Feeling Better, Feeling Thankful

except for this head ache!
I've had a head ache for 3 days. I've taken ibuprofen and it goes away, but comes right back.

Anyway, I feel better today.
I think it was the whole story about the homeless man with the golden voice... have you seen this? I first seen it a couple days ago, when he was homeless on the side of the street.

When I saw this, I just knew it would blow up on the internet and maybe he really would be able to come out of this! And get a job and who knows what else!

I saw him on the Today Show this morning, and it really just touched me. It's all happening so fast, you can tell he is just kind of shocked by it all. He was pretty emotional, and I just feel so much happiness for him.

An offer from the Cleveland Cavaliers to work AND housing, He recorded stuff for Kraft macaroni, the list goes on...

It is just so nice to hear something good in the media, when all you ever see is bad!

 

It makes me feel thankful for what I have...

I'm not saying now I will be the perfect eater and loose 10 pounds per week, but I do feel better. I am thankful for what I have, and if he can overcome all of his issues I can definitely do better with mine!

Today's (Thursday) Food-
Coffee: 55
with 1 1/2 tbs DMC
Breakfast: 245
all natural peanut butter on whole wheat, 1 cup ff skim milk
Lunch: 402
2/3 can of tuna on whole wheat with 1/2 tbs miracle whip, pepper jack cheese, pickles. 8 baby carrots and 1 tbs light ranch, water
Snack: 125
4 1/2 slices ham, 1 oz colby jack cheese, water
Dinner: 370
1 cup leftover chicken taco soup, 1 slice of whole wheat, 1 cup milk
Snack: 250
1 cup Berry Colossal Crunch cereal with 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 140
1 cup Rice chex cereal 1/2 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 60
2 pieces of cheese ( 1 pepper jack, 1 colby jack) 21 grams
Total Water: 36 oz
Total Calories: 1647
Well, I kept my calories down! :) I know I snacked a lot... don't know why I can't get enough cereal... or cheese! But I really paid attention to my portions. The 2/3 can of tuna is because I forgot to give my cats the water this time, so I had to give them some of the tuna lol.
I know if I wasn't up so late, that last cereal and cheese wouldn't have even been on there. But I got hungry...

I NEED to go to bed earlier! I was in bed at 9:30 last night. Tonight I fell asleep for about an hour at 8:30! That's not good... cause when I got up I still had to get on the treadmill. I wanted to go to bed, but I knew I had to get on it... I'm glad I did. But now I'm up way to late :( I also need to get on the treadmill earlier, then I wouldn't have this problem!

Get grocery money tomorrow and will have some fruits and healthier snacks in the house... unless the weather is too bad...

Treadmill: 13 minutes/ .50 mile, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Even though my eating hasn't been great, I have been keeping very busy since the new year. Trying to be a better house keeper and just all around moving more! So I do feel like I will have a loss, even with the slow start on the food.

Oh, and it's definitely back to our normal winter here now! I shoveled today, so that's exercise :) We are supposed to be getting 6 to 12 inches by Saturday night... we have a lake effect snow warning now. Yep, back to normal Michigan weather all right... yuck.
I have to be up in about 3 hours to drive Ray, and a co worker to work. In this crap...
But that's ok. Just glad he has a job! And the car is running and can get us there...
Have a good night! :)

1st day of the New Year...

Remember last night when I said it was 55? And NO snow on the ground here in Michigan? Well I wasn't complaining, I was loving it... but I should have kept my mouth shut.

Now it's 19 degrees. From 55 to 19 in one day.
Freeeaking Ridiculous!!!

My first day of the new year was a busy one. LOTS of laundry done and taken to the laundromat. A crappy laundromat, even more crappy than my usual one since that was closed! That and housework and... the treadmill!

Yep, I got on the treadmill, after WEEKS of not touching it.

My New Years Resolutions- #1 loose twice what I lost last year, which will be 66 pounds. #2 Get on the treadmill EVERY day.

Yes, I said EVERY day. No matter what (unless there is something very wrong with me!) I know now that I did best when I did it everyday, if I gave myself a day off it would turn into 2 and then 10... every time! Even if it's a short walk, I must get on it EVERY DAY!

Of course get my eating back on track! But even if I have a bad day with eating (like today) getting on the treadmill is mandatory! No "Oh, I messed up. I'll do good tomorrow and then get on the treadmill..." TREADMILL NO MATTER WHAT!

I want to do my blog everyday, even if it's just to record my calories... or just to say hi :) I don't know why it's so hard lately... my horrible addiction to facebook (mainly Frontierville!) has a lot to do with it...

As I mentioned, my food wasn't great today. It started off SO good, but later I snacked a little to much. And am up way to late and hungry... bleh.

But lets concentrate on the good hmm? Even though it was late, I got on the treadmill :) I was NOT going to start the year off missing a day! So here's today's:

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .33 mile

Not long, but a great start imo :)

Last night I didn't drink anymore than my one glass... and just got tired. My brother left early, to go to his... girl friends... house. (maybe we'll talk more about that another time lol) The other brothers didn't come. So it was just me Ray and the kid. It was nice :) But I was SO tired and we ended up in bed soon after the ball dropped. Tonight is a different story. It's 2:15, and my brother JUST got here, and Ray and I are drinking what we didn't last night lol. And we're wide awake. SOO it's more like New Year's Eve tonight lol.

I'm ok with today. I know this year will be great :)

I hope every one's year is off to a great start!

Have a Good Night, and a great tomorrow!





But I'm not Ready!

This is what I woke up to today:

I know... this being Michigan,

I should just be glad it waited SO long!!!

But... I'm just not ready for snow...

I actually love snow,

just not on the roads or sidewalks!

Miya looking at the white stuff

As I took this picture

2 Canadian Geese flew by, honking like crazy...

They're not ready either!

Are you ready?

(Some of already have had it for sometime!)

I do really like having a camera

that works!!!

:)

Out with The Old...

Well, now that a couple days have passed... I am a little disappointed in my new camera :(

But it's better than the one I was using! You had to have it pitch black to take a 'good' picture, why? I have no idea. It's hard to get it pitch black, but all of these pictures where taken after I made it as dark as possible in the room. The darker the better they came out, less yellow/lines.

So here's a few I emptied off the old one, the ones that you can actually make out anyway! 

Enjoy :)

See, they love each other! (sometimes...)

And they love me, all the time...

Except on flea medicine day!

This is AFTER I cleaned it up

Don't let her fool you... she is the one who mauled me ;)

This years jack-o-lantern... Or Cat-o-lantern?

I tried to copy one I saw on Anne H's blog :)

That one was much better though!

And I worked so hard

on the little hairs on it's back! lol :)

My Birthday present :)

Lucky Bamboo from Ray and the boy :)

(who is holding it, but I'm not allowed to show- he said so! lol)

Have a great day!

R U Going to Party This Halloween???

Well if you are, BE CAREFUL!

You don't want to end up like this:

HaHa!

Have a Safe and Happy Weekend Everybody!!!!

I did NOT take this picture, got in in an email a couple years ago and saved it :)

I Weigh More Than...

As I mentioned in the last post, we had an unexpected fight night over at Ray's Mom's. If you haven't seen the fight, turn back now! You've officially had your Spoil Alert! :)

So as you know, my family love us some UFC. We have even got Ray's family into it. So anyway, we went over there and watched UFC 121 Saturday night. There was something I realized when I got there, that made it a little hard to enjoy them, but I won't go into that now.
But I DID enjoy them. They were great. What made it fun also, is that it was SOO hyped up that if Cain Velasquez won, he would be the first Mexican Heavy Weight Champion. Now, for me I don't care what race the fighters are. I pick my fighters based on ability, work ethic and attitude. Ray is usually like that too. BUT not this time lol. Oh no, it's all about brown pride on this night! LOL, they all really wanted Cain to win, and make Mexico proud :) So naturally I picked Brock, because he's a BEAST and it's also fun to be routing for the other guy sometimes lol. I like both fighters, but thought Brock would win for sure.
Anyway, it was a GREAT card, with lots of good fights. The main event came, and Cain ended up winning. OMG you should have seen them on there feet and cheering, even Ray's mom. It was pretty funny. So Cain won. He's a big guy, weighing in at 244...
BUT if you are an MMA fan, you probably know who Brock Lesnar is. If not, here:

Do you see him? He is HUGE. He is a fricken TANK. Which brings me to my title... Brock Lesnar weighed in at 264 pounds. Now he doesn't weigh that at the fight, or walk around at that weight, probably more like 285. BUT, the point is... I weighed over 279 pounds on Friday. He weighed in at 264... That is fricken crazy. I weigh MORE than a UFC heavy weight champion. The biggest fighter they have seen in a long time...
Do you understand the gravity of the situation?

I WEIGH MORE THAN THIS GUY!

In fact, I weigh more than ANY heavy weight in the UFC. The weight class is 206-265... I don't even qualify!!! I AM TO HEAVY TO BE A HEAVY WEIGHT... AND I've lost 40 pounds! That is fucking nuts!!! How did I let it get this bad??? (I don't look back and think about that often, but man- stuff like this really puts it into perspective...)

Of course I don't let this ruin fights for me, but when the weights comes up, it's something I ALWAYS notice. Next time he fights I want to weigh LESS than him. I do not want to weigh more than Brock Lesnar ANYMORE! I want to be in the Heavy Weight Division... as CRAZY as that sounds!!!

*I did not take these pics, totally stole them off the internet ;)

Birthday

My baby boy turned 12 yesterday.... how did this happen? Where did the time go?

This is the lovely cake he picked out :) It is DELICIOUS, but we'll get back to that...

We had a get together Sunday for him. Ray's Mom, brother, niece. My Mom, step dad, 2 of my brothers. We had a good time. He picked out Ray's chicken wraps for his Bday dinner and Ray made them for everyone.
Food still plays a big part in our celebrations as you can see. I don't really think there's so much wrong with that, if it is only for that day, if I controlled my portions, and moved on... and that's a big IF.

Well, now I officially feel old lol. 12, in middle school, he's growing up on me!!! Isn't there some kind of potion to stop that????

Happy Birthday, to the best son a mother could hope for.

The Serenity Prayer

Spilled Cows

It wasn't even pouring that hard... That's how I feel when I look back at yesterday. I felt so depressed and knew it would take at least a few days to ge out of it, but now I'm fine. Thank you for supporting me... I never really had that before. It's weird! haha :) You all are great.

This morning at about 5:45 breaking news came on the tv, it was scrolling across the bottom of the screen in a red bar. It said a semi had rolled over and it was carrying cattle, and had "spilled the animals all over the highway." yeah, it spilled COWS all over the place. Crazy right? At first I was thinking about the cows and hoping everyone was ok. Then I just wanted to laugh. I know it sounds disturbing lol. But that's when I started pulling out of my depression. There was a video of a female officer trying to corral this cow... lol. I know that the cows must have been scared, especially since it was 3 hours later! But it just looked so funny.

ANYWAY, enough of my craziness.
Yesterday everything that could go wrong, DID. But it still isn't that bad. I'm no worse off today than the day before.
One thing was my step dad (mom's boyfriend) and Mom where supposed to come over and he was to fix the dryer Monday morning. So we didn't go to the lake. They never came never called, then at 5 he showed up. Without her of course. He was complaining about the type of pipe it was and how it was cheap, and how they should ahve used such and such pipe... but wait a minute. HE IS THE ONE THAT DID ALL THAT! Anyway... Once I saw him pulling lint out of the pipe I KNEW that wasn't it. There was hardly anything there! So then we go outside cause it must be the vent thing. Well that is secured to the building and no way to get the screen out... so he cuts around the seal and pulls it off of the building! I will have to call and have maintenece come seal it back up and explain how it got that way... OK fine, whatever it takes. He pulls a little fluff out and again, NOT enough to make my dryer not work, but he said it was, even though I knew it wasn't. But I hoped anyway. He left knowing it would work and- it didn't. So my Mom tells me they will be here the next day (yesterday) and he will look in the back more (why didn't he do that the first time? He is notorious for taking the easiest way out of anything and making it 10 times harder in the end). SOOOO, yesterday she calls me at about 2 saying they would be there after his nap. And she will come because she hasn't seen my son in a while. They never came, and never even called. Today either. I can understand not being able to make it (because of being to busy doing nothing) but they can't even call me? Whatever. So I am just sick of my mom at the moment, both of them...
This is on top of starting the day with no toilet paper, having to run to the store first thing in the morning. Coming home to find out Ray's bank account is over drawn. Directly after Ray tells me this he leaves to go disc golfing. He is gone until 5pm, and does not answer my calls or texts. He finally gets home and I have to hurry and run him to the bank before they close. There is a dent in my hood (probably from piece of shit people here sitting on it). We don't make it to the bank on time. Oh, and after discing Ray had spent 2 hours at my brothers/mom's. Which just pisses me off even more. While he's there my mom never even mentions coming over! Ugh.

But that's not THAT bad, honestly anything that has to do with my mom just pisses me off. I'm so sick of all of it. Her and her boyfriend are just on my last nerve. So anyway, I'm not going to keep begging them to come over, obviously he doesn't want to look at the dryer anymore. And they don't want to see their grandson. So whatever. You would think Ray belonged in the family, and I was the daughter in law. The daughter in law with someone elses kid! Ha! (seriously) I just get tired of being an after thought. No one in my family really cares about me, not really. I'm not just saying that... it's true. And that's on top of me being the black sheep because I don't smoke weed. ugh...I just have to get used to it.

I will have to see if anyone else knows anything about dryers, maybe call a repair man... If it is to expensive maybe check out Craigslist like SkippyMom said :) I just hate to get a dryer when I bought this one BRAND NEW in 2003.

Ignore all this griping, I really am a lot better today. I have to stop concentrating so much on my messed up life and concentrating on the good. AND on loosing weight. The first 4 months I was doing so well! I was loosing steadily and that had me so happy, that I guess I forgot how screwed up my life is lol :) I really do think getting on the treadmill everyday made me feel better too. Gotta get back at it. So I'm going to try to write more about the positive, less about the negative and concentrate on loosing weight! Also to shorten the post up a little lol. (Of course, when I get depressed again, all that will probably be forgotten lol. But hopefully it won't be soon :) Like Tessa said, this is great therapy.)

I got out of the house today (I haven't except to bring ray to and from work) so that helped too. My son and I went to return those library books. The PLAN was to walk them back haha, but it was about 88 degrees and that's to hot to walk that far. Maybe next time :) Bad news is that the library is moving in august, not sure where... but that sucks.
I made my 3 cheese tomato lasagna type stuff lol. And I only had ONE piece :) The first time EVER I only had one. Oh it was a big piece, but it's usually a 2 piece minimum. My eating has been bad otherwise, but tomorrow will be better. (I know, I keep saying that...) I wrote it all down and will type it out for you tomorrow.

I never did go to bed last night. I had a 4 hour nap today, and am getting tired. Ray has tonight off so I'm not sure when I'll get to bed.
Have a good night!

Despicable Me

Yes, my relationship with food has been rather despicable lately...

but that is not what I'm talking about! :)

We went and saw Despicable Me, the movie.

The review? Ok, you asked for it: It was cute, but a bit slow. Without giving away anything, it just seemed to take a long time for the cute and funny parts, and they were a few and far between. MAYBE it's because I was really tired, but it was just kind of boring for me. Don't get me wrong, the cure parts WERE cute. The 3D wasn't that great, there was one part I was impressed with. But if you stay at the end when the credits start, there is an extra little bit that looked kind of cool. I would say 3 out 5.  I could tell my son was kind of bored too for at least the first 30 minutes. After it was done though, he said he liked it a lot :) That's what matters.

Even though I was pretty tired, we had a great time. (and besides the fact that it cost $31 for just the 3 of us!!! No food, JUST TO WATCH IT!!! For the first show of the day too!!! Holy CRAP!)

Afterwards we went to my sons favorite place, East Garden Buffet. It was pretty good. I know he loved it.

I ate about the same as I have been when I go to a buffet (this year), but I was SOOO full when we left. I didn't feel good. So for the rest of the day I didn't eat much.

Here's the Damage for Today:

Breakfast: Nothing

Lunch @about 1pm: PLATE ONE- 3 crab rangoon w/ sweet n sour, 1 egg role, baked chicken 3 oz?, 1/4 cup jalapeno chicken, 1/3 cup broccoli beef, 1 cup hawaiian chicken, 1 cup rice. PLATE TWO- 1 piece of garlic bread, 1 cup parmesan chicken, 1/2 cup crab stuff, baked chicken 2 oz?, DESSERT: 1 tiny bite size choco/coffee/? cake, 1/2 cup pudding, 1 cup ice cream. About 15 oz water.

Drink @about 3pm: 9.5 oz iced coffee (took about an hour to drink)

Dinner @ about 9pm: Romain salad with mozz cheese, 2 tbs light ranch and croutons. Water

Total Water: 35 oz

Maybe I didn't feel good because I drank more water then usual. Maybe I ate more too... I didn't think so, but it looks like it now that I wrote it down lol.

Used Mozzarella cheese again where I would usually use cheddar for my salad. Less calories. It was good :)

I think I'll try and write what time I'm eating. Maybe that will help me say to myself: "Self- you just ate an hour ago, do you really need that?" :)

Over all a great day. My son is ungrounded, so he is pretty happy about that. If I could get him to play outside that would be good (he actually is allowed outside even when grounded, but didn't go at all). We'll have to go to the lake again soon. 

Ray has tonight (tomorrow morning) off. He has been getting a lot more hours lately. Good money wise! He has been looking forward to a night off. Me too :) I will NOT be up at 3:45am. At least I hope not lol. Sometimes I get up at that time anyway and can't fall asleep. I am having a couple drinks (left over from fight night) and that might help me sleep better ;)

Good Night Everybody! :)

Picture Time!

Well, I got about an hour of sleep, took Ray to work in the pouring rain, couldn't sleep and here I am. I was on facebook, uploading some pictures because my friend Sarah wanted me to put the ones I took up (from back in June when she visited). Well, I got side tracked and put up a little more that that lol. You know I hadn't put ANY of my pics on my facebook, well I have now! Here's what I put up:

Now I HAVE to get back on track and loose weight! Now people that I haven't seen in 10 years will see how much I've gained... but that's ok. Because then they can appreciate when I post more later after I have lost!!!! :)

I even posted some from back when my son was a baby. There's a friend that I haven't seen since before I got pregnant, and she mentioned that she never even got to see him, so I was thinking of her.... I posted about 15 pics in that album, here a few:

1998

Ah, those were the days :) He is growing up so fast, it really does seem like only yesterday... it is just so crazy to me that my baby is going to be 12 this year!!! I can hardly believe it! He graduated 5th grade, next thing you know he'll be graduating high school!!!!! I hope I can handle it! lol :)

Those right after I had him, must be the palest I had ever been in my life! haha :)

So as you can see, I was NEVER skinny. But what I wouldn't give to be whatever I was back then!!! I know I still had about 20 pounds to go before I lost all my pregnancy pounds in that first picture, so yeah. 20 pounds lighter than that would be so awesome!!! You ever hear that saying "I wish I weighed what I did when I thought I was fat!" LOL, that's me. I NEVER thought myself pretty and always knew I was over weight, but I was ok with that. But now Looking back, I would be THRILLED with that haha... some day :) Sooner than later!!!

I hope you enjoyed the pictures :) It's 6:38am. I'm going to try and go to bed now. I'm dry, and I'm tired. The sun is coming out, the birds are chirping like crazy... so wish me luck!!!

A GREAT Day, if you don't count the eating...

Let's get the bad stuff out of the way. We were out and about for a good 5 hours, and I stopped at Burger King. I only got a whopper though. BUT at the next stop I did grab some funyuns... so lunch was pretty unhealthy. For dinner was leftovers from Hungry Howie's, but less then half of what I ate last night... I'm trying to see the positive side, but honestly- I did pretty bad eating again, no doubt about it.

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (140) Fiber One Bar- chocolate Mocha and water
Lunch: (810) Whopper -onion(still have no tomatoes, is this shortage everywhere?), about 1/2 bag of Funyuns, 2 fries, water
Snack: (140) about 1/2 bag of Funyuns
Snack: (42) 1 snickers mini
Dinner: (542) Leftover Hungry Howie's- 1/4 turkey club sub(no mayo), 2 small cheese sticks, iceberg mix salad with 1 tbs light ranch and 1/8 cup mozzarella cheese. Water
Snack: (75) 1/8 cup of starburst jelly beans
Snack: (420) 36 biscuits (1 1/2 servings) of frosted mini wheats with about 1 1/2 cups of FF skim milk
Total Water: 60 oz
Total Calories: 2169
Now to the good parts of the day :)
I got my new camera, and so far I like it! I'm so happy! I LOVE to take pictures, and I had this nice Kodak camera for about 2 years an I just loved it, until it started acting funny about a year ago. Now it just works when it wants to. It is SO stressful to me. I ordered another Kodak, when it came I was so mad. It was a cheap piece of plastic that didn't have near the features it should have for the price, I sent it back- disgusted. (I really don't see why everything cost more and more, and is made cheaper and cheaper... doesn't make sense to me!)
The one I got today is actually a GE, and I don't know anything about their cameras... but so far I really like it :) Now I have a camera that I know will stay on and work when I need it! The old Kodak was twice what I payed for this one, I hope this one last longer though!!!! (I bought a 2 year warranty lol) Wish me luck!

We had to go to JC Penny today, got my sons pictures taken. We are a little late on that, but better late then never! It's his 11 year old pics, he is getting so old...Even though he wanted to dress casual, and NOT get a hair cut, they came out real nice :) So then I had to go pick up the camera from Sears. It is on THE OTHER SIDE of the mall. I mean direct opposites lol. Since I parked right at the JC Penny portrait part, and the pick up was in the back of sears with convenient parking... it would make sense to drive around. BUT, I figured me and my son could use the exercise and we walked it :) It was a LOT of walking, at a good pace too since I didn't stop at any stores, but we did it! I'm proud of myself for that. Just so you know, I NEVER go to the mall. I haven't went and walked around the mall in a few years, because I couldn't walk that much anymore! But now I know I can :) and that feels great.

This is My son, my World  :)

My son didn't put up a fight about walking either, wanna know why? For Easter we got him this new Pokemon game for his Nintendo DS. It comes with a "pokewalker." It's pretty much a pedometer, and it allows him to put a Pokemon from the game in and walk with it. The more time he spends walking with it, the more experience points it earns because of the time he spent with it! When he gets home he transfers the data to his game, so it's like he accomplished something!!! Haha, those of you without children into Pokemon, might not think this is as awesome as I do LOL. But I really think it is SUCH a great idea, especially if you want your child to get some more exercise. I told him he can't bring it to school, so he'll have to walk around outside after he's home or go on the treadmill :) I just love it, if you can't tell LOL. haha, WOW, I should get payed for promoting Nintendo LOL...

All the walking I did today, made me tired. I was a little worried about my biggest looser walk. Usually on Tuesdays I make sure I don't over do it during the day so I can walk a long time at night, NOT today! But I got on the treadmill anyway and hoped for the best! As I was walking, I realized that I would come close to 3 miles if I just did a little more then last week. So that was my goal- 3 miles! During 3 commercial breaks I sped it up and really pushed my self and then walked faster then usual the rest of the time. And I did it!!! 3 miles!!! AND another longest walk record for my biggest looser walks, well ANY walks on the treadmill lol.
Treadmill: 87 minutes/3MILES!
(If may seem to take me a long time, but I am very short- and 291 pounds so cut me some slack LOL)

Ok, now for MORE good news... NOT that anyone cares, but today my period was GONE... I had a 4 day period!!! Maybe that's not a big deal to you, but it is to me! I have NEVER IN MY LIFE had a 4 day period. They are always LONG and HORRIBLE and PAINFULL... with out to much detail- just know that I had a 48 day period in January, and then a 9 day one in February, nothing in March, now this 4 day one... if they actually become normal and 4 days becomes the norm- I will be the happiest person on earth!!!!!!!!!

Ok, that's enough for now. I am exhausted, a good exhausted :)
Being so happy makes me think something bad is about to happen... cause that's how it usually goes for me... but I am going to stay positive and hope that's not the case :)
See you tomorrow!