Sound of Music?

First let me thank a new 'follower.' Tomas, Thank you so much for joining me in My Day! Like it reads at the top, it's about my life, my weight loss journey, and whatever else I feel like rambling about :) Speaking of rambling...

I have never seen The Sound of Music. I always just thought it was all signing, some happy little movie... I was flipping trough channels and was surprised. There were Nazis marching in the street... Whaaa??? Not at all what I expected! The father got an order, and it looked like they were going to... well, I don't want to ruin if for anyone LOL. I didn't watch long, because I had no idea what was going on (I hate watching a movie from the middle) but now I'm curious what this movie is all about. Have you seen it? Without giving away anything, was it good? Did you like it? Hate it? I'm just curious :) It looks long, and wondering if I should watch lol.

My day was pretty blah. You know from my last post I'm getting a little depressed, but I'm ok. Ray took the boy out to the park this morning, they had fun. He did much better throwing discs I hear. He fed the ducks, they had a good morning. They came home and Ray made breakfast :) He is being so sweet, he knows I'm having a hard time with it being 'Treat Tina Like Shit Week'. In fact, it's a new week, I hope this isn't a month long event!!! haha.
No matter, I love Ray and our son so much. As long as I have them it will all be ok. And of course my lovely blogger friends :)

Here's what I ate today:
Brunch: 1/2 a ham and cheese omelet, 1 sausage patty, 6 oz orange juice
Dinner: 1 piece left over lasagna, 1 garlic bread, 2 bites of peas, 10 oz ff skim milk
Snack: 10 chips with 3 tbs salsa con queso
Snack: 1 1/2 cracker with crab salad
Snack: bowl of Homey Nut Cheerios w ff skim milk
Total Water: 30 oz
Not enough water in the last few days... I didn't get a second helping, I waited 10 minutes. It worked again :) I don't know what happened with all that snacking though! At least one of those should have been a fruit :(

Treadmill today: 17 minutes/ .65 mile
Total Days in a row: 27

The Golden Rule... ever heard of it???

I try and live my life, treating others as I would want to be treated. It seems NO ONE around me has ever heard of this!
My family aren't the only ones, just the most frequent offenders. I swear i must be adopted.... uh. I won't go into details, just that no one ever sticks to what they say, or finds it important to put others feelings into consideration. And I'm tired of it. They are having a cookout today over at my brother's, he really wants me to go but I can't. I can't stand to me around my Mom and Step Dad right now... Sitting there yesterday for 7 hours didn't help... at all. Step Dad did end up replacing the brake pads. I do appreciate that, but that is the LEAST of my worries with the car. So I'm still waiting...
I feel so bad I can't go to the cookout, but I don't want my son there anyway. I am in a depressed mood, and I can't fake it today. I never do... but if I tried today I know it wouldn't work. So I would be no fun.

So I'm spending the day doing laundry. I just got used to the idea of going to the laundromat to dry my clothes, and I actually like it! It takes 40 minutes to dry 5 loads of laundry, instead of all day. It's pretty great...
But now? I don't have a dryer and am not supposed to be driving my car! So I will be hanging clothes all over the house I guess! Ugh.

YESTERDAY
My day yesterday was just... stupid. That's the only way to describe it. On top of everything else, it was about 60 degrees!!!! I was freezing my ass off all day!!! It was just in the 80s, I was in shorts and a shirt 2 days ago sweating, now I'm in pants FREEZING!!!

My step dad had said he would call me early in the morning so I could bring the car over and he would drive me home. That's fine... I guessed he wanted to look at it and make sure of everything that was wrong with it. I was going school shopping with mother in law later in the day. WELL, he didn't call me until 12:30, and it was time to go shopping. So I bring the car, and he doesn't want to keep it and look it over. He wants to go get parts now. So I tell MIL to just go with Ray and our son, I'll be home later. So they all went shopping, which is fine. She was getting his school clothes, shoes and back pack. I was SOOO relieved when she told us this. WELL, she got his shoes and 2 T Shirts... Don't get me wrong. I SO appreciate this. She didn't have to buy ANYTHING, and I know that. BUT I didn't take him school shopping because she was doing it all! Now he starts Tuesday, I don't have a car, and he still needs everything else! ugh...

THE CAR- feel free to skip this if you don't care about the Car Adventure lol
We needed to go get 2 parts, sway bar links I think. I say "You don't want to look at it and make sure I need them first?" He says No, because I do need them. So we go. Advanced Auto Parts #1 don't have them, but 2 other Advanced Auto parts do. One at each store. So the guy calls each store has them hold them for me. We go to store #2, and get it. We go to store # 3 and the guy doesn't have one on hold. He has the part, but it's $16 more than we just paid for it! I'm pissed and let the guy know it (because he had a horrible attitude), they should have had the part on hold for me!!! AND it should be $16 cheaper! So we leave, deciding Step Dad would look and make sure we need BOTH and not just one anyway. As we are leaving I realize we are leaving an Autozone... NOT the store we had been dealing with, Advanced Auto. I tell step dad, and instead of going down the road where the WOULD have my part, we go home to check it out. So store #3 has this part on hold for me, but we don't go get it... So he checks out the car, and says I need brake pads... but bad news. You know the part we went all over for? The sway bar links? Those are fine and we DON'T need them. So, we go back to Store number 2 and return the part, and get brake pads instead. We go home. He installs the brake pads, when he's done, tells me we DO need the sway bar links.....the one we just returned, and that is on hold for me because 2 stores only have 1 each... instead of going to get them, he wants to do it tomorrow (today). Uh... Ok. Fine...
This all took 7 hours. I didn't eat or drink anything this whole time... I am so stressed out it ain't even funny. SO I drive the car back home. Even though it's grinding and really loud, that's not the main problem. Through all of this, the main problem is the alternator. It is going to go out anytime. The noise it's making gets worse every time I get in it... I am not supposed to be driving it. I don't want it to brake down. But he wants to get a used one on Tuesday, instead of me paying $180 for a new one... I'm all for saving money if it won't die on me... so whatever...

So by last night, I was pretty tired. I read about half my blog roll and had to go to bed...

Today, they are having a cookout and Step Dad isn't even THINKING of going to get these parts... which is ok. I understand he's busy... but when I left last night, we were getting them today. that was the plan....
So now I don't really know what's going to happen. I just know I couldn't sit over there again today and be happy when I'm so stressed out... not to mention.... I am not supposed to be driving the car! ugh...

What I ate yesterday:
Breakfast@ 10:30am: (144?) iced coffee and 1 chocolate chip cookie
Snack @ 7:15pm: (152) 10 tortilla chips, 2 tbs salsa con queso, water
Bites while making dinner: (150?)
Dinner @ 8:30pm: (about 750) 1 piece of 3 cheese tomato lasagna, 1 piece of garlic toast, milk
Total Water: 25 oz
Total Calories: about 1196
I didn't plan on going all day without eating like that. I was starving, but I took my time eating dinner. I was going to get a second plate but thought- I do NOT need another plate. Especially with the chips and bites while cooking, even though I think I am hungry I am not. So I told myself I would wait 10 minutes and if I still wanted it I would have it. AND I didn't :) I think I will do that from now on. Before getting a second helping, wait 10 minutes. I think this is the first time I have ever only had ONE piece of lasagna lol.

Everything was better once I got home. I got on the treadmill too
15 minutes/ .58 mile
Total Days in a row: 26 :)

Be back later with a post for today. I'll keep it short though lol. Just my eating and treadmill, since you already know the rest of my F'd up day! LOL :) Hope you all have a good one!

Weigh Day

And the scale says...

279

Exactly the same.

I can't be mad about that, I'm glad I didn't gain.

This keeps me at 41 pounds lost.

I got on the treadmill everyday,

making my Totals:

1 hour 40 minutes/ 3.65 miles

I didn't go farther than last weeks on the treadmill, actually did less. But from now on, I want to increase each week, even if only a little bit. I've figured that to tie 3.65 miles I will have to do .52 miles everyday. So to pass it, I will make sure I do a little more than that. Easy Peasy :) Well, doable anyway! haha :)

I have been an emotional wreck today. I think it's Treat Tina Like Shit Week. And Everyone is celebrating it!!! Why didn't anyone tell me??? I could have prepared! You know, got a new outfit... SOMETHING! Ah... I kid. I can now because I am here, read comments, and have read other's posts, and feel much better :)

On top of everything else, my Mom called to add her BS and stress me out (what's new right?). One thing I did get out of that though, step dad is finally going to start working on the car tomorrow... I love him, and appreciate anything he can do... but only go to him because I have no choice. He can't admit when he doesn't know something, so I am just hoping he really does this time... and he ALWAYS takes his sweet time. I told him I needed it by the time my son started school Tuesday, and he waited till today to even call me about it! It's been 6 days! So I doubt I'll have it in the next 4 :( He'll be walking to school... I just hope it doesn't take more than a week... Like I said, he takes his sweet time...

In the meantime, I will have no car- Ray needs to get to work at 4am... and it's so hard to ask you know? That's a pretty inconvenient time...

I have had a head ache almost all day. It got really bad earlier, but is better now. I'm not sure if it's stress... you know what I think it really is? I think it's because I didn't have any coffee today! I hope I don't have it still in the morning...

But anyway. No thinking of that, I'm in a good mood now remember??? ;)

Hmmm, that was short lived... lol. Here's what I ate Today:

Lunch: (351) 1/2 cup crab salad, 9 cracker pieces (2 and 1/4 large crackers), 5 baby carrots, water

Snack about 15 minutes before dinner: (180) Romain/grape tomato salad (w 1 1/2 tbs light ranch, 1/4 cup mozz, croutons)

Dinner: (706)  2 pigs in a blanket, 1/2 croissant, 10 tater tots, ketchup, mustard

Snack: (190) 1 cup Special K Vanilla Almond with ff skim milk

Snack: (180?) 3 cookies

Snack: (26) 5 special K crackers

Snack: (52) Nectarine- 118 grams

Total Water: 44 oz

Total Calories: 1685

Aye. defiantly could have been better.

I promised the kid we'd have pigs in a blanket (it's actually Hebrew National Kosher all beef franks, all natural no fillers ect. So not really pigs.... but 'Cows in a Blanket' just doesn't have the same ring lol)sometime this summer, and never did. So tonight was the night. I had that salad as I was waiting for it all to bake, thinking 'I'll just have one this way.' But I ended up having 2... don't know why. I don't even like them very much!

The cookies, I had 3 and not the whole bag, and I'm not craving them right now so that's good lol. (the ? is because they got out into a zip lock and the bag thrown out before I wrote the calories down) Up to late and snacking to much, but the snacks aren't too bad... right?

Today is the first time I had baby carrots without light ranch... yuck hehe :) but I forced them down anyway. I'm going back to ranch, but I'm going to really try to only have a little bit.

I had a nasty fruit! Go me!!! I am hoping the more I eat fruit, the more I will like it. I do like grapes, and pears. Have to get more of those next time.

Today's Treadmill: 15 minutes/ .54 mile

Total Days in a row: 25  :)

Thank you to all who have answered my 8 Questions :)

Have a great night everyone!

8 Questions

Toosexy4thisfat has shared a whole lot of happy with me today! :) She tagged me with 8 questions AND shared a blog award with me! I'll have to do them seperate as I have to go to bed :) First things first:
8 Questions! I've been tagged!
She has asked the following 8 questions, so here they are along with my answers:

1. What's your favorite Dr. Suess book?
Green Eggs and Ham

2. What's the best Halloween costume you've ever worn?
A Witch

3. If you could "live" in any TV town and be friends with all the characters in the cast, which TV show would it be?
The Beverly Hillbillies  :) LOL, they are awesome

4. Do you believe in ghosts/the supernatural?
Yes

5. Which would be easier, to live without music or to live without TV?
That is hard... I guess music (because you can find music on tv?)

6. Yogi Bear or Winnie the Pooh?
Yogi Bear

7. Bigger turn off, bad breath or body odor?
Haha! Oh man.... hmmm..... I'll go with body odor!

8. Would you rather cook for someone or have someone cook for you?
Have them cook for me

Ok, those were good questions!
Now I have to think up 8 of my own for you to answer!

1. What pets do you have?

2. What is your favorite color?

3. What TV show are you addicted too?

4. How tall are you?

5. Have you ever got a speeding ticket? How many!

6. If you could wave a magic wand, what one thing would you change about yourself instantly? (physical or otherwise)

7.What one thing do you love about yourself, and wouldn't change? (physical or otherwise)

8. How long do you think you will keep up your blog? forever?

Hehe, I know, I'm totally random like that... but those are the questions that came to mind that I would love to hear your answers to!!!
I'm tagging:
Tessa
Ann
Colenic
Jo
Shauna
Lala
The Babe
Mark
I can only tag 8 people, but if you have extra time- let me know your answers too!!!! I would LOVE to hear them!!!!
Thanks again toosexy4thisfat!

I want your opinion...

By now you know pretty much how I do things. My blog is about "my weight loss journey, my life, and whatever else I want to ramble about." And boy do I get to rambling! :) I am trying to work on that, and make shorter post ;)
But I do go into my stresses sometimes, and if it's not your cup of tea I totally understand. Thanks for visiting anyway :) I'm sure you will find the type of blog you are looking for, there are many great ones out there in blogger land!!! Bye Bye and take care!

For those of you who have stuck around, I would like your honest opinion on something. For a long time now, I have been recording what I eat everyday. At first when I started, I was doing pretty well and wanted to write down what I eat because I figured I would eat less if I had to tell you all. Now in the last couple months, I have been doing horrible. But decided I had to write it anyway, in hopes it will improve and you can see that I'm not perfect. I do struggle but come out of it ok... the problem is I haven't come back out of it yet... I am having a hard time getting back to the plan.

That's where you come in. Do you care what I eat? When you come to my blog to you want/expect to see what I ate all day? I want your honest opinion. Should I stop doing that, and just write the number of calories I had all day?
I don't mind constructive criticism... Hell, I point out most of the bad stuff myself! That's not why I'm asking. I'm asking because I know a lot of you are also trying to loose weight. I would HATE for you to come here and be discouraged in anyway, because you see me struggling. Worse, I would hate for you to want to eat those foods or somehow come derailed because of me!!! I only want to share my journey and that includes the struggles. At  the same time, I want to be helpful not hurtful.

I am not so self centered to think your whole diet and well being revolves around me LOL :) 
But I just recently got a rude awakening that my honesty might be to much for some people... And I just really want to be sure I am not having a negative effect on other bloggers.... When I first started I would have said "If you don't like it, than F*** OFF"... but it's different than I expected. I love the blogs I follow and really care about you who follow mine.

I hope some of that made ANY sense to you... it does in my mind hahaha :)
So let me know what you think K? If you couldn't care less what I shove in my face, let me know!!! lol. And any other suggestions you might have...

For now, until I see what happens, it's business as usual:
What I ate Today:
Lunch: (464) 1 bowl of taco salad, spanish rice, water
Iced Coffee: (104) 2 tsp coffee mate, 1 1/2 tsp sugar, 1/4 cup milk, ice
Snack: (90) 17 Special K crackers, water
Dinner: (287) Small bowl of what was left of the taco salad and rice
Snack: (190) Special K Vanilla Almond with 1 cup ff skim milk.
Total Water: 52 oz
Total Calories: 1135
Not much variety... I am happy with the portions. I will really try to work in all the fruit in my fridge! Good news? I have had cookies in the house for 2 days now and haven't touched ONE. And if I do? It will be a portion, not 6 of them :)
*note: Whenever I make anything at home that uses ground beef, I always use 97% lean.

I didn't push it on the treadmill, I did go a bit faster than usual and worked up a little sweat. Felt great when I was done. I wanted the total for the week to be more than last weeks, but that's ok. I'm happy with the streak I have going. Next week will be more, I'll add just a little bit every week :) Baby Steps!
Today: 15 minutes/ .61 mile
Total Days in a Row: 24

According to my engagement ring (my new weight loss gauge lol) I have not lost anything. BUT I have had lots of sodium and hope the tiny swelling is from that. Otherwise it may be a little gain... I hope not, I know my food has been bad this week, so it wouldn't be a surprise! I haven't stepped on the scale at all. My guess? Right around the same... maybe a tiny loss, less than a pound. We will see tomorrow!
Have a good night everyone!

Wednesday

I had a really long day yesterday. I didn't go to bed, deciding that if I had to drive Ray to work I might as well do my grocery shopping. Then I wouldn't have to make a separate trip. I'm trying to drive the car only when I absolutely have to. And if it were to break down, at least there is no traffic at 4am. And no one in the store so that's cool too hehe.

So my day went like this: No sleep, bring Ray to work, grocery shopping, get home around 5am, (dark and deserted and some strange guy hurrying up to me while I'm going in the house, I hurry and get in and shut the door and he left without knocking or anything) scan all the groceries (I don't think I've mentioned that before, I am a member of this HomeScan thing, supposedly helps all you consumers when I scan EVERYTHING that is bought from this household lol) Take a 4 hour nap, Get up and clean my house because MIL is coming over, get pissed at Ray, make up with Ray. MIL is a no show, a bunch of unnecessary stress with the car because of Ray's brother and my step dad both just being sooooo unreliable, Mom calls and gives me more stress, realize I truly have no one I can count on (besides Ray), go to my sons school orientation, come home Ray makes dinner and it's delicious, over eat and feel like shit, forget to to the treadmill till about 11:30pm, am so full that I almost don't get on it (but I did it!), Play this stupid game my son has me addicted to now, time to do blog but too tired, go to bed. The End :)

My son is going to be in middle school!!! That is just... crazy!!! 6th graders are on the 3rd floor, yes that means I had to walk all the way up there. It wasn't to bad, I was sweating some after a while but it was just hot I think... Saw a couple teachers that taught when I went there, so crazy. One remembered me, that was nice! She remembered the names of my brothers too. She said "I would always think, Why can't you be more like your sister?!?!?!" haha, that was funny. She said "You were the good one." I said "At least SOMEONE realizes that!" haha, she gave me a hug and everything. It was weird... but also really nice. So surprised she remembered me. She probably felt bad realizing I had to go home and live with these bad ass kids!!! LOL.
My son will be going to 6th grade camp at the end of THIS month. I had forgotten all about it! So he will be starting middle school and leaving me for 3 days all in the same month!!!!! He is getting too old... I just don't know how this happened, really. Where did the time go???

I was so busy and wasn't hungry at all. That has been the pattern lately... I wonder if it's the coffee??? I only recently started drinking it and maybe it helps with the hunger? Always hungry by dinner time though... and last night I did not do well. I'm sure you know by now that pizza and tacos are my downfall....

What I ate yesterday:
Breakfast @3:30am before I left: 'Italian' Sandwich, 5 baby carrots, 3/4 tbs light ranch (That's what I was hungry for lol...) water
Iced Coffee
Lunch: 1 serving of crab salad with Special K Crackers
Dinner: 1 soft taco, 1 hard taco, taco salad, 1 1/2 cup spanish rice, water
Snack: 1 hard taco, 1/2 cup spanish rice, water
Total Water: about 50 oz
First time trying the Special K crackers... I got Savory Herb. I really like them. Not so much with the crab salad because the flavor is pretty strong, but plain. Or if I can remember to buy some laughing cow cheese!! Been going to try it and always forget! There are 90 calories per 17 crackers, it says so on the front of the box LOL. But a serving size is 24 which is 120 cal. I'll go with the 17 crackers, that should be plenty :)
That snack was very shortly after I had eaten dinner. So really I guess it was more like a delayed second helping, and I DID NOT need it. Oh I was sooo stuffed. I haven't felt like that in a long time. I felt sick. You know that time when you drank to much and you said "I'm never drinking again"... well maybe you don't lol. But it was like that. Of course it's not the same, because I have to eat... but I'm going to really start eating SMALL portions. I don't ever want to feel like that again!!!

Even though I felt I might puke, and made the kid tie my shoes, I got on the treadmill :)
15 minutes/ .52 mile
Total days in a row: 23
I want to up the miles a little every week. I committed to that last week and figured I would do it naturally, since I was going to try and do a mile a day... but that didn't happen this week. SO if I want to make this weeks total more than last weeks, I have 1.67 miles to walk today. I am going to try my best... maybe even get on it twice if I have to :)

A Better Day... if you ignore the food part...

I had a better day today. I have been having such a hard time staying positive... With the dryer, the car, the end of summer, just everything I guess. Now it's the last week of my son's vacation and we are stuck at home doing nothing with the car all messed up. BUT I tried to stay positive, and I did feel better today. Ray is going to take him up to the park to practice throwing discs. After they can feed the ducks too. So that will be nice for them :) Ray's Mom is going to take him school shopping Saturday, which is SUCH a huge relief to me. We were doing that this week, until the car decided we aren't... but now she wants to take him and buy his stuff!!! She is the greatest Mother in Law ever. I am so thankful for her.

Ray and I are doing great, we are getting along better than ever. I mean, we always are lol... but the last few days have been really good. Even though I've been having a hard time, he is being so sweet. And he's not irritable at all, and it's just good.
We had a GREAT time at the MMA fights Saturday. The mic was to loud or something, and we couldn't understand a word the announcer said... but other than that it was good :) We never go out, so we didn't even mind that it started over an hour late!!!! LOL. I'm sure the guy said why, but we couldn't understand him! haha :)
I'm not sure who cares anything about MMA, most of you probably couldn't care less lol. So I won't bore you with a bunch of fight videos. Here's one though so you can see how close we are :)
I joked with Ray that I have a new goal. To loose enough weight to be a ring girl!!!! Do you see where they are sitting!!!!! Wow, now THOSE are good seats lol. I would only have to loose about 179 more pounds and that could be me. Haha :)

They were free tickets, and we were in the first row behind the gate. They didn't get the turn out they expected I guess, so they moved us beyond the gate :) So we had a waitress and everything, the only people in front of us was one row and the VIP tables you see in the pic. By the end of the night we were even closer!!! All night the fighters walked right past us, we were in the end too. You really can't get any better for free! :) You couldn't get much better for $$$, not sure how much those tables costed. Someone said $75 per seat... haha, wonder what they would think if they knew that us, 8 feet away were free hahaha :)



There was a live band, before the fights, they were good I thought. The best part of the night is when Ray and I looked at each other, both realizing what he was singing at the same time... Keep in mind it's more like a Metal Band... when we realized what he was saying we laughed and laughed :) It was soooo funny. They were LOUD, but for some reason it came out pretty quiet... can you tell what he's singing????
It's a chorus from another song, that is NOT metal, or rock or even close lol. Wonder if anyone will get it... :)

Another good thing, my brother had the fights from UFC that night, so we didn't miss those either :) They were good :)

Here's What I ate Today:
Breakfast: (221) Coffee, 1 slice of peanut butter toast
Snack: (23) 1 Werther's
Lunch: (800?) 1 tostada, about 10 tortilla chips w cheese, tomato, sour cream and taco meat. Water
Snack: (380) 1 1/2 cup of Capn Crunch w 1 1/2 cup ff skim milk
Total Calories: 1424 (624 + Dinner)
Total Water: 44 oz
Another mess up day with the food.... I really can't explain it. I know I'm a little stressed, but I don't feel depressed. I am not giving up, I start off the day with the best intentions... I KNOW I need to do better, no question about it. I hope seeing this isn't getting anyone discouraged, or thinking I have given up... because I haven't. I know some of you will understand, and some won't. Some will think "Why doesn't she just stop eating that crap!" and that makes sense of course. It's just not been that easy... I wish it was that easy, then NO ONE would be fat!
I did pass up pizza buns for dinner, so that's something right? I knew I had really messed up for lunch, and wasn't really hungry. Of course Ray kept asking "Are you sure." I knew what would happen, he would make me a few just in case i changed my mind. So I said "No I'm sure. I am not hungry, PLEASE do NOT make me any." and he didn't :) and I was fine.
It might sound crazy, but I'm not worried about gaining this week. Even though I ate crap, I haven't been doing bad on the calories because I haven't been binging, or eating much else besides the crap... but that said, this is NOT how I want to loose weight. I want to follow my original plan, and get healthier in the process. I know I can and will do it... Just having a hard time right now...

But like I said, my mood has been better, and I will try harder.

Today's Treadmill: 15 minutes/ .51 mile
Total Days in a row: 22
I'm sure that has helped me with my mood. Otherwise I might be much worse off with the way things have been going lol. But I'm good :) Things will get better.
Have a good night!