b back soon...

hello blogland!!!

i'll let u know i have been doing horrible. with depression, food, exercise, all of it. of course i am doing ok at this second or i wouldn't b here. wouldn't b able to take the time or energy it takes to do a quick sentence without a computer!

but i wanted 2 update u who support me because it means so much to me. and prepare u. its not gonna b pretty... even i am shocked at how fast and hard i have fallen.

the good news, i have caught up on all of your blogs... could only comment on afew...sorry about that :(
also, iwill have my computer friday!!!! cant wait!!! so i will c u then. goodnight.

still here!!!

i am still here!
thank u for checking in on me!
no computer at all for over a week now! sadface...
just figured out right now, that i can use the ps3 though! but this is not easy lol.

did baaad last week, and gained. like 4 pounds :( no treadmill aaattt alll. mood, not good...
BUT back on it today! Back 2 weighing everyday 2. hopefully i can access my weight loss tracker!

ugh,
this sucks lol.
if i can't get the computer fixed in the next couple days, i'll b @ the library 2 give u a proper post k!!!!
At least I can catch up on reading your blogs though!!! probably no comments though, this has taken me 15 minutes! lol

be back soon! will post daily weight on tracker, if this lets me!

thanks again!!! i miss u alll! i'm off 2 catch up :)

R U Going to Party This Halloween???

Well if you are, BE CAREFUL!

You don't want to end up like this:

HaHa!

Have a Safe and Happy Weekend Everybody!!!!

I did NOT take this picture, got in in an email a couple years ago and saved it :)

Weigh Day

And the scale says...

278.6

A loss of 1.2 pounds this week

That makes my Total Loss 41.4 pounds

To be back in the green,

I have to loose .6 pounds this week. I can do that!

My Totals are pathetic...

Treadmill: 2 days

30 minutes/1.13 miles this week

Crunches: 2 days/ 185 Total

One of those weeks where I can't figure out how I lost ANY weight... but not having the car really cut down on my snacking... so that's a good thing. We have all the food we need in the house, just not much junk food lol, which worked out very good this week. I also did more housework. So even though I didn't do well on the treadmill I lost anyway- So I am HAPPY! Now this week I have to be careful with the snacking again, AND do the treadmill :)

As you know, my goal now is to be able to say "I LOST 50 POUNDS IN 2010" and to do that I had to loose .98 pounds per week until New Years. So loosing 1.2 puts me ahead already :) YEAH.

I think I'll go back to writing about my day and what I ate, the next morning. That was working out well for me. So I'll see you in the morning! Have a great night!

Catch Up

First let me thank Ellie Great for being my newest "follower." Thank you for joining me in My Day! :)

I'm sorry I've been MIA for the last few days... I really don't know what it is lately, I have just been tired I guess. I haven't felt like blogging at all. I don't know why. I know blogging has helped me tremendously, so I'm not going to quit... I just needed a little break I guess? No matter what, I will always be here for my Friday weigh in :)
I would like to get back to blogging everyday. At least write what I ate... For some reason, once I stop doing something it is SO hard for me to start up again. I've been... off... for the last 2 weeks, and haven't been blogging daily. Haven't been getting on the treadmill daily either...

The Food:
I HAVE been keeping track of everything I eat though, just like before. It's all written down, so that's good. I thought I did bad this week, but looking back I really didn't! Instead of writing everything from everyday, here is a summary:
I was VERY hungry for some reason a lot of this week. BUT I didn't snack to much. When I did it was cereal or almonds.
I had a 'open sandwich' on Monday! That cut 80 calories, so that's cool. I have to admit it wasn't on purpose, I burnt one piece of toast lol. But maybe I'll do it more often (have one piece, NOT burn it!)
I did have 3 slices of pizza on Tuesday :(
On Wednesday I had lunch and was still hungry, after about 1/2 hour I had ANOTHER sandwich... I havent had 2 sandwiches since before 1/1/10... It's what I wanted though... and then I was satisfied so I guess I'm not mad about it... But I'm not going to do it again any time soon either.
I had 2 cups of coffee on 2 days. I guess because I was tired, also because I was COLD... Not sure if it's a good habit though... especially since I have also taken 2 naps, and am up at 3am ;)
I had some veggies this week, but NO fruit...
I think that's about it as far as food, nothing else out of the ordinary. I did ok this week :)
OH! WAIT!!! Halloween is in 2 days, and there is NO Halloween candy in the house. That is a FIRST. I'm proud of myself... but it's mostly because of not having a car lol ;) But in the past I would have found a way to get it, believe me! Ray will be bringing some home tomorrow though, so I'll just have to be careful...

Life:
In other news, I have been STRESSED about the car. But now it is finally almost over. It has been towed and should be done tomorrow! And I'll have a car back! You know I hate driving, but I hate not having a car worse!

It was BEAUTIFUL here in the beginning of the week, got to 74 (just 2 days after I told you it was 40 and my heat was on.) Then it got cold again, we had a tornado warning on Tuesday. We have had more tornado warnings this year than in the last 10 years combined I bet!!! I don't EVER remember a tornado warning during the school year. EVER. A lot of schools were closed, I don't know why my sons wasn't. So, since I don't have a car and didn't want him walking in it, I kept him home. He was happy :) We had a wind advisory all the next day. Today it was cold and rainy and I felt so bad he had to walk in it :( Hopefully those days are done!

All that I did to get rid of the fleas worked very well... for about 4 days. Now today they are worse than ever in the basement... I just don't understand! Getting MORE spray for the cats, and another 'fogger' for the basement in the morning. They are TINY, so I'm hoping they just hatched, and they will all be gone in the morning before they can lay eggs??? The stupid thing says it works for 7 months... I guess they meant 4 days when they wrote that. UGH! Going to have to buy some more Frontline, because it seems to be the only thing that REALLY works. I can't find it anywhere, will have to order it online. It is expensive, but we must have spent over $150 already trying to get rid of the fleas! They have some cheaper version of it on now, but obviously it doesn't work. The spray works but only for about 2 days... So I'll spray them every 2 days if I have to until I get the frontline, powder the carpets up here and bomb the basement once a week I guess! They don't bother us, and don't seem to be up here, but want to make sure to get them all. UGH... I'm sick of this.

I only got on the treadmill twice this week. :(

The kid has been slacking on his school work these last couple weeks. I tire fast of repeating myself, and will not be yelling at him about it everyday. That's just to much stress, so I made it clear today that if he brings home any grade less than a B- on his report card, he will be grounded from video games for the WHOLE marking period. 9 weeks without Xbox or Wii??? He will feel like I am the most horrible parent EVER lol. BUT he will also make sure his school work comes first from now on won't he.

Good news?
I have been doing more house work than usual :) That hasn't seemed to help my mood... but I'm sure it would be even worse if the house was trashed ;) Housework is exercise too, so even though I haven't been on the treadmill much- that has helped some. I bet if I had been on the treadmill all week my mood would be better!

Also walked to get my mail a couple times this week. Something I never do, but have to becasue of the car problems. I should make it habit anyway.

K, that's all for now. It's after 3am, Ray's up for work and wondering what the hell I'm doing :) I have been doing really good getting to bed at a good time except for tonight though!

See you in the morning for the weigh in! I was down today, but I also went back to bed and slept in REALLY late. So I hope I'm still down tomorrow!
Goodnight :)

Blogger vs. 'Mike and Molly'

I happen to LOVE Mike and Molly. I have watched since it started, and though a little corny and predictable, I think it is such a funny show. It always makes me laugh, and sometimes makes me say "awww" when I see their puppy love :) (no they are not married as the woman on here said) I really do love this show.

BUT Maura Kelly from marie claire doesn't. In fact, she can't stand overweight people, and marie claire lets her write hurtful things about them as seen here:
Blogger vs. 'Mike and Molly' Featured Videos Comcast.net

If for some reason you can't see the video, it says she wrote that: it would make her sick to watch two people with rolls kissing each other... and that she can't stand watching a fat person even walking across the room... ect.
I happened to run into another article from marie claire earlier this month, from other blogs. It seems they don't have very good judgement about what they post... I'll be emailing them, and Ms Kelly to give them my two cents on it. You can too if you want ;)

I am guessing Ms. Kelly is a very unhappy person, to be writing things like this. Maybe she is jealous of the happiness these 2 over weight people were able to find? (Even though they are fictional) Maybe she herself can't find it? I don't know, all I know is that I am not angry, I pity her. She seems like a miserable human being.

I Weigh More Than...

As I mentioned in the last post, we had an unexpected fight night over at Ray's Mom's. If you haven't seen the fight, turn back now! You've officially had your Spoil Alert! :)

So as you know, my family love us some UFC. We have even got Ray's family into it. So anyway, we went over there and watched UFC 121 Saturday night. There was something I realized when I got there, that made it a little hard to enjoy them, but I won't go into that now.
But I DID enjoy them. They were great. What made it fun also, is that it was SOO hyped up that if Cain Velasquez won, he would be the first Mexican Heavy Weight Champion. Now, for me I don't care what race the fighters are. I pick my fighters based on ability, work ethic and attitude. Ray is usually like that too. BUT not this time lol. Oh no, it's all about brown pride on this night! LOL, they all really wanted Cain to win, and make Mexico proud :) So naturally I picked Brock, because he's a BEAST and it's also fun to be routing for the other guy sometimes lol. I like both fighters, but thought Brock would win for sure.
Anyway, it was a GREAT card, with lots of good fights. The main event came, and Cain ended up winning. OMG you should have seen them on there feet and cheering, even Ray's mom. It was pretty funny. So Cain won. He's a big guy, weighing in at 244...
BUT if you are an MMA fan, you probably know who Brock Lesnar is. If not, here:

Do you see him? He is HUGE. He is a fricken TANK. Which brings me to my title... Brock Lesnar weighed in at 264 pounds. Now he doesn't weigh that at the fight, or walk around at that weight, probably more like 285. BUT, the point is... I weighed over 279 pounds on Friday. He weighed in at 264... That is fricken crazy. I weigh MORE than a UFC heavy weight champion. The biggest fighter they have seen in a long time...
Do you understand the gravity of the situation?

I WEIGH MORE THAN THIS GUY!

In fact, I weigh more than ANY heavy weight in the UFC. The weight class is 206-265... I don't even qualify!!! I AM TO HEAVY TO BE A HEAVY WEIGHT... AND I've lost 40 pounds! That is fucking nuts!!! How did I let it get this bad??? (I don't look back and think about that often, but man- stuff like this really puts it into perspective...)

Of course I don't let this ruin fights for me, but when the weights comes up, it's something I ALWAYS notice. Next time he fights I want to weigh LESS than him. I do not want to weigh more than Brock Lesnar ANYMORE! I want to be in the Heavy Weight Division... as CRAZY as that sounds!!!

*I did not take these pics, totally stole them off the internet ;)