Feeling Better, Feeling Thankful

except for this head ache!
I've had a head ache for 3 days. I've taken ibuprofen and it goes away, but comes right back.

Anyway, I feel better today.
I think it was the whole story about the homeless man with the golden voice... have you seen this? I first seen it a couple days ago, when he was homeless on the side of the street.

When I saw this, I just knew it would blow up on the internet and maybe he really would be able to come out of this! And get a job and who knows what else!

I saw him on the Today Show this morning, and it really just touched me. It's all happening so fast, you can tell he is just kind of shocked by it all. He was pretty emotional, and I just feel so much happiness for him.

An offer from the Cleveland Cavaliers to work AND housing, He recorded stuff for Kraft macaroni, the list goes on...

It is just so nice to hear something good in the media, when all you ever see is bad!

 

It makes me feel thankful for what I have...

I'm not saying now I will be the perfect eater and loose 10 pounds per week, but I do feel better. I am thankful for what I have, and if he can overcome all of his issues I can definitely do better with mine!

Today's (Thursday) Food-
Coffee: 55
with 1 1/2 tbs DMC
Breakfast: 245
all natural peanut butter on whole wheat, 1 cup ff skim milk
Lunch: 402
2/3 can of tuna on whole wheat with 1/2 tbs miracle whip, pepper jack cheese, pickles. 8 baby carrots and 1 tbs light ranch, water
Snack: 125
4 1/2 slices ham, 1 oz colby jack cheese, water
Dinner: 370
1 cup leftover chicken taco soup, 1 slice of whole wheat, 1 cup milk
Snack: 250
1 cup Berry Colossal Crunch cereal with 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 140
1 cup Rice chex cereal 1/2 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 60
2 pieces of cheese ( 1 pepper jack, 1 colby jack) 21 grams
Total Water: 36 oz
Total Calories: 1647
Well, I kept my calories down! :) I know I snacked a lot... don't know why I can't get enough cereal... or cheese! But I really paid attention to my portions. The 2/3 can of tuna is because I forgot to give my cats the water this time, so I had to give them some of the tuna lol.
I know if I wasn't up so late, that last cereal and cheese wouldn't have even been on there. But I got hungry...

I NEED to go to bed earlier! I was in bed at 9:30 last night. Tonight I fell asleep for about an hour at 8:30! That's not good... cause when I got up I still had to get on the treadmill. I wanted to go to bed, but I knew I had to get on it... I'm glad I did. But now I'm up way to late :( I also need to get on the treadmill earlier, then I wouldn't have this problem!

Get grocery money tomorrow and will have some fruits and healthier snacks in the house... unless the weather is too bad...

Treadmill: 13 minutes/ .50 mile, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Even though my eating hasn't been great, I have been keeping very busy since the new year. Trying to be a better house keeper and just all around moving more! So I do feel like I will have a loss, even with the slow start on the food.

Oh, and it's definitely back to our normal winter here now! I shoveled today, so that's exercise :) We are supposed to be getting 6 to 12 inches by Saturday night... we have a lake effect snow warning now. Yep, back to normal Michigan weather all right... yuck.
I have to be up in about 3 hours to drive Ray, and a co worker to work. In this crap...
But that's ok. Just glad he has a job! And the car is running and can get us there...
Have a good night! :)

Have You Seen This?

While we are shrinking, so is our food!
But it still cost the same....
Companies Shrinking Products Finance Videos Comcast.net

That's good advise, I NEVER buy cereal if it's not on sale :) I just stock up when it is.
She mentions the ice cream, buy Ben and Jerry's because a pint is still actually a pint...
(BUT I'm sure the calories are pretty high, so maybe we should stay away from it anyway :) To be honest, I've never had it)

One that she didn't mention, is Minute Maid. Buy that instead of Tropicana, they are still 64 oz and not raising their price (yet!)

On the Today Show they had a lot more examples of companies that have cut the size of their products in the last 5 months... I can't remember them though... just Scott toilet paper lol...

Pay attention to those sizes!
Happy Shopping!

Must... Have... COFFEE!

Hey everybody :)

Let's get the last few days out of the way shall we?
Since Friday, I have been getting little sleep. I have been snacking way to much. And have been feeling very guilty over spending money on fast food. I have been ok, just a little stressed, but not really depressed or anything. Just a lot of little things all together weighing down on me...
I did write down what I ate... but didn't record it here. Which was a HUGE mistake, and I already know better! The minute I decide I'm not writing it here, I start eating worse...
It didn't get to bad, no complete binging... but a lot of snacking, and giving in to things I just didn't need... things I didn't even really want! Like chips and cheese, a sandwich in the middle of the night... Other than that the food was pretty normal for me, no over eating really, just EXTRA snacking. Mostly to much snacking at night when I'm up till 4 in the morning. The low point? Ray and I actually got Taco Bell at 1:30am Sunday Morning (Sat. night). That is SO BAD, to actually leave the house to go get it too? An old habit I hoped to never see again!

BUT all that is over. Except the fast food problem... But that will be over soon I hope...
Back to normal, and back to recording it!

Yesterday was a busy day. I didn't eat much, but we did have pizza for dinner. We had a quick dinner, I had 2 peices and it was my lunch and dinner.

Then off to my son's first band concert!
I know it makes no sense, but doing anything like that really stresses me out. So that too was weighing on me all week... but once I was there of course I was fine.
I was a little annoyed when my son told me that they weren't going to be doing Christmas songs, even though the other grades were... why you ask? Well, because there are so many bad kids always disrupting the class so they didn't have time to learn everything they were supposed to. WTF? That's F'ing ridiculous if you ask me!!!! The teachers need to grow a pair and take care of these kids... kick them out of the class!!! When I was in school, Band was... well... full of band nerds. lol no offense to any band nerds out there! But they really pushed band last year, EVERY kid had a meeting with the band teachers to see what instrument they would be best for ect. I was putting him in band before they did all that... I guess that made other kids that normally wouldn't do it, go ahead and do it. Maybe thinking it would be an easy class??? I don't know, but this is the largest band class they have ever had- and I hope they don't wonder why! To me it doesn't matter, kick the little trouble makers out of band so the ones that WANT to be there can learn! Damnit!

Count to 10...

Ok :) I'm back.
Back to the concert. It ended up really nice :) I enjoyed myself, and I could tell my son did also. My Mom and Step Dad came too, so that was nice. Here is a little fun piece they did. It was cute lol.

He's in the middle, the kid that looks like he could be my son lol. 

After we got home, I had a very little piece of this crazy "s'mores pizza." Not long after, I started getting pains in my stomach. They really hurt! I don't know if they were from that weird s'mores thing, or what. All I know is, I am soo glad that it waited until AFTER I got home. Without being too graphic, I spent a lot of time on the toilet... 

This morning wasn't any better. By the time I went and picked up Ray, I felt a lot better though. He wanted a frappe from McDonald's, so we stopped on the way home... and I ended up with 2 egg McMuffins also... I know, great nourishment for sick people right? Bleh... it sure was good though! But that's the last time I will have fast food for a while. I just feel so guilty over spending the money! Ray is getting so many more hours since it's the holidays, so bigger checks, and it's hard for me to say no when he wants to spend it on... shit. He worked for it... but we have IMPORTANT stuff to spend it on... anyway, even if he does get fast food, that doesn't mean I have to. And I am not going to!!!

I forgot to weigh in this morning before I ate. So AFTER I had 2 egg McMuffins, some water and a whole LARGE Frappe, I weighed almost a pound less than yesterday. I wonder what I weighed before I ate! But I know that it's only because I was probably severely dehydrated from my stomach thing, and not drinking enough water lately! But mostly the sick stomach.

I'm getting in my water today though. It's not hard because I am actually thirsty today!

Ray's birthday is Tomorrow. The big 30 :) We're having family over Friday for dinner and cake and everything. Probably some drinking, we'll see. None for me if my stomach still feels like this.. and Ray is actually comming down with something different than mine. Him and the boy have soar throats and aren't feeling great :(

So anyway, I have to get this house cleaned. We got the tree up and decorated, but I have to get the rest of the Christmas stuff put out too. Even though I feel a little weak, I feel good other than that. AND I've rested up. I went to bed at 10 last night! So even though I wasn't feeling well, I got a lot of sleep, about 8 hours total. So I am awake, and now just have to pry myself away from the computer! And get at it!!! And keep drinking coffee!!!!

Because...

At least that's what my paper towel says!!! :)

And paper towel never lies!!!

Blogger vs. 'Mike and Molly'

I happen to LOVE Mike and Molly. I have watched since it started, and though a little corny and predictable, I think it is such a funny show. It always makes me laugh, and sometimes makes me say "awww" when I see their puppy love :) (no they are not married as the woman on here said) I really do love this show.

BUT Maura Kelly from marie claire doesn't. In fact, she can't stand overweight people, and marie claire lets her write hurtful things about them as seen here:
Blogger vs. 'Mike and Molly' Featured Videos Comcast.net

If for some reason you can't see the video, it says she wrote that: it would make her sick to watch two people with rolls kissing each other... and that she can't stand watching a fat person even walking across the room... ect.
I happened to run into another article from marie claire earlier this month, from other blogs. It seems they don't have very good judgement about what they post... I'll be emailing them, and Ms Kelly to give them my two cents on it. You can too if you want ;)

I am guessing Ms. Kelly is a very unhappy person, to be writing things like this. Maybe she is jealous of the happiness these 2 over weight people were able to find? (Even though they are fictional) Maybe she herself can't find it? I don't know, all I know is that I am not angry, I pity her. She seems like a miserable human being.

A Quick Video: Drew Carey

Drew Carey's Battle of the Bulge Featured Videos Comcast.net

Does that sound familiar? "I could never give up my 'Whatever' "
That's me with pizza huh? Is that you, with any certain food?
I obviously can't stop at just one at this point, and I really do need to just give it up for now :(

Great job Drew!

"Biggest Loser" Couple Are Getting Married

Awww :)

Just sharing a little good news I saw first thing this morning.

"Biggest Loser" Couple Engaged Featured Videos Comcast.net

A Better Day... if you ignore the food part...

I had a better day today. I have been having such a hard time staying positive... With the dryer, the car, the end of summer, just everything I guess. Now it's the last week of my son's vacation and we are stuck at home doing nothing with the car all messed up. BUT I tried to stay positive, and I did feel better today. Ray is going to take him up to the park to practice throwing discs. After they can feed the ducks too. So that will be nice for them :) Ray's Mom is going to take him school shopping Saturday, which is SUCH a huge relief to me. We were doing that this week, until the car decided we aren't... but now she wants to take him and buy his stuff!!! She is the greatest Mother in Law ever. I am so thankful for her.

Ray and I are doing great, we are getting along better than ever. I mean, we always are lol... but the last few days have been really good. Even though I've been having a hard time, he is being so sweet. And he's not irritable at all, and it's just good.
We had a GREAT time at the MMA fights Saturday. The mic was to loud or something, and we couldn't understand a word the announcer said... but other than that it was good :) We never go out, so we didn't even mind that it started over an hour late!!!! LOL. I'm sure the guy said why, but we couldn't understand him! haha :)
I'm not sure who cares anything about MMA, most of you probably couldn't care less lol. So I won't bore you with a bunch of fight videos. Here's one though so you can see how close we are :)
I joked with Ray that I have a new goal. To loose enough weight to be a ring girl!!!! Do you see where they are sitting!!!!! Wow, now THOSE are good seats lol. I would only have to loose about 179 more pounds and that could be me. Haha :)

They were free tickets, and we were in the first row behind the gate. They didn't get the turn out they expected I guess, so they moved us beyond the gate :) So we had a waitress and everything, the only people in front of us was one row and the VIP tables you see in the pic. By the end of the night we were even closer!!! All night the fighters walked right past us, we were in the end too. You really can't get any better for free! :) You couldn't get much better for $$$, not sure how much those tables costed. Someone said $75 per seat... haha, wonder what they would think if they knew that us, 8 feet away were free hahaha :)



There was a live band, before the fights, they were good I thought. The best part of the night is when Ray and I looked at each other, both realizing what he was singing at the same time... Keep in mind it's more like a Metal Band... when we realized what he was saying we laughed and laughed :) It was soooo funny. They were LOUD, but for some reason it came out pretty quiet... can you tell what he's singing????
It's a chorus from another song, that is NOT metal, or rock or even close lol. Wonder if anyone will get it... :)

Another good thing, my brother had the fights from UFC that night, so we didn't miss those either :) They were good :)

Here's What I ate Today:
Breakfast: (221) Coffee, 1 slice of peanut butter toast
Snack: (23) 1 Werther's
Lunch: (800?) 1 tostada, about 10 tortilla chips w cheese, tomato, sour cream and taco meat. Water
Snack: (380) 1 1/2 cup of Capn Crunch w 1 1/2 cup ff skim milk
Total Calories: 1424 (624 + Dinner)
Total Water: 44 oz
Another mess up day with the food.... I really can't explain it. I know I'm a little stressed, but I don't feel depressed. I am not giving up, I start off the day with the best intentions... I KNOW I need to do better, no question about it. I hope seeing this isn't getting anyone discouraged, or thinking I have given up... because I haven't. I know some of you will understand, and some won't. Some will think "Why doesn't she just stop eating that crap!" and that makes sense of course. It's just not been that easy... I wish it was that easy, then NO ONE would be fat!
I did pass up pizza buns for dinner, so that's something right? I knew I had really messed up for lunch, and wasn't really hungry. Of course Ray kept asking "Are you sure." I knew what would happen, he would make me a few just in case i changed my mind. So I said "No I'm sure. I am not hungry, PLEASE do NOT make me any." and he didn't :) and I was fine.
It might sound crazy, but I'm not worried about gaining this week. Even though I ate crap, I haven't been doing bad on the calories because I haven't been binging, or eating much else besides the crap... but that said, this is NOT how I want to loose weight. I want to follow my original plan, and get healthier in the process. I know I can and will do it... Just having a hard time right now...

But like I said, my mood has been better, and I will try harder.

Today's Treadmill: 15 minutes/ .51 mile
Total Days in a row: 22
I'm sure that has helped me with my mood. Otherwise I might be much worse off with the way things have been going lol. But I'm good :) Things will get better.
Have a good night!