New Year's Eve... last weigh in of 2010!

This will be short, but not sweet :)
My brothers will be here soon, going to be a night in with a little drinking, playing video games, (if I get buzzed enough, I'll be playing guitar hero lol) maybe some dominoes or cards. We'll see!

It is 55 degrees here right now. In Michigan, on New Years Eve, at 10:11pm!!! That is just... crazy. NO snow on the ground... this has been the mildest winter EVER... at least that I can remember!

The main reason I've been away is my eating hasn't been great. I guess it was that end of the year thing I do... knowing that I'll be "starting over" on the first, so I can be bad if I want??? Which is SO STUPID and only hurts ME. The funny thing, last year I didn't have that. I was SO exited to loose weight, and just knew I was going to be able to do it! And I did!!! Until I didn't anymore...

So let's get this last weigh in over with shall we?
The scale says...

287
That's a 2.4 poud
gain from last week.
It makes my total lost:
33 pounds lost for the year

About half of what I unofficially wanted to loose...

As you know I had lost 42 pounds at my best point... and I REALLY didn't want to have to report a year end number less than that!

But it's ok. It is what it is. No sense in the "if onlys" or "I should have" I just have to make sure I do what needs to be done this year! AND STICK WITH IT!

So all is well here :) Not sure about any new resolutions... Just to rededicate myself!

Well, you know what? I do have a goal... I want to lose twice what I did this year :) That would be 66 pounds, and a total loss of 99 pounds. How awesome would that be???

Alright. Bro number 1 is here, got my 1st glass half gone. It looks like there is going to be a major disc golf tournament in the living room... via the PS3 MOVE of course :) Better go watch! Yes I know... I'm a party animal hehe :)

Here's to 2011 being the best year ever! Woo Hoo!

Have a great night!!!! Safe and Happy wishes to you all!!!!

And thanks for sticking by me through 2010, even though sometimes it seemed there were more downs than ups! I appreciate all who supported me, more that you could ever know! 2011 will be better :) I can feel it!!! Or is that the alcohol I feel??? :)

HUGS!!!

It's Christmas Eve! (and weigh day)

First let me thank Auntie Mandy for joining us here in My Day! Thank you and Happy Holidays!

And... Merry Christmas Eve Everybody!!!!

Today was also time for my weekly weigh in.

And the scale said...

284.6

That is .2 pound loss this week,

and make my Total Lost: 35.4 pounds.

Still almost 7 pounds away from being in the green... but it's a loss. And sadly enough, a loss 2 weeks in a row is scarce for me these days. Soooo, I've decided to just be happy with it. I may not end the year in the green, and I have accepted that. I have made a LOT of mistakes, but it will do me no good to beat myself up about it. All I can do is my best, and that will have to do. A loss the week before Christmas? I'm happy with it, even it it's only .2 pound :) I will do my best to make it a loss again next week and be happy with what ever number it is! And while it may not end in the "green" I will still end the year with a Total loss! Over 35 pounds less than this time last year! It may be slower than I expected... but 35 pounds is 35 pounds :)

I did get candy yesterday... and it didn't go well! I had way to much of it. Today I did a lot better. I had a few kisses and Hershey miniatures, but nothing like years past. Or yesterday. I am dividing the candy between Ray and my son's stockings, AND making little bags for My Mom, Stepdad, and 3 brothers. So there won't be much left for me. Oh, I'm sure I'll have some, but not 10 pieces at a time!

Me and my son are going to decorate cookies now, the last ones are due out of the oven in 7 minutes 50 seconds :) I'll take some pictures and show you tomorrow! Like on Thanksgiving, most of them will be left at my Mom's.

I am definitely in the Christmas mood :) I'm not letting anything bother me, and am exited for Christmas :)

Have a Merry Christmas Eve! Tomorrow have a wonderful day, and be safe!

*I did NOT take that picture. It is from WEBSHOTS

Friday Weigh In

Hello. First let me say a quick thank you to Pic Soso, thank you for joining us here at My Day!

Second, it's weigh in time. And the scale says...

284.8

That's a loss of 1.4 pounds this week,

Making my Total Lost: 35.2 pounds

I'm always glad to have a loss... but it just needs to be MORE. Especially with how sick I was earlier this week. I was down to 280, and I really thought it would be a bigger loss this week. BUT I'm feeling better now, and my appetite is back- with a vengeance!
So I have 6.8 pounds left to loose JUST to be in the green again. I WILL loose this by New Year. So that's 3.4 pounds to loose each of the 2 weeks that are left this year. That is a pretty big number for me to loose as you can see by the chart over to the right... but I REALLY want to end the year on a good note... a GREEN NOTE!!!! :) 

I have been feeling better, now I just have a cold. I never thought I would be so happy to just have a cold lol... but man, it's SOOO much better than whatever I did have!

Here's what I ate today:

Coffee: 40

2 tsp coffeemate, 1 tsp sugar. Didn't finish the cup though

Lunch: 1030

1 chicken sandwich, medium? eggnog shake

Snack: 80

1 cup ff skim milk

Dinner: 490

3/4 cup taco soup with tortilla chips (about 15) and cheddar cheese. 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 240

3 candy cane (oreo type) cookies, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 160
Simply Cinnamon Corn Flakes with a bout 1/2 cup milk (cats got the rest)
Total Water: about 5 oz :( SO FAR
Total Calories: 2040
Holy Crap! Do you know how many calories are in a Burger King Original Chicken Sandwich? 630! I am blown away by that! I actually thought I did ok for lunch... even though it was buy one get one free, I only got one. Now I see that it wasn't that great... AND I asked for a small shake... I haven't had a shake (or anything) from there in a looong time, but this didn't look like a small. I think it was a medium. Of course I didn't have to drink it all... but I did... I joked with Ray and said I would be using the calories from a small because that's what I ordered!!!! But I didn't, I can not tell a lie lol. And this was no small.

Well, I'm going to have to do a lot better than that if I am going to loose 3.4 pounds each week for the next 2... If only I had NO appetite like those few days when I was sick, things would be so much easier! No matter :) I will just have to control myself! It seems like EVERY Friday after weigh in, whether I do good or bad, I end up eating a lot. So if this is my mess up day, it's not THAT bad. Now I just have to get my ass in gear and really work hard for the next 2 weeks! I'll just keep telling myself, "It's only 2 weeks." That's not entirely true, because this will continue forever... but just don't let my brain know that! lol :)

I MUST record what I eat everyday.
I also have to get back to drinking at least 40 oz of water every day. Today was the worst with water in a while. We finished up christmas shopping for the kid :) So we were gone a while, and my whole day was kind of thrown off... but I'll get a glass right now and try and get some in before bed.

I went to bed last night at 9:30, 9:30 people!!!!! I'm really trying to get to bed at a decent time every night. Since I was sick, I've been doing an ok job with that. It's hard on the weekends, but I'm really going to try and keep at it.

Ok, Gonna watch some tv, NOT eat, drink some water, and get to bed. I'll see you tomorrow, even it it's only to record my food! Recording my food everyday is mandatory!
Good night everyone! Sweet Dreams! :)

The Flu Sucks...

It is good for weight loss though isn't it?
Well, I'm not even sure if it's the flu... Ray said it probably is because of how my whole body was aching and how bad I felt... but I have no idea. Flu, stomach virus, something that SUCKS.

Let's back up a little bit :)
Last time I was here, I had felt kind of sick a day before, but felt all better. I was drinking coffee like crazy and working my butt off cleaning the house. Even so, a day later I gained a pound for Friday's weigh in, so the scale said...

286.2

a 1 pound gain :(

NO treadmill, or Crunches
Total Loss: 33.8 pounds

We had pizza (2 pieces for me) Friday for lunch, and I had iced coffee all day.

I made Ray's favorite Cheezy Chicken for dinner for his Bday :) I only make it once a year for him lol. But I wasn't really hungry, and when I did eat it... I didn't really taste it, and ate pretty slow and not much. (any other year I would have had at least 2 giant helpings, this year one small) I was proud, and couldn't wait to write that here! I wasn't thinking about feeling sick or anything, I had been fine for 2 days.

Well, I had planned on drinking and everything Friday night... but I only got 1 shot. I started feeling really funny. Then around 10:30 I got those pains in my stomach... I got up to the bathroom... and began my night of vomiting. :(

I came back down, but I really felt like crap. I couldn't even wait for one of my brothers to come in from smoking, and one hadn't even gotten there yet. But I had to go to bed. I spent the rest of the night either dead asleep or puking my guts out... not just your average puke either, the kind where you BETTER be sitting on the toilet... yeah you know what I'm talking about lol. (It's funny now, but at the time not so much...) I lost count after 7 times, but I woke up for this spewing of bodily fluids a LOT. (I'm just so thankful it was in enough time to get to the bathroom every time!!!)

To show you just how much... That weight of 286.2 Friday morning? By Saturday morning it was 281. That's 5.2 pounds in one night, even though I ate cheezy chicken and pizza that day... so yeah. And Sunday morning, down another pound. So the Flu is good for weight loss I guess...

I am feeling better today. My stomach still feels kind of bad after I eat something, but I'm keeping it down. I'm back up to 282.5 which is still about 4 pounds down from Friday's weigh in.

Being sick sucks. I can't remember the last time I was that sick, and I hope I'm not again for a LONG time.

I'm still feeling really tired and weak, but SO much better. I've been sleeping a lot. If I didn't have to bring the boy to school, I'd probably never leave my bed...

Been going to bed at about 10, so that's good. Tonight it will be more like 11, but it's still better than it was! And I'm going to try and keep it that way.

No fast food, I don't even want it. I hope that feeling stays even after my stomach is back to normal!

Ray got it too :( Not as bad as mine, he only threw up once, but still. He had to call in Monday, and came home early this morning. He has to go in tonight, I hope he feels all better :( I feel really bad, nice birthday present huh???

OH, and now neither one of us can even stomach the THOUGHT of his favorite food, Cheezy Chicken! That is just crazy... but being so sick may have ruined it for me, forever!!!

I haven't been on the computer AT ALL, that's how bad I was feeling. I hope to get back to a more normal blogging schedule, but even before this I wasn't doing it everyday. So I won't promise EVERY day, but I'll really try and do more. I need to record what I eat, otherwise I'll probably go back to eating too much. And Nothing will keep me away from Friday weigh in (except the flu lol) :)

My eating has been ok, only because of being so sick. So I've been eating a lot less. But when I do eat, I can't say it's the best choices, I haven't had the energy to prepare me anything good... so it was what ever was quick and would stay down. (cereal, ice cream, freeze pops are some examples) Last night I did make some Orange chicken and broccoli. It was pretty good, and even though I didn't eat much, I still felt like I over ate. Tonight it was broccoli tuna helper. It was good, and I only ate about 3/4 cup. I'm going to be careful and only eat a little at a time. Even though being sick really sucks, I should take advantage of the weight loss and the stomach shrinkage right?

Definitely trying to be positive about it lol. Now I don't have as far to go to be back in the green :)

I hope everyone else has been doing a lot better than me!!!!!

I planned on reading and catching up, but now I feel sooo tired :(

I'm going to bed. But I'll be back tomorrow to at least read!!! Goodnight! 

It's Time for Weigh In Friday!

And the scale says...

That is a loss of 3.4 pounds this week

Making my Total Lost: 34.8 Pounds

My Totals for the week:

Treadmill: 0 :(

Crunches: 100

The way I ate? And NO treadmill? I know, it's crazy. Even though it started off bad, I was feeling better and better, and like I was improving each day :)

3.4 pounds this week, that's one of my largest weekly losses... and of course I am VERY happy about it :) But I can't really celebrate until I get back in the 'green.' I'm still loosing JUST to get back to where I was. I think 42 pounds lost was my best number...

So while I'm always happy about a loss, I can not wait to actually be loosing NEW weight again... you know what I mean? I sure don't want to end the year saying "lost 42 pounds, but gained back 'this much'"

So I HAVE to get back in the green before new years. Only 7.2 pounds left, I can do that before new year! 

What I ate Today-

Lunch: 376

Tuna on whole wheat with 1 tbs miracle whip, about 1/8 cup cheddar, jalapenos. 7 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch. Water

Iced Coffee: 105

Large glass with 3 tbs pumpkin spice creamer

Dinner: 1050 ?

2 slices of pepperoni, extra cheese pizza. 2 bread sticks with sauce. 6 oz sprite

Late snack 1am: 300 ?

1 slice pizza (smaller than the others)

Snack LATE: 23

Werther's

Snack 3am: 90

Mocha Bliss Special K bar

Total Water: 37 oz

Total Calories: 1944

WELL, I know it doesn't look great. I know I shouldn't have pizza, especially since I was so proud of resisting temptation last time! BUT, I had 2 slices for dinner. NOT 5, and not my new normal, 3. But 2. I am very proud of that. It was hard for me, I really wanted another piece... but I didn't have it.

EATING PIZZA

I actually ate my pizza with a fork!!! WITH A FORK! It took a lot longer and did help me control myself... I think helped me feel full by the time I was done also.

When I eat pizza, especially good messy pizza, I eat it pretty fast. You know, once you get a good hold on it, you don't want to put it down to mess that up right? And you take big bites, as not to slop on yourself lol... now HOW am I supposed to take my time, and limit myself, eating like THAT. It's not possible. So I grabbed a fork :) and I am going to do that from now on! When I was to the end, I picked it up but sat it down after EVERY BITE. All of this was very deliberate, but after a while it will just become habit and I won't even have to think about it right? We'll see :)

I am ok with my calories today, but staying up late is really hurting me. I wouldn't have had that other slice if I was in bed!!! I have ALWAYS been one to stay up really late, but when I was doing my best loosing weight... that was also when I was finally on a good schedule. I was going to bed at 9:30 or 10 at one point! I know I can't do that right now, but I need to slowly work to it. I HAVE to get on schedule.

Have a great day everybody!

Weigh In- Not a Good Idea the Day After your Birthday!

And the scale says...

285.4

A loss of 1.4 pounds this week,

making my Total Loss 34.6 pounds.

Treadmill Totals:

2 hours 11 minutes

5.04 miles Woo Hoo!

You know me, I'm happy with a loss. ANY loss. This week is different though, I really should have lost more. I just came back from a big gain from those 2 weeks I was MIA, and I expected a good number. That's what I get for eating like I did for my birthday though.

GOAL PROGRESS:
The main reason I'm not happy with that though, is because of my goal to loose 50 pounds Total by New years... and this isn't going to do it! I was supposed to loose 2.4 pounds this week... so I missed that goal. ugh.

Now I have only 6 weeks left, and 15.4 pounds to loose! That is about 2.6 pounds per week! I think I can do it if I really get ahold of my eating, and stick with the treadmill! I'll do at least 5 miles per week. While I'm disappointed in today's number (that is the FIRST time I have said that about a loss people! Now you know why I'm not a fan of weight goals LOL) I am still motivated and still going to do my best to meet my new goal!!!

Hopefully next week will be great :)

I did make my 5 mile goal though! 5 miles per week is definitely doable for me, and I am going to make sure I get at least 5 miles in from now on!

I woke up with a head ache today, and slept most of the morning and early afternoon. Every day I wake up and feel sick, or have a head ache :( This has been going on for a week now. I'm starting to get tired of it! Hopefully I'm not going to get sick, my son was complaining about a sore throat today... We hardly ever get sick, so I'm still hoping whatever it is will pass us by! Also, I was thinking it could be caffeine. I haven't been consistent with my coffee, sometimes one, sometimes two... maybe that's it? I don't know.

But today was fine other than that.

2 of my brothers came by, the youngest Bear and the oldest JW and their friend N (like a little brother to me.) Bear got me a present after I told him not to! I guess he planned on taking me to lunch, but when I didn't answer my phone all morning he ended up buying me the Avatar movie set. It's the new one with all that extra junk on it. It's heavy lol. He loves to get me stuff he wants, but I actually saw commercials for it and  thought it looked pretty cool. All the behind the scenes footage and what not. Besides, I was going to get it for my son for Christmas- now I don't have too! HE is very happy about my gift :) We were going to watch it tonight, but I feel yucky and might go to bed soon. But for sure tomorrow!

I tried to unload some of this cake on them!!! But they were on their way out to eat, so only Bear had some. Me? I ended up with 2 slices today.... bleh.

I'll come back in the morning with a full report on my food. It isn't great :( 

(Oh, late last night I had a bowl of cereal, which I will add to yesterdays record)

Alright, going to try and catch some blogs... a problem I'm going to have to do something about soon! I have to many that I read... but it's so hard to choose any to let go!!!! What's a girl to do?!?!?!?!

Have a great night :)

I'm Back! Time for Weigh Ins...

Ugh... Let's get this over with...

Missed Weigh Day: October 5th
The scale said...

282.8

That is a gain of 4.2 pounds.

That made my total loss 37.2 pounds

NO Treadmill, No Crunches

Today's Weigh In:

The scale says...

286.8

Yes, you read that right.

That is a gain of 4 pounds

That makes my Total Loss 33.2 pounds

Total Treadmill: 30 minutes/ 1.02 miles

0 Crunches

So that means in these 2 weeks I have been away, I have GAINED 8.2 pounds. I haven't been this weight since June 12th, so it's like 5 months of work wasted.

I can't believe how fast I gained back 8.2 pounds... 8.2 pounds that took over 5 months for me to loose! WTF!

I feel like I'm right back where I started. All those bad habits came back so fast... so EASY...

I can't put into words how disappointed I am in myself... but I spent all week feeling it...

Thinking about it or beating myself up isn't going to help me at all. I know that.

So today I start again. 

Being honest, I really don't feel that great or motivated... but I'm not hungry either... hopefully it will all fall back into place.

I know I have a LOT of work to do. Especially if I want to make that goal of loosing 50 pounds this year!!! I only have 7 weeks left to lose 16.8 pounds... That is 2.4 pounds per week!

As you know, since summer started I have struggled to loose any weight. I mean, it took me over 5 months to lose these last 8 pounds!!! And to lose DOUBLE that in 7 weeks... It's going to be work. HARD WORK.

But I am going to do my best! I really do think that if I watch what I'm eating (or more important how much) and get on the treadmill everyday, I will be able to do it.

Ok... now I feel a little more motivated :)

I also feel kind of funny, like I have a fever :( I hope I'm not getting sick, that is the LAST thing I need right now...

I have to go update my tracker, and my weight chart. Have to take care of other internet stuff I have neglected for 2 weeks, check email ect. I will write a post tonight if I can, otherwise I will see you in the morning for some... reflecting...

Most important is that I get back to writing down everything I eat. So I'll be back with that as well.

Thank you again to everyone who cares :) It really means a lot that you would check on me, and make me feel like I was actually missed. I'm sorry I was gone, but that really is a good feeling to come back to!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

See you later!

Weigh Day

And the scale says...

278.6

A loss of 1.2 pounds this week

That makes my Total Loss 41.4 pounds

To be back in the green,

I have to loose .6 pounds this week. I can do that!

My Totals are pathetic...

Treadmill: 2 days

30 minutes/1.13 miles this week

Crunches: 2 days/ 185 Total

One of those weeks where I can't figure out how I lost ANY weight... but not having the car really cut down on my snacking... so that's a good thing. We have all the food we need in the house, just not much junk food lol, which worked out very good this week. I also did more housework. So even though I didn't do well on the treadmill I lost anyway- So I am HAPPY! Now this week I have to be careful with the snacking again, AND do the treadmill :)

As you know, my goal now is to be able to say "I LOST 50 POUNDS IN 2010" and to do that I had to loose .98 pounds per week until New Years. So loosing 1.2 puts me ahead already :) YEAH.

I think I'll go back to writing about my day and what I ate, the next morning. That was working out well for me. So I'll see you in the morning! Have a great night!

Friday Weigh In and Catch Up

And the scale says...

279.8

That is a gain of .6 pounds

Making my Total loss 40.2 pounds

My Treadmill Totals for the week:

46 minutes/ 1.79 miles

I know... pathetic

It might sound crazy, but I'm ok with that. Except for last Saturday, I did really well this week. I wasn't very hungry at all, didn't snack much, and I think I did good. Thursday night I did end up snacking on a few things... maybe it would have been a loss if I hadn't done that... No fast food (until last night, after weigh in Ray and I had pizza). I only got on the treadmill 3 days... last day being Monday! So that's not good. Over all I did ok.

One thing I didn't do, is use my grief as an excuse to binge all week. So I think it shows I have made a lot of improvement since I started. I honestly thought about it, but I know Margie M wouldn't want me to. Instead I wasn't even hungry most of the time, so I'm thankful for that.

I haven't done my own blog since finding out about her... to be honest I haven't wanted to. I thought about not doing if anymore... but I do think it's helped me a lot. I have kept up with all the blogs I follow and tried to leave comments. Even if I haven't commented lately, I'm still reading :)

On top of not wanting to write, I just couldn't really think of anything else this week besides Margie and Bruce and what happened. It's still hard for me to believe and accept.

Margie's daughter has been so kind in keeping us updated even in her time of grief. I'm sure she'll never fully know how much we all appreciate it. Her last post was to let us all know they are back home safe, with the RV and Bruce and Margie's little dog. She does the posts on Margie M's other blog found here: http://www.bruceandmargiesfulltimejourney.blogspot.com/ It's so incredibly kind of her to think about their followers and blogland friends.

A new week:

I did have 3 slices of pizza last night, which I know isn't good. But I am not mad about it, I hadn't ate much at all yesterday, and I know I will have a great week anyway. I'm not going to let that get me down, and I'm not going to take until Tuesday to get back on track, I'm back on track right now.

I started off on a good note and did Crunches yesterday. 5 sets of 20. I'm going to really try and make crunches habit along with treadmill. Maybe every other day for the crunches? Or whenever my belly isn't feeling over worked? I like the 5 mile a week goal for the treadmill, so I'm going with that. Also allowing myself ONE day off without feeling bad about it. Which was yesterday. I'm also going to keep weighing myself over at the weight loss tracker. I haven't for a few days, but back to daily now. I think it helps.

Not much new with me. Finally gave in and had to turn the heat on yesterday. It was 40 and I was cold.

The car still isn't fixed.

The Internet is slow- but at least it's working. All of a sudden we have cable (we already pay for basic, which is only up to 31 and none of the kids channels or good stuff) so that's cool. It's missing a few like my court tv, but that's ok lol. I figure it won't last long, I don't even know why we have it. They owe it to us anyway with how expensive they are and how shitty the service is... so whatever.

I had my family over for dinner Wednesday. I never see them anymore, except when I get my brother to give me a ride lately. They didn't stay long. I know it's because I don't allow weed in my house anymore... and a whole hour is a long time to be without (rolling my eyes) but it was nice to see them. The middle brother couldn't make it, he's pretty busy with work and some more schooling.

I have been going to bed at a decent time every night (except Thursday, probably why I snacked) and last night was at 10:30. I was up at 7 this morning when I COULD be sleeping in! Ray is at work, and my son is... gone! He actually spent the night at a friends house last night! He's 12 and this is the first time he has done that. He used to stay sometimes with his cousin at my Grandma's, but she disowned everybody about 3? years ago. (story for another time) He used to stay at my Mom's (my brother's) sometimes, but not since I put my foot down and said he's not allowed over there anymore... so it's been a while since he's stayed the night anywhere. Ray is more nervous, but I am happy :) He is such a shy kid, and being an only child he just has us all the time. Which I love, but I worry about him. He's perfectly happy just hanging out with us or playing video games by himself, but I always wish he had friends, or would go outside and play... I was SO worried about him starting middle school, but it seems like he likes it. This year is going well for him so far, and he seems like he's getting more social and now he actually went to a friends house! :) So yeah, I'm happy about it.

I think that's about it. I am getting pretty sick of not having a car. My brother said he would take me to the laundromat today, but he probably forgot. I don't want to go today, since it will probably be crowded on the weekend... but it's his day off. So I'll call around noon and wake him up to remind him. He only works part time, but can't be bothered to get up before 1pm on days he works... ugh. You know last winter when they didn't have a car, I was taking him AND his girlfriend to and from their jobs, AND where ever else anyone over there needed to go. In the snow. I had to go get her from work at 11:30 at night, ON TOP of bringing Ray at 4am. They would even wait till the last minute sometimes and call "Katie needs to be to work in an hour." After telling me she didn't need a ride... Did I complain??? NOPE. But now that I don't have a car, no one even asks if I need anything. Not ONCE. Even though I have a child, and groceries don't grow out of my ass. Even though I brought them all everywhere. Even though they have 2 vehicles, between the 4 people, 3 of which don't work... Ray's Mom is the one that asks if we need anything. Ray's Mom who works full time, and lives across town. She's the one who brings Ray to work at 4am. Ugh... I could go on, but I guess I shouldn't. No use thinking about it, it only pisses me off.

Anyway, today might suck... it sounds like it's raining out too. BUT once laundry is done it will be good. I just wish I could get it over with... I'm sure he won't get here till about 3. Bleh.

Anyway, I'll try and get back to posting like normal.

I hope everyone has a good day. And I will try my best to also :)

Friday Weigh In, Turkey Burgers, and Cat Trouble

OMGoodness. This turned into a long and rambling post lol. Feel free to just skim it!

And the scale says...

279.2

That is a gain of 1.2 pounds.

Making my Total Weight Lost: 40.8 pounds

Treadmill Totals for the week:

2 hours 15 minutes and

5.26 miles :)

If it weren't for the treadmill (and being sick yesterday) I'm sure the gain would have been more, with the way I was eating last week. I think 5 miles is a good number to shoot for each week, and I will do my best!

As far as food, I feel much better, but I now want to snack all day! I don't know why, I just feel hungry all day, and even when I'm not- I want to snack anyway!!! Ugh. I think I did ok with it today, I gave in to the snacking- but only had a little bit...

I had a VERY busy day. In the midst of all this chaos, I realized how far I've come when my brother brought me to the store.

A GREAT REALIZATION:

As you know, my car isn't running (and now there is no more talk from ray's Mom about her guy... I have no idea why) and so when my brother brought me grocery shopping, I stocked up! So I got more than usual, trying to cover everything we will need for a while, since I'm not sure when I'll be going again. After I was all done shopping, and putting it all on the belt myself, putting it all back in the cart myself, I felt great! I wasn't tired, I wasn't sweating. I was just fine. It reminded me of a post I did when I first started this, probably in March or late Feb? I remember telling you how I felt bad because after Ray worked all night, he had to come to the store with me. I had recently gotten to the point where I couldn't go grocery shopping by myself if I was getting more than a few things. I was so tired and out of breath that I couldn't do the whole check out thing with out sweating like crazy...

but it's been a few months now, that I don't need any help (he helps me bring it all in when I get home) and today- even with extra stuff, I felt great :) It really reminds my why I am doing this. And that I have come a long way already, and I have to keep going!

Here's what I ate today:

Coffee: 46

Lunch: 404

Turkey sandwich (on whole wheat, with 1 slice pepper jack cheese, lettuce and miracle whip), 6 baby carrots, 1/2 tbs light ranch, water

Snack: 63

5 sunchips

Snack: 148

6 tortilla chips and 1 tbs salsa con queso

Dinner: 770

Turkey Burger (on white bun, slice of pepper jack, lettuce, tiny bit bbq sauce) baked beans, 9 sunchips, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 460

3 doughnut holes, 1 cup apple cider

Total Water: 41 oz

Total Calories: 1891

Wow... and I thought I did pretty good today! I can't believe those tiny doughnut holes are 110 calories EACH!!! And dinner really added up faster than I thought! That's more calories than I thought I had...

TURKEY BURGERS:

It was out first time having turkey burgers. I have to say... I'm not impressed.

I got Jennie-O Lean turkey burger patties 'with no artificial ingredients.' They tasted ok, we seasoned them with ranch seasoning... I definitely I like regular burgers better. The whole reason I got them is because they are supposed to be so much more healthy. But my extra lean ground beef has LESS calories than this! I am pretty surprised! Where my beef is 96% fat free, this is 93%.

I'm looking at the 2 packages right now, and here's the breakdown on a quarter pound of the beef and the turkey...

The turkey has 20 MORE calories, 3.5 grams MORE fat, 1 gram MORE saturated fat, 15 mg MORE cholesterol, 40 mg MORE sodium, 4 grams LESS protein, and 9% LESS Iron... Also, the beef has that little 'heart check' symbol, and is certified by the 'National Heart Association.'

The only good thing I see is that the turkey has 2% Vitamin A and 2% calcium... I need my iron more than those I think...

Maybe I got the wrong thing? I thought that the patties would be the same as if they weren't in patties. (I only got patties cause they were on sale) but maybe they aren't?

I don't know. Do you eat turkey burgers? If so, why?

I have some left, so I would love to know how you eat them! What you season them with and what you use on them... Please! :)

Treadmill: 11 minutes/ .43 mile, Incline 1, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

I have a treadmill story. It's the reason I was on it such a short time, and it's NOT a good story. You may leave now if you want, lol.

CAT TROUBLE

I'm on the treadmill and notice my cat is acting weird. I'm watching her and she starts pawing over in the corner by the PS3. Then she paws at the rug in front of the door... "Miya!" I say. She stops and runs off. She comes back and goes about 4 feet away from where I'm walking, and is just staring... What is she looking at? I wonder. As I watch her, I realize she is not just standing there, she is going to the bathroom!!! 4 feet away from me, in plain sight!! I was fricken SHOCKED! So I yell at her, like she's going to answer me, "Miya!!! What are you DOING!?!?!?" I get off the treadmill, grab her by the scruff and go towards the basement. The litter is down there, and I throw her down the stairs! ...

No I didn't, but I was so mad I honestly thought about it! I can't do that though, so I set her down and she runs down in fear. So I get to clean up a HUGE steamy pile of shit on my living room carpet. She must have been holding that for 2 days!!!! WTF!?!?! UGH, I was so mad.

So I didn't get back on the treadmill, but I DID get a work out.

Earlier in the day Ray had told me that he had  a couple fleas on his legs in the basement. UGH. So far we haven't been bothered, and haven't seen them in the house. Just on the cats, and know they still have them because of the scratching. But since the litter is down there, and they go to bed down there at night, it must have gotten worse in the last couple days. So before she did her business on the carpet, I had already bought some spray and the neck stuff for them while at the store. After I calmed down, I realized she must have only done that, because there ARE fleas in the basement, and they must be bothering her so bad that she didn't want to go down there. Poor thing :(

So I chased them all down, sprayed them all REAL good with this stuff, chased them all down again to dry them off, and brushed the 3 that I could after that. I was sweating like crazy! Miya was actually really good, I think she was still scared of me and how mad I was. After a minute of rubbing the stuff on her, I told her "It's ok." and she started purring. I know it's because she knew I forgave her, because cats DON'T pure while getting flea treated, trust me lol. But it's all done, and tomorrow morning I will put on the other stuff, that is supposed to last 1 month (WE'LL SEE). And once we get that stuff on them, we are going to flea bomb the basement. Fun Fun I tell ya.

SO keep your fingers crossed for us and the kitties!!! Nothing has worked so far, This HAS to work. I'm SICK of this crap. And I can't stand to see them miserable either of course. They are indoors, I shouldn't even have to deal with this!!! Grrr!



K, I guess I better go now lol. It's way past my bedtime, and I'm not tired, and am HUNGRY. I want chips and salsa con queso, but I think I'll have a small bowl of cereal :)

Goodnight!

Weigh Day, Goal Reached!!!

And the scale says...

278

Wooo Hooo!

That is 3.6 pounds lost this week!

For a Total of 42 pounds lost.

My treadmill stats for the week:
6 days

2 hours and 8 minutes

4.85 miles :)

I am very happy :) I was already happy yesterday though, when I hit my goal. Today I was up a little, when I weighed in the last time it was at 278.2, JUST over my goal of 278. But then my step dad got here, and I didn't eat and was busy. So i weighed in again before I ate, and there it was! 278 on the dot!!! WOOOO HOOOO!!!!

So I'm 'back in the green' or right ON the green anyway :)

I think weighing in every day has helped me stay on track better. Oh I still have a lot to improve on, but I feel better about this week than I have in a long time.

My eating yesterday wasn't great. But it wasn't horrible. We had frozen pizza, and you'll never guess what I did. I was REALLY hungry, and I didn't want to eat 5 pieces. So I stir fried vegetables and seasoned them with Italian seasoning to put on my pizza :) I added a little spaghetti sauce and PILED it on. LOL, Ray thinks I'm crazy haha. But he's eating a lot more veggies lately too! I have to say, I love stir fried veggies now! They don't, but I do :) So I had 1 1/2 pieces of frozen pizza :) Not bad.

I did end up with 3 cookies all together throughout the day... bleh.

My total calories came to 1892

I did my treadmill after midnight last night, so I didn't stay on it as long as I could have. (and I woke Ray up! oops!)

15 minutes/ .52 mile, incline 1

Days in a row: 6

I have to go and take care of some other stuff while the Internet is working, read some blogs, take care of my facebook animals LMAO :) Here's hoping they fix it and I'm not without for to long!!!

So I have no dryer, no car, no cordless phone, no answering machine and now no internet only half the time. But that's ok :) I reached my goal. AND got a medal!!!!! Woo Hoo!!!!! :)

Thank you to anyone who showed support to the ladies I mentioned yesterday :) You guys are great.

OH!

I watched Being John Malkovich on netflicks. Have you seen that movie??? I think it's the weirdest movie I have EVER SEEN! lol. EVER

The way my brother has it set up, we have to watch what is on there. It's a big selection but not the stuff I want to watch!!!! So no I Am Legend :( Or Inception :( I was looking forward to checking them out. There is The Sound of Music, I've mentioned before that it's one of those classics I've never seen and would like to. No one will watch it with me though!!!! lol oh well :) Have to watch it alone I guess!

Sorry if this seems rushed. I know you understand :)

Have a great day!!!!!!!!

Weigh Day... Oh The Horror!!!

First let me thank 2 new faces! Lanie Painie and Laura W. Thank you so much for joining me in My Day! Maybe I should say THREE new faces, since the picture for Lanie Panie are 2 very cute platypuses! SO cute, I never thought them cute before seeing that picture :)

Alright, now to the weigh in.
It wasn't pretty... so brace yourselves :(
And the scale says....

281.6

That is a Gain of 3.4 pounds this week

and makes my Total Lost 38.4 Pounds

Was on the treadmill only 3 times this week

Making the totals 1 hour 10 minutes

and 2.55 miles

UGH

I knew it would be a gain, but didn't know it would be so much. BUT I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

I know exactly why I gained, eating to much, only walking 3 days instead of 7. Simple. Now I need to fix it.

I got an award the other day from Shielah, and now have 2 new followers... on top of all you that support me already!!! Great reasons to be motivated and get my butt back in gear!!!

Why does it feel so hard?

I really don't know. I have lost motivation, and it's been kind of hard getting it back... Now look at me, back in the 280s. I NEVER wanted to see the 280s EVER EVER again!!! Grrr! I can only be mad at myself. I look at that list on the side of my weigh ins... and I'm the same weight I was 14 weeks ago. I feel like I have wasted  14 weeks, just poured them down the drain!

But it's time to take a deep breath and concentrate on what needs to be done.

Yesterday's Gone, Live for Today.

I have to remember that. I have to remember how good it felt to hit that 40 pounds lost mark, and make sure I do it this week!!! I want out of the 280s! If I put some effort into it, I'll get out of them for good this week. If I really work hard, maybe I can get back in the green by loosing 3.6 pounds. Then I would be at 42 pounds lost, where I was 3 weeks ago! I won't be mad if I don't hit 3.6, but I'm going to try. You know I usually don't set number goals for myself, but this week I am really going to try and hit that number. It WILL be a loss, and I'll do my best to get 3.6 :)

Get on the treadmill EVERY day

Eat Small portions

Get to bed no later than midnight

No fast food

Stop snacking so much

That's not so bad, and I know that's ALL I need to do. I'm not stuck at this weight because of a plateau, I'm stuck because I just haven't been putting in the work! So I should consider myself lucky. I have yet to really hit a plateau, and I see how frustrating that is! I just need to get rededicated. After I hit that 40th day in a row of being on the treadmill, I missed 2 days, but got back on it. I told myself "see, you don't have to do it EVERY day, it's still habit." Well it's been 2 weeks and now I missed FOUR days this week. NOT GOOD. I HAVE to do it EVERY DAY!

Today was pretty stressful, more money problems, and more stress I don't need! BUT before I go to bed, I'm going to concentrate on the good of today, and what made me smile :)

It was a beautiful day :)

Ray made me smile, he always does :)

My son got home from camp! It's so nice to have him home! :)

There, that feels better.

And a new one: Today is the last day I will be in the 280s!!! Damn it!!! :)

I'm pretty tired again tonight, so going to read up on your blogs and then getting to bed! Should be before Midnight, if I'm not done- I'll go anyway!!! :)

Goodnight All!

Weigh Day

And the scale says...

278.2

That's a loss of .6 pounds this week

I was hoping for at least a pound...

but I'm happy :)

As long as it's going down!

That makes my TOTAL loss:

41.8 pounds

I was on the treadmill 5 days this week

Making my Totals:

1 hour 24 minutes/ 3.23 miles

It's late and I'm pretty tired. I'm a little down on myself because I did really bad eating today. REALLY BAD....

why Why WHY? It seems every Friday, whether I've lost or gained, I end up eating badly... I don't know why I do that. I know I'll do better tomorrow though.

What I ate Today:

Lunch: Chimichanga, chips and cheese

Snack: 2 cookies

Snack: 1 bite sized snickers

Dinner: 2 pieces of lasagna, 2 pieces texas toast, about 10 oz pepsi

Snack: 1 cup ff skim milk, 2 cookies

Snack: 1 bit sized snickers

Total Water: 36 oz

Ugh. And they were large pieces of lasagna too. I WAY over ate, I am now full and feel like crap. Last time I made lasagna was the first time I ever stopped at 1 piece, EVER. I thought I would be able to do that tonight too... Honestly, after I had those first 2 cookies I kind of said- "today is ruined, so what the hell" and I KNOW better! That is why this time is so different, because I know not to throw away a whole day or week or month because of a bad choice... I don't know what got into me. UGH.

Tomorrow will be better, even though I finally gave in and got a bag of Halloween snickers, AND cookies... I also got apples and frozen veggies. I plan on doing really well this week...

I hope you all are doing good! I see a lot of you have joined that 100 challenge :) That's awesome! I'm not up to a challenge like that right now I don't think, but I'm going to challenge myself. I saw some of your goals where to only have 1 helping of food, THAT is a good one. I'm going to challenge myself to do that form NOW ON!!!! It's already a part of my plan... I just haven't been following that lately, and I NEED to!!!

Have a great weekend!

A Gain, No Surprise There!

And the scale says...

278.8

that's a gain of .8 pounds.

NOT a surprise.

Not as bad as I thought it would be...

I was on the treadmill everyday,

making my totals for the week:

1 hour 46 minutes/ 4.05 miles

Only a TINY bit farther than last week,

but farther none the less! :)

I woke up today with a horrible head ache. After I dropped my son off I ended up going back to bed. I slept till 1:00! My head was worse, and I still have it. Weighing in so late in the day without eating anything (except coffee) is probably why I didn't gain more! We all know I made some bad choices this week. So I'm ok with my little gain. I was afraid I'd see those 280s again, so I'm glad about that...

A new week, a new chance to do well.

Here it is 1:30 am and I still have to get on the treadmill. I kind of want to just go to bed, but then I would ruin my streak. My head is finally a little better, so I might as well do it!

Today will be day 39 on the treadmill! So I'm going to go do that and I'll be back in the morning to record how long, and what I ate today.

To go farther than last week, I have to do at least .58 miles per day. So that's probably what it will be :) See you tomorrow!

Weigh Day

And the scale says...

278

Gotta love those even numbers lol.

So that's a 1 pound loss

making my Total lost: 42 pounds

WOO HOO!

Back in the green :) Yeah!

I was on the treadmill every day,

making my totals:

1 hour 47 minutes/ 4 miles

That's .35 mile more that last week.

In order to pass that next week,

I have to make sure to do

at least .57 every day :)

I can do that :)

I'm so happy to be back 'in the green' as I call it. I'm now at my lowest weight since starting this journey. I just have to keep loosing. I know it would have been more if I hadn't messed up with my eating the last few days... but that's ok. I messed up, now it's on to the future!

Sunday is in the future... it's going to be my sons 12th birthday! I can't believe it!

I am a little scared, it's the first time we've had a birthday here since I've started this weight loss journey. I thought I would be smart and just order the 1/4 sheet of cake... so I wouldn't have a bunch left over like always.... smart right?

Well after I got home I realized it might not be enough!!!! So I'll have to call them I guess...

Today is the start to new week. A new chance to do a great job :) I hope you all are doing well! Thanks for visiting!!!

Friday- Weigh Day

And the scale says...

279

That's only one pound down this week,

but you know me!

I'm happy with ANY LOSS, especially

a pound or over, so WOO HOO! :)

This makes my total loss 41 pounds,

If I loose .2 pounds next week,

I'll be back 'in the green'

Got on the Treadmill EVERY day this week.

Making my totals: 1 hour 5 minutes/ 4.70 miles

.70 miles more than last week :)

I have to make this quick, I am holding up the dvd player lol. Ray will just have to wait a couple more minutes :)

I had a LOT of stress today... and I am sad to report, I ate a lot too. BUT I don't know that it was from the stress... I really don't think it was.

As you may know, I'm trying to save up $1200 which is going to be very hard for me. WELL the total on the car today came to$1800! Obviously I can't do that. So we're going to see what Jeff (step dad) can do with the car. Honestly, I felt like crying all morning... Why can't we ever catch a break!!! But I didn't, and soon stopped feeling sorry for myself and realized it could be so much worse. I ended up taking a nap and the rest of the day was better.

My Mom called, pretty much to apologize and invite us over for a labor day cook out. I'm glad she called to apologize, but the whole fight was about my decision to NOT go over there anymore! Ugh... she just doesn't get it...

My eating started off good, but went downhill. Like I said, I don't think it was stress- it was just me not doing a good job... Just eating and not thinking... I don't know. I do know it isn't going to take me half the week to get back to doing well, that starts NOW.

Didn't I say this was going to be short? Haha, I forgot. I gotta go, I'll see you tomorrow!
Well... tomorrow we have plans :) Ray won some tickets to go see some MMA fights live downtown, so we are going on a rare night out :)  And I do mean RARE. His mom is going to come get us, and take our son and come pick us up when it's done! So I won't even have to worry about driving!!! I'm going to just ignore all the stress and have a great time :)

I'll be back soon though lol :)

OH! I felt sooo full, but I got on the treadmill anyway.

10 minutes/ .33 miles

Total days in a row on the treadmill: 18

I know, not that great, BUT I got on it... believe me I did NOT want to.

Ok, gotta go! For real! The natives are getting restless!!!
Have a good night!

Weigh Day

And the scale says...
you'll never know, because now it sleeps with the fishes so it can't tell you...
OK... I didn't really hurt the scale, even though I wanted to... Here it is:

280

That's a 1.2 pound gain

So right at 40 pounds lost Total.

Got on the treadmill EVERY DAY :)

Making my Week Totals:

1 hour 4 minutes/ 4 miles

(that Total is going to go UP every week!)

Eeeeek!

I never wanted to see that 280 again! But we all know my eating was pretty bad this week. After yesterday I should be glad I didn't gain more I guess.

I feel ok though, I know I'll loose it this week :)

My back seems like it gets worse every day. It doesn't hurt at all on the treadmill, so I am not going to stop doing that. I think it's a pinched nerve or something... sometimes it's one spot, and others it's a large area. Ray was rubbing it today, and I made him quit because it was hurting my neck!? Weird.

So I didn't do the laundry... I know Ray would have carried it up and down the 2 sets of stairs... but I didn't want him to have to. And I didn't want to risk hurting myself more at the laundromat. Wet laundry is heavy lol. Hopefully it will be better Monday, because I'll be doing laundry for sure then!

What I ate Today:

Lunch: (483) Tuna sandwich w 1/8 cup cheddar, 1 tbs mw, hot pepper rings on whole wheat. 5 baby carrots, 1 tbs light ranch, 9 sunchips, water

Drink: (84) about 8 oz iced coffee with 2 tsp hazelnut coffee mate, 1 1/2 tsp sugar, 3 ice cubes :)

Snack: (23) 1 Werther's

Dinner: (1510) Papa John's- 1 1/2 slice 'Workin Fire' (pepperoni, jalapenos, sausage) 1 1/2 slice pepperoni, 4 small cheese sticks, pizza sauce, 3/4 garlic sauce, Water

Snack: (90) Yoplait Delights Chocolate raspberry parfait (yuck)

Snack: (200) Frosted Wheat Puffs w ff skim milk

Total Water: 37 oz

Total Calories: 2390

WAY to many calories. I had 2 slices of pizza, then got one more of each... but I got full and decided to stop eating. I put half of each slice back. I was proud of myself. i know I don't NEED 3 slices, but it's better than last times 5... the calories where still horrible, man those tiny cheese sticks add up!!! And the sauces! I'm sure I'll have left overs for lunch tomorrow, but I'll do a good job :)

My iced coffee came out good today :) mixed in the creamer and sugar, put it in the fridge for an hour and poured it over ice. It could have used more sugar, but I didn't want to add the calories. It was pretty good. Still plan on getting the liquid creamer, but Ray got a ride home and I slept in and ended up not going ANYWHERE today. It was 90, so I had a lazy day in the central air :)

I tried on of those Yoplait Delights like you see on tv, with the layer of raspberry over the chocolate. YUCK. They look really good and only 100 calories, (gave my son a bite, he is going to put one in the freezer for himself) but I don't like it at all.

Treadmill: 20 minutes/ .71 mile

Been on it 11 days in a row

I won't say it's habit yet, but it does feel like it. I'm back to just KNOWING I have to get on it, not thinking about whether I want to or not.

I know I didn't really start this week out well with the pizza, but I do feel good. I really thought about what I wanted to eat all day. I know this week is going to be better!

Weigh Day

And the scale says...

279.2

That is a .2 pound loss for this week.

I'll take it!!!

That brings the Total lost to 40.8 pounds :)

This week my crunch total is: 220

I can't say I expected a loss. I actually expected a gain and just hoped it would be less than .6 so I didn't have to see the 280s again! So a loss at all is a surprise, and I am SO glad :) I did drink a lot of water this week, and had more fiber in my diet. I had a few romaine salads this week, they seem to help me loose weight. I'm happy, any loss is a loss in my book!!!

Had an unexpected problem today. After I was so relieved to lose, Ray wanted to order food!!! I usually would have given in... in fact I almost did!!! I thought about how happy I was to have lost any weight, and that wasn't enough! I still wanted pizza! I asked "what do you want?" BUT then I thought of how much money trouble we are in, I thought "I JUST wrote about it and how I have to SAVE EVERY PENNY on my blog!!! How will this look!?!?!?!?!?" and that's what did it. That's what stopped me. So when he told me what he wanted, I said "Ok, I'll make some Tuna Helper."

I was actually pretty mad after that. Because now I WANTED pizza :( Why would he even bring it up? Knowing we can't afford it??? Ugh. And I was mad becasue instead of making my tuna sandwich I really wanted for lunch, I was making dinner for lunch, and another dinner for dinner!!! I got over it within about 20 minutes, but I almost let it really get to me... More and more I feel like I am a parent instead of a partner... and I get tired of it...

Here's What I ate today:

Drink: (200) iced coffee

Lunch: (473) 1 cup of tetrazzini tuna helper, 1/2 cup peas, 1 slice parmesan whole wheat toast, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: (320) 4 chocolate chop cookies, 1 cup ff skim milk

Dinner: (538) 2 servings of chicken veggie stir fry over white rice(total 1 1/2 cups rice and 1 1/2 cups stir fry), 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: (380) 5 cookies, 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 40 oz

Total Calories: 1911

I over ate at dinner AND went a little crazy with the cookies and milk. My stomach is paying for it right now... I did get in a lot of veggies though.

My son did end up going fishing yesterday. He had a really good time :) I'm glad, he's been waiting long enough! He plans on going tomorrow too... but I haven't heard anything about it so I don't know. But if he was told they were going again, they BETTER BE.

I have not been on the treadmill in 3 weeks now. My goal is to get on it tomorrow no matter what! Even if only for 10 minutes!

I have lost 40 pounds!!! 40!!! Yeah, like 4-0, FORTY!!!!!!

Can you believe it?!?!?!? I can't!!!! 40 seems like such huge number, and it was starting to feel like I would bounce around and never hit it!!! BUT I DID!!!!! Woooo Hooooo!!!!!!! I wasn't going to mess with the stupid camera, but this is the first time in... I don't know how long, that the scale has been in the 270s! So I had to take one! Here you go:

Ha! Look at THAT!!!! I still can't believe it!

So that's a 2.2 pound loss this week,

for a total of 40.6 pounds, GONE.

This week I did 200 Crunches

I have been on top of the world since I saw that this morning. Ray came down and saw me smiling, and asked "what?" When I told him I have lost 40 pounds, he was really happy for me. He told me he is proud of me :) 

Later I showed him my ring and asked him if he knew why it was turned like that, he said "because your hands are wet?" (Which they were lol) I said "NO, it's because... I LOST 40 POUNDS!"

I just want to announce it to the world... but I can't, I don't really want my family to know about it... still fear that I won't really do it? Or that I won't keep it off? I don't know... But I WILL keep it off :)
When it's more noticeable, I'm sure they'll say something, and I won't have a problem telling them how much I've lost then :)
I'm so glad I have you all to share it with!!!! You and Ray know my great joy today :) And of course my son is here to hear me gushing LOL.

I made it to the store finally! Got some good stuff, mostly good stuff :) I also went over my budget, which I never do... but we won't talk about that! Let's pretend money doesn't even exist for a while so I can stay happy lol.

What I ate today:
Breakfast: Nothing (picking Ray up then shopping- I did well even with the empty stomach!)
Lunch: (392) Tuna sandwich (1can tuna, 1 tbs mw, 1/8 cup cheddar, Romain lettuce) on whole wheat, 8 baby carrots, 1 1/2 tbs light ranch, 8 sun chips, water
Snack: (130) 1/2 cup ice cream (Edy's light French Silk)
Drink: (100) 1/2 bottle iced coffee
Dinner: (538) 1 cup hamburger helper (made with ground sirloin 90/10), 1 slice buttered whole wheat toast, 1/3 cup peas, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: (23) Werther's
Snack: (150) 1/2 cup low fat cottage cheese, 1/2 cup pineapple
Snack: (300) bowl of cereal- corn chex and honey bunches of oats
Total Water: 60 oz
Total Calories: 1633
I am pretty happy with today. I really tried to think about what I was eating.
I LOVE that french silk ice cream, even before I started trying to loose weight. It's one of my favorites. I got a half cup, and sat down and ate it OUT OF the measuring cup lol. I enjoyed every second, and I was satisfied :)
They didn't have my Arnold's bread, but I got another new kind, and I like it just fine.
I also got cottage cheese... I actually love it but hardly ever eat it because it gives me head aches, but I feel fine right now, so we'll see! :)
I'm really hungry right now, about to eat that cereal I included up there. I am up to late again! I only got about 3 1/2 hours last night... so I don't know why I'm not tired. Just wired??? Because... I LOST 40 POUNDS! Haha, maybe...

I hope I'm not sounding obnoxious, I am just happy and want to share it lol :) I know it looked REAL bad for a while there... but thanks for sticking with me, and being so supportive. I feel rededicated :) I can only hope and pray that this feeling lasts.

I have to do well this week, because I am out of the 280s, and I never want to see them again!!!!!!! On to the next 40!!!!!!

Weigh In... Surprise!

So today is weigh in day... you're not even going to believe it! I made sure to turn off all the lights and take a picture so I have proof!!! LOL. (For those of you who don't know, my camera only takes pictures in pitch black, so I don't include to many pics lately) So anyway, the scale said...

WOOOO HOOOO!!!!

That is a 3.2 pound loss this week!

This means I am back to 38.4 pounds lost total,

which is my lowest weight!!! YEAH!

I am SO happy!!! It's like I'm out of the red!!!! :)

I knew I would have a loss. As I mentioned last night, my eating wasn't great this week, but SO MUCH better than last weeks binges. I was hoping for a loss, I figured a pound at the most! I mean, you saw what I ate! And I didn't get on the treadmill once this week. So yes, I'm pretty shocked. I guess that even though I didn't eat the best this week, my calories were down. AND thanks to Tessa's challenge to me, I have not ordered any fast food since last Saturday, So I made it the whole week!!! WOO HOO! And I plan on continuing that too. (I craved it for the first time today, but I didn't give in!)

This week I have been very stressed out and depressed. I have a hard time getting enough sleep anyway, but this week was bad. Really bad. I was running on little and no sleep almost all week. I am guessing that that must have had something to do with this loss also. That was NOT intentional I promise you. I am trying to get back on a schedule, and no sleep is not good for me. I'm just taking a guess here, that it helped to burn more calories...

What I ate today:

Breakfast: (263) 1/2 piece of lasagna, water

Lunch: (422) 2 1/2 small pancakes, eggs and ham (2 eggs, 1 oz ham), 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: (23) Werther's

Drink: (200) 9.5 oz bottle iced coffee

Snack: (240) 3 chocolate chip cookies

Dinner: (252) 2.1 oz chicken, 1/2 cup red beans and rice, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: (400) 4 cookies, 1 cup skim milk

Snack: (23) Werther's

Total Water: 40 oz

Total Calories: 1823

I was proud of myself for only having half of that last piece of lasagna, that's a first. Also for eating so little at dinner. I wasn't that hungry because I had a heavy lunch, so I only got a little. I guess I ruined all that though by the unhealthy snack choices. But I'm happy with the calorie total, so I'm not mad at myself, I'll just do better tomorrow!

I'm not going to keep track of the time for now, it's just a little much for me to do. Just the calories is enough for me right now. I am going to listen to my body and really try to stick with the original plan and only eat when I'm hungry. My scedual is way to messed up anyway at the moment...

Crunches: 100 (40, 25, 35) Yes, I actually got on the floor and did some crunches again. I'm going to try and get back to doing them every other day... I shouldn't say 'get back to' because I never stuck with that plan long... But today I had a little motivation :)

Yep! I have another surprise :)

I don't have many shorts to choose from right now, (because of the dryer situation) and just the bottom of the drawer left. I grabbed these gray shorts to put on and I haven't wore them in at least 2 years because they are just way to tight. WELL, I figured just till I get to bed. I put them on after my shower and... They fit PERFECT!!!! I wasn't expecting that at all!!! It was a great pick me up. It also reminded me of the Pants I ordered and tried on in February and how disappointed I was that they wouldn't button... I should try those on!!!!!!!!! ALSO, I never mentioned this because I really try not to think about it... but I did take some measurements back in January before I started this blog. The first measurements I've ever taken in my life LOL. Anyway... it's been 6 months... so I think I'll take some new ones! There has to be at least SOME difference :) I'll try tomorrow!!!!!

K :) See you then!