I have lost 40 pounds!!! 40!!! Yeah, like 4-0, FORTY!!!!!!

Can you believe it?!?!?!? I can't!!!! 40 seems like such huge number, and it was starting to feel like I would bounce around and never hit it!!! BUT I DID!!!!! Woooo Hooooo!!!!!!! I wasn't going to mess with the stupid camera, but this is the first time in... I don't know how long, that the scale has been in the 270s! So I had to take one! Here you go:

Ha! Look at THAT!!!! I still can't believe it!

So that's a 2.2 pound loss this week,

for a total of 40.6 pounds, GONE.

This week I did 200 Crunches

I have been on top of the world since I saw that this morning. Ray came down and saw me smiling, and asked "what?" When I told him I have lost 40 pounds, he was really happy for me. He told me he is proud of me :) 

Later I showed him my ring and asked him if he knew why it was turned like that, he said "because your hands are wet?" (Which they were lol) I said "NO, it's because... I LOST 40 POUNDS!"

I just want to announce it to the world... but I can't, I don't really want my family to know about it... still fear that I won't really do it? Or that I won't keep it off? I don't know... But I WILL keep it off :)
When it's more noticeable, I'm sure they'll say something, and I won't have a problem telling them how much I've lost then :)
I'm so glad I have you all to share it with!!!! You and Ray know my great joy today :) And of course my son is here to hear me gushing LOL.

I made it to the store finally! Got some good stuff, mostly good stuff :) I also went over my budget, which I never do... but we won't talk about that! Let's pretend money doesn't even exist for a while so I can stay happy lol.

What I ate today:
Breakfast: Nothing (picking Ray up then shopping- I did well even with the empty stomach!)
Lunch: (392) Tuna sandwich (1can tuna, 1 tbs mw, 1/8 cup cheddar, Romain lettuce) on whole wheat, 8 baby carrots, 1 1/2 tbs light ranch, 8 sun chips, water
Snack: (130) 1/2 cup ice cream (Edy's light French Silk)
Drink: (100) 1/2 bottle iced coffee
Dinner: (538) 1 cup hamburger helper (made with ground sirloin 90/10), 1 slice buttered whole wheat toast, 1/3 cup peas, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: (23) Werther's
Snack: (150) 1/2 cup low fat cottage cheese, 1/2 cup pineapple
Snack: (300) bowl of cereal- corn chex and honey bunches of oats
Total Water: 60 oz
Total Calories: 1633
I am pretty happy with today. I really tried to think about what I was eating.
I LOVE that french silk ice cream, even before I started trying to loose weight. It's one of my favorites. I got a half cup, and sat down and ate it OUT OF the measuring cup lol. I enjoyed every second, and I was satisfied :)
They didn't have my Arnold's bread, but I got another new kind, and I like it just fine.
I also got cottage cheese... I actually love it but hardly ever eat it because it gives me head aches, but I feel fine right now, so we'll see! :)
I'm really hungry right now, about to eat that cereal I included up there. I am up to late again! I only got about 3 1/2 hours last night... so I don't know why I'm not tired. Just wired??? Because... I LOST 40 POUNDS! Haha, maybe...

I hope I'm not sounding obnoxious, I am just happy and want to share it lol :) I know it looked REAL bad for a while there... but thanks for sticking with me, and being so supportive. I feel rededicated :) I can only hope and pray that this feeling lasts.

I have to do well this week, because I am out of the 280s, and I never want to see them again!!!!!!! On to the next 40!!!!!!

WEIGH-IN TIME!

Well, I was kind of scared that this would be the first week I would have to write "I gained"... but I stepped on that scale, and it said 297! So I am down another pound! Woo Hoo!!!! In fact, I am down 20 LBS total... Even though I have a lot farther to go, that IS a lot of weight! How much does a gallon of milk weigh? 5 pounds? So that means I would have to carry 4 gallons of milk around all day, to be back to where I was!!! That is crazy! I think 20 pounds is a milestone, and every 20 after this will be too :) I should think of some kind of reward for my 20 pound milestones...something that isn't food and doesn't cost anything LOL, any suggestions?

Today I am feeling so exited. Maybe it's because 20 pounds looks like a big number lol. Or maybe it's because I feel like it has been such a short 9 weeks... and it really gives me hope- no- CERTANTY that I am really doing it this time!!!!!!! I have tried SO many times, and I lost 16 pounds once, but that's the best I have ever done in my life!
If I could continue, and loose about 10 pounds per month... I would be down 120 pounds by New Years!!!!!! WOW!!!! This is the first time I have let myself think like that... Being down any where near 100 pounds in one year... I would be soooo happy... Wow, I really do believe I can do it!!!!
I want to thank anyone who has ever read this or left any comment, I really do appreciate it very much! I especially want to thank Jenny and Tessa for following me and being so supportive... It really does keep me going and help me get back up when I fall. Maybe it's a little early in the game to be making Thank You speeches LOL... But I have so much hope today, and I guess it's making me all emotional and... girly LOL. I just feel so.... I don't know... different!
Anyway, before I start crying or writing some crazy deep stuff.... I better just give you my day and say: Life is Wonderful!!!
Here's My Day:
Snack @4am: 1 bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats Strawberries with 2% milk
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: Romaine Salad with about 1/8 cup of cheddar, 10 croutons, 4 grape tomatoes, 1 tbs light ranch. Leftover broccoli cheese rice- about 1 1/2 cups, with about 1/4 cup mozzarella and 2 taco bell sauce packets. 1 grape. Water.
Snack: Bowl of MultiGrain Cheerios with FF Skim milk
Dinner: 1 cup of Tuna Helper, one slice of whole wheat toast with a tiny bit of fat free butter(icbinb) and Parmesan, about 8 cooked baby carrots, 1 cup of FF Skim milk.
Snack: 1/2 cup of ice cream (that's a serving! 1/2 cup of ice cream isn't very much LOL!!!!)
Snack: took about 3 bites of the tuna helper as I was putting it away...
Total Water for Today: 40 oz

Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile)

Oh, and to clarify, I did gain... It was in my 4th week, I had gained a pound back- but that was before I started this blog, so I didn't have to write it! lol.

The Weigh In...

Today is Friday, Weigh Day!
The other day I was so exited to be right at 300, that I completely forgot I was in winter clothes and NOT my weigh-in shorts and a t-shirt!!!! So that must have helped, because today when I stepped on the scale, I was down 4 pounds for the week!!! It said... 298...298!!!!! I AM UNDER 300 POUNDS!!!! Woooooo Hoooooo!!!!!
Do you know what that means? That means, that no longer will I be looking past the 300 (which is the limit) on my scale!!! That also means I am now within the weight limit of my treadmill!!!! I am so exited!!!! I don't want to ever weigh 300 pounds again. I hope that I never see a 3 in front of my weight ever ever EVER again!
Soooo.... what is my fiance doing right now??? Ordering Hungry Howie's.... ugh, I LOVE Hungry Howie's. What I usually have is a whole calzone sub, 2 pieces of pizza, about 5 cheese sticks, almost the whole sauce, and a glass or 2 of pop. That was before, but now I will do much better... It's not what I SHOULD be eating, but I'm going to eat SLOW, enjoy my meal, eat LESS, and I'm ok with that today.

A little note: We got his income tax 2 days ago, and this is why we have been eating so much junk :( It is So hard not to order food when we have extra money... but the extra money COULD be going to much more important things. This is something I really have stop doing!!!! But like I said, for tonight I'm not going to worry about that, but from now on I really have to make sure we don't keep ordering out like this. It would be SO easy for me to blame my fiance, but I won't be doing that- because as soon as he said it, i didn't say "No we shouldn't" I said "Ok, get me a Turkey Club Sub!!!" 

Well, anyway- today is a GREAT day for me :) So I'm not going to beat myself up over the Hungry Howies's.....
Here's My Day:
Lunch: Tuna Sandwich (1 can of tuna, 1 tbs miracle whip, 1/4 cup cheddar, 4 hot banana pepper rings). 8 carrots with 1 tbs light ranch. Water
Snack: 2 chocolate chip cookies with 1 cup of Fat Free Milk (uhhh...yeah, you read that right. I bought fat free milk... and drank it with cookies LOL)
Dinner Ordered In: 1/2 turkey club calzone sub with one packet of mayo. 2 cheese sticks with about a tbs of sauce. 3 bites of pepperoni pizza. 6 oz Pepsi. Water.
Snack: 2 slices of an orange
Total Water for Today: 50 oz

Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile) 10 minutes of that with 2 LB weights
Crunches: 100 (40, 20, 20, 20)
Exercise: 50 bend/reaches (25 for each side)

This is the first time in my LIFE that I didn't finish a slice of pizza!

300!

SO. I weighed myself today, even though it's not weigh Day, and I'm right at 300!!! You know, being under 300 will be a huge milestone for me, but I have tried not to think about it. When I saw that though... I was so happy!!!! If I can just hold that till I weigh in Friday that would be fine, and then next week I could be in the 200s!!!! I'm excited  :o)

Of course, me and my fiance had ordered some food before I weighed myself- it was actually on the way when I stepped on the scale! And I got my favorite: pizza. I had ordered a 10 inch (a first for me, never before have I ordered anything under a 14) and being so happy about my 300, I kept myself under control. I would consider the pieces to be small, and I only had 2 slices. Only 2 and NO bread sticks. I did have a little pop, but as of now it still goes with pizza, but even that was only 6 oz.

I know some people could read this and think I'm crazy for being so happy about weighing 300 pounds, but that's ok. I completely understand how crazy that sounds. But for me it is HUGE!!! No pun intended LOL!!!
Here's My Day:
4am: 1 cup of 2% milk
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: 2 small slices of ham pizza. 6 oz of Pepsi. 5 french fries
Snack: an apple
Dinner: WW Smart Ones meal- Creamy rigatoni with broccoli and chicken. 1 cup of 2% milk
Snack: 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1/2 cup of 2% milk
Total Water Today: 42 oz
(I'm pretty proud of myself for not eating the leftover pizza for dinner)

Treadmill: 36 minutes (1.20 miles)
Crunches: 100 (5 sets of 20)