Just popping in...

I don't have much to report, I really want to get back in the habit though!

Today I didn't do so well, it was an average day I guess (my new average that is). Hardly any water :( NOT good. Also ordered a burrito, but I can say that I got full and only ate half of it. It was still way to much food, but better than I've been doing... I didn't eat the rest of it.

Even though I didn't do so well, I feel great today :) The snow is melting, and it might get up to 60 degrees tomorrow! Woo Hoo!!! ALL the snow should be gone by tomorrow night :) I think the weather has a lot to do with how depressed I have been. The sun really did me good today. Oh, and I saw my first robin today! That means spring is here right!

Tomorrow I get serious. Slow and steady is still the plan. I'm going to concentrate on drinking enough and JUST ONE. I'll allow myself a cookie in the morning, but only ONE... not 4 like today...

Weigh in is Monday as usual, I don't expect any big loss, but if I do well for the next 4 days... I think 1 pound is a reasonable amount to hope for! lol, slow and steady :)

I hope everyone had a good day!

The Food...

One of the things I want to make sure to do is at least come and record my food everyday again. Since it's the 5th, you can see I haven't been doing so well with this! I mean... not at all!

Saturday was the 1st, and I'm not sure what I ate. It was like New Years Eve a day late, and it involved drinking, pizza, and I even had some chocolate covered peanuts...

While they were good, they were NOT worth the calories!

Once I saw the calories on the package,

I didn't eat them all. I shared :)

That in my hand is what was in the package,

6 pieces,

anyone want to guess the calories on that?

I'm having trouble with my eating... this is nothing like last year! I was SOO excited, and just had so much motivation... I didn't even wait till the first I started the week before with just cutting out pop and eating a little less. I was doing great! Now... I just don't know. I've been just... I don't know.

I have been keeping track, and while I don't really want to write it down when I'm not doing so great... I will anyway! I really want to make this habit again. I feel like once I get back into the habit of recording it here everyday, it will help me make better choices...

The good news? I have been drinking more water. And I HAVE been sticking to my new years resolutions! I've been on the treadmill EVERY day :) The other one, of loosing 66 pounds this year? I am off to a slow start with food, but I really think I can do it.

So here is the last  few days:

Sunday

Coffee: 55 calories

with 1 1/2 tbs Double Mocha Cappuccino

Snack: 130

1/2 cup Honey Nut Chex Mix

Lunch: 350

Turkey Sandwich, water

Dinner: 1415

5 chicken tacos, 1/2 cup spanish rice, 1/2 cup re-fried beans, 1 cup milk

Snack: 115

1/2 cup cereal and 1/2 cup milk

Total Water: 24 oz

Total Calories: 2065

I know... 5 tacos? NO excuse for that...

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .37 mile

Monday

Snack 4am: 240

1 cup Simply Cinnamon corn flakes and 1 cup 2% milk

Coffee: 55

With 1 1/2 tbs double mocha cappuccino

Breakfast: 285

1 slice whole wheat with 1 tbs all natural peanut butter, 1 cup 2% milk

Snack: 130

Fit&Active Apple Cinnamon Fruit and Grain bar

Snack: 23

Werther's

Cappuccino Double Mocha (2 1/2 rounded tbs): 110

Lunch: 695

Leftovers- 1 chicken taco, 1/2 cup refried beans, 1/2 cup spanish rice

Dinner: 740

General Tso's Chicken (with rice, carrots, broccoli frozen) 1 egg role, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 190

1 cup frosted wheat puffs, 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 36 oz

Total Calories: 2063

I did much better with the tacos today! i was really mad at myself for having 5 before, and am very happy with myself only having one :) But I shouldn't have had such a high calorie dinner, since lunch was. I really have to work on that. If one or the other is high, have a lower calorie meal for the other...

Treadmill: 13 minutes/ .51 mile, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Tuesday

Coffee: 55

with DMC (1 1/2 tbs Double Mocha Cappuccino)

Breakfast: 130

Fit & Active Apple Cinnamon bar

Lunch: 866

Burger King Original Chicken Sandwich, 10 tortilla chips, 1 tbs chili cheese dip

Dinner: 575

1 1/2 servings tuna casserole, 1 slice whole wheat bread, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 200

Simply Cinnamon corn flakes with 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 33 oz

Total Calories: 1826

The tuna casserole came out very good!

this is on a small plate :) To psyche myself out?

It didn't really work though lol

I followed a recipe I got from SkippyMom's blog a while back (mostly). BUT I made the whole bag of egg noodles, when I think I was supposed to use 1/2. So I doubled up on everything, but I didn't have another cream of mushroom soup so I had to use cream of chicken with herbs, or something like that. I had sharp cheddar instead of mild, and didn't really measure the milk,  the cheese or peas. But I'm sure it was close lol. (Next time I'm going to make it how the recipe says though)

The verdict? Ray LOVED it. The kid liked it a lot, but "it has to many peas!"
He just don't love peas like his momma do! :)

Treadmill: 27 minutes/ 1.05 miles

This was the 5th day in a row on the treadmill :) It was the longest so far, but I did it a little different. I watched The Biggest Looser (even though I said I'd never watch again after last season!) and got on the treadmill during the commercial breaks :) I know, it wasn't the work out it would have been at one time, but I'm still happy with it. And since the treadmill is turned around now to save room... I can't watch tv on it :( I might have to change that... but I really hate it in the middle of the room taking up so much space! Gonna have to make a decision... If I could get on it earlier, I could try to read while walking... we'll see...

So there you have it. All you've missed. I have to tell you, now that I have it down I feel so much better! I actually hadn't added up the calories for the days until now... and I thought it was much worse. I would like to keep it under 2000 for now... OK, that's done and now I can move forward. Recording my eating daily here. I have been trying to go to bed at night, so I'm not sure if I'll be doing it nightly or in the mornings... but I'll be doing it!

And now that I have a camera that works, expect lots of pictures lol :)

I hope everyone is having a great new year! Even though I have a lot to improve on... I feel good about what's to come :)

* Was going to link to the recipe, but I am having trouble with Skippy's blog :(
So here it is, I'm sure she doesn't mind!!! Right skippy??? :)

As seen on Skippymom's Blog:

3 3/4 cups egg noodles [half a bag]
1 can cream of mushroom soup [low fat/50% less sodium]
1 can [5 oz] chunk light tuna in water
1/2 can of milk
2/3 cup of frozen peas
1/2 cup mild shredded cheddar
pepper to taste [1/4 tsp? about]

Boil the noodles. Drain. Drain tuna. Mix the noodles with the rest of the ingredients, except the cheese. Pour into a casserole dish. Sprinkle cheese over the top. Cover. Bake at 350 degrees for 25 minutes until heated through and cheese melts. Notice I left the cheese off a part of it because I don't like the cheese on mine - besides it just adds to my sodium levels.
Here is the coolest thing tho' -
For six servings - Each serving contains only 250 calories

1st day of the New Year...

Remember last night when I said it was 55? And NO snow on the ground here in Michigan? Well I wasn't complaining, I was loving it... but I should have kept my mouth shut.

Now it's 19 degrees. From 55 to 19 in one day.
Freeeaking Ridiculous!!!

My first day of the new year was a busy one. LOTS of laundry done and taken to the laundromat. A crappy laundromat, even more crappy than my usual one since that was closed! That and housework and... the treadmill!

Yep, I got on the treadmill, after WEEKS of not touching it.

My New Years Resolutions- #1 loose twice what I lost last year, which will be 66 pounds. #2 Get on the treadmill EVERY day.

Yes, I said EVERY day. No matter what (unless there is something very wrong with me!) I know now that I did best when I did it everyday, if I gave myself a day off it would turn into 2 and then 10... every time! Even if it's a short walk, I must get on it EVERY DAY!

Of course get my eating back on track! But even if I have a bad day with eating (like today) getting on the treadmill is mandatory! No "Oh, I messed up. I'll do good tomorrow and then get on the treadmill..." TREADMILL NO MATTER WHAT!

I want to do my blog everyday, even if it's just to record my calories... or just to say hi :) I don't know why it's so hard lately... my horrible addiction to facebook (mainly Frontierville!) has a lot to do with it...

As I mentioned, my food wasn't great today. It started off SO good, but later I snacked a little to much. And am up way to late and hungry... bleh.

But lets concentrate on the good hmm? Even though it was late, I got on the treadmill :) I was NOT going to start the year off missing a day! So here's today's:

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .33 mile

Not long, but a great start imo :)

Last night I didn't drink anymore than my one glass... and just got tired. My brother left early, to go to his... girl friends... house. (maybe we'll talk more about that another time lol) The other brothers didn't come. So it was just me Ray and the kid. It was nice :) But I was SO tired and we ended up in bed soon after the ball dropped. Tonight is a different story. It's 2:15, and my brother JUST got here, and Ray and I are drinking what we didn't last night lol. And we're wide awake. SOO it's more like New Year's Eve tonight lol.

I'm ok with today. I know this year will be great :)

I hope every one's year is off to a great start!

Have a Good Night, and a great tomorrow!





New Year's Eve... last weigh in of 2010!

This will be short, but not sweet :)
My brothers will be here soon, going to be a night in with a little drinking, playing video games, (if I get buzzed enough, I'll be playing guitar hero lol) maybe some dominoes or cards. We'll see!

It is 55 degrees here right now. In Michigan, on New Years Eve, at 10:11pm!!! That is just... crazy. NO snow on the ground... this has been the mildest winter EVER... at least that I can remember!

The main reason I've been away is my eating hasn't been great. I guess it was that end of the year thing I do... knowing that I'll be "starting over" on the first, so I can be bad if I want??? Which is SO STUPID and only hurts ME. The funny thing, last year I didn't have that. I was SO exited to loose weight, and just knew I was going to be able to do it! And I did!!! Until I didn't anymore...

So let's get this last weigh in over with shall we?
The scale says...

287
That's a 2.4 poud
gain from last week.
It makes my total lost:
33 pounds lost for the year

About half of what I unofficially wanted to loose...

As you know I had lost 42 pounds at my best point... and I REALLY didn't want to have to report a year end number less than that!

But it's ok. It is what it is. No sense in the "if onlys" or "I should have" I just have to make sure I do what needs to be done this year! AND STICK WITH IT!

So all is well here :) Not sure about any new resolutions... Just to rededicate myself!

Well, you know what? I do have a goal... I want to lose twice what I did this year :) That would be 66 pounds, and a total loss of 99 pounds. How awesome would that be???

Alright. Bro number 1 is here, got my 1st glass half gone. It looks like there is going to be a major disc golf tournament in the living room... via the PS3 MOVE of course :) Better go watch! Yes I know... I'm a party animal hehe :)

Here's to 2011 being the best year ever! Woo Hoo!

Have a great night!!!! Safe and Happy wishes to you all!!!!

And thanks for sticking by me through 2010, even though sometimes it seemed there were more downs than ups! I appreciate all who supported me, more that you could ever know! 2011 will be better :) I can feel it!!! Or is that the alcohol I feel??? :)

HUGS!!!

Friday Weigh In

Hello. First let me say a quick thank you to Pic Soso, thank you for joining us here at My Day!

Second, it's weigh in time. And the scale says...

284.8

That's a loss of 1.4 pounds this week,

Making my Total Lost: 35.2 pounds

I'm always glad to have a loss... but it just needs to be MORE. Especially with how sick I was earlier this week. I was down to 280, and I really thought it would be a bigger loss this week. BUT I'm feeling better now, and my appetite is back- with a vengeance!
So I have 6.8 pounds left to loose JUST to be in the green again. I WILL loose this by New Year. So that's 3.4 pounds to loose each of the 2 weeks that are left this year. That is a pretty big number for me to loose as you can see by the chart over to the right... but I REALLY want to end the year on a good note... a GREEN NOTE!!!! :) 

I have been feeling better, now I just have a cold. I never thought I would be so happy to just have a cold lol... but man, it's SOOO much better than whatever I did have!

Here's what I ate today:

Coffee: 40

2 tsp coffeemate, 1 tsp sugar. Didn't finish the cup though

Lunch: 1030

1 chicken sandwich, medium? eggnog shake

Snack: 80

1 cup ff skim milk

Dinner: 490

3/4 cup taco soup with tortilla chips (about 15) and cheddar cheese. 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 240

3 candy cane (oreo type) cookies, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 160
Simply Cinnamon Corn Flakes with a bout 1/2 cup milk (cats got the rest)
Total Water: about 5 oz :( SO FAR
Total Calories: 2040
Holy Crap! Do you know how many calories are in a Burger King Original Chicken Sandwich? 630! I am blown away by that! I actually thought I did ok for lunch... even though it was buy one get one free, I only got one. Now I see that it wasn't that great... AND I asked for a small shake... I haven't had a shake (or anything) from there in a looong time, but this didn't look like a small. I think it was a medium. Of course I didn't have to drink it all... but I did... I joked with Ray and said I would be using the calories from a small because that's what I ordered!!!! But I didn't, I can not tell a lie lol. And this was no small.

Well, I'm going to have to do a lot better than that if I am going to loose 3.4 pounds each week for the next 2... If only I had NO appetite like those few days when I was sick, things would be so much easier! No matter :) I will just have to control myself! It seems like EVERY Friday after weigh in, whether I do good or bad, I end up eating a lot. So if this is my mess up day, it's not THAT bad. Now I just have to get my ass in gear and really work hard for the next 2 weeks! I'll just keep telling myself, "It's only 2 weeks." That's not entirely true, because this will continue forever... but just don't let my brain know that! lol :)

I MUST record what I eat everyday.
I also have to get back to drinking at least 40 oz of water every day. Today was the worst with water in a while. We finished up christmas shopping for the kid :) So we were gone a while, and my whole day was kind of thrown off... but I'll get a glass right now and try and get some in before bed.

I went to bed last night at 9:30, 9:30 people!!!!! I'm really trying to get to bed at a decent time every night. Since I was sick, I've been doing an ok job with that. It's hard on the weekends, but I'm really going to try and keep at it.

Ok, Gonna watch some tv, NOT eat, drink some water, and get to bed. I'll see you tomorrow, even it it's only to record my food! Recording my food everyday is mandatory!
Good night everyone! Sweet Dreams! :)

First Day Back

Well, today went ok.
I started off with lunch at my son's favorite place (an Asian buffet) and thought 'man, I shouldn't even go.' But we had it planned for a while now, since he had today off of school and we haven't been doing ANYTHING.
It was good, I did OK- could have done better for sure. But I did better than I have been doing for the last week! Compared to that, today went very well.

I don't know what happened... I've been under stress (which maybe I'll vent about in a separate post) but that's no excuse...
Halloween- I had to much candy, but was feeling fine. I did well calorie wise as I hadn't ate anything else until dinner! The next day was going to be better, but I ate even MORE candy... everyday I got up with good intentions, and then ruined it... THAT is the difference. Since I started this in January, I never just said "oh well, I ruined it- start again tomorrow." I mean sure, at the end of the day when I sat down and looked at the day, I would say "tomorrow is another day." But I never just gave up and threw the whole day away because of a mistake.
After my Friday weigh in came around on the 5th, I pretty much completely stopped trying. Then on Tuesday I realized I could do my blog from the PS3, I decided to knock it off and get back at it. I did the treadmill that day, and was ready to go! But I got up the next day, said fuck it, and just ate what I wanted, when I wanted for the next 3 days. I did horrible all this time, but the last few days were the worst. I even decided 'Oh well, I already ruined it. I'll start again Friday after my weigh in." And that's what I did. That's why I'm in this situation... because of that start date mentality. Pick a date, pick tomorrow, whatever- and then eat whatever I want and pig out until that date... I used to ALWAYS do that. My whole life. But since I started my journey on January 1st, I NEVER did that and promised I would NEVER do that again. But I did. And here we are.

I feel like I'm starting all over. I did things that I used to do... I mean I was as bad as I have ever been! I ate to much, I ate when I wasn't hungry, I did just about everything I used to. It's the first time I can't say "Even though it looks bad, It's better than I used to be." Because it's BAD, just as bad as it used to be.
The only thing that is different from before 2010, is that I did drink water everyday. But only about 10 oz. I didn't have pop except for the last 2 days, a 12 oz glass one day and an 8 oz glass the next. Oh, and wheat bread instead of white. But that's it. Everything else was those old bad habits... they came back SO EASY AND SO FAST!!!!

At this rate, I would gain ALL of my weight back in 8 more weeks. 11 months worth of work can be gone in 10 weeks.... That is so scary. It is so scary that I have gained 8.2 pounds back. In only 2 weeks. Holy Crap.

I have to make sure this doesn't happen. And even though I'm determined now, tomorrow I might wake up and feel totally different. I have had a really bad time with being depressed, mostly I have been having CRAZY bad mood swings. I HAVE to make sure I stick to this no matter how bad my mood swings are. I really thing blogging is going to help though. Maybe if I would have had my computer the mood swings wouldn't have beens so bad, maybe I wouldn't have gone so far off track... maybe not at all!
Or maybe I would have gained anyway... would have ranted and wrote through my moods and you would all think I am completely insane!!!! (if you don't already lol) I really do think it's the first one though :)

SO, here's the plan.
BLOG EVERY DAY even before I lost the computer, I hadn't been blogging everyday. I think I was on a slow down hill slope... loosing the computer just gave me an extra shove off the track.
WEIGH IN EVERYDAY ON MY WEIGHT LOSS TRACKER
NO POP
LOTS OF WATER
EAT SMALL PORTIONS
EAT ONLY WHEN HUNGRY
AT LEAST 5 MILES OF TREADMILL PER WEEK (1 MILE PER DAY AT LEAST 5 DAYS) That is my goal, but I have such a hard time staying on the plan when I have days off... I might have to do it everyday.
CRUNCHES: no set amount but at least a few times per week. every other day if possible

So there we go. If I stick to that, I think I will be able to loose the weight and reach my 50 pound goal on New Years Eve.

It will be hard, but I can do it.

My biggest challenges will be: my sweet tooth that I have since Halloween (especially with my coffee). Being really hungry because of how I have stretched my stomach back out! My craving for Peanut Butter toast... I don't know what is up with that. I just want it all the time (like when I was pregnant) But I will be careful, and I can get over these hurdles :) And no, I'm not pregnant!

Ok, so here's the run down of my first day back:

Coffee: 105
3 tbs hazel nut liquid creamer
Lunch: 1200?
2 1/2 plates of various yumminess, water
Iced coffee: 140
Large glass with ice and 4 tbs hazelnut liquid creamer
Dinner: 210
1 cup Campbell's Chunky Soup- Vegetable Beef with white and wild rice, lean meat. 1 slice whole wheat bread. water
Snack: 190
Honey Peanut butter/1/2 tbs country crock whole wheat toast. water
Total Water: 37 oz
Total Calories: 1845? (645 plus lunch)

Treadmill: 26 minutes/ 1 mile. Incline 2. 2LB weights for 9 minutes
I was sweating like crazy! But I can do it, and I WILL! :)

I fell off the wagon. HARD.
I fell off, got trampled by a horse, rolled down the embankment, and landed in a mud puddle... But I got up. I'm muddy, but I can't concentrate on that... I can't let the mud, or anything that happens weigh me down... I have to climb back up to the road, and get back on that wagon and continue on my journey...
So here I go!

I'm Back! Time for Weigh Ins...

Ugh... Let's get this over with...

Missed Weigh Day: October 5th
The scale said...

282.8

That is a gain of 4.2 pounds.

That made my total loss 37.2 pounds

NO Treadmill, No Crunches

Today's Weigh In:

The scale says...

286.8

Yes, you read that right.

That is a gain of 4 pounds

That makes my Total Loss 33.2 pounds

Total Treadmill: 30 minutes/ 1.02 miles

0 Crunches

So that means in these 2 weeks I have been away, I have GAINED 8.2 pounds. I haven't been this weight since June 12th, so it's like 5 months of work wasted.

I can't believe how fast I gained back 8.2 pounds... 8.2 pounds that took over 5 months for me to loose! WTF!

I feel like I'm right back where I started. All those bad habits came back so fast... so EASY...

I can't put into words how disappointed I am in myself... but I spent all week feeling it...

Thinking about it or beating myself up isn't going to help me at all. I know that.

So today I start again. 

Being honest, I really don't feel that great or motivated... but I'm not hungry either... hopefully it will all fall back into place.

I know I have a LOT of work to do. Especially if I want to make that goal of loosing 50 pounds this year!!! I only have 7 weeks left to lose 16.8 pounds... That is 2.4 pounds per week!

As you know, since summer started I have struggled to loose any weight. I mean, it took me over 5 months to lose these last 8 pounds!!! And to lose DOUBLE that in 7 weeks... It's going to be work. HARD WORK.

But I am going to do my best! I really do think that if I watch what I'm eating (or more important how much) and get on the treadmill everyday, I will be able to do it.

Ok... now I feel a little more motivated :)

I also feel kind of funny, like I have a fever :( I hope I'm not getting sick, that is the LAST thing I need right now...

I have to go update my tracker, and my weight chart. Have to take care of other internet stuff I have neglected for 2 weeks, check email ect. I will write a post tonight if I can, otherwise I will see you in the morning for some... reflecting...

Most important is that I get back to writing down everything I eat. So I'll be back with that as well.

Thank you again to everyone who cares :) It really means a lot that you would check on me, and make me feel like I was actually missed. I'm sorry I was gone, but that really is a good feeling to come back to!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

See you later!

Weigh Day

And the scale says...

278.6

A loss of 1.2 pounds this week

That makes my Total Loss 41.4 pounds

To be back in the green,

I have to loose .6 pounds this week. I can do that!

My Totals are pathetic...

Treadmill: 2 days

30 minutes/1.13 miles this week

Crunches: 2 days/ 185 Total

One of those weeks where I can't figure out how I lost ANY weight... but not having the car really cut down on my snacking... so that's a good thing. We have all the food we need in the house, just not much junk food lol, which worked out very good this week. I also did more housework. So even though I didn't do well on the treadmill I lost anyway- So I am HAPPY! Now this week I have to be careful with the snacking again, AND do the treadmill :)

As you know, my goal now is to be able to say "I LOST 50 POUNDS IN 2010" and to do that I had to loose .98 pounds per week until New Years. So loosing 1.2 puts me ahead already :) YEAH.

I think I'll go back to writing about my day and what I ate, the next morning. That was working out well for me. So I'll see you in the morning! Have a great night!

I Weigh More Than...

As I mentioned in the last post, we had an unexpected fight night over at Ray's Mom's. If you haven't seen the fight, turn back now! You've officially had your Spoil Alert! :)

So as you know, my family love us some UFC. We have even got Ray's family into it. So anyway, we went over there and watched UFC 121 Saturday night. There was something I realized when I got there, that made it a little hard to enjoy them, but I won't go into that now.
But I DID enjoy them. They were great. What made it fun also, is that it was SOO hyped up that if Cain Velasquez won, he would be the first Mexican Heavy Weight Champion. Now, for me I don't care what race the fighters are. I pick my fighters based on ability, work ethic and attitude. Ray is usually like that too. BUT not this time lol. Oh no, it's all about brown pride on this night! LOL, they all really wanted Cain to win, and make Mexico proud :) So naturally I picked Brock, because he's a BEAST and it's also fun to be routing for the other guy sometimes lol. I like both fighters, but thought Brock would win for sure.
Anyway, it was a GREAT card, with lots of good fights. The main event came, and Cain ended up winning. OMG you should have seen them on there feet and cheering, even Ray's mom. It was pretty funny. So Cain won. He's a big guy, weighing in at 244...
BUT if you are an MMA fan, you probably know who Brock Lesnar is. If not, here:

Do you see him? He is HUGE. He is a fricken TANK. Which brings me to my title... Brock Lesnar weighed in at 264 pounds. Now he doesn't weigh that at the fight, or walk around at that weight, probably more like 285. BUT, the point is... I weighed over 279 pounds on Friday. He weighed in at 264... That is fricken crazy. I weigh MORE than a UFC heavy weight champion. The biggest fighter they have seen in a long time...
Do you understand the gravity of the situation?

I WEIGH MORE THAN THIS GUY!

In fact, I weigh more than ANY heavy weight in the UFC. The weight class is 206-265... I don't even qualify!!! I AM TO HEAVY TO BE A HEAVY WEIGHT... AND I've lost 40 pounds! That is fucking nuts!!! How did I let it get this bad??? (I don't look back and think about that often, but man- stuff like this really puts it into perspective...)

Of course I don't let this ruin fights for me, but when the weights comes up, it's something I ALWAYS notice. Next time he fights I want to weigh LESS than him. I do not want to weigh more than Brock Lesnar ANYMORE! I want to be in the Heavy Weight Division... as CRAZY as that sounds!!!

*I did not take these pics, totally stole them off the internet ;)

NEW!!!!!!! :)

Well, the first NEW, is a new follower!
I missed her last post, but now would like to say: Thank you Ioana Atichison for joining me in My Day!

The other NEW, is a NEW GOAL!
After I posted a while ago, I wasn't in the best mood... but now I am :) I got out my calendar and decided I am setting a goal. I want to be able to say I lost 50 pounds this year. Yep, the big FIVE-O. (secretly I would love to say I lost 60... but the way I've been going, I don't want to set myself up for disappointment)

SO, New Years Eve is exactly 10 weeks away from yesterday's weigh in. That means I have 10 weeks to loose 9.8 pounds. That's only .98 per week! I CAN DO THAT! I might be able to do even MORE than that!!!
So that is my goal. To say I lost 50 pounds in 2010. I went to my Weight Loss Tracker and set my new goal.
And even though the holidays are coming up, I am confident I can do it. I am actually excited about it! Woo Hoo!!!

Do any of you have a year end goal??? I would love to hear it :) We have 10 weeks left!

This is going to be the FIRST time EVER that I actually stuck to my New Year's Resolution lol :) It's going to be awesome!

Weigh Day, Goal Reached!!!

And the scale says...

278

Wooo Hooo!

That is 3.6 pounds lost this week!

For a Total of 42 pounds lost.

My treadmill stats for the week:
6 days

2 hours and 8 minutes

4.85 miles :)

I am very happy :) I was already happy yesterday though, when I hit my goal. Today I was up a little, when I weighed in the last time it was at 278.2, JUST over my goal of 278. But then my step dad got here, and I didn't eat and was busy. So i weighed in again before I ate, and there it was! 278 on the dot!!! WOOOO HOOOO!!!!

So I'm 'back in the green' or right ON the green anyway :)

I think weighing in every day has helped me stay on track better. Oh I still have a lot to improve on, but I feel better about this week than I have in a long time.

My eating yesterday wasn't great. But it wasn't horrible. We had frozen pizza, and you'll never guess what I did. I was REALLY hungry, and I didn't want to eat 5 pieces. So I stir fried vegetables and seasoned them with Italian seasoning to put on my pizza :) I added a little spaghetti sauce and PILED it on. LOL, Ray thinks I'm crazy haha. But he's eating a lot more veggies lately too! I have to say, I love stir fried veggies now! They don't, but I do :) So I had 1 1/2 pieces of frozen pizza :) Not bad.

I did end up with 3 cookies all together throughout the day... bleh.

My total calories came to 1892

I did my treadmill after midnight last night, so I didn't stay on it as long as I could have. (and I woke Ray up! oops!)

15 minutes/ .52 mile, incline 1

Days in a row: 6

I have to go and take care of some other stuff while the Internet is working, read some blogs, take care of my facebook animals LMAO :) Here's hoping they fix it and I'm not without for to long!!!

So I have no dryer, no car, no cordless phone, no answering machine and now no internet only half the time. But that's ok :) I reached my goal. AND got a medal!!!!! Woo Hoo!!!!! :)

Thank you to anyone who showed support to the ladies I mentioned yesterday :) You guys are great.

OH!

I watched Being John Malkovich on netflicks. Have you seen that movie??? I think it's the weirdest movie I have EVER SEEN! lol. EVER

The way my brother has it set up, we have to watch what is on there. It's a big selection but not the stuff I want to watch!!!! So no I Am Legend :( Or Inception :( I was looking forward to checking them out. There is The Sound of Music, I've mentioned before that it's one of those classics I've never seen and would like to. No one will watch it with me though!!!! lol oh well :) Have to watch it alone I guess!

Sorry if this seems rushed. I know you understand :)

Have a great day!!!!!!!!

Weigh Day... Oh The Horror!!!

First let me thank 2 new faces! Lanie Painie and Laura W. Thank you so much for joining me in My Day! Maybe I should say THREE new faces, since the picture for Lanie Panie are 2 very cute platypuses! SO cute, I never thought them cute before seeing that picture :)

Alright, now to the weigh in.
It wasn't pretty... so brace yourselves :(
And the scale says....

281.6

That is a Gain of 3.4 pounds this week

and makes my Total Lost 38.4 Pounds

Was on the treadmill only 3 times this week

Making the totals 1 hour 10 minutes

and 2.55 miles

UGH

I knew it would be a gain, but didn't know it would be so much. BUT I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

I know exactly why I gained, eating to much, only walking 3 days instead of 7. Simple. Now I need to fix it.

I got an award the other day from Shielah, and now have 2 new followers... on top of all you that support me already!!! Great reasons to be motivated and get my butt back in gear!!!

Why does it feel so hard?

I really don't know. I have lost motivation, and it's been kind of hard getting it back... Now look at me, back in the 280s. I NEVER wanted to see the 280s EVER EVER again!!! Grrr! I can only be mad at myself. I look at that list on the side of my weigh ins... and I'm the same weight I was 14 weeks ago. I feel like I have wasted  14 weeks, just poured them down the drain!

But it's time to take a deep breath and concentrate on what needs to be done.

Yesterday's Gone, Live for Today.

I have to remember that. I have to remember how good it felt to hit that 40 pounds lost mark, and make sure I do it this week!!! I want out of the 280s! If I put some effort into it, I'll get out of them for good this week. If I really work hard, maybe I can get back in the green by loosing 3.6 pounds. Then I would be at 42 pounds lost, where I was 3 weeks ago! I won't be mad if I don't hit 3.6, but I'm going to try. You know I usually don't set number goals for myself, but this week I am really going to try and hit that number. It WILL be a loss, and I'll do my best to get 3.6 :)

Get on the treadmill EVERY day

Eat Small portions

Get to bed no later than midnight

No fast food

Stop snacking so much

That's not so bad, and I know that's ALL I need to do. I'm not stuck at this weight because of a plateau, I'm stuck because I just haven't been putting in the work! So I should consider myself lucky. I have yet to really hit a plateau, and I see how frustrating that is! I just need to get rededicated. After I hit that 40th day in a row of being on the treadmill, I missed 2 days, but got back on it. I told myself "see, you don't have to do it EVERY day, it's still habit." Well it's been 2 weeks and now I missed FOUR days this week. NOT GOOD. I HAVE to do it EVERY DAY!

Today was pretty stressful, more money problems, and more stress I don't need! BUT before I go to bed, I'm going to concentrate on the good of today, and what made me smile :)

It was a beautiful day :)

Ray made me smile, he always does :)

My son got home from camp! It's so nice to have him home! :)

There, that feels better.

And a new one: Today is the last day I will be in the 280s!!! Damn it!!! :)

I'm pretty tired again tonight, so going to read up on your blogs and then getting to bed! Should be before Midnight, if I'm not done- I'll go anyway!!! :)

Goodnight All!

Feeling Better

Today I feel much better... I just get overwhelmed sometimes, but I have to remember that it's not the end of the world, and It could ALWAYS be worse!
Yeah the dryer is screwed, BUT it's temporary(hopefully) and at least the washer works!
Yeah we have fleas, BUT it's temporary and at least they are only in the basement!
Yeah I have to bring Ray to work, BUT at least he has a job!
Yeah I am sick of this place BUT at least we aren't out on the streets!
Yeah my Mom's a pot head, BUT at least... she's not on crack?  Yeah! LOL
Yeah I've gained some weight back, BUT I've still lost over 35 pounds!!!
Life isn't that bad :)

The fast food HAS TO STOP. Tessa challenged me to a week with NO fast food. I accept the challenge! (starting tomorrow cause I already ruined that today)

We got Papa Murphy's and it was very good. A great last meal lol. I have to admit, after how I've been feeling I was ready to just binge and start over tomorrow. Especially since the rest of the day wasn't to great as far as eating. I bought chocolate chip cookies that I have been craving too. BUT once I started eating dinner, I got full and didn't go TO over board. Of course it could have been better... but it could have been worse. I realized that going on a binge on purpose would NOT make me feel better, so I got a hold of myself before it was to late. That means there is a lot of left overs for the fridge...

What I ate today:
Breakfast @about 6am: (300) 1 slice of pizza
Snack @about 6:45am: (245) bowl of Corn Chex/Capn Crunch w ff skim milk (...I don't know why. There was only a tiny bit of the Capn Crunch left so I put it with the other...)
Drink @about 1pm: (67) 1/3 bottle iced coffee
Snack @about 7pm: (410) 4 choc chip cookies, 1 cup ff skim milk
Dinner @about 8pm: (990) Papa Murphy's- 1 medium slice garlic chicken pizza, 1 medium slice pepperoni, 2 large slices of BBQ chicken 'DeLITE', 8 oz mtn Dew
Drink @about 10pm: (83) 6 oz mtn dew
Snack @about midnight: (410) 4 more cookies and 1 cup skim milk... *cringe*
Total Water: 40 oz
Total Calories: 2049 (from 2095) I didn't eat the crust on ANY of the 4 slices of pizza for dinner. I took off 15 for 2, and 8 for the 2 DeLITEs... not sure how accurate that is... but not eating the crust has to save me SOME calories right? lol. Anyone???

The DeLITE bbq chicken pizza is very good. It has thinner crust and is only 180 calories per large slice. A VERY nice surprise! Papa Murphy's has a great online nutrition fact sheet that I downloaded so I have it :) If I DO have any leftovers tomorrow, it will be ONLY that... hopefully that's cool. Since it's better AND I won't actually be getting fast food...lol. But that's it! No more fast food after that, for a week! (hopefully longer)
And NO MORE POP. Starting NOW.AND I will try very hard not to eat early in the morning when I get home from dropping Ray. If I do have to have something, it will be something healthy. Water and a little fruit. Or yogurt. I'll do my very best!

I still feel great. I have about 45 minutes till I am to watch Saturday Night Live with my guys. I think I'll get off the computer and do some more dishes :)
Have a great night!
*Man, I did NOT want to come back and add those cookies!!!! But I'm nothing if not honest...

I Feel Better

To those of you who were unfortunate enough to read my long rambling post yesterday, I'm sorry and Thank you for all of your support. This blog has turned out to be kind of a journal... but that's what it says "A blog about my weight loss journey, my life, and what ever else I want to ramble about." and yesterday was one of those rambling days... I almost didn't write at all. In fact I was thinking- I am to stressed out, and I need to get my life in order. Maybe I should take a break from the whole weight thing... But today I know that would be the WORST possible thing I could do, and it would help NOTHING. In fact, it would only make things worse.

I want to let you know I do feel a lot better today. At least a little less depressed! My head ache is going away, and I am thinking more clear. I did start the day off with a slice and a half of pizza, but I have heart burn punishing me for that... so I'm not going to punish myself more by being mad about it. I am just going to start new RIGHT NOW :)

Since my mind is so much clearer right now, I have come to a decision about my mother. She wants him to come over and swim in the kiddy pool, and he wants to. Now, I think that's only because he thinks I'll let him go play games and not really play outside... but no matter. We will go over there and he can play outside. It is 90 degrees and there is no reason for him to stay the night. We will visit and come home. This goes for the future also. We will go visit and then come home. She doesn't live far, and I will visit more often if I have to, but he doesn't need ot spend the night. She can come over here and visit (she always could, but never does) if she wants more time with him. I think that is more than fair. I don't know how much of the reasoning I am going to get into with her today... but I'm not worried about it. That's how it is going to be for now. I have made my decision.

I am also more clear about what I need to do. I need to quit being so lazy. And i have been lazy. Now 37 pounds lighter, I do feel better. I can go do things with him. We need to get out of the house more. I need to keep my house clean, because it depresses me when it's not. I need to concentrate on loosing weight and getting healthier. I need to stop with the fast food because it is bad for us and is putting us deeper in debt! I am doing SO much better that before, but that's still not good enough. I need to Keep track of what I'm eating everyday no matter what. Keep blogging because it helps me.
I need to be clear about what I want from Ray, as far as more activities with his son. (ray is wonderful. but he is also addicted to video games, and that's all they do together, which isn't very often either)
I need to stop being so upset about this place I live in. It is hard because it is summer, and a lot more goes on. BUT I feel bad complaining about it. It's far better than some places! If you were to drive by these townhouses you might thing it looks kind of nice in fact. There are yards and the grass is nice. The old brick buildings are in pretty good shape and had new siding put in a few years ago. It's loud and more dangerous at night, but my son is never out at night. During the day not much happens. Loud music and some fights sometimes. Some dealing, but I think that has gotten better... I want better for my son. But I have to make the best of what we have because there is nothing I can do about it right now. I can make sure our home is clean and safe and a nice place to be on the inside.

I have always said: It Could Always Be Worse. That is what I live by. I just forgot that for a while yesterday. Yesterday I was only thinking about how much better it could be. And feeling the guilt for that... All those what ifs. I just have to make due with what I have right now. Try to look for the bright side in things. Do what I can to make things better for now and for the future.

Cook Out and Fight Night!

I'm doing a quick post now, because I probably won't get a chance later. We have a cookout at Mom's and then Me and Ray are going to my cousins to watch the fights. UFC... 116 I think :) We don't ever do anything, so tonight will be nice. Have a couple drinks, hang out with family and watch UFC. I'm a little stressed over somethings, but I'm going to try to forget about them tonight :)

So the challenge from Tessa is that I set some goal dates and goal weights. She is doing the same thing over at her blog if you wanna check it out :) She has a lot of important big events coming, me- not so much lol. BUT there are some things coming up that I can think of :)
My whole strategy has been Baby Steps. Just do a day, or week at a time. So setting goals for upcoming events isn't really in my comfort zone. I just know I have a LOT of weight to loose and that it will take a LOT of time. BUT I have been in a slump for over a month now, gaining, loosing, gaining... and maybe this is what I need! So I will give it a go!!! We will be able to encourage each other without actually competing, and it might be good for me, for both of us :)
I'll think of some events coming up that I would love to weigh less for, and post the list soon. The one I can think of is:
Christmas with my Dad's Family
We get together every year in December and have Christmas. It's the only time we really see each other unless we run into them in the store- which is rare. I would LOVE to loose enough by then to be really noticeable... that would be awesome :) That is over 5 months away, so I'll try and think of others :)

What I ate today:
Breakfast: (330) Fiber Plus Bar, 1 iced coffee
Lunch: (355) One medium slice of pizza, water
Yeah, the "I never want to eat pizza again." didn't last long... but even though I only had the one slice, I feel like crap again- and like I never want pizza again lol. We'll see if it last longer this time :)
I have the cookout tonight, and I am going to do a good job!!! I'll post it later or tomorrow.
Also have my cousins, and I'll be drinking a little. I don't like to eat when I'm drinking so all the calories will be in liquid form lol. It will be this Irish Cream stuff I like, which has a lot of calories... I can't get DRUNK or anything, I have to drive. So it won't be a whole lot anyway :) (the hole bottle wouldn't get me drunk anyway! LOL, but I won't drink the whole thing)

Ok, Have a good night everyone!!!

I'm back. I had a great night. I did over eat a little- but nothing crazy! I could have done without the pop, but over all I'm ok with how I did.
Dinner: 1 hot dog, 1 hot dog w/ no bun. about 1/2 cup baked beans, about 1 cup potato salad, 6 oz cherry coke.
At the fight night party: 3 pringles, about 1 cup crunch n munch?, about 12 oz Baily's Irish cream
I know, it has to be a LOT of calories... but for a cookout/and a fight night, I think I did fine.
Total Water: 45 oz

Is That Sandwich For Real!?!?

Ok, confessions first lol.
I knew Ray was going to try KFC's "Double Down" today. I didn't really want anything to do with it, have you seen this thing? When Ray told me about it I thought he was joking!!! It's a sandwich... I guess... So we get there and he tells me it's only $1.00, and I HAD to try one. SO I did. I thought of Tessa when I got it home, I know she thinks I eat to much bread (and she's absolutely right!) So check this out:

LOL! Yes it is exactly what it looks like... a sandwich with 2 pieces of chicken for the bun, and 2 slices of cheese and a strip of bacon. Some kind of orange sauce also.  It was NOT a dollar either. It was $4.99!!! I am not going to lie, it was VERY good. (I sat down with a fork and enjoyed it, I didn't eat it like a sandwich lol) BUT, it was NOT worth 4.99, not at all. It tasted good, but at 540 calories was not worth the guilt. AND I was hungry 10 minutes after I ate the thing! It's not as big as it looks. Definitely a first and last for me.

All I can say in my defense is... at least there's not bread??? LOL, I know that's a sad attempt to make it better. I can say that I resisted the urge to order their mashed potatoes and gravy, which I LOVE. I am proud of myself for that.

K, confession time out of the way.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (130) Fiber Plus Bar- dark chocolate almond, water

Lunch: (615) heart attack sandwich... err.. I mean... KCF Double Down, romaine salad with 1 tbs light tomato dressing and 1/8 cup cheddar, water

Snack: (123) 1 yoplait yogurt- apple turnover with 1/8 cup kashi go lean

Dinner: (680) 1 stuffed chicken- asparagus, 1 cup broccoli cheese rice (from pkg), 1 cup FF skim milk

Snack: (400) 1 piece of chocolate cake, 1 ice cream cup, 1/2 cup FF skim milk

Snack: (320) 1 1/2 cup Apple Cinomon Cheerios with 1 cup FF skim milk

Total Water: 44 oz

Total Calories: 2268

I bought these little single serving sundae cups of ice cream. In chocolate and strawberry. Each one 100 calories so that's cool :) It will help me not over do it with ice cream.

Tonight was Tuesday, The Biggest Looser was on. As you may know, I go for my long walk every Tuesday while watching it. Today I walked for 90 minutes non stop! Wooo hooo! 90 minutes was kind of a goal of mine... and now I've reached it. I have proved to myself that I can do it, I have built up endurance that I didn't have before. I could have NEVER stayed on it for 90 minutes before 2010.

Treadmill: 90 minutes/ 3.17 miles   Wooo hooo!

Now that I have reached my time goal, I am going to start concentrating on distance for my Biggest Loser walks. That is a long time, and I don't want to end up dreading it by making it any longer!! I'll try to go a little farther each week, and if I don't want to be on it 90 minutes, I guess I better speed it up!

I don't know if anyone has checked out the animal cams at all, but the red tailed hawk's chicks hatched this morning, 2 of them. There is still an egg left. Since there is no night vision on that one, I'll have to wait till the morning to see if it hatched. Exciting stuff! Well...for us at least :-) And no, this new addiction is NOT helping with my schedule AT ALL...

Saturday

Oh the weekend... once desired and now dreaded... LOL, ok so I'm feeling dramatic today :) Really though, the weekend is so much harder. I guess lack of schedule is most of it for me. BUT- now having to weigh in on Monday too, I am going to have to get control of these evil days! haha.
Yesterday it was like my cold magically disappeared... thankfully! But today it is back. I have a cough and stuffy nose, but I feel pretty good anyway :) Nothing a few cough drops can't handle... I hope lol.

Here's My Day:
Snack @2:30am: (190) 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1 cup FF skim milk
Breakfast: (415) 2 eggs with 2 slices whole wheat toast w 1/2 tbs Fat Free ICBINB
Lunch: (282) 1/2 a Tuna sandwich on whole wheat, 10 carrots, 1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (147) 6 oz yoplait light- white chocolate strawberry yogurt with about 1/4 cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch mixed in
Dinner: (1550) Ordered Papa John's- 2 medium slices of BBQ chicken bacon pizza, 1 med slice pepperoni pizza, a garlic sauce, 4 small cheese sticks, a pizza sauce. Water
Snack: (50) One cookie (store brand Oreo)
Drink: (200) Beaumont iced coffee- french vanilla
Total Water: 74 oz
Total Calories: 2834
Well... I started the day off pretty good. For the first time I only had 1/2 a tuna sandwich :) I also bought some kashi go lean cereal to put in my yogurt. I wanted granola, and after looking at the different kinds I guess I grabbed the wrong one!!! This is "multi grain cluster cereal" and it will do the job, but I will get granola next time. I got this idea from Margie M's blog. I can't remember what exactly she uses in her yogurt, but I'm pretty sure it is granola of some kind.

I broke my own rule with the pizza!!! I try to just get one slice per plate, then I think I eat less (my usual is now 2 slices) but NO- I strayed from the plan!!! I told myself- "self, THIS is the ONLY plate you are aloud tonight." and put 2 slices on it and 3 cheese sticks. SO of course it's gone faster, and of course i want more, so I got another slice and another cheese stick. (it says 4 is a serving of sticks, but I did NOT need 4) Ugh... I am pretty sure if I would have followed my rule, i would have ended up eating 2 slices and 2 cheese sticks- which I would be happy with. Next time for sure!!! Eventually I will be able to do JUST ONE!!! Oh- and I didn't drink any pop with the pizza!!! :)

I got 3 cookies for snack, I didn't really like the first one, so I put the other 2 back :) I was proud of myself for that one. We usually don't have cookies in the house. I usually don't shop with my son either, he wanted them and I gave in... he is good about not eating a lot of them though. He is 11, but he still asks if he can have a snack, so I know exactly what he's eating and when. If I don't eat them, they will go stale. Which I will be fine with!!! No More eating stuff just so it doesn't go to waste!!!

Treadmill: 21 minutes/.7 mile

I didn't get much sleep last night, my fiance had another early schedule. I was up to early and will be up to late. When my schedule is off it really messes with me. I wish I didn't over eat for dinner, but otherwise it was an ok day. Next time I will follow my rule!!!!

LATER
I have to be honest, while I was eating the pizza, it was good and I enjoyed it. Now it is later, and I feel pretty bad about it. I was thinking of the groceries I bought, and the healthy things I could have made... and feel kind of sick thinking about it. I'm thinking about that show I saw yesterday, how I was so moved by it. And here I am the next day eating pizza... it just doesn't make sense! Ughh...
I read Barbara's blog a little while ago, and she has someone who orders out and sabotages her also. Mine is my fiance. He doesn't do it to sabotage me on purpose... I think he is just as addicted to the food as I am. But I have to start saying No. I'll have to make dinner... and I guess if he really wants to order out anyway, he will have to eat it all himself.... The other day I made a goal to not eat at any buffets until Tessa's Challenge is over. I have a new shorter term goal- NO fast food next week. NONE. I told my fiance and he said that's fine. So NO FAST FOOD next week. Not for breakfast, lunch or dinner. NONE.
Oh, and Barbara did SUCH a great job today by the way!

Tomorrow is another day, and today wasn't a total loss, I just made a couple mistakes. Mistakes that I can avoid next time...

The Weigh In, The Buffet, and The Food Revolution

THE WEIGH IN:

First we'll start with the good news. My new weight is...

Woooo Hoooo!!! That's a 3.8 Pound Loss this week!!!

My Totals for the WEEK: 3 hours 15 minutes/6.45 miles on the Treadmill, 300 Crunches.

We had a great day. We went to see How To Train Your Dragon in 3D and we all enjoyed it. I was impressed with the 3D, more then the other movies we've seen in 3D. We went to Old Country Buffet afterwards, because it is my son's favorite place and we never go there... I was pretty nervous about it. I actually looked it up last night and they have nutrition fact sheets right on there site, and it was SO easy to count the calories. So that was really nice.

THE BUFFET:

So I got my first plate... kind of a sample plate. I walked around and really thought about what I wanted and only got a little of each thing. I was so surprised at how good the New Orleans Bourbon St Chicken was!!! With the rice, it was SO good. The rice must have been the Cajun dirty rice. So I ended up getting another 1/2 plate. This one with more rice and chicken and some broccoli salad. I left most of the salad on the plate. Then I went and got nachos from the taco bar. And that should have been it... but there was dessert. I got a plate and went a little crazy I guess... I pretty much put anything that looked good on it. I just took VERY small portions of the stuff and got back to the table and looked at it LOL. So I only ate 1 or 2 bites of most of it. Except the ice cream and hot fudge cake, I did eat that. Oh and the tiny brownie. I know it was a lot of food, but all in all I thought I did ok, I left food on every plate... BUT then I got home and looked at it all and counted all the calories... Yeah... Not so good. I decided that buffets are just to much for me to handle- I should really just stay away from them for now!!!! I am seriously going to try and stay away AT LEAST till the end of Tessa's challenge :) That's a good goal I think!

So I wasn't hungry for the rest of the day. Just really thirsty so that's good I guess.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (435) 1 egg and 1/8 cup shredded cheese on sourdough english muffin,1 small sausage patty, 1 cup FF skim milk

Lunch: (2086) PLATE ONE: Bourbon chicken, Cajun rice, 1 roll, cornbread stuffing, mashed potatoes w/chicken gravy, 3 potato wedges PLATE 2(half plate) serving of bourbon chicken and dirty rice, tiny amount of broccoli salad PLATE 3(half plate) 7 tortilla chips w/ taco meat, nacho cheese, sour cream, salsa about 6 oz sprite DESSERT PLATE: 2 bites of cherry cobbler and bread pudding. tiny brownie. Hot fudge sundae cake with ice cream. about 8 oz  chocolate milk. (two turtle doves and a partridge in a pair tree!)

Dinner: nothing

Drink: (200) Beaumont Iced Coffee- Mocha (cheaper store brand version of Frappuccino)

Total Water: 54 oz

Total Calories: 2721

Treadmill: 20 minutes/.67 miles with 2 LB weights for 5 minutes of it

Crunches: 100

FOOD REVOLUTION:

WARNING this is about a show I watched, I rambled quite a bit, so if you already saw it or just don't care, you don't have to waste your time- I know it's alot to read LOL!!!

I just had to mention this show I watched tonight on ABC, I hope you had a chance to watch it! I thought it was really good. It really makes you think. It's called Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution. It is about a chef (Jamie Oliver) who goes to a town called Huntington. I think it is in Virgina, maybe West Virginia... anyway- it is the most obese/unhealthiest city in the united states, maybe the world. He wants to change this by making people go back to cooking natural foods and getting rid of all the processed stuff. Oh my goodness- Soooo much processed stuff. I am not in a position to judge at all, I am guilty of having lots of processed foods in my house... but the family he is working with, that's ALL they eat. The whole family is VERY over weight and I felt especially bad for the little girl, she is obese and I thought about 7- but she was only 4! Jamie was concentrating on the 6th grader, and trying to teach him to cook and really wants to help him. And the kid is all for it!!! Which was awesome.

He brought the whole family to the doctor and had the boy tested for diabetes because of warning signs. A warning sign was darkness of his neck... which I have never heard before. AND something I have... which really scares me... as I said before I don't go to the doctor because I don't even want to know- but this really did make me think. i hope that if I do have diabetes I can reverse it by continuing to change my eating habits and keep loosing weight. I hope I don't have it and will save my self from getting it at all.

I know I'm rambling, but a lot of this show really opened my eyes and surprised me. My son is also over weight. He isn't as big as these kids were- but if I were to keep up my bad habits he could very well get there. He knows I am trying to loose weight and get healthy. He knows that I am changing ALL of our eating habits so that he can be healthy too. I don't want him to be self conscious, but I don't want him missing out on life because of his weight either. So he knows I want him to loose weight. I have been very careful about talking to him about it (unlike my mother) so that he doesn't reject it. I tell him I love him and I don't care how big he is. It doesn't make any difference. I tell him that I just want him to be HEALTHY. And that I don't want him to grow up and be like me. Not because he will be fat, but because he will be unhealthy, not be able to do anything without being in pain and out of breath. I hope I am doing the right thing with him...

Anyway, back to the show! The main thing Jamie Oliver was concentrating on was the school food. It is SO ridiculous!!! The lunch ladies don't like him because he's in their kitchen telling them how unhealthy the food is... Now, it is understandable to a point, I mean, it's one thing to say "hey this is the best we can do with our budget and we are not in charge of what we serve..." but one lunch lady was just SOOO defensive and fighting him the whole show!!! It's ALL processed food, yet she was offended when called a lunch lady!!! She wants to be called a cook.... WHATEVER. So he asked her if she even knew what the ingredients mean, and she says "Beef- the first ingredient" or "potatoes- the first ingredient" and when asked about the rest of the unidentified ingredients, it didn't matter to her! Instead of just saying maybe your right- she was acting like it's all healthy the whole show! She said the potato pellets are a cooks best friend... when he first tried to serve healthy food and it failed she LAUGHED at him. I just couldn't get over her- she really is a piece of work.

The kids of the town are heading for obesity and it's not there fault at all... He did an experiment that ALWAYS works in England he said. He showed a group of kids all the parts of a raw chicken, and took the gross leftover pieces and they all agree that it's nasty and unhealthy. He grinds it up to "eeewwws and grosss" and makes chicken nuggets out of them. and when asked if they would eat them, they ALL said yes!!! He said it was the first time the experiment failed! When he went into a classroom and tested the kids about vegetables, they didn't even know the names of ANY of them!!! Not even tomatoes or potatoes! I just couldn't believe it!

Anyway, this ended up alot longer then planned LOL, I think I'll put a warning at the top LOL! and it's almost midnight so I'll end it! I hope it comes on again next friday. I really want to see if he helps this town, and if he helps the boy loose weight. K, I gotta go!!!!