Friday Weigh In, Turkey Burgers, and Cat Trouble

OMGoodness. This turned into a long and rambling post lol. Feel free to just skim it!

And the scale says...

279.2

That is a gain of 1.2 pounds.

Making my Total Weight Lost: 40.8 pounds

Treadmill Totals for the week:

2 hours 15 minutes and

5.26 miles :)

If it weren't for the treadmill (and being sick yesterday) I'm sure the gain would have been more, with the way I was eating last week. I think 5 miles is a good number to shoot for each week, and I will do my best!

As far as food, I feel much better, but I now want to snack all day! I don't know why, I just feel hungry all day, and even when I'm not- I want to snack anyway!!! Ugh. I think I did ok with it today, I gave in to the snacking- but only had a little bit...

I had a VERY busy day. In the midst of all this chaos, I realized how far I've come when my brother brought me to the store.

A GREAT REALIZATION:

As you know, my car isn't running (and now there is no more talk from ray's Mom about her guy... I have no idea why) and so when my brother brought me grocery shopping, I stocked up! So I got more than usual, trying to cover everything we will need for a while, since I'm not sure when I'll be going again. After I was all done shopping, and putting it all on the belt myself, putting it all back in the cart myself, I felt great! I wasn't tired, I wasn't sweating. I was just fine. It reminded me of a post I did when I first started this, probably in March or late Feb? I remember telling you how I felt bad because after Ray worked all night, he had to come to the store with me. I had recently gotten to the point where I couldn't go grocery shopping by myself if I was getting more than a few things. I was so tired and out of breath that I couldn't do the whole check out thing with out sweating like crazy...

but it's been a few months now, that I don't need any help (he helps me bring it all in when I get home) and today- even with extra stuff, I felt great :) It really reminds my why I am doing this. And that I have come a long way already, and I have to keep going!

Here's what I ate today:

Coffee: 46

Lunch: 404

Turkey sandwich (on whole wheat, with 1 slice pepper jack cheese, lettuce and miracle whip), 6 baby carrots, 1/2 tbs light ranch, water

Snack: 63

5 sunchips

Snack: 148

6 tortilla chips and 1 tbs salsa con queso

Dinner: 770

Turkey Burger (on white bun, slice of pepper jack, lettuce, tiny bit bbq sauce) baked beans, 9 sunchips, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 460

3 doughnut holes, 1 cup apple cider

Total Water: 41 oz

Total Calories: 1891

Wow... and I thought I did pretty good today! I can't believe those tiny doughnut holes are 110 calories EACH!!! And dinner really added up faster than I thought! That's more calories than I thought I had...

TURKEY BURGERS:

It was out first time having turkey burgers. I have to say... I'm not impressed.

I got Jennie-O Lean turkey burger patties 'with no artificial ingredients.' They tasted ok, we seasoned them with ranch seasoning... I definitely I like regular burgers better. The whole reason I got them is because they are supposed to be so much more healthy. But my extra lean ground beef has LESS calories than this! I am pretty surprised! Where my beef is 96% fat free, this is 93%.

I'm looking at the 2 packages right now, and here's the breakdown on a quarter pound of the beef and the turkey...

The turkey has 20 MORE calories, 3.5 grams MORE fat, 1 gram MORE saturated fat, 15 mg MORE cholesterol, 40 mg MORE sodium, 4 grams LESS protein, and 9% LESS Iron... Also, the beef has that little 'heart check' symbol, and is certified by the 'National Heart Association.'

The only good thing I see is that the turkey has 2% Vitamin A and 2% calcium... I need my iron more than those I think...

Maybe I got the wrong thing? I thought that the patties would be the same as if they weren't in patties. (I only got patties cause they were on sale) but maybe they aren't?

I don't know. Do you eat turkey burgers? If so, why?

I have some left, so I would love to know how you eat them! What you season them with and what you use on them... Please! :)

Treadmill: 11 minutes/ .43 mile, Incline 1, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

I have a treadmill story. It's the reason I was on it such a short time, and it's NOT a good story. You may leave now if you want, lol.

CAT TROUBLE

I'm on the treadmill and notice my cat is acting weird. I'm watching her and she starts pawing over in the corner by the PS3. Then she paws at the rug in front of the door... "Miya!" I say. She stops and runs off. She comes back and goes about 4 feet away from where I'm walking, and is just staring... What is she looking at? I wonder. As I watch her, I realize she is not just standing there, she is going to the bathroom!!! 4 feet away from me, in plain sight!! I was fricken SHOCKED! So I yell at her, like she's going to answer me, "Miya!!! What are you DOING!?!?!?" I get off the treadmill, grab her by the scruff and go towards the basement. The litter is down there, and I throw her down the stairs! ...

No I didn't, but I was so mad I honestly thought about it! I can't do that though, so I set her down and she runs down in fear. So I get to clean up a HUGE steamy pile of shit on my living room carpet. She must have been holding that for 2 days!!!! WTF!?!?! UGH, I was so mad.

So I didn't get back on the treadmill, but I DID get a work out.

Earlier in the day Ray had told me that he had  a couple fleas on his legs in the basement. UGH. So far we haven't been bothered, and haven't seen them in the house. Just on the cats, and know they still have them because of the scratching. But since the litter is down there, and they go to bed down there at night, it must have gotten worse in the last couple days. So before she did her business on the carpet, I had already bought some spray and the neck stuff for them while at the store. After I calmed down, I realized she must have only done that, because there ARE fleas in the basement, and they must be bothering her so bad that she didn't want to go down there. Poor thing :(

So I chased them all down, sprayed them all REAL good with this stuff, chased them all down again to dry them off, and brushed the 3 that I could after that. I was sweating like crazy! Miya was actually really good, I think she was still scared of me and how mad I was. After a minute of rubbing the stuff on her, I told her "It's ok." and she started purring. I know it's because she knew I forgave her, because cats DON'T pure while getting flea treated, trust me lol. But it's all done, and tomorrow morning I will put on the other stuff, that is supposed to last 1 month (WE'LL SEE). And once we get that stuff on them, we are going to flea bomb the basement. Fun Fun I tell ya.

SO keep your fingers crossed for us and the kitties!!! Nothing has worked so far, This HAS to work. I'm SICK of this crap. And I can't stand to see them miserable either of course. They are indoors, I shouldn't even have to deal with this!!! Grrr!



K, I guess I better go now lol. It's way past my bedtime, and I'm not tired, and am HUNGRY. I want chips and salsa con queso, but I think I'll have a small bowl of cereal :)

Goodnight!

Worrying is Like... A Rocking Chair?

Worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere.
-Glenn Turner

I've been feeling pretty good the last couple days. I am really just trying to appreciate what I have and take everything day by day.

My cousin K had a visit from the prosecutor. Pictures were taken of where her daughter found the pills. K said she is being charged with child abuse/neglect. That was 2 days ago, and the kids are still there... so I don't know what's going to happen. CPS still has to make their surprise visit also... I'm trying not to think about it. It may sound bad, but I really just can't handle the stress of it all. Me worrying about it was REALLY getting to me, I just have to let go and hope that whatever is supposed to happen, happens. As much as I love my cousin, whatever's best for the girls is what's important.

My eating was a disaster yesterday. Well, just dinner and after I guess. I had chips and cheese deluxe and a wet tostada for dinner.The rest of the day consisted 1 Iced coffee, Migas for lunch. Snacks were 2 oatmeal creme pies (170 cal each), Special K bar, and 2 bowls of cereal. I didn't drink enough water, probably only 20 oz. I woke up feeling like Sh*t!!! My whole body hurt. I didn't STUFF myself, but just the unhealthy choices and not enough water really made my body feel horrible. I wonder if I used to feel like this every morning?!?!?!?! I didn't think so, but that's how I used to eat everyday, so I probably did!!!! I can't imagine getting up everyday feeling like that....

I did get on the treadmill for 20 minutes/ .78 mile :) 5 minutes with 2 lb weights

Today's eating was better:
Breakfast: 165
Coffee and a Mocha Special K bar
Lunch: 434
Tuna sandwich on whole wheat with 1 slice of pepper jack cheese and hot pepper rings, 1 whole carrot 62 grams, 1 tbs light ranch, Water
Snack: 23
Werther's Candy
Dinner: 495
1 1/2 cups of 3 cheese chicken Voila (frozen meal with broccoli, carrots, corn, pasta, chicken), 1 slice buttered toast, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 245
about 1 1/2 cup frosted puffed wheat cereal with ff skim milk
Total Water: about 30 oz
Total Calories: 1362
Have you ever had Voila? I love it, I've only tried the chicken kind, and the cheese one is the best tasting I think. I was wondering if it would be less calories if I made it myself... like mixed my own veggies chicken, pasta and found some kind of cheese sauce or flavoring... maybe even leave out the pasta. What would I use for cheese flavoring? Any ideas???
I bought regular carrots instead of baby ones. I really don't taste a difference... I think I like the baby ones better. I'll finish this bag and decide :)

Treadmill for today:
13 minutes/ .50 mile
The last 2 days I did it in the morning and it felt SO good. Mostly because it was out of the way lol. Tonight it was just a rush to get it over with and wishing I would have done it earlier! But I did it and that's what matters to me. Definitely have to do it in the mornings though, I like that SOO much better...
I have to admit, I was genuinely AFRAID to take a break from the treadmill. I thought that once I took a day off I wouldn't get back on it! (That's what happened back in April, I got heat stroke and couldn't do it, and never got back into the habit of doing everyday- until now!) But I took 2 days off, and I'm right back on it. I know I'll still get on it everyday. Once in a while I might take a day off, but it won't hurt me, and it will still be habit! I feel pretty good about it :)

I also got extra walking in today. I walked to get my mail (I usually just get it when I'm already out in the car going somewhere) it's about 200 feet away I would guess. I'm going to try and make that a habit too.
More walking in the store, my son and I went shopping in a store I'm not really used to so it was a lot of looking around lol. He spent most of his birthday Money. (he got a bday card/money from my grandmother, I'm pretty suprised, but we'll go into that another time)
We also got just about everything he needs for camp :) Now that that cookie dough is all sold, that part of the stress is over, and he has just about everything he needs :) Now it's counting down the days till he goes, which is SIX. (and then counting the hours until he gets back!!!)

Tomorrow is weigh in, and I should be afraid with how I have been eating and not drinking enough water. But my ring says I lost... My engagement ring is my new weight gauge, and it seems to work pretty well lol. It is VERY loose. Not falling off on it's own yet, but definitely loose! I haven't stepped on the scale at all this week... so I'm really hoping for a loss. Wish me Luck! (it has been good lately, I hope it is tomorrow!)

Have a great night everyone!

Tuesday/Wednesday

Yesterday
Lunch: tuna sandwich, 10 baby carrots, light ranch, water
Snack: (150) vanilla ice cream cup w 1 tbs chocolate syrup
Snack: about 7 chips and cheese dlx
Dinner: 2 cups creamy broccoli tuna helper with lots of added frozen broccoli, 1 piece buttered whole wheat, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: (10) freeze pop
Snack LATE night: 1/2 cup broccoli tuna helper
Snack: LATE night: bowl of strawberry frosted mini wheats w ff skim milk
Total Water: 42 oz plus 5 oz Sobe Life Water

Total Treadmill: 15 minutes/ .58 miles
Consecutive days  on the treadmill: 1

Today:
Breakfast: 1/2 bagel with cream cheese
Lunch early: 1 cup of left over broccoli tuna helper w extra broccoli, Water
Snack around lunch time: 4 bites of macaroni, 1/3 hot dog
Snack: 4 cookies w ff skim milk
Dinner: 5 small/medium slices of pizza, Romain salad, 1 bbq chicken wing
Snack: 8 yogurt raisins
Total Water: 55 oz
Yeah, it's not great.
I really need to cut down on the snacking. And when I do snack, it needs to be healthier things. I have nectarines, plums and grapes right now, but have barley touched them! My son likes them, so that's good. I need to eat them too.
My headache last night turned into a migraine and I didn't do much today. I didn't go to the store like I need to, and ended up having pizza. I know SHOULD feel guilty... but I don't. It was really good and really hit the spot. I just have to make sure that was that, and it doesn't set off a 4 day ordering spurt like it used to. I DO wish I wouldn't have had 5 pieces though! There was no reason for that at all, it was just good- and that's not a good excuse!!!
The only thing that would have made it better would be pop. BUT I didn't have any :) That's one thing I am doing good with. Oh, and the treadmill :)

Total Treadmill: 16 minutes/ .62 miles
Consecutive days on the treadmill: 2

Besides the eating, everything else is great. My head ache is gone, I feel good. I'm pretty tired, so I'll be going to bed here in a minute. I gotta tell about my legs though :) I have noticed in the last 2 weeks that my legs look smaller. Still huge, but smaller lol. Before those last couple stressful days, actually the DAY it all started, I took my measurements again. I have lost a few inches and am very happy. I just ran into a bunch of drama and haven't posted it yet :) I'll try tomorrow.
So anyway, today I'm walking by and Ray tells me to hold on, then to turn around. I thought I had food on my shorts lol, but nope- he was looking at my legs! He said "Wow Tina! It must be your shorts or something, but your legs look small." haha, I don't mind if he thinks it's the shorts. I said, "OR it could be because I've lost 40 pounds!" haha :) But it made me feel good. I also told him now that I'm back on the treadmill my calves will probably bulk back up and be enormous :( but that's ok!

Oh! Another thing that happened was this morning. It was storming, and POURING rain when I had to go get Ray. I got outside and was instantly SOAKED. My flip flops were slippery and really hard to walk in, so I took them off, and ran the rest of the way to my car. Well... jogged :) It was probably only about 50 feet, but still! I only did it because I knew no one would see me lol :) BUT I wasn't out of breath or anything like I normally would be. Then since I had my shoes off, I had to move the seat up. And my stomach wasn't even touching the wheel!!! Wooo Hoooo!!!!!
I am still huge and have a long way to go, but these little victories show me that I am making progress. Slowly but surely!!!! :)

Physical Changes

Here's a picture of the new red tailed hawks. She is feeding them. They were just hatched about 48 hours ago. There is still one egg left. They are SO Cute!

It is crazy how fast baby birds grow and change! I wish I could see changes in myself that fast!

I have some good news :) Ray was rubbing my back and commented that it feels a lot tighter then it used to. It's always nice to hear something like that :) I can tell too, I am hoping I'll be able to see a little difference next time I take my 1st of the month pictures... if I can't, that will be fine too, because I can feel it. It would just be SO nice to be able to see it too!
Some not so good news? The Chest area LOL. Yes, they are... deflating. I think a lot big women can sympathise. It's always the FIRST place I loose weight. Not exactly motivating! This time around I'm actually ok with that too though... it's worse then ever, but that's because I've lost more than I ever have! I knew it would happen and it just shows that I am making progress. The other place that is good AND bad is my arms... or the wings under them I should say. They were already hideous, but now they are hanging even worse! The more I loose I think the worse it's going to look!!!! If only we could pick where that progress showed...  Ah well, such is life.

I slept all day again. I'm staying up way to late and then going back to bed after I pick up Ray/drop my son off. It started on spring break and just keeps getting worse!

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: (408) Tuna Sandwich(1 can, 1 tbs miracle whip, 1/8 cup cheddar) on whole wheat, 5 carrots, 1 1/2 tbs light ranch
Dinner: (535) 1 cheeseburger (1/8 cheddar, olives, ketchup) on white bun, 1/2 cup of baked beans, water
Snack: (100) 4 oz  strawberry sundae cup
Snack Late: (420)1 1/2 cups leftover broccoli rice with 1/4 cup mozzarella cheese and taco bell sauce. 1/2 can of Mountain Frost (cheap Mtn dew) I know, bad choice of late night snack again!
Drink: (90) the rest (1/2 can) Mountain Frost
Total Water: 44 oz
Total Calories: 1553
Not the best choices today. I definitely have to be careful, eating meals at night used to be one of my biggest problems. I can't fall back into that! One more reason I have to start going to bed!!!
I don't know if I've mentioned it, but we always use lean ground beef, for EVERYTHING. Today it was 93% instead of our usual 97%, got it at a different store and didn't realize the difference. We have also been using Natural ketchup, doesn't taste any different :)
Treadmill: 22 minutes/.77 mile    2 LB weights for 5 minutes
I will be up late tonight. Ray and I have to watch one of our favorite shows Breaking Bad at 1:30am.

I'll leave you with this :)

It's a picture of the little bear that visits the Florida Animal Cam. He was pretty interested in those turkeys today!

Gloomy... the Day. NOT me :)

'Spring is Here' my a**!

I took a few pictures of the birds out side today, couldn't decide which one

to post, so you get all 3 lol. Even though it is gloomy out, I am surprisingly happy today :)

I got up this morning at 3:35 and brought my fiance to work. I had put off grocery shopping all week, and decided to stay up and go at 6am. I had a lot to get and he always comes with me, but I was thinking of how much better I feel and that I could probably handle it myself. I was also thinking of all the calories it would burn (walking all over the store, packing it all up, putting it all in the car, bringing it all in the house, scanning it all for NCP, putting it all away) and now I'm proud of my self. Within the last 2 years or so, I don't ever make big shopping trips with out him, because I get out of breath, my back kills me, I even get sweaty just loading it all up onto the belt! But today I did it ALL by myself and I was fine :) I was a little hot, and a little out of breath after carrying it all in, but I'm good :) I wasn't sweaty and My back doesn't hurt at all!!! Now when he gets out of work he won't have to help me :)

I got lots of good healthy stuff at the store. I got through the whole loaf of wheat bread, and you know what? It wasn't THAT bad :) I bought a new loaf today, I think I might like it better. It took me along time to pick it out at the store, it has no artificial anything (which I just thought all wheat bread was like that, but I was wrong) and compared to the other loaf I had it looks healthier. It's Arnold brand. I couldn't find any that had more then 3 grams of fiber per 2 slices though... and once I got it home I noticed it is higher in calories then the other one. 65 per slice. So I don't know... I got other healthy stuff too: Lots of Fruits and some Veggies, yogurt, and some Irish Cream wine... wait what? lol

THIS is the first robin I've seen this year.

The poor thing!!!

A quick note about "Spring." When I got out of the store, it was snowing :( yuck! and it snowed ALL DAY! It was just 64 degrees 2 days ago, and right now it is 31. I had to turn my heat back on! Ugh! Why do I live in Michigan again??? Oh yeah... mom, brothers and in laws.... grumble grumble... stupid family.... LOL! Just kidding about that last part! haha, good thing they don't read this...

The Cardinals don't seem to mind

Here's My Day:
Snack @4am: (90) Special K Bar- Vanilla Crisp, Water
Breakfast: (242) 1/2 bagel with 1 oz cream cheese, 2 large strawberries, Water
Lunch: (451) Tuna Sandwich(1 can, about 1/4 cup sharp cheddar, 1 tbs miracle whip on whole wheat toast) with hot pepper rings, 8 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch, Water
Dinner: (627) Leftovers- 1 slice of tomato pepperoni pizza, 1 small cheese stick, Romain and Spinach Salad with about 1/4 cup sharp cheddar, 1 tbs light ranch, 3 tbs croutons
Snack: (200) the rest of that apple pie, which was about 1/2 of it.
Snack: (310) 1 1/2 cup of Cocoa Puffs with 1 cup FF skim milk    I know, not the best choice- but you know what they say! I'm cuckoo for... ah never mind. That was lame, sorry. I think I'm overly tired. Going to bed LOL.
Total Water: 48 oz
Total Calories: 1920
I want to let you know I passed on McDonalds today. Even though an egg McMuffin and a Frappe sounded SOOO good... I had already had breakfast and knew I didn't NEED it. So I said no :) go me!
Treadmill: 20 minutes/.67 mile
Crunches: 100