since I started this blog) because I KNOW there are worse places to live. Even though I am frustrated with it at the moment, I am thankful to have a roof over our heads believe me. I guess it's because it's summer, and that brings out all the idiots... So even though it's hot and miserable, I am very happy when it rains at night. Keeps things quiet around here. Ok, sorry about that- enough complaining for one night :)

We will probably turn the air on tomorrow, so I will be on the treadmill for sure!!!!

Thanks again for all of your comments on my last post. It really meant a lot to me.

Went to the Buffet, and it was AWESOME!

Ray's Mom took us to our favorite restaurant. It's this Chinese place and it is the best... but for some reason, today it wasn't as good as it usually is :(  I don't know why, but the good thing about that is I ate less :) I ended up with 1 1/2 plates, but didn't finish either one, crazy right?!? lol.

Wanna know the awesome part? Ray's Mom said "Have you lost some weight???"
Now, at first in my head I was pissed off. Let me explain: Ray and her were at the table alone, he walks away and I come with my plate and she said that...
Ray knows how good it made me feel a few days ago when my mom noticed... so instead of believing she actually noticed, I thought he told her to say that! To make me feel good! I asked him a few times, and it was the first thing out of my mouth when she said it: "Did Ray tell you to say that to me!?!" haha! Talk about a psycho daughter in law LOL! When I realized she said it on her own I was very happy :) I was already happy with my mom and Ray noticing, and now I'm SUPER happy. For real, on cloud 9 :) I hadn't seen her since she came over for taco soup (a month ago at least). She had no idea that I was even trying to loose weight, and she noticed :) It feels great.
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing (wasn't hungry and knew we were going out for lunch)
Lunch: (1415) Abacus 1 1/2 plates, my best estimate: 3/4 cup egg/veggie fried rice, 1/2 cup broccoli chicken. 1/4 cup Mongolian beef, 2 egg roles, 5 crab rangoon with 1/8 cup sweet and sour sauce, 5 little pieces of chicken, 1 tiny piece of fish, 10 oz water, 1 fortune cookie, 2 little sweet... things
Snack:(26) .2 oz cinnamon almonds
Dinner: (89) left over carrots (about 20 cooked w a little honey), 1 bite of left over chicken helper, 1 cup 2% milk
Snack: (301) 4 yogurt raisins, .6 oz of cinnamon almonds, 9.5 oz iced coffee
Snack: (300) bowl of strawberry frosted mini wheats with 2% milk
Total Water: 50 oz
Total Calories: 2131
Wow, that's a lot of calories for lunch. I used what I could find on the internet for the same dishes (or similar ones) at different restaurants. I thought I did pretty good... but I guess not as well as I thought!

I bought my scale a while back. I actually have had it in the box all this time, thinking of taking it back to the store. I measure everything with cups and measuring spoons. Well, I finally used it when I started measuring these cinnamon almonds, yesterday or the day before, because it doesn't list the cups or tbs for them anywhere. The scale is pretty cool, I'm going to try and use it more often.

Didn't make it to the store today, you can tell because I'm drinking Ray's 2% milk LOL. Tomorrow for sure, and I'll stock up on fruits!

Treadmill: 30 minutes/ 1.1 miles   9 minutes of that with 2 LB weights
Ugh, tonight was one of my hardest on the treadmill. My legs are both pretty sore. Maybe the biggest looser walk? Maybe because I don't stretch? I don't know, but they hurt. On top of that it got to 80 degrees today! It's no fun walking on the treadmill when it's hot. But I did :) and even though it was hard, it felt great to be able to say I did it anyway. I went slower then usual because of my legs, but I went for 30 minutes and got a little more than my mile in. Woo Hoo!

Weigh In and Sunburn

The scale says:

Down .2 pounds... Well, it's a loss.

That brings my Total Weight Loss to

33.2 Pounds :)

Of course I'd be happy with a bigger loss-

but I am really glad I didn't gain!!!

My Totals for the week are:

Treadmill: 4 hours 9 minutes/ 9.27 miles

Wooo Hooo! That's up almost a mile from last week, a new distance record :)

NO Crunches, I have to get back to doing those...

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (345) 1 egg and 1/4 cup cheddar on a sourdough muffin, 4 oz orange juice

Snack: (40) picked at mozzarella and pepperoni as I made pasta salad

Lunch: (1078?) 2 hot dogs (one without the bun) with ketchup and mustard, about 1 cup Italian pasta salad, 1/4 cup pistachio pudding, Water

Dinner: (684) Little Caesars- 2 large slices (not very large...) 2 small bread sticks, 8 oz cherry pepsi

Snack: (100) strawberry ice cream sundae cup

Total Water: 75 oz PLUS 20 oz Sobe Life Water

Total Calories: 2247

More Water then I have ever drank in one day!

I didn't need the extra hot dog, but at least I had it with out the bun. After the sale today I was exhausted. Ray told me to pick up Little Caesars and I had no arguments. Could have done better by having ONLY ONE slice and bread stick. Not a good eating day at all I know.

Treadmill: 28 minutes/1.02 miles   5 minutes with 2 LB weights

As I mentioned, I was exhausted after the sale. I did NOT want to get on the treadmill, but I thought of how bad I ate today and how I MUST have a pretty good streak going without missing a day, so I did it. Ugh, it was hard but I'm so glad I did :)

The Sale went ok, I made about $16 is all lol. I got a very unexpected Sun Burn... that usually doesn't happen to me till June. It was warm today, at least there was wind. I was out in the yard from 9 to 5. I was up since 3am, only getting 1 1/2 hours of sleep. Tomorrow I get to do it all over again... yay... ugh... I'm going to have to stay out of the sun somehow! I am BURNT, even my arms are burnt. Here, see for yourself:

The picture doesn't even show how red my face (especially my nose) is. Do I look exhausted? Well I am. It was fun though, hanging out with 2 of my cousins and some of one of there friends. Do I want to do it again tomorrow??? Well... not really! Maybe I'll get some motivation and dig out some more stuff to sell in the morning. I WILL have a little more sleep tonight I think...

I was right about my TOM, it came this morning. It's ok though, but I think it makes me even MORE tired, which I DO NOT need...

I was able to post these pictures with no problem today YAY! I don't know why, they posted just like they always used to. No mention of the Picasa or whatever... weird.

I'm very tired, and was just going to post my weight and what I ate... don't know how I got to rambling, sorry! Enough for now, see you tomorrow!

Monday Weigh In

And the scale says...

Woo Hoo!!!!

I am VERY surprised at this. I mentioned last night that I

was hoping to loose and not gain.

Well, I lost 1.6 pounds since last Monday! :)

I don't anymore good news for today. We had tacos, and while I did... OK... for dinner, I went and had more later! I didn't make good choices at all today.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: leftover medium slice of taco pizza with low fat sour cream and taco sauce, 2 drinks of pop, water.

Lunch: Fiber Plus Bar and 1 cup FF skim milk

Snack: 4 starburst jelly beans (still from Easter! lol)

Dinner: 2 tacos 'double decker' style, 1/2 cup red beans rice and salsa, Water

Snack: 1 double decker taco and 1/2 cup of red beans, rice and salsa, water

Total Water: 45 oz

Total Calories:

I have a head ache, so I'm not going to add up the calories right now. I want to know how much I racked up today, I KNOW it's bad. So I'll do it tomorrow and post it here.

Treadmill: 28 minutes/1.01 miles   15 minutes with 2 LB weights :)

I forgot to write yesterday about my fast food achievement! We stopped at Burger King, and since I wasn't hungry, AND since the last 2 times I had burger King I got sick, I didn't want any! A whopper did sound REALLY good, but I was like "Nope, I don't need it." So for the first time, I think EVER, I went to a fast food place and didn't get anything :) yay me!

If only I would have done that tonight!!! Even though the tacos where sooo good, I didn't need all that. One for dinner would have been plenty! I'll have tomorrow to get through with leftovers... I have to control myself!

Is That Sandwich For Real!?!?

Ok, confessions first lol.
I knew Ray was going to try KFC's "Double Down" today. I didn't really want anything to do with it, have you seen this thing? When Ray told me about it I thought he was joking!!! It's a sandwich... I guess... So we get there and he tells me it's only $1.00, and I HAD to try one. SO I did. I thought of Tessa when I got it home, I know she thinks I eat to much bread (and she's absolutely right!) So check this out:

LOL! Yes it is exactly what it looks like... a sandwich with 2 pieces of chicken for the bun, and 2 slices of cheese and a strip of bacon. Some kind of orange sauce also.  It was NOT a dollar either. It was $4.99!!! I am not going to lie, it was VERY good. (I sat down with a fork and enjoyed it, I didn't eat it like a sandwich lol) BUT, it was NOT worth 4.99, not at all. It tasted good, but at 540 calories was not worth the guilt. AND I was hungry 10 minutes after I ate the thing! It's not as big as it looks. Definitely a first and last for me.

All I can say in my defense is... at least there's not bread??? LOL, I know that's a sad attempt to make it better. I can say that I resisted the urge to order their mashed potatoes and gravy, which I LOVE. I am proud of myself for that.

K, confession time out of the way.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (130) Fiber Plus Bar- dark chocolate almond, water

Lunch: (615) heart attack sandwich... err.. I mean... KCF Double Down, romaine salad with 1 tbs light tomato dressing and 1/8 cup cheddar, water

Snack: (123) 1 yoplait yogurt- apple turnover with 1/8 cup kashi go lean

Dinner: (680) 1 stuffed chicken- asparagus, 1 cup broccoli cheese rice (from pkg), 1 cup FF skim milk

Snack: (400) 1 piece of chocolate cake, 1 ice cream cup, 1/2 cup FF skim milk

Snack: (320) 1 1/2 cup Apple Cinomon Cheerios with 1 cup FF skim milk

Total Water: 44 oz

Total Calories: 2268

I bought these little single serving sundae cups of ice cream. In chocolate and strawberry. Each one 100 calories so that's cool :) It will help me not over do it with ice cream.

Tonight was Tuesday, The Biggest Looser was on. As you may know, I go for my long walk every Tuesday while watching it. Today I walked for 90 minutes non stop! Wooo hooo! 90 minutes was kind of a goal of mine... and now I've reached it. I have proved to myself that I can do it, I have built up endurance that I didn't have before. I could have NEVER stayed on it for 90 minutes before 2010.

Treadmill: 90 minutes/ 3.17 miles   Wooo hooo!

Now that I have reached my time goal, I am going to start concentrating on distance for my Biggest Loser walks. That is a long time, and I don't want to end up dreading it by making it any longer!! I'll try to go a little farther each week, and if I don't want to be on it 90 minutes, I guess I better speed it up!

I don't know if anyone has checked out the animal cams at all, but the red tailed hawk's chicks hatched this morning, 2 of them. There is still an egg left. Since there is no night vision on that one, I'll have to wait till the morning to see if it hatched. Exciting stuff! Well...for us at least :-) And no, this new addiction is NOT helping with my schedule AT ALL...

HAPPY EASTER!

I didn't take this picture, but it is to cute not to share!

Today is Easter, the first Holiday I've had to deal with since I started this journey on Jan 1st... I'm sure that's the case for a lot of us.

We are going to My brother's to have Easter dinner with my Mom, Step Dad, and 3 brothers. I am in charge of making macaroni. Today will definitely be a challenge for me. I am going to have to try really hard to control my portions, and get only one plate if possible... I'm going to try and keep in mind I have to weigh in tomorrow for Tessa, and hope that keeps me on track! Good luck to all of you who also have dinner plans, we can do this!!! Happy Easter!!!!


WELL...  I didn't do TO bad. When I was getting my first plate, I knew that I might come back and get more, so I got pretty small portions. I think I did pretty good. Of course it would have been better if I only got one plate...and I never once thought of weighing in tomorrow lol. But for my first holiday, I think I did ok. I had more candy today then I've had in a while, but even that wasn't mindless eating like it used to be. No shoveling candy in my mouth without thinking about it, I thought about EVERY piece.
I had a good Easter besides the food too :) Ray hid our son's Easter basket and of course he found it in 2 minutes, but he was surprised about the stuff we got him and it was great :)

Here's My Day:
(42) 1 snickers mini
Breakfast: (605) Chips and eggs (my spin on migas) with salsa and cheese. 8 oz Orange juice
(42) 1 snickers mini
Easter Dinner: 2 small portions of each: ham, mashed potatoes and corn, my macaroni, 2 biscuits- 1 with strawberry preserves. 1 cup of whole milk (that's what they drink over there)
Dessert later: 1 piece of vanilla cake, 1 cup of whole milk
Snack: (75) 1/8 cup of Starburst jelly beans
(42) 1 snickers mini
Late Dinner: (340) large salad with 1.5 tbs light ranch and 1/8 cup of mozzarella cheese. Egg Salad(one hard boiled egg and 1 tbs miracle whip) on 1 slice of Earth grains whole wheat(i really don't like this bread)
Total Water: 37 oz
Total Calories: 1146 PLUS Easter Dinner and Easter Cake.
I'm pretty tired, and just don't have the ambition to figure out the calories of dinner, especially since the only thing I prepared was the macaroni. It's probably a lot... I'm not mad at myself or anything, but I could have done better.
Tessa left a comment that said we have to think of holidays just like any other day, and that is so true. I know that too... it's just hard.... eating is really the only thing my family does together... but I will have to control myself no matter what others around me are doing...

I was full when I got home (NOT stuffed and bursting at the seams like EVERY other holiday in my life) and really didn't want to do the treadmill, but I did :) I'm proud of myself for that. I'm doing 21 minutes a day now, no matter what! :) I'm also carrying 2 LB weights for 5 minutes of it, but I keep forgetting to write that!!!
Treadmill: 21 minutes/.73 mile (5 minutes of it with 2 LB weights)

Oh! I did the initial test for the 200 sit ups Saturday... and I must be doing them wrong... I already do crunches(which is what the plan calls for), and pushing myself, I can already do over 100. I'm thinking that I am not coming up high enough or something. Maybe not keeping my back straight enough... I'm not sure...but I guess I will wait on that. When I do it I definitely feel it in my abs, so I know I'm working them out. But at my size I can't really do them any higher, so I'm going to stick with doing my crunches for now. I still think that http://www.200situps.com/ looks like a good plan... just not for me I guess :) I will try and do my crunches more often though, I'll try every other day for now.

I hope everyone had a Happy Easter! See you tomorrow!

Saturday

Oh the weekend... once desired and now dreaded... LOL, ok so I'm feeling dramatic today :) Really though, the weekend is so much harder. I guess lack of schedule is most of it for me. BUT- now having to weigh in on Monday too, I am going to have to get control of these evil days! haha.
Yesterday it was like my cold magically disappeared... thankfully! But today it is back. I have a cough and stuffy nose, but I feel pretty good anyway :) Nothing a few cough drops can't handle... I hope lol.

Here's My Day:
Snack @2:30am: (190) 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1 cup FF skim milk
Breakfast: (415) 2 eggs with 2 slices whole wheat toast w 1/2 tbs Fat Free ICBINB
Lunch: (282) 1/2 a Tuna sandwich on whole wheat, 10 carrots, 1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (147) 6 oz yoplait light- white chocolate strawberry yogurt with about 1/4 cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch mixed in
Dinner: (1550) Ordered Papa John's- 2 medium slices of BBQ chicken bacon pizza, 1 med slice pepperoni pizza, a garlic sauce, 4 small cheese sticks, a pizza sauce. Water
Snack: (50) One cookie (store brand Oreo)
Drink: (200) Beaumont iced coffee- french vanilla
Total Water: 74 oz
Total Calories: 2834
Well... I started the day off pretty good. For the first time I only had 1/2 a tuna sandwich :) I also bought some kashi go lean cereal to put in my yogurt. I wanted granola, and after looking at the different kinds I guess I grabbed the wrong one!!! This is "multi grain cluster cereal" and it will do the job, but I will get granola next time. I got this idea from Margie M's blog. I can't remember what exactly she uses in her yogurt, but I'm pretty sure it is granola of some kind.

I broke my own rule with the pizza!!! I try to just get one slice per plate, then I think I eat less (my usual is now 2 slices) but NO- I strayed from the plan!!! I told myself- "self, THIS is the ONLY plate you are aloud tonight." and put 2 slices on it and 3 cheese sticks. SO of course it's gone faster, and of course i want more, so I got another slice and another cheese stick. (it says 4 is a serving of sticks, but I did NOT need 4) Ugh... I am pretty sure if I would have followed my rule, i would have ended up eating 2 slices and 2 cheese sticks- which I would be happy with. Next time for sure!!! Eventually I will be able to do JUST ONE!!! Oh- and I didn't drink any pop with the pizza!!! :)

I got 3 cookies for snack, I didn't really like the first one, so I put the other 2 back :) I was proud of myself for that one. We usually don't have cookies in the house. I usually don't shop with my son either, he wanted them and I gave in... he is good about not eating a lot of them though. He is 11, but he still asks if he can have a snack, so I know exactly what he's eating and when. If I don't eat them, they will go stale. Which I will be fine with!!! No More eating stuff just so it doesn't go to waste!!!

Treadmill: 21 minutes/.7 mile

I didn't get much sleep last night, my fiance had another early schedule. I was up to early and will be up to late. When my schedule is off it really messes with me. I wish I didn't over eat for dinner, but otherwise it was an ok day. Next time I will follow my rule!!!!

LATER
I have to be honest, while I was eating the pizza, it was good and I enjoyed it. Now it is later, and I feel pretty bad about it. I was thinking of the groceries I bought, and the healthy things I could have made... and feel kind of sick thinking about it. I'm thinking about that show I saw yesterday, how I was so moved by it. And here I am the next day eating pizza... it just doesn't make sense! Ughh...
I read Barbara's blog a little while ago, and she has someone who orders out and sabotages her also. Mine is my fiance. He doesn't do it to sabotage me on purpose... I think he is just as addicted to the food as I am. But I have to start saying No. I'll have to make dinner... and I guess if he really wants to order out anyway, he will have to eat it all himself.... The other day I made a goal to not eat at any buffets until Tessa's Challenge is over. I have a new shorter term goal- NO fast food next week. NONE. I told my fiance and he said that's fine. So NO FAST FOOD next week. Not for breakfast, lunch or dinner. NONE.
Oh, and Barbara did SUCH a great job today by the way!

Tomorrow is another day, and today wasn't a total loss, I just made a couple mistakes. Mistakes that I can avoid next time...

Total Taco Binge (Wednesday continued)

I can't even believe what I did tonight. It is 1:10 am and I'm still up- so this is still for Wednesday. I feel like I'm at confession or something... I did horrible at dinner, and that was bad enough, but now I have to tell you all that I went on a binge tonight after my post. I really didn't want to write it :(  but I'm nothing if not honest, and so I have to. ALSO, I want it to be all done with tonight, so I can start over tomorrow. Today is the first time I just kept eating like that since 2009, and then it just got worse! After the post, I ate a bowl of Taco salad, with all the junk (cheese, sour cream, ect. and tortilla chips)and NO salad.  A good size bowl too. THEN I had a giant bowl of sugary cereal! I am so mad at myself, I feel like I let myself down, not to mention anyone reading this!!! So here is what I had after my post:
Bowl of Taco meat, beans, tortilla chips, cheddar, sour cream, and salsa.
large bowl of peanut butter/chocolate puff cereal with FF skim milk
My Total calories are well over 3000 for today
Water for the whole day: 34 oz
Thank you Tessa for your comment earlier, it makes me feel better knowing people care, even if you didn't know how bad I messed up yet! Now my Wednesday is over. Definitely my worst day since my weight loss journey started.

79 Minute Biggest Looser Walk

First- I want to thank Barbara and Asphyxiated Emancipation for joining me in My Day! I'm so glad you joined Tessa's challenge. I think it will really motivate us :) This is gonna be fun!

Today my fiance and I were out and about, and ended at the drive through at Arby's and I got a sub.(It's just so hard to pass up those subs when they are on sale for $2) but JUST a sub. This is the first time EVER I went to Arby's and didn't get a jamocha shake. I was thinking about how awful I felt the other night, and it wasn't hard to say no.
I definitely didn't do great on the snack either- and broke whatever small "no pop" streak I had going there... grrrr.

Today is Tuesday, Biggest Looser Day. I watch The Biggest Looser and walk on the treadmill as long as I can. Last week was my longest EVER at 78 minutes. I would love to be able to do that again, even one minute more would make today the longest EVER lol :)
I better start doing crunches again too...
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (210) 3/4 cup of Special K- Fruit & Yogurt with 1 cup FF skim milk
Lunch: (570) Arby's turkey bacon club sub
Snack: (361) 6 pizza rolls, 6 baby carrots, 1 tbs light ranch 1/2 can of Mt Dew
Snack: (90) Special K Bar- vanilla crisp
Dinner: (675) 2 servings of Creamy Broccoli Tuna Helper, 1 slice of whole wheat toast with Tiny bit of FF ICBINB, about 1/2 tbs Parmesan, 1 cup of FF skim milk (i really didn't need 2 servings...)
Snack: (60) 1/2 cup grapes
Total Water Today: 56 oz
Total Calories Today: 1966
I just finished the seedless red grapes. I forgot how good those are!
Treadmill: 79 minutes (2.56 miles)
Crunches: 100 (5 sets of 20)
Walking was a challenge today lol. As I was getting on the treadmill my son makes me get off and come look- one of the fish I just bought was evidently pregnant, and the tiniest little babies were in the tank. So of course he wants me to get them out so they don't get eaten... so after 10 minutes I saved TWO lol. Then I get on the treadmill and feel GREAT and have to get off at 46 minutes for a potty break. But I really wanted to do that 79 minutes so I got back on and finished the 53 minuites. Not the 79 minutes non stop, but I'll take it :)

What was I THINKING!

I actually had a pretty good day, so lets get the bad stuff out of the way!
Today is the 4th day in a row I have had Mtn Dew... It is so hard to resist sometimes, it is ALWAYS in the house... but no matter! Tomorrow it is back to NO POP!

My eating today was bad... I didn't even want to write about the snack... the other day I even wrote I had to throw that macaroni salad away or I would eat it even though I didn't even like it!!! WELL, I put it in the fridge until I was ready to take out the trash- BIG MISTAKE. I went to the fridge (where there are delicious good for me fruits) and there it was. What would go good with that? potato chips... UGH!!! What was I thinking!?!?! At least I measured it out so I could count the calories instead of eating straight out of the container/bag. BUT I felt so horrible after I ate it, I threw it in the trash. Half the container still full- that is a big step for me...
So then we ordered inn. Usually I wouldn't be SO mad at myself since it was an improvement from before 2010... but it really is WAY to much food!  and oh my goodness the calories!!! On top of not needing to eat all that, (I was full), now I see how many calories were in it! OMG! Yeah, I'm embarrassed. BUT I said I would always be honest so I'm posting it anyway... as always...

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (185) Fiber One Bar- chocolate mocha, 1/2 cup of FF Skim Milk
Lunch: (263) Leftover potato/chicken in tomato sauce w/ 1/2 cup of white rice. 1 cup of 2% milk
Snack: (34) 1 bite of ice cream- Dean's Mint Meltaway
Snack: (575) 1/2 cup macaroni salad. 11 sour cream and cheddar potato chips. 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Dinner: (1252) Hungry Howie's- 1/2 Turkey Club Sub with 1 packet of mayo. 1 small piece of pepperoni pizza, 4 cheese sticks, 1.5 oz sauce, 1 cup of Mtn Dew.
Total Calories Today: 2309
Total Water Today: 50 oz

Oh good, that's out of the way...
Now to a little good news. Today was Biggest Looser Day, and I always try to stay on the treadmill as long as I can stand while watching it. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do my hour, since we had Hungry Howie's, but I did! In fact, I got to the hour and I felt pretty good, so I went a little farther! I did an hour and 18 minutes! That's the longest I've EVER been on the treadmill!!!! SO even though I made mistakes today, I ended it on a good note and feel great. I only have 3 days and it will be weigh in, so I need to get back on track tomorrow and stop this over eating nonsense!!!!! Now all I have to do is ignore the leftovers calling me from the fridge...
Treadmill: 78 minutes (2.5 miles) Yeah Baby!

Counting Calories

This morning I woke up starving. WHY? I ate like a pig yesterday and I shouldn't have been hungry at all right. Well I was. My fiance made us breakfast and I asked for ONE of everything but of course he made me 2... Why? I don't have a clue. But you guessed it- I ate both eggs and 2 pieces of toast anyway! Ugh.

Even though I have not been doing great with my eating lately, including today- I am not going to let that get me down. I am going to make the best of the rest of my day, and stop eating so much RIGHT NOW! Tomorrow will be better :)

I don't count calories, but maybe I should start... I just don't know if it's something I will stick to... but I'll try it out. Maybe I'll do it this week and see how it goes, no promises though! I am NOT a quitter, but here's a heads up- if I find this to be to much, I won't keep doing it lol. It doesn't fit into my baby steps, trying to change a little at a time, but I will give it a try- maybe it won't be as difficult as I think! :) I'm not setting a certain calorie goal, like trying to stay within a certain range or trying to get down to 1500 a day, because I would NEVER stick with it... not now anyway. It is mostly because I am curious about how much I am actually consuming. Wish me luck! lol.

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (600 Calories) 2 eggs, 1 sausage patty, 2 slices of Whole Wheat Toast, about 1 tbs butter, about 8 oz of Orange Juice.
Snack: (34 calories) 1 bite of ice cream- Deans Fanny May Mint Melt away
Lunch: (649 calories) A spinach and Romain Salad with 4 grape tomatoes, 1/4 cup of cheddar, 1 tbs light ranch, 8 croutons. 1 small piece of leftover BBQ chicken pizza, 1/2 a bread stick, 1/2 can Mtn Dew.
Dinner: (977 calories) Cheeseburger with bun, olives, natural ketchup, and lettuce. 1/2 cup baked beans, 1/2 cup of macaroni salad, sour cream & cheddar chips, Water
Snack: (170) 1/2 cup of Mint Melt away ice cream
Total Calories For Today: 2430
Total Water for Today: 58 oz

Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile)
Well, I learned a couple things already! I always count my croutons, but the calories are based on tbs... AS IF croutons fit in a tablespoon!!! Macaroni salad has 330 calories per 1/2 cup, and I didn't even like it! So I'm going to throw it out, since no one else eats it. (If I don't throw it out RIGHT NOW I will end up eating it so it doesn't go to waste!)The good things I learned are: A serving of ranch is 2 tbs so I have been having 1/2 the calories I thought I was with that. Also, My wheat bread is 110 calories per 2 slices, so that is half the calories I thought it was too! So that's cool. I will have to fix yesterday's post if I wrote 110 calories per slice...
To make it easier for myself, i am making a list. Everything I find the calories for, is on my list so I will have it right in front of me :) Also I found a Calorie Counter Database http://caloriecount.about.com/ and that will really help me with this. It didn't have Vitale's... but it does have a lot! Maybe this counting calories stuff won't be so bad :)

Good, Bad... we'll call it an In Between Day :)

The good news for today is that I got on the treadmill :) That means this is the first time i got on it EVERY day since a weigh in. It is habit now and I hope to be able to do it EVERY day even if it's for only 15 minutes sometimes. Weigh In is tomorrow... i don't know if that's good or bad...

The bad news is I got my period today. That's enough to put any of us in a bad mood I'm sure! Last time I had one, it was 48 days long... so I am obviously dreading this. I HOPE it is more normal, like 1 week instead of 7 would be good...

I made some bad choices today. We ordered lunch... I did only eat 1/2 the chips and cheese... but there's no getting around it, I did not do well. I also had a sweet craving (which isn't to often) and it was either a brownie or trail mix. So I picked the trail mix, knowing it would give me heart burn. How stupid is that??? Ugh, so here I sit with heart burn, feeling like crap. My own fault-

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing
Snack: Spinach and Romain salad with 1/4 cup cheddar, 6 croutons, 4 grape tomatoes, 1 tbs light ranch
Late Lunch (ordered in): 1 soft shelled chicken taco, 6 fries with ketchup, 1/2 an order of chips and cheese deluxe (about 8 chips w cheese, tomato, taco meat, sour cream and salsa) Water
Dinner: Tuna sandwich (1 can tuna, 1/8 cup cheddar, 1 tbs miracle whip, on white bread) with hot banana pepper rings. 6 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch. Water
Snack: 1/4 cup trail mix (peanuts, raisins, m&ms, 2 almonds), 1 slice of an orange
Drink: Frappuccino
Total Water Today: 46 oz

Treadmill: 31 minutes (1 mile)
I keep track for myself, so I might as well write it on here. The total treadmill time for the week is: 3 hours 18 minutes (6.35 miles)  and Total Crunches for the week are: 300. Not to shabby :) I hope it shows up on the scale... I have hopes but I don't expect much since I didn't do well eating all week :(  I really would be happy if I don't gain, I'd be super happy if I lost one pound...  Wish me luck!

The Weigh In...

Today is Friday, Weigh Day!
The other day I was so exited to be right at 300, that I completely forgot I was in winter clothes and NOT my weigh-in shorts and a t-shirt!!!! So that must have helped, because today when I stepped on the scale, I was down 4 pounds for the week!!! It said... 298...298!!!!! I AM UNDER 300 POUNDS!!!! Woooooo Hoooooo!!!!!
Do you know what that means? That means, that no longer will I be looking past the 300 (which is the limit) on my scale!!! That also means I am now within the weight limit of my treadmill!!!! I am so exited!!!! I don't want to ever weigh 300 pounds again. I hope that I never see a 3 in front of my weight ever ever EVER again!
Soooo.... what is my fiance doing right now??? Ordering Hungry Howie's.... ugh, I LOVE Hungry Howie's. What I usually have is a whole calzone sub, 2 pieces of pizza, about 5 cheese sticks, almost the whole sauce, and a glass or 2 of pop. That was before, but now I will do much better... It's not what I SHOULD be eating, but I'm going to eat SLOW, enjoy my meal, eat LESS, and I'm ok with that today.

A little note: We got his income tax 2 days ago, and this is why we have been eating so much junk :( It is So hard not to order food when we have extra money... but the extra money COULD be going to much more important things. This is something I really have stop doing!!!! But like I said, for tonight I'm not going to worry about that, but from now on I really have to make sure we don't keep ordering out like this. It would be SO easy for me to blame my fiance, but I won't be doing that- because as soon as he said it, i didn't say "No we shouldn't" I said "Ok, get me a Turkey Club Sub!!!" 

Well, anyway- today is a GREAT day for me :) So I'm not going to beat myself up over the Hungry Howies's.....
Here's My Day:
Lunch: Tuna Sandwich (1 can of tuna, 1 tbs miracle whip, 1/4 cup cheddar, 4 hot banana pepper rings). 8 carrots with 1 tbs light ranch. Water
Snack: 2 chocolate chip cookies with 1 cup of Fat Free Milk (uhhh...yeah, you read that right. I bought fat free milk... and drank it with cookies LOL)
Dinner Ordered In: 1/2 turkey club calzone sub with one packet of mayo. 2 cheese sticks with about a tbs of sauce. 3 bites of pepperoni pizza. 6 oz Pepsi. Water.
Snack: 2 slices of an orange
Total Water for Today: 50 oz

Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile) 10 minutes of that with 2 LB weights
Crunches: 100 (40, 20, 20, 20)
Exercise: 50 bend/reaches (25 for each side)

This is the first time in my LIFE that I didn't finish a slice of pizza!

300!

SO. I weighed myself today, even though it's not weigh Day, and I'm right at 300!!! You know, being under 300 will be a huge milestone for me, but I have tried not to think about it. When I saw that though... I was so happy!!!! If I can just hold that till I weigh in Friday that would be fine, and then next week I could be in the 200s!!!! I'm excited  :o)

Of course, me and my fiance had ordered some food before I weighed myself- it was actually on the way when I stepped on the scale! And I got my favorite: pizza. I had ordered a 10 inch (a first for me, never before have I ordered anything under a 14) and being so happy about my 300, I kept myself under control. I would consider the pieces to be small, and I only had 2 slices. Only 2 and NO bread sticks. I did have a little pop, but as of now it still goes with pizza, but even that was only 6 oz.

I know some people could read this and think I'm crazy for being so happy about weighing 300 pounds, but that's ok. I completely understand how crazy that sounds. But for me it is HUGE!!! No pun intended LOL!!!
Here's My Day:
4am: 1 cup of 2% milk
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: 2 small slices of ham pizza. 6 oz of Pepsi. 5 french fries
Snack: an apple
Dinner: WW Smart Ones meal- Creamy rigatoni with broccoli and chicken. 1 cup of 2% milk
Snack: 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1/2 cup of 2% milk
Total Water Today: 42 oz
(I'm pretty proud of myself for not eating the leftover pizza for dinner)

Treadmill: 36 minutes (1.20 miles)
Crunches: 100 (5 sets of 20)

Days of Our Lives Walking Plan

I didn't blog last night. I woke up with a headache yesterday, it got worse all day so I went to bed early.
You didn't miss much. I made a salad for the first time in probably a year. I used spinach and romaine lettuce which is a first, all previous salads in my life have been iceberg lettuce.
 My fiance made breakfast again, but this time I was VERY proud of myself. JUST ONE pancake, JUST ONE scrambled egg and a glass of orange juice :) woo hoo! So that's the good part. I am not against having more then one if you need to, but I really am not hungry in the morning, so I don't need more then one. Also I had a chocolate pie for snack, but only half of it!!! That's another first for me, only eating half of something I love just because i know its bad for me.
The bad part of yesterday is that I didn't get any exercise. I mean NONE, not even housework. I did absolutely nothing. I'm bummed out about that, I wanted this week to be the first week I did the treadmill EVERY day, but it's ok. I'm not mad at myself, it's not like I wanted a headache... As long as I do the treadmill the rest of the week I'll be happy. Next week hopefully will be my first week doing it everyday!

I plan on walking during Days of Our Lives. That is my soap for the last 13 years or so... I'm not addicted, I could stop at any time!!! LOL! So any way, that would be every week day. I'll walk as long as I can, and eventually be able to walk the whole hour its on! That's my Days of Our Lives Walking Plan :) That goes along with things I can get used to and do for the rest of my life, slowly but surely I will make these positive changes till they are just a natural part of everyday life....

Now to today. I'm trying to measure my food out. I don't have a scale so just measuring cups and tablespoons for me lol. Measuring out what I put in my tuna sandwich shows me I should probably cut everything in half. So next time I'm going to try that. 1/2 the can of tuna, 1/2 the miracle whip, 1/2 the cheese. I love my tuna sandwiches, lately I crave them. Don't know whats up with that, but I eat them all the time. So cutting everything in half will be a big deal for me, and will also help me I'm sure!
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: 8 oz of Orange Juice
Lunch: Tuna Sandwich (1 5 oz can packed in water, 1 1/2 tbs miracle whip, 1/4 cup cheddar, 2 slices white bread, hot banana peppers), 8 baby carrots with 1 tbs ranch, Water
Snack: Apple Fruit Pie
Snack: 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1/2 cup 2% milk
Dinner: Spinach and romaine salad with 1 tbs light ranch, 8 croutons, 1/8 cup of cheese. 9 tortilla chips topped with a little cheese and leftover taco soup.
Total Water Today: 36 oz
Treadmill: 31 minutes (1 mile), 10 minutes of that carrying 2 LB weights
Crunches: 100 (5 sets of 20)

Tessa mentioned I should watch my carbs, I definitely agree.
I'm really trying to take baby steps so I don't get overwhelmed, and right now I'm eating what I want- just LESS of it. And trying to add healthier items (veggies and salad were pretty much non-existent before January 1st 2010) Now I'm trying to measure also. So my cereal will be 1 cup instead of how ever much I can cram into a bowl LOL.
And EXERCISE. This is also a big change for me. I think I can handle my Days of Our Lives Plan though :)These are the things I've changed for now, but I will try to start changing more and more. And of course ALL suggetions are welcome!