Friday, March 18, 2011

I don't feel 100%, but I do feel Lucky

My mood was good. It was so beautiful! I got to have my windows open and everything! The only snow left is the mountains at the end of the streets from the plows :)

My food? Not so great. I slept in, and now am up late... and hungry :( I did ok for meals, but had 3 cookies instead of one... AND a 320 calorie danish this morning...
I want to be able to have just one, but maybe Jo is right. I should just cut off the sweets all together for now... because just one didn't work very well today...
I got in 20 oz of water, but tomorrow I want to get back to getting at least 40. I'll go back to using a water bottle, thanks colenic! :)

I didn't get on the treadmill. I did some laundry, so it has a bunch of clothes drying on it right now in fact. I'm not going to promise I'll get on it tomorrow, because I probably won't. I did work up a little sweat just doing dishes and some cleaning... I have really neglected the house for the last 2 months...

My depression was very deep, and now I have the aftermath to deal with. Things I've neglected, bills, laundry, you name it. A lot has happened, but now that I'm starting to feel better, I don't really want to think about it. The issues aren't really resolved, so they may come up later... but for now I'm going to try and be happy. Especially with everything going on in the world right now... I don't want to complain. I feel very blessed. Today wasn't the best, but oh my goodness it could have been much worse! Tomorrow will be better :)

On this St. Patrick's Day I am feeling very lucky. Lucky I don't live in the middle east. Lucky I don't have to deal with an earth quake, tsunami, or anything else Japan is dealing with. Lucky I do not live near a nuclear power plant... Lucky Ray works close, and I don't have to spend a fortune on these crazy gas prices. Lucky to have my fiance who loves me and my son who is my world. Lucky to be alive.

Happy St. Patrick's Day. I hope you are feeling lucky!
Or at least drinking a green beer lol :)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Just popping in...

I don't have much to report, I really want to get back in the habit though!

Today I didn't do so well, it was an average day I guess (my new average that is). Hardly any water :( NOT good. Also ordered a burrito, but I can say that I got full and only ate half of it. It was still way to much food, but better than I've been doing... I didn't eat the rest of it.

Even though I didn't do so well, I feel great today :) The snow is melting, and it might get up to 60 degrees tomorrow! Woo Hoo!!! ALL the snow should be gone by tomorrow night :) I think the weather has a lot to do with how depressed I have been. The sun really did me good today. Oh, and I saw my first robin today! That means spring is here right!

Tomorrow I get serious. Slow and steady is still the plan. I'm going to concentrate on drinking enough and JUST ONE. I'll allow myself a cookie in the morning, but only ONE... not 4 like today...

Weigh in is Monday as usual, I don't expect any big loss, but if I do well for the next 4 days... I think 1 pound is a reasonable amount to hope for! lol, slow and steady :)

I hope everyone had a good day!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Where I'm At...

Hi everybody :)
I hope all is well here in Blogland! I've missed it, haven't really been around in 2 months!
I have to say hello to Wendy:), Sorry I've been such a bad hostess to a new follower!

I have been going through a lot these last 2 months, not that it's much different than before... I've just handled it much worse...

I did very well staying on the treadmill every day, for about a month and a half. Then I missed a day, and struggled after that, until I just quit all together. It's been about 3 weeks since I've been on it.

That has been pretty much whatever I want. I actually do ok with portions most of the time, what I'm eating isn't good. I have coffee with 1/2 serving cappuccino mix (55 calories) every morning, but I also have something sweet with it. SOMETHING SWEET ALMOST EVERY MORNING... Like cookies, donuts, danish... Something new for me. Then a cappuccino later (110 cal) most of the time... and sometimes another sweet thing with that!
I haven't been writing what I eat. I stopped on purpose, thinking that it might help... I felt like ALL I thought about was food... I didn't plan on stopping my blog though. So I think I will try and do well without recording the food... It hasn't worked in about 8 months now. It worked at first, but you know what??? I was so motivated and excited ANYTHING would have worked... After recording everything for over a year, I think I know calories pretty well, and portion sizes... but if I feel it will help, I'll go back to it... We'll see what happens :)

The Weight
Every week I thought I would get back to blogging. So I weighed in every Monday, and took a picture every time. My camera is full of pictures of the scale lol. I will update the side chart properly when I get the camera and have the dates and weights. For now I've updated the stats. I am now at 294 pounds, a gain of 7 pounds this year. :( Makes me sick... I have gained back 16 pounds of my highest loss of 42 pounds :( I hoped to never see the 280s again, and here I am in the 290s!
It doesn't do any good to concentrate on the what ifs, or I should haves... I'm lucky I didn't gain more I guess...

So anyway, I am back :) I don't have any set plan, just watch my portions and stop with all the sweet stuff, and as always: cut back on the fast food! I still need to lose weight, and still have all the same hopes and reasons as when I started this blog last year... I am just having a hard time getting motivated, and staying dedicated to it. I know I NEED to though. I'm hoping that being back in Blogland will help me :) Reading all of yours always motivates me, and writing helps with stress...

If your still here thank you :)
If your not, or don't want to be, that's cool. Better to follow a blog that is more suited to you. I sure don't need any more negativity that's for sure!

Ok, here we go again... See you later!