Must... Have... COFFEE!

Hey everybody :)

Let's get the last few days out of the way shall we?
Since Friday, I have been getting little sleep. I have been snacking way to much. And have been feeling very guilty over spending money on fast food. I have been ok, just a little stressed, but not really depressed or anything. Just a lot of little things all together weighing down on me...
I did write down what I ate... but didn't record it here. Which was a HUGE mistake, and I already know better! The minute I decide I'm not writing it here, I start eating worse...
It didn't get to bad, no complete binging... but a lot of snacking, and giving in to things I just didn't need... things I didn't even really want! Like chips and cheese, a sandwich in the middle of the night... Other than that the food was pretty normal for me, no over eating really, just EXTRA snacking. Mostly to much snacking at night when I'm up till 4 in the morning. The low point? Ray and I actually got Taco Bell at 1:30am Sunday Morning (Sat. night). That is SO BAD, to actually leave the house to go get it too? An old habit I hoped to never see again!

BUT all that is over. Except the fast food problem... But that will be over soon I hope...
Back to normal, and back to recording it!

Yesterday was a busy day. I didn't eat much, but we did have pizza for dinner. We had a quick dinner, I had 2 peices and it was my lunch and dinner.

Then off to my son's first band concert!
I know it makes no sense, but doing anything like that really stresses me out. So that too was weighing on me all week... but once I was there of course I was fine.
I was a little annoyed when my son told me that they weren't going to be doing Christmas songs, even though the other grades were... why you ask? Well, because there are so many bad kids always disrupting the class so they didn't have time to learn everything they were supposed to. WTF? That's F'ing ridiculous if you ask me!!!! The teachers need to grow a pair and take care of these kids... kick them out of the class!!! When I was in school, Band was... well... full of band nerds. lol no offense to any band nerds out there! But they really pushed band last year, EVERY kid had a meeting with the band teachers to see what instrument they would be best for ect. I was putting him in band before they did all that... I guess that made other kids that normally wouldn't do it, go ahead and do it. Maybe thinking it would be an easy class??? I don't know, but this is the largest band class they have ever had- and I hope they don't wonder why! To me it doesn't matter, kick the little trouble makers out of band so the ones that WANT to be there can learn! Damnit!

Count to 10...

Ok :) I'm back.
Back to the concert. It ended up really nice :) I enjoyed myself, and I could tell my son did also. My Mom and Step Dad came too, so that was nice. Here is a little fun piece they did. It was cute lol.

He's in the middle, the kid that looks like he could be my son lol. 

After we got home, I had a very little piece of this crazy "s'mores pizza." Not long after, I started getting pains in my stomach. They really hurt! I don't know if they were from that weird s'mores thing, or what. All I know is, I am soo glad that it waited until AFTER I got home. Without being too graphic, I spent a lot of time on the toilet... 

This morning wasn't any better. By the time I went and picked up Ray, I felt a lot better though. He wanted a frappe from McDonald's, so we stopped on the way home... and I ended up with 2 egg McMuffins also... I know, great nourishment for sick people right? Bleh... it sure was good though! But that's the last time I will have fast food for a while. I just feel so guilty over spending the money! Ray is getting so many more hours since it's the holidays, so bigger checks, and it's hard for me to say no when he wants to spend it on... shit. He worked for it... but we have IMPORTANT stuff to spend it on... anyway, even if he does get fast food, that doesn't mean I have to. And I am not going to!!!

I forgot to weigh in this morning before I ate. So AFTER I had 2 egg McMuffins, some water and a whole LARGE Frappe, I weighed almost a pound less than yesterday. I wonder what I weighed before I ate! But I know that it's only because I was probably severely dehydrated from my stomach thing, and not drinking enough water lately! But mostly the sick stomach.

I'm getting in my water today though. It's not hard because I am actually thirsty today!

Ray's birthday is Tomorrow. The big 30 :) We're having family over Friday for dinner and cake and everything. Probably some drinking, we'll see. None for me if my stomach still feels like this.. and Ray is actually comming down with something different than mine. Him and the boy have soar throats and aren't feeling great :(

So anyway, I have to get this house cleaned. We got the tree up and decorated, but I have to get the rest of the Christmas stuff put out too. Even though I feel a little weak, I feel good other than that. AND I've rested up. I went to bed at 10 last night! So even though I wasn't feeling well, I got a lot of sleep, about 8 hours total. So I am awake, and now just have to pry myself away from the computer! And get at it!!! And keep drinking coffee!!!!

Because...

At least that's what my paper towel says!!! :)

And paper towel never lies!!!

My Weekend... Bleh

The Food
Oh the weekend... always so hard for me as far as eating.
I was doing SO well Saturday, and then we got invited over to Ray's Mom's at the last minute for UFC 121. Well... I didn't hear the conversation, so I don't know if it was really her idea or Ray's haha.
Anyway, she bought taco bell for dinner on the way there (she had to come get us since we have no car at the moment) and I got a cheesy gordita crunch, and a nacho bell grande. Even with that, my calories were under 2000 for the day I'm sure. BUT then her neighbor comes over and brings chicken he made... I didn't even want any, but he kept telling us to go have some and I really didn't want to hurt his feelings, but I didn't have any... then Ray's mom made spanish rice to go with it and as it got later, I couldn't resist AND I was hungry by then. So I had one small chicken leg and about 1 cup of rice. SO GOOD. Then I had a can of cherry 7up. First time I had pop in a while, but only one can and I'm not craving it or anything now. We didn't get home until after 1am, and I was hungry again... the rest of the night I could deal with, but what I did next was unacceptable! I had a tamale, chips, and more rice (yep she sent all this home with us). Ugh!
Oh well, today is a new day...
So today I got up really late, and had a headache. I wasn't hungry for most of the day. Here's what I ate:
Coffee: 35
Lunch: 205
Coffee and a Fit&Active Meal Bar
Snack: 23
Werther's
Dinner: 1000?
Ordered Out: Wet tostada and chips and cheese with taco meat, toamto, salsa, and sour cream
Snack: 103
1 cup milk and 1 Werther's
Total Water: 46 oz (all from dinner on)
Total Calories: 1365? (366+ dinner)
Yeah... so I would normaly be happy with those calories, I mean that's way down for me! BUT that's not how I want to do it... coffee and take out? It's not exactly fast food, it's this family owned place down the street (which has lost a lot of buisness becasue of me this year! I swear to you, Me and Ray used to order from them 2 or 3 times a week!!!) but it's still take out, it's still greasier meat than I would use at home, FOR SURE not my lean meat. So I'm not happy with it... I'm not going to let it bother me though, It's done, and all the housework and exercise I got this weekend should even it out anyway... but this week will bring better food choices then the weekend :)

The Exercise
Saturday I did laundry, and brought it to the laundry mat to dry, and walked to the store from the laundromat (not far, but I could have had my mom drive me) and walked to check my mail. I didn't do the treadmill, because we had left and didn't get home till after 1. Just another reason I have to do it early!!!!
Sunday I did a lot around the house. A LOT. I'm not the best housekeeper, but I am doing really good latley, and that always helps my mood :) I also did the Treadmill: 20 minutes/.78 miles, Incline 1. I still want to do 5 miles per week, so right now I'm behind. I will have to do a mile per day, and 1.22 miles on one of them. That's fine :)

This week will be a good one :) I have my goal in mind, and will do great.
The End

Oh the Weekend...

First, there is a new face :)
Thank you Sandra for joining me in My Day!!!

I feel like I should put a disclaimer haha :) Right now I feel great, and am back on track for the most part... but it's not always that way. My life isn't all sunshine and rainbows and sometimes my writing reflects that...
but we all have those days right???

I think writing the next morning instead of at night, has really helped me with that though. Take this weekend. If I were to have written Saturday night, it would NOT have been pretty. Let's just say my Mom called, it seems, for no other reason than to make an already stressed out day even worse. THAT would have been a long, pissed off, rambling post- believe that!
BUT she ended up coming over Sunday, and I just let it go and all is well.

Not writing at night gives me a chance to cool down, look at the situations and realize it isn't that big of deal. It could always be worse!

Weekend Food:
I guess I'm going to just sum up the weekend. I have all the food written down (which is an everyday thing now) but we'll just do the short version... just skim the ugly details!!!
It wasn't great.
Friday we ordered pizza, GOOD pizza. I have been doing so well with the fast food- so I didn't feel TO bad, but I should have eaten less. FOR SURE. I ended up with 3 pieces, and they were large...
COOKIES all weekend. They were the best cookies I have ever had, but I actually did ok :) 3 Saturday, 3 Sunday, and a bite of cookie dough Friday... Now the last of them is in a container and will be gone today.
CHIPS! I usually don't even eat potato chips! But we had my brother JJ over and his friend (might as well be my 4th little brother :)) for wraps Saturday. I got some chips at the store, 3 kinds... why? I have no idea. Anyway, I grabbed the bag of BBQ chips and snacked on them Saturday AND Sunday night!!!! RIGHT OUT OF THE BAG. That is NOT a good habit to pick back up. NO MORE of that!!!!!!
I Did get in a lot of water though, and portions were fine except for the pizza!
Been weighing in everyday, and the chips and pizza did show up... But I still feel great. I feel motivated and ready to go, like I did in January when I started!

And I did some treadmill
Friday: 20 minutes/ .76 mile, Incline 1
Saturday: 26 minutes/ 1.03 mile, Incline 1, with 2 LB weights for 5 minutes
Total days in a row was 8
I didn't do it yesterday. I wasn't feeling really good (BBQ chips?) but I really could have. I was more lazy and sluggish than anything else. BUT I've decided to stop counting again. I will be fine if I miss one day a week on the treadmill. My goal is still to do it everyday, but I won't beat myself up over 1 missed day. 6 days a week is still good :) Especially if I step it up a bit!

So that's my weekend.

Step dad worked on the car all week and weekend, and no change. It still doesn't start. I'm only out $40 for that, and whatever I give him for the effort... I guess? The next step is Ray's mom is having it towed across town to her guy. She said she will pay for it... but I heard Ray on the phone yesterday saying he gets paid Friday... so I think we will probably be paying for it. (Which is fine... we were going to pay her back anyway, but were going to wait till income tax time since she offered to pay for it.)
All this wouldn't be so bad if I didn't just spend hundreds on the damn thing!!! And I only had it for a week afterwards and now there is a whole new problem!!!! I'm just hoping her guy can fix it.

The internet seems fine, so that's good! Especially with my growing addiction to FrontierVille!!! (Grrr!!! Thanks a lot Byron!!! lol) I have decided I'm going to have to limit myself. Like right now, I have to be off this computer by 10:00am so I can get housework and things done. Off at 10, no matter what! After housework, if I have time I'm sure I'll be back on lol. But I also am getting on the treadmill at 1pm during my soap, no matter what! lol. We'll see how my plan goes :) I really need to keep up the house better, so I'm going to really try and stick to the plan, everyday would be good :)

Going to be another beautiful day, about 73. I hope you have a great day too!!!!