Happy New Year

Wow, it has been a long time!
This last year has been CRAZY. It had many hardships, like every other year, but it also had some very good points. I have been truly blessed, and for the first time in my life, I feel like I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I love my life, I love my fiance and our son, I love our new house, and I am truly happy :)

As far as weight loss goes... I have been slowly gaining back the weight I lost for over a year now. Today was the first time I weighed myself in about 7 months. I am 10 pounds away from my starting weight. So I didn't gain it ALL back... Today is the first time in a LONG time I feel excited about losing weight. My life is so much better now, I know I will do great. Wish me luck!!! :)

I always hated when a blogger just shut down the blog without saying anything, so I didn't want to do that to you who supported me.
I want to thank you with all my heart.
I have always been a very private person, and this was a great experiance. It has taken me so long to say goodbye, because I really thought I would start blogging again...

But it's time to say goodbye.

I guess because I really put myself out there, I couldn't take it when my private life was thrown in my face, or when my honesty was questioned. Don't get me wrong, the constructive criticism was great, and the random 'anonymous' asshole, or the King Trolls just made me laugh... I'm talking about people acting like they support you, are your friend even, and then completely turn on you... especially when they never been through it. Especially when I was completely honest about everything and then called a liar. That's just negativity I don't need. I had so much drama and real issues in my real life, I just didn't need any petty bull shit from anywhere else. Needless to say, that negativity pushed me away from blogging a long time ago.

It really was mostly a great experience :) Everyone of you that I follow, I follow for a reason. I want to thank you for your support when I needed it, and I will never forget it!!!
I wish you all the best!!! Have a Happy 2012, and beyond!
Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart!
Sincerely,
~Tina

'when writing the story of your life, never let someone else hold the pen'

Happy Easter!

How ever you celebrated, I hope you were with the ones you love and had a great day!

I don't feel 100%, but I do feel Lucky

My mood was good. It was so beautiful! I got to have my windows open and everything! The only snow left is the mountains at the end of the streets from the plows :)

My food? Not so great. I slept in, and now am up late... and hungry :( I did ok for meals, but had 3 cookies instead of one... AND a 320 calorie danish this morning...
I want to be able to have just one, but maybe Jo is right. I should just cut off the sweets all together for now... because just one didn't work very well today...
I got in 20 oz of water, but tomorrow I want to get back to getting at least 40. I'll go back to using a water bottle, thanks colenic! :)

I didn't get on the treadmill. I did some laundry, so it has a bunch of clothes drying on it right now in fact. I'm not going to promise I'll get on it tomorrow, because I probably won't. I did work up a little sweat just doing dishes and some cleaning... I have really neglected the house for the last 2 months...

My depression was very deep, and now I have the aftermath to deal with. Things I've neglected, bills, laundry, you name it. A lot has happened, but now that I'm starting to feel better, I don't really want to think about it. The issues aren't really resolved, so they may come up later... but for now I'm going to try and be happy. Especially with everything going on in the world right now... I don't want to complain. I feel very blessed. Today wasn't the best, but oh my goodness it could have been much worse! Tomorrow will be better :)

On this St. Patrick's Day I am feeling very lucky. Lucky I don't live in the middle east. Lucky I don't have to deal with an earth quake, tsunami, or anything else Japan is dealing with. Lucky I do not live near a nuclear power plant... Lucky Ray works close, and I don't have to spend a fortune on these crazy gas prices. Lucky to have my fiance who loves me and my son who is my world. Lucky to be alive.

Happy St. Patrick's Day. I hope you are feeling lucky!

Or at least drinking a green beer lol :)

Just popping in...

I don't have much to report, I really want to get back in the habit though!

Today I didn't do so well, it was an average day I guess (my new average that is). Hardly any water :( NOT good. Also ordered a burrito, but I can say that I got full and only ate half of it. It was still way to much food, but better than I've been doing... I didn't eat the rest of it.

Even though I didn't do so well, I feel great today :) The snow is melting, and it might get up to 60 degrees tomorrow! Woo Hoo!!! ALL the snow should be gone by tomorrow night :) I think the weather has a lot to do with how depressed I have been. The sun really did me good today. Oh, and I saw my first robin today! That means spring is here right!

Tomorrow I get serious. Slow and steady is still the plan. I'm going to concentrate on drinking enough and JUST ONE. I'll allow myself a cookie in the morning, but only ONE... not 4 like today...

Weigh in is Monday as usual, I don't expect any big loss, but if I do well for the next 4 days... I think 1 pound is a reasonable amount to hope for! lol, slow and steady :)

I hope everyone had a good day!

Where I'm At...

Hi everybody :)
I hope all is well here in Blogland! I've missed it, haven't really been around in 2 months!
I have to say hello to Wendy:), Sorry I've been such a bad hostess to a new follower!

I have been going through a lot these last 2 months, not that it's much different than before... I've just handled it much worse...

Treadmill
I did very well staying on the treadmill every day, for about a month and a half. Then I missed a day, and struggled after that, until I just quit all together. It's been about 3 weeks since I've been on it.

Food
That has been pretty much whatever I want. I actually do ok with portions most of the time, what I'm eating isn't good. I have coffee with 1/2 serving cappuccino mix (55 calories) every morning, but I also have something sweet with it. SOMETHING SWEET ALMOST EVERY MORNING... Like cookies, donuts, danish... Something new for me. Then a cappuccino later (110 cal) most of the time... and sometimes another sweet thing with that!
I haven't been writing what I eat. I stopped on purpose, thinking that it might help... I felt like ALL I thought about was food... I didn't plan on stopping my blog though. So I think I will try and do well without recording the food... It hasn't worked in about 8 months now. It worked at first, but you know what??? I was so motivated and excited ANYTHING would have worked... After recording everything for over a year, I think I know calories pretty well, and portion sizes... but if I feel it will help, I'll go back to it... We'll see what happens :)

The Weight
Every week I thought I would get back to blogging. So I weighed in every Monday, and took a picture every time. My camera is full of pictures of the scale lol. I will update the side chart properly when I get the camera and have the dates and weights. For now I've updated the stats. I am now at 294 pounds, a gain of 7 pounds this year. :( Makes me sick... I have gained back 16 pounds of my highest loss of 42 pounds :( I hoped to never see the 280s again, and here I am in the 290s!
It doesn't do any good to concentrate on the what ifs, or I should haves... I'm lucky I didn't gain more I guess...

So anyway, I am back :) I don't have any set plan, just watch my portions and stop with all the sweet stuff, and as always: cut back on the fast food! I still need to lose weight, and still have all the same hopes and reasons as when I started this blog last year... I am just having a hard time getting motivated, and staying dedicated to it. I know I NEED to though. I'm hoping that being back in Blogland will help me :) Reading all of yours always motivates me, and writing helps with stress...

If your still here thank you :)
If your not, or don't want to be, that's cool. Better to follow a blog that is more suited to you. I sure don't need any more negativity that's for sure!

Ok, here we go again... See you later!

Happy Valentines Day!

Hey everybody :)
I know I've been MIA, and I'm sorry. I'll be back soon!
Been thinking of a lot of you, I hope everyone is doing well!
I wanted to pop in and say Happy Valentines Day :)
This is mine and Ray's song, enjoy.

Monday- the NEW Weigh Day!

And the scale says...

That's a loss of 0 pounds this week

Keeping my Total loss at 33 pounds

Treadmill Totals: 2 hours 6 min/ 4.9 miles

and that's not counting last Saturday/Sunday!

This is the best I've done in the last 3 months :)

Of course I wish it was a loss, but I'm happy with no gain! My eating was not good this week, And after my new Years weekend... I was actually up to over 289!!!

Now I feel good, and motivated. Does that mean I'm going to be perfect? No. But I will try harder and do what I need to do.

Usually on weigh day I have all morning until I have to commit to the number on the scale. But not today. I weighed in and had to go. My brother JW is leaving for Texas for work, and we went to lunch with him. At our favorite Chinese buffet of course... It was nice. Me, Ray and we even let our son out of school so he could come see his Uncle before he left. After we dropped him back at school and JW back home, of course I cried a little. He might be gone for a year this time... I'll miss him. And I worry about him. But I would have been fine except he said "Love you" to us when he got out. He doesn't say that, ever.

Ughh. I'm tearing up right now!

Enough of that....

Here's what I ate today:

Coffee: 55
Double Mocha Cappuccino

Snack: 46

4 cinnamon roasted almonds (10g)

Lunch: 1100?

Chinese Buffet 1 1/2 plates: 3/4 cup veggie fried rice, 1 egg role, 5 SMALL pieces of battered chicken, 3 small piece of sesame chicken, 5 crab rangoon, 1/4 cup mongolian beef, 1/2 cup Broccoli chicken, 2 mushrooms, 2 tbs sweet and sour, 1 tsp soy sauce, water, 1 tiny piece of cake (2 bites), 3 tiny sweet things... a partridge in a pear tree...

Snack: 17

1 chocolate covered pretzel

Bite: 15?

1 bite of potato soup

Iced coffee: 70

with 2 tbs Peppermint Mocha liquid creamer

Snack: 151

Almonds- 14 natural (16g) and 6 cinnamon roasted (13g)

Bite: 28

3 Peppercorn Ranch Sunchips

Total Water: 42 oz

Total Calories: about 1482

I had to guess for lunch, and I think I over guessed... but maybe not? I don't know.

I'm pretty happy with today. I am getting a little hungry, so I'll probably have cereal. If I do I'll be back to write it! I will still be below 2000 :)

Treadmill: 30 minutes/ 1.18 miles with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Listening to some of Ray's music, weeding out what I don't want on my playlist :) It makes the time go by so much faster!!!!

In other news, I lost a follower today!!!! *GASP*

No, I'm ok. I was just surprised to see the number down one. I'm not sure who it is yet, was trying to figure it out! I must have offended someone with my last post... that's ok, I guess they don't want to join us in being F*ckin Perfect lol :) oh well, I'm sure it won't be the last time I lose a follower... 

Ok, I'm gonna go now.... Wish me luck. I'm going to need all the positive vibes I can get. It's 11:56pm, and Ray is cooking a chicken wrap. He is going to eat a chicken wrap in front of me!!! With all it's cheesy goodness.... ..... ..... .....

2 days ago, I'd eat one too. Shoot, Yesterday I would have probably eaten one too! But not tonight. I feel good, and proud of myself and I don't want to ruin that.

Have a good night everyone!!!!!





You're Fuck*n Perfect!

Just heard this for the first time,
It's just what I needed to hear.

I would never change just to be accepted, or fit in...
I need to lose weight though, to be healthy and feel good!

Besides that I'm fuckin perfect, and so are you! ;)

Happy New Year!

I know... that was over a week ago...
But as you may know, I haven't really FELT like it's a new year...
I was having a hard time getting motivated.

I have decided to change my weigh in to Mondays this year... last year it worked fine in the beginning to have it on Friday... but I was doing GREAT, it could have been on any day!
Once I started messing up, the worst times where weekends. So hopefully knowing I have to weigh in on Monday will help me do better over that dreaded weekend...

Did that help for this weekend?
Yes, I think it did. I snacked more than I should have,
but not as much as I would have...
I don't think :)
Even with the snacking, my calories have been under 2000,
In fact, today I wasn't hungry most of the day.

Been getting in my water. 36 oz today, 44 yesterday, and 66 Friday! 66 is a lot for me, I will be happy with 40 per day, that's what I'm shooting for. Oh, and my total water isn't counting coffee or anything- just plain ole' filtered tap water... from a pitcher in the fridge of course!

I've been on the treadmill EVERY day, following my New Year's Resolution.
But I've hated it everyday... putting it off until late and then just doing it because I have to... 10 minutes yesterday and 18 Friday.
The treadmill is no longer facing the TV since the Christmas tree was put up, and 10 minutes seems to last forever.

But today I made a playlist and Ray put it on his PSP for me, oh my goodness that helps SOOO much! I am happy because I think I'll be fine with it where it is now. So I won't have to have it in the middle of the room facing the TV taking up the whole place!!!
Treadmill for today is:
35 minutes/ 1.38 miles with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes
Woo Hoo!

I did a little maintenance on the blog, got rid of the weight loss record that was going down the right side... you can now find that under the 'Pages' or here
Out with the old, in with the new!
Now that I have that all done and rearranged, I feel better.

I feel like it's a new year now... I hope this feeling lasts!

I feel like I'm rambling, maybe cause I'm overly tired. It's almost 4am and I haven't been to bed yet. I will go as soon as I get home from bringing Ray! Promise!

First weigh in of the year is tomorrow, I'm hoping it's not a gain... I would really like to start the year off with an ok weigh in... but even if it's a gain, I won't let it get me down!
See you tomorrow!!!

Umm... WHERE is Jo???

*UPDATE: NEVERMIND LOL :) YOU CAN NOW FIND JO AT http://awellkeptlife.blogspot.com/

I don't know if anyone else has been having trouble with blogger... but I have. I have been really bad about keeping up on my blogs, but the last couple days I've been trying to catch up. I was having little problems like, not being able to see older post from some blogs... But today all seems ok...
EXCEPT... I go to check Jo's blog A Well-Kept Live (formally: Weight on Me at 50) and it says it can not be found!
Did she really leave?
A lot of people have stopped blogging, but I've never really been as surprised... Jo was doing great, I know she got sick- but the last post on the roll from a week ago says she was feeling better...
Is it just Blogger messing with me?
Or did she really delete her blog?

Jo! Are you out there???

If you know what's up, let me know please :) Just in case it's just blogger giving me the run around!
Otherwise- if she closed it down I'm sure she has her reasons- and I wish her nothin' but the BEST!!!

Feeling Better, Feeling Thankful

except for this head ache!
I've had a head ache for 3 days. I've taken ibuprofen and it goes away, but comes right back.

Anyway, I feel better today.
I think it was the whole story about the homeless man with the golden voice... have you seen this? I first seen it a couple days ago, when he was homeless on the side of the street.

When I saw this, I just knew it would blow up on the internet and maybe he really would be able to come out of this! And get a job and who knows what else!

I saw him on the Today Show this morning, and it really just touched me. It's all happening so fast, you can tell he is just kind of shocked by it all. He was pretty emotional, and I just feel so much happiness for him.

An offer from the Cleveland Cavaliers to work AND housing, He recorded stuff for Kraft macaroni, the list goes on...

It is just so nice to hear something good in the media, when all you ever see is bad!

 

It makes me feel thankful for what I have...

I'm not saying now I will be the perfect eater and loose 10 pounds per week, but I do feel better. I am thankful for what I have, and if he can overcome all of his issues I can definitely do better with mine!

Today's (Thursday) Food-
Coffee: 55
with 1 1/2 tbs DMC
Breakfast: 245
all natural peanut butter on whole wheat, 1 cup ff skim milk
Lunch: 402
2/3 can of tuna on whole wheat with 1/2 tbs miracle whip, pepper jack cheese, pickles. 8 baby carrots and 1 tbs light ranch, water
Snack: 125
4 1/2 slices ham, 1 oz colby jack cheese, water
Dinner: 370
1 cup leftover chicken taco soup, 1 slice of whole wheat, 1 cup milk
Snack: 250
1 cup Berry Colossal Crunch cereal with 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 140
1 cup Rice chex cereal 1/2 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 60
2 pieces of cheese ( 1 pepper jack, 1 colby jack) 21 grams
Total Water: 36 oz
Total Calories: 1647
Well, I kept my calories down! :) I know I snacked a lot... don't know why I can't get enough cereal... or cheese! But I really paid attention to my portions. The 2/3 can of tuna is because I forgot to give my cats the water this time, so I had to give them some of the tuna lol.
I know if I wasn't up so late, that last cereal and cheese wouldn't have even been on there. But I got hungry...

I NEED to go to bed earlier! I was in bed at 9:30 last night. Tonight I fell asleep for about an hour at 8:30! That's not good... cause when I got up I still had to get on the treadmill. I wanted to go to bed, but I knew I had to get on it... I'm glad I did. But now I'm up way to late :( I also need to get on the treadmill earlier, then I wouldn't have this problem!

Get grocery money tomorrow and will have some fruits and healthier snacks in the house... unless the weather is too bad...

Treadmill: 13 minutes/ .50 mile, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Even though my eating hasn't been great, I have been keeping very busy since the new year. Trying to be a better house keeper and just all around moving more! So I do feel like I will have a loss, even with the slow start on the food.

Oh, and it's definitely back to our normal winter here now! I shoveled today, so that's exercise :) We are supposed to be getting 6 to 12 inches by Saturday night... we have a lake effect snow warning now. Yep, back to normal Michigan weather all right... yuck.
I have to be up in about 3 hours to drive Ray, and a co worker to work. In this crap...
But that's ok. Just glad he has a job! And the car is running and can get us there...
Have a good night! :)

Wednesday's Food

Dinner

Made Chicken Taco Soup

Ray's New Year's resolution

was to stop eating beef...

more on that later....

So I made it with chicken. It was good,

but I like it with extra lean beef better.

The calories for using chicken,

Only 1.1 less per serving!

Since I used 1 1/2 pounds though, It came out to a little more.

You can find the recipe for Taco Soup here :)

K, here's what I ate:

Coffee: 55

with 1 1/2 tbs DMC

Breakfast: 130

Fit&Active Apple Cinnamon Fruit and Cereal Bar

Snack: 820

Chocolate covered strawberry shake from Steak N Shake

Lunch: 360

Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat with pepper jack cheese, 1 tbs miracle whip. 6 baby carrots and 1 tbs light ranch. water

Snack: 23

Werther's

Dinner: 1078

2 cups of chicken taco soup. about 20 tortilla chips and 1/2 cup shredded cheese

Total Water: 44 oz

Total Calories: 2336

Ugh! You can't tell, but I actually planned today out. I knew I would be eating a fairly healthy dinner of Chicken Taco Soup, so when Ray wanted to get a buy 1 get one free shake... I thought that was ok. I'd just watch what I ate for the rest of the day. Now, that was a HIGH calorie shake, and it was a regular not a large. I'm not mad about that. It's only the 3rd time in my whole life I've had a shake from there, and it was delicious!

What I'm mad about, is my dinner. I took a fairly low calorie dinner and had 2 helpings, but REALLY ruined it by adding chips and cheese. Why? I don't know... I didn't need it. I just wanted it. Even so, I could have had LESS... 7 chips is a serving, so why 20? I really can't tell you. Stupidity I guess.

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .37 miles

I really did not want to do this at all. And didn't feel better after I did either! But I did it, as I will everyday no matter what! Gotta stick to my New Year's resolution at least!

Bleh

Have You Seen This?

While we are shrinking, so is our food!
But it still cost the same....
Companies Shrinking Products Finance Videos Comcast.net

That's good advise, I NEVER buy cereal if it's not on sale :) I just stock up when it is.
She mentions the ice cream, buy Ben and Jerry's because a pint is still actually a pint...
(BUT I'm sure the calories are pretty high, so maybe we should stay away from it anyway :) To be honest, I've never had it)

One that she didn't mention, is Minute Maid. Buy that instead of Tropicana, they are still 64 oz and not raising their price (yet!)

On the Today Show they had a lot more examples of companies that have cut the size of their products in the last 5 months... I can't remember them though... just Scott toilet paper lol...

Pay attention to those sizes!
Happy Shopping!

The Food...

One of the things I want to make sure to do is at least come and record my food everyday again. Since it's the 5th, you can see I haven't been doing so well with this! I mean... not at all!

Saturday was the 1st, and I'm not sure what I ate. It was like New Years Eve a day late, and it involved drinking, pizza, and I even had some chocolate covered peanuts...

While they were good, they were NOT worth the calories!

Once I saw the calories on the package,

I didn't eat them all. I shared :)

That in my hand is what was in the package,

6 pieces,

anyone want to guess the calories on that?

I'm having trouble with my eating... this is nothing like last year! I was SOO excited, and just had so much motivation... I didn't even wait till the first I started the week before with just cutting out pop and eating a little less. I was doing great! Now... I just don't know. I've been just... I don't know.

I have been keeping track, and while I don't really want to write it down when I'm not doing so great... I will anyway! I really want to make this habit again. I feel like once I get back into the habit of recording it here everyday, it will help me make better choices...

The good news? I have been drinking more water. And I HAVE been sticking to my new years resolutions! I've been on the treadmill EVERY day :) The other one, of loosing 66 pounds this year? I am off to a slow start with food, but I really think I can do it.

So here is the last  few days:

Sunday

Coffee: 55 calories

with 1 1/2 tbs Double Mocha Cappuccino

Snack: 130

1/2 cup Honey Nut Chex Mix

Lunch: 350

Turkey Sandwich, water

Dinner: 1415

5 chicken tacos, 1/2 cup spanish rice, 1/2 cup re-fried beans, 1 cup milk

Snack: 115

1/2 cup cereal and 1/2 cup milk

Total Water: 24 oz

Total Calories: 2065

I know... 5 tacos? NO excuse for that...

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .37 mile

Monday

Snack 4am: 240

1 cup Simply Cinnamon corn flakes and 1 cup 2% milk

Coffee: 55

With 1 1/2 tbs double mocha cappuccino

Breakfast: 285

1 slice whole wheat with 1 tbs all natural peanut butter, 1 cup 2% milk

Snack: 130

Fit&Active Apple Cinnamon Fruit and Grain bar

Snack: 23

Werther's

Cappuccino Double Mocha (2 1/2 rounded tbs): 110

Lunch: 695

Leftovers- 1 chicken taco, 1/2 cup refried beans, 1/2 cup spanish rice

Dinner: 740

General Tso's Chicken (with rice, carrots, broccoli frozen) 1 egg role, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 190

1 cup frosted wheat puffs, 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 36 oz

Total Calories: 2063

I did much better with the tacos today! i was really mad at myself for having 5 before, and am very happy with myself only having one :) But I shouldn't have had such a high calorie dinner, since lunch was. I really have to work on that. If one or the other is high, have a lower calorie meal for the other...

Treadmill: 13 minutes/ .51 mile, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Tuesday

Coffee: 55

with DMC (1 1/2 tbs Double Mocha Cappuccino)

Breakfast: 130

Fit & Active Apple Cinnamon bar

Lunch: 866

Burger King Original Chicken Sandwich, 10 tortilla chips, 1 tbs chili cheese dip

Dinner: 575

1 1/2 servings tuna casserole, 1 slice whole wheat bread, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 200

Simply Cinnamon corn flakes with 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 33 oz

Total Calories: 1826

The tuna casserole came out very good!

this is on a small plate :) To psyche myself out?

It didn't really work though lol

I followed a recipe I got from SkippyMom's blog a while back (mostly). BUT I made the whole bag of egg noodles, when I think I was supposed to use 1/2. So I doubled up on everything, but I didn't have another cream of mushroom soup so I had to use cream of chicken with herbs, or something like that. I had sharp cheddar instead of mild, and didn't really measure the milk,  the cheese or peas. But I'm sure it was close lol. (Next time I'm going to make it how the recipe says though)

The verdict? Ray LOVED it. The kid liked it a lot, but "it has to many peas!"
He just don't love peas like his momma do! :)

Treadmill: 27 minutes/ 1.05 miles

This was the 5th day in a row on the treadmill :) It was the longest so far, but I did it a little different. I watched The Biggest Looser (even though I said I'd never watch again after last season!) and got on the treadmill during the commercial breaks :) I know, it wasn't the work out it would have been at one time, but I'm still happy with it. And since the treadmill is turned around now to save room... I can't watch tv on it :( I might have to change that... but I really hate it in the middle of the room taking up so much space! Gonna have to make a decision... If I could get on it earlier, I could try to read while walking... we'll see...

So there you have it. All you've missed. I have to tell you, now that I have it down I feel so much better! I actually hadn't added up the calories for the days until now... and I thought it was much worse. I would like to keep it under 2000 for now... OK, that's done and now I can move forward. Recording my eating daily here. I have been trying to go to bed at night, so I'm not sure if I'll be doing it nightly or in the mornings... but I'll be doing it!

And now that I have a camera that works, expect lots of pictures lol :)

I hope everyone is having a great new year! Even though I have a lot to improve on... I feel good about what's to come :)

* Was going to link to the recipe, but I am having trouble with Skippy's blog :(
So here it is, I'm sure she doesn't mind!!! Right skippy??? :)

As seen on Skippymom's Blog:

3 3/4 cups egg noodles [half a bag]
1 can cream of mushroom soup [low fat/50% less sodium]
1 can [5 oz] chunk light tuna in water
1/2 can of milk
2/3 cup of frozen peas
1/2 cup mild shredded cheddar
pepper to taste [1/4 tsp? about]

Boil the noodles. Drain. Drain tuna. Mix the noodles with the rest of the ingredients, except the cheese. Pour into a casserole dish. Sprinkle cheese over the top. Cover. Bake at 350 degrees for 25 minutes until heated through and cheese melts. Notice I left the cheese off a part of it because I don't like the cheese on mine - besides it just adds to my sodium levels.
Here is the coolest thing tho' -
For six servings - Each serving contains only 250 calories

1st day of the New Year...

Remember last night when I said it was 55? And NO snow on the ground here in Michigan? Well I wasn't complaining, I was loving it... but I should have kept my mouth shut.

Now it's 19 degrees. From 55 to 19 in one day.
Freeeaking Ridiculous!!!

My first day of the new year was a busy one. LOTS of laundry done and taken to the laundromat. A crappy laundromat, even more crappy than my usual one since that was closed! That and housework and... the treadmill!

Yep, I got on the treadmill, after WEEKS of not touching it.

My New Years Resolutions- #1 loose twice what I lost last year, which will be 66 pounds. #2 Get on the treadmill EVERY day.

Yes, I said EVERY day. No matter what (unless there is something very wrong with me!) I know now that I did best when I did it everyday, if I gave myself a day off it would turn into 2 and then 10... every time! Even if it's a short walk, I must get on it EVERY DAY!

Of course get my eating back on track! But even if I have a bad day with eating (like today) getting on the treadmill is mandatory! No "Oh, I messed up. I'll do good tomorrow and then get on the treadmill..." TREADMILL NO MATTER WHAT!

I want to do my blog everyday, even if it's just to record my calories... or just to say hi :) I don't know why it's so hard lately... my horrible addiction to facebook (mainly Frontierville!) has a lot to do with it...

As I mentioned, my food wasn't great today. It started off SO good, but later I snacked a little to much. And am up way to late and hungry... bleh.

But lets concentrate on the good hmm? Even though it was late, I got on the treadmill :) I was NOT going to start the year off missing a day! So here's today's:

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .33 mile

Not long, but a great start imo :)

Last night I didn't drink anymore than my one glass... and just got tired. My brother left early, to go to his... girl friends... house. (maybe we'll talk more about that another time lol) The other brothers didn't come. So it was just me Ray and the kid. It was nice :) But I was SO tired and we ended up in bed soon after the ball dropped. Tonight is a different story. It's 2:15, and my brother JUST got here, and Ray and I are drinking what we didn't last night lol. And we're wide awake. SOO it's more like New Year's Eve tonight lol.

I'm ok with today. I know this year will be great :)

I hope every one's year is off to a great start!

Have a Good Night, and a great tomorrow!





New Year's Eve... last weigh in of 2010!

This will be short, but not sweet :)
My brothers will be here soon, going to be a night in with a little drinking, playing video games, (if I get buzzed enough, I'll be playing guitar hero lol) maybe some dominoes or cards. We'll see!

It is 55 degrees here right now. In Michigan, on New Years Eve, at 10:11pm!!! That is just... crazy. NO snow on the ground... this has been the mildest winter EVER... at least that I can remember!

The main reason I've been away is my eating hasn't been great. I guess it was that end of the year thing I do... knowing that I'll be "starting over" on the first, so I can be bad if I want??? Which is SO STUPID and only hurts ME. The funny thing, last year I didn't have that. I was SO exited to loose weight, and just knew I was going to be able to do it! And I did!!! Until I didn't anymore...

So let's get this last weigh in over with shall we?
The scale says...

287
That's a 2.4 poud
gain from last week.
It makes my total lost:
33 pounds lost for the year

About half of what I unofficially wanted to loose...

As you know I had lost 42 pounds at my best point... and I REALLY didn't want to have to report a year end number less than that!

But it's ok. It is what it is. No sense in the "if onlys" or "I should have" I just have to make sure I do what needs to be done this year! AND STICK WITH IT!

So all is well here :) Not sure about any new resolutions... Just to rededicate myself!

Well, you know what? I do have a goal... I want to lose twice what I did this year :) That would be 66 pounds, and a total loss of 99 pounds. How awesome would that be???

Alright. Bro number 1 is here, got my 1st glass half gone. It looks like there is going to be a major disc golf tournament in the living room... via the PS3 MOVE of course :) Better go watch! Yes I know... I'm a party animal hehe :)

Here's to 2011 being the best year ever! Woo Hoo!

Have a great night!!!! Safe and Happy wishes to you all!!!!

And thanks for sticking by me through 2010, even though sometimes it seemed there were more downs than ups! I appreciate all who supported me, more that you could ever know! 2011 will be better :) I can feel it!!! Or is that the alcohol I feel??? :)

HUGS!!!

Merry Christmas!!!

I'm pretty tired, and am going to bed now.
I had a great day and I hope you all did too!

It's my first Christmas as a blogger,
and I have to say,
I thought of a lot of you today.

And really hope today was wonderful for you :)

Just wanted to say Merry Christmas!
And no matter what you believe, or where you are...
My only hope is that you feel peace... and that you know you are loved.

That's what matters isn't it? ♥

I'll be back tomorrow (or tonight if I can't sleep!)
For now:
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a GREAT night!

It's Christmas Eve! (and weigh day)

First let me thank Auntie Mandy for joining us here in My Day! Thank you and Happy Holidays!

And... Merry Christmas Eve Everybody!!!!

Today was also time for my weekly weigh in.

And the scale said...

284.6

That is .2 pound loss this week,

and make my Total Lost: 35.4 pounds.

Still almost 7 pounds away from being in the green... but it's a loss. And sadly enough, a loss 2 weeks in a row is scarce for me these days. Soooo, I've decided to just be happy with it. I may not end the year in the green, and I have accepted that. I have made a LOT of mistakes, but it will do me no good to beat myself up about it. All I can do is my best, and that will have to do. A loss the week before Christmas? I'm happy with it, even it it's only .2 pound :) I will do my best to make it a loss again next week and be happy with what ever number it is! And while it may not end in the "green" I will still end the year with a Total loss! Over 35 pounds less than this time last year! It may be slower than I expected... but 35 pounds is 35 pounds :)

I did get candy yesterday... and it didn't go well! I had way to much of it. Today I did a lot better. I had a few kisses and Hershey miniatures, but nothing like years past. Or yesterday. I am dividing the candy between Ray and my son's stockings, AND making little bags for My Mom, Stepdad, and 3 brothers. So there won't be much left for me. Oh, I'm sure I'll have some, but not 10 pieces at a time!

Me and my son are going to decorate cookies now, the last ones are due out of the oven in 7 minutes 50 seconds :) I'll take some pictures and show you tomorrow! Like on Thanksgiving, most of them will be left at my Mom's.

I am definitely in the Christmas mood :) I'm not letting anything bother me, and am exited for Christmas :)

Have a Merry Christmas Eve! Tomorrow have a wonderful day, and be safe!

*I did NOT take that picture. It is from WEBSHOTS

All Caught Up!

A quick thank you to ~Layla~, for joining me in my day!

Also, go and visit the review blog by Happy Fun Pants HERE for your last chance to win $150! All you have to do is comment, I think it's until the 28th... If you remember, that's how I won $150 and could afford my camera on Black Friday, and external hard drive I needed :) It's the biggest prize I've ever won in my life!!! It was awesome, so go! Good luck!

I just got all caught up on blogs... it must have taken me 2 hours lol. I took a break in between! Even if I don't write, I really am going to come read at least once per day. I miss out on so much good stuff when I'm gone!!! (and bad stuff... that I could have tried to be supportive about)

I have been writing down everything I eat, but since it hasn't been good, I dreaded writing it here... so I put it off, and now it's almost a week later! How did that even happen? I look at it though, and it's really not a bad as I thought. I had pizza one day, but only 2 slices! I did have a sandwich last night, I stayed up all night and got hungry... and a turkey sandwich was what I really wanted... so I had it. 220 calories... in the middle of the night. The worst thing though, was chips. I bought a bag of multigrain onion chips (Aldi's brand Sunchips) and snacked on them like crazy. Over 2 days, I ate almost the whole bag by myself! Not good, and my body felt like CRAP. Water was doing pretty well, until yesterday and today. I HAVE to get my water in! I really feel it when I don't :(
With the season and having so much trouble keeping up with blogworld, I'm going to give myself a break. I'm not going to worry about recording everything I eat until January first. Actually, I will still write it down (I'm afraid if I stop I won't start again!) but not record it here. Maybe just the highlights :)

A good thing? Besides candy canes, I have resisted Christmas candy in the house. The usual chocolates are not in a dish on the table. Tomorrow I will be buying some though, for the kids stocking... but I will do my best not to go overboard! Not buy BAGS of candy and snack on it all by myself at night like previous years! It's almost Christmas... so all month, without the candy? I'm already ahead :)

I haven't weighed myself since Friday either... so I have NO IDEA...

I've been pretty busy, but after I was done being sick, I have been doing pretty well. Not stressed out too bad. Just remembering that Serenity Prayer!

I am so thankful, we have money to buy presents this year. We always manage, but this year I really wasn't sure... but with Ray's extra hours, christmas money from my Dad, and some luck, we did pretty good! I think my son may have a little less presents than most years, but he has plenty. And I know he'll be happy :) Tomorrow we have to get a few more things (for 2 of my brothers and Mom and Step Dad) and we'll be done shopping :) I'm very thankful. It's going to be a great Christmas :)

I already made sure that my brother understands I expect it to be family friendly over there when my son is around. So no weed, and I'm very relieved that he handled it fine and that I don't have to worry about it.
My Mom actually said how nice it was to have us over for Thanksgiving, and that maybe we could come over more often since it went well with the "no weed" rule... So she actually noticed we hadn't been there in 4 months... I said "Yeah, you make sure everything is put away and everyone understands that we're comming over so NO weed. Then call me." I also told her "It really sucks we have to make an appointment to come over, but whatever..." She said "ok, sounds good." She doesn't get how ridiculous it all is. It makes me sick.... BUT no more of that. I'm in a good mood remember? :) It won't happen anyway. She will NOT make the effort, I already know that... In fact, she was just over at her cousins yesterday and didn't even stop here (she lives 2 minutes down the street) I only know she was there because my son saw them when he was walking home from school and figured they had been here... she pretends she can't come visit here because she can't visit ANYWHERE... but I know she goes over there all the time. WHY you ask? Well because her cousin will get her high for free of course! So OF COURSE she can go over there and visit! But not visit her grandson.... oops... I've got to stay in a good mood, so enough of that!
We'll just go on holidays. I'm fine with that. I pretty much have no family to go visit anymore... but whatever. I can't deal with the stress, it's just not worth it to me. (We'll go into how weird my Stepmom is acting, and how I don't feel welcome there now either- just not today) I don't care... I'm fine being a hermit lol... but I really worry about my son :(
Enough of that!

It will be a great Christmas. As long as I'm not thinking of all this, and just enjoying my family's company, all will be well :)

I will really try and post more often now. I miss posting everyday... having that routine!

I'll leave you with a picture of VanGogh, our youngest. (But not the smallest!)

He can't wait for Christmas either!!!! 

Friday Weigh In

Hello. First let me say a quick thank you to Pic Soso, thank you for joining us here at My Day!

Second, it's weigh in time. And the scale says...

284.8

That's a loss of 1.4 pounds this week,

Making my Total Lost: 35.2 pounds

I'm always glad to have a loss... but it just needs to be MORE. Especially with how sick I was earlier this week. I was down to 280, and I really thought it would be a bigger loss this week. BUT I'm feeling better now, and my appetite is back- with a vengeance!
So I have 6.8 pounds left to loose JUST to be in the green again. I WILL loose this by New Year. So that's 3.4 pounds to loose each of the 2 weeks that are left this year. That is a pretty big number for me to loose as you can see by the chart over to the right... but I REALLY want to end the year on a good note... a GREEN NOTE!!!! :) 

I have been feeling better, now I just have a cold. I never thought I would be so happy to just have a cold lol... but man, it's SOOO much better than whatever I did have!

Here's what I ate today:

Coffee: 40

2 tsp coffeemate, 1 tsp sugar. Didn't finish the cup though

Lunch: 1030

1 chicken sandwich, medium? eggnog shake

Snack: 80

1 cup ff skim milk

Dinner: 490

3/4 cup taco soup with tortilla chips (about 15) and cheddar cheese. 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 240

3 candy cane (oreo type) cookies, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 160
Simply Cinnamon Corn Flakes with a bout 1/2 cup milk (cats got the rest)
Total Water: about 5 oz :( SO FAR
Total Calories: 2040
Holy Crap! Do you know how many calories are in a Burger King Original Chicken Sandwich? 630! I am blown away by that! I actually thought I did ok for lunch... even though it was buy one get one free, I only got one. Now I see that it wasn't that great... AND I asked for a small shake... I haven't had a shake (or anything) from there in a looong time, but this didn't look like a small. I think it was a medium. Of course I didn't have to drink it all... but I did... I joked with Ray and said I would be using the calories from a small because that's what I ordered!!!! But I didn't, I can not tell a lie lol. And this was no small.

Well, I'm going to have to do a lot better than that if I am going to loose 3.4 pounds each week for the next 2... If only I had NO appetite like those few days when I was sick, things would be so much easier! No matter :) I will just have to control myself! It seems like EVERY Friday after weigh in, whether I do good or bad, I end up eating a lot. So if this is my mess up day, it's not THAT bad. Now I just have to get my ass in gear and really work hard for the next 2 weeks! I'll just keep telling myself, "It's only 2 weeks." That's not entirely true, because this will continue forever... but just don't let my brain know that! lol :)

I MUST record what I eat everyday.
I also have to get back to drinking at least 40 oz of water every day. Today was the worst with water in a while. We finished up christmas shopping for the kid :) So we were gone a while, and my whole day was kind of thrown off... but I'll get a glass right now and try and get some in before bed.

I went to bed last night at 9:30, 9:30 people!!!!! I'm really trying to get to bed at a decent time every night. Since I was sick, I've been doing an ok job with that. It's hard on the weekends, but I'm really going to try and keep at it.

Ok, Gonna watch some tv, NOT eat, drink some water, and get to bed. I'll see you tomorrow, even it it's only to record my food! Recording my food everyday is mandatory!
Good night everyone! Sweet Dreams! :)