The Food...

One of the things I want to make sure to do is at least come and record my food everyday again. Since it's the 5th, you can see I haven't been doing so well with this! I mean... not at all!

Saturday was the 1st, and I'm not sure what I ate. It was like New Years Eve a day late, and it involved drinking, pizza, and I even had some chocolate covered peanuts...

While they were good, they were NOT worth the calories!

Once I saw the calories on the package,

I didn't eat them all. I shared :)

That in my hand is what was in the package,

6 pieces,

anyone want to guess the calories on that?

I'm having trouble with my eating... this is nothing like last year! I was SOO excited, and just had so much motivation... I didn't even wait till the first I started the week before with just cutting out pop and eating a little less. I was doing great! Now... I just don't know. I've been just... I don't know.

I have been keeping track, and while I don't really want to write it down when I'm not doing so great... I will anyway! I really want to make this habit again. I feel like once I get back into the habit of recording it here everyday, it will help me make better choices...

The good news? I have been drinking more water. And I HAVE been sticking to my new years resolutions! I've been on the treadmill EVERY day :) The other one, of loosing 66 pounds this year? I am off to a slow start with food, but I really think I can do it.

So here is the last  few days:

Sunday

Coffee: 55 calories

with 1 1/2 tbs Double Mocha Cappuccino

Snack: 130

1/2 cup Honey Nut Chex Mix

Lunch: 350

Turkey Sandwich, water

Dinner: 1415

5 chicken tacos, 1/2 cup spanish rice, 1/2 cup re-fried beans, 1 cup milk

Snack: 115

1/2 cup cereal and 1/2 cup milk

Total Water: 24 oz

Total Calories: 2065

I know... 5 tacos? NO excuse for that...

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .37 mile

Monday

Snack 4am: 240

1 cup Simply Cinnamon corn flakes and 1 cup 2% milk

Coffee: 55

With 1 1/2 tbs double mocha cappuccino

Breakfast: 285

1 slice whole wheat with 1 tbs all natural peanut butter, 1 cup 2% milk

Snack: 130

Fit&Active Apple Cinnamon Fruit and Grain bar

Snack: 23

Werther's

Cappuccino Double Mocha (2 1/2 rounded tbs): 110

Lunch: 695

Leftovers- 1 chicken taco, 1/2 cup refried beans, 1/2 cup spanish rice

Dinner: 740

General Tso's Chicken (with rice, carrots, broccoli frozen) 1 egg role, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 190

1 cup frosted wheat puffs, 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 36 oz

Total Calories: 2063

I did much better with the tacos today! i was really mad at myself for having 5 before, and am very happy with myself only having one :) But I shouldn't have had such a high calorie dinner, since lunch was. I really have to work on that. If one or the other is high, have a lower calorie meal for the other...

Treadmill: 13 minutes/ .51 mile, with 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Tuesday

Coffee: 55

with DMC (1 1/2 tbs Double Mocha Cappuccino)

Breakfast: 130

Fit & Active Apple Cinnamon bar

Lunch: 866

Burger King Original Chicken Sandwich, 10 tortilla chips, 1 tbs chili cheese dip

Dinner: 575

1 1/2 servings tuna casserole, 1 slice whole wheat bread, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 200

Simply Cinnamon corn flakes with 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 33 oz

Total Calories: 1826

The tuna casserole came out very good!

this is on a small plate :) To psyche myself out?

It didn't really work though lol

I followed a recipe I got from SkippyMom's blog a while back (mostly). BUT I made the whole bag of egg noodles, when I think I was supposed to use 1/2. So I doubled up on everything, but I didn't have another cream of mushroom soup so I had to use cream of chicken with herbs, or something like that. I had sharp cheddar instead of mild, and didn't really measure the milk,  the cheese or peas. But I'm sure it was close lol. (Next time I'm going to make it how the recipe says though)

The verdict? Ray LOVED it. The kid liked it a lot, but "it has to many peas!"
He just don't love peas like his momma do! :)

Treadmill: 27 minutes/ 1.05 miles

This was the 5th day in a row on the treadmill :) It was the longest so far, but I did it a little different. I watched The Biggest Looser (even though I said I'd never watch again after last season!) and got on the treadmill during the commercial breaks :) I know, it wasn't the work out it would have been at one time, but I'm still happy with it. And since the treadmill is turned around now to save room... I can't watch tv on it :( I might have to change that... but I really hate it in the middle of the room taking up so much space! Gonna have to make a decision... If I could get on it earlier, I could try to read while walking... we'll see...

So there you have it. All you've missed. I have to tell you, now that I have it down I feel so much better! I actually hadn't added up the calories for the days until now... and I thought it was much worse. I would like to keep it under 2000 for now... OK, that's done and now I can move forward. Recording my eating daily here. I have been trying to go to bed at night, so I'm not sure if I'll be doing it nightly or in the mornings... but I'll be doing it!

And now that I have a camera that works, expect lots of pictures lol :)

I hope everyone is having a great new year! Even though I have a lot to improve on... I feel good about what's to come :)

* Was going to link to the recipe, but I am having trouble with Skippy's blog :(
So here it is, I'm sure she doesn't mind!!! Right skippy??? :)

As seen on Skippymom's Blog:

3 3/4 cups egg noodles [half a bag]
1 can cream of mushroom soup [low fat/50% less sodium]
1 can [5 oz] chunk light tuna in water
1/2 can of milk
2/3 cup of frozen peas
1/2 cup mild shredded cheddar
pepper to taste [1/4 tsp? about]

Boil the noodles. Drain. Drain tuna. Mix the noodles with the rest of the ingredients, except the cheese. Pour into a casserole dish. Sprinkle cheese over the top. Cover. Bake at 350 degrees for 25 minutes until heated through and cheese melts. Notice I left the cheese off a part of it because I don't like the cheese on mine - besides it just adds to my sodium levels.
Here is the coolest thing tho' -
For six servings - Each serving contains only 250 calories

All Caught Up!

A quick thank you to ~Layla~, for joining me in my day!

Also, go and visit the review blog by Happy Fun Pants HERE for your last chance to win $150! All you have to do is comment, I think it's until the 28th... If you remember, that's how I won $150 and could afford my camera on Black Friday, and external hard drive I needed :) It's the biggest prize I've ever won in my life!!! It was awesome, so go! Good luck!

I just got all caught up on blogs... it must have taken me 2 hours lol. I took a break in between! Even if I don't write, I really am going to come read at least once per day. I miss out on so much good stuff when I'm gone!!! (and bad stuff... that I could have tried to be supportive about)

I have been writing down everything I eat, but since it hasn't been good, I dreaded writing it here... so I put it off, and now it's almost a week later! How did that even happen? I look at it though, and it's really not a bad as I thought. I had pizza one day, but only 2 slices! I did have a sandwich last night, I stayed up all night and got hungry... and a turkey sandwich was what I really wanted... so I had it. 220 calories... in the middle of the night. The worst thing though, was chips. I bought a bag of multigrain onion chips (Aldi's brand Sunchips) and snacked on them like crazy. Over 2 days, I ate almost the whole bag by myself! Not good, and my body felt like CRAP. Water was doing pretty well, until yesterday and today. I HAVE to get my water in! I really feel it when I don't :(
With the season and having so much trouble keeping up with blogworld, I'm going to give myself a break. I'm not going to worry about recording everything I eat until January first. Actually, I will still write it down (I'm afraid if I stop I won't start again!) but not record it here. Maybe just the highlights :)

A good thing? Besides candy canes, I have resisted Christmas candy in the house. The usual chocolates are not in a dish on the table. Tomorrow I will be buying some though, for the kids stocking... but I will do my best not to go overboard! Not buy BAGS of candy and snack on it all by myself at night like previous years! It's almost Christmas... so all month, without the candy? I'm already ahead :)

I haven't weighed myself since Friday either... so I have NO IDEA...

I've been pretty busy, but after I was done being sick, I have been doing pretty well. Not stressed out too bad. Just remembering that Serenity Prayer!

I am so thankful, we have money to buy presents this year. We always manage, but this year I really wasn't sure... but with Ray's extra hours, christmas money from my Dad, and some luck, we did pretty good! I think my son may have a little less presents than most years, but he has plenty. And I know he'll be happy :) Tomorrow we have to get a few more things (for 2 of my brothers and Mom and Step Dad) and we'll be done shopping :) I'm very thankful. It's going to be a great Christmas :)

I already made sure that my brother understands I expect it to be family friendly over there when my son is around. So no weed, and I'm very relieved that he handled it fine and that I don't have to worry about it.
My Mom actually said how nice it was to have us over for Thanksgiving, and that maybe we could come over more often since it went well with the "no weed" rule... So she actually noticed we hadn't been there in 4 months... I said "Yeah, you make sure everything is put away and everyone understands that we're comming over so NO weed. Then call me." I also told her "It really sucks we have to make an appointment to come over, but whatever..." She said "ok, sounds good." She doesn't get how ridiculous it all is. It makes me sick.... BUT no more of that. I'm in a good mood remember? :) It won't happen anyway. She will NOT make the effort, I already know that... In fact, she was just over at her cousins yesterday and didn't even stop here (she lives 2 minutes down the street) I only know she was there because my son saw them when he was walking home from school and figured they had been here... she pretends she can't come visit here because she can't visit ANYWHERE... but I know she goes over there all the time. WHY you ask? Well because her cousin will get her high for free of course! So OF COURSE she can go over there and visit! But not visit her grandson.... oops... I've got to stay in a good mood, so enough of that!
We'll just go on holidays. I'm fine with that. I pretty much have no family to go visit anymore... but whatever. I can't deal with the stress, it's just not worth it to me. (We'll go into how weird my Stepmom is acting, and how I don't feel welcome there now either- just not today) I don't care... I'm fine being a hermit lol... but I really worry about my son :(
Enough of that!

It will be a great Christmas. As long as I'm not thinking of all this, and just enjoying my family's company, all will be well :)

I will really try and post more often now. I miss posting everyday... having that routine!

I'll leave you with a picture of VanGogh, our youngest. (But not the smallest!)

He can't wait for Christmas either!!!! 

Friday Weigh In

Hello. First let me say a quick thank you to Pic Soso, thank you for joining us here at My Day!

Second, it's weigh in time. And the scale says...

284.8

That's a loss of 1.4 pounds this week,

Making my Total Lost: 35.2 pounds

I'm always glad to have a loss... but it just needs to be MORE. Especially with how sick I was earlier this week. I was down to 280, and I really thought it would be a bigger loss this week. BUT I'm feeling better now, and my appetite is back- with a vengeance!
So I have 6.8 pounds left to loose JUST to be in the green again. I WILL loose this by New Year. So that's 3.4 pounds to loose each of the 2 weeks that are left this year. That is a pretty big number for me to loose as you can see by the chart over to the right... but I REALLY want to end the year on a good note... a GREEN NOTE!!!! :) 

I have been feeling better, now I just have a cold. I never thought I would be so happy to just have a cold lol... but man, it's SOOO much better than whatever I did have!

Here's what I ate today:

Coffee: 40

2 tsp coffeemate, 1 tsp sugar. Didn't finish the cup though

Lunch: 1030

1 chicken sandwich, medium? eggnog shake

Snack: 80

1 cup ff skim milk

Dinner: 490

3/4 cup taco soup with tortilla chips (about 15) and cheddar cheese. 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: 240

3 candy cane (oreo type) cookies, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 160
Simply Cinnamon Corn Flakes with a bout 1/2 cup milk (cats got the rest)
Total Water: about 5 oz :( SO FAR
Total Calories: 2040
Holy Crap! Do you know how many calories are in a Burger King Original Chicken Sandwich? 630! I am blown away by that! I actually thought I did ok for lunch... even though it was buy one get one free, I only got one. Now I see that it wasn't that great... AND I asked for a small shake... I haven't had a shake (or anything) from there in a looong time, but this didn't look like a small. I think it was a medium. Of course I didn't have to drink it all... but I did... I joked with Ray and said I would be using the calories from a small because that's what I ordered!!!! But I didn't, I can not tell a lie lol. And this was no small.

Well, I'm going to have to do a lot better than that if I am going to loose 3.4 pounds each week for the next 2... If only I had NO appetite like those few days when I was sick, things would be so much easier! No matter :) I will just have to control myself! It seems like EVERY Friday after weigh in, whether I do good or bad, I end up eating a lot. So if this is my mess up day, it's not THAT bad. Now I just have to get my ass in gear and really work hard for the next 2 weeks! I'll just keep telling myself, "It's only 2 weeks." That's not entirely true, because this will continue forever... but just don't let my brain know that! lol :)

I MUST record what I eat everyday.
I also have to get back to drinking at least 40 oz of water every day. Today was the worst with water in a while. We finished up christmas shopping for the kid :) So we were gone a while, and my whole day was kind of thrown off... but I'll get a glass right now and try and get some in before bed.

I went to bed last night at 9:30, 9:30 people!!!!! I'm really trying to get to bed at a decent time every night. Since I was sick, I've been doing an ok job with that. It's hard on the weekends, but I'm really going to try and keep at it.

Ok, Gonna watch some tv, NOT eat, drink some water, and get to bed. I'll see you tomorrow, even it it's only to record my food! Recording my food everyday is mandatory!
Good night everyone! Sweet Dreams! :)

Just This Weeks Food and Exercise

OOPS. THIS IS THE SAME ONE I POSTED THE OTHER DAY. WHILE I WAS ADDING TO IT, I SOMEHOW SAVED IT AS A DRAFT INSTEAD OF POSTING... SORRY!

Even if I have nothing to say, or depressed and don't want to write... I think it is very important that I keep track of what I'm eating. So I'm going to keep track of it on this post. I figure that way only when I do a new(real) post, it will show up on the blog rolls... and I'll just update this everyday to show my food and exercise (or lack of). I figure this will get me back on track, without doing a separate post JUST to show what I've eaten every time.
Not that I'm depressed right now! I'm ok :)
We'll see how it works out, I might just do this every week after weigh in.
Since I already had Friday's on that last post of what I was eating, we'll start with yesterday...

Saturday-
Breakfast: 1280
McDonald's- 2 egg McMuffins, 1 large mocha frappe
Snack: 90
Mocha Bliss Special K bar
Dinner: 1375 (estimated)
Salad with ham, light ranch, croutons, mozz cheese. Ordered Florentines- 3 slices pepperoni pizza (one with jalapenos), 2 bread sticks with sauce, 4 oz coke
Total Water: 22 oz
Total Calories: 2635
Fast food... not good. 3 slices? Unacceptable. I would have been ok with 2. I would feel awesome if it was ONE. Didn't eat the crust on 2 1/2 of those slices. The nutrition info is not online, so I used a similar place. Ate salad first so I would eat less, didn't work as you can see! My fault, gotta get back some self control! Not enough water. Got to get back to at least 40 oz per day.
Now with my new plan, and recording what I eat no matter what- I'm sure I'll have less days like this one!!!

Sunday-
Coffee: 70
with 2 tbs pumpkin spice liquid creamer
Lunch: about 460
2 waffles, 1/4 cup syrup and 2 fried eggs, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 80
String cheese stick (mozz)
Snack: 165
1/2 'World's Finest Chocolate' bar
Dinner: about 545
Stuffed Squash (1/2 acorn squash filled with stuffing) with about 1/2 tbs Country Crock, 1 slice whole wheat bread with CC, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 82
1/4 Chocolate bar
Snack: 240
Cereal- 1 cup Special K Vanilla Almond, 1/2 cup rice squares, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 82
1/4 chocolate bar (the last of it)
Snack 1am: 300
1 cup special k with ff skim milk, 1 slice cinnamon raisin bread
Total Water: 42 oz
Total Calories: 2024
The 'about's are because I don't have the box for the waffles, but I estimated them to be 100 each. Also, step Dad made the stuffed squash, but I looked up the squash, stuffing and sausage and hopefully that is close to the right amount. The candy bar I bought when Ray's nephew came to the door selling them for school... I know, I could have just got Ray the kid one, but I got me one too. It was for a good cause! lol :) I know... that's no excuse! Anyway, mine is gone now.
Crunches: 100 (5 sets of 20)

Monday-
Breakfast: 250
Coffee with 2 tbs pumpkin spice creamer, 1 1/2 slices of cinnamon raisin toast with CC
Lunch: 460
Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat with 1 tbs (store brand) miracle whip, cheddar/pepper jack cheese, jalapenos. 5 baby carrots, 1/2 tbs light ranch. 1 pickle spear (1/4 pickle?) water
Snack: 300
Cereal- 2 cups Special K Vanilla Almond with ff skim milk
Dinner: 1090Romain salad with jalapenos, croutons, cheddar, 1 1/2 tbs light ranch. Pizza Hut- 2 slices medium (14") pepperoni, 1 slice medium pepperoni jalapeno, 1 1/2 bread stick with sauce. Water
Snack 2am: 250
piece of cold pizza
Total Water: 36 oz
Total Calories: 2350
I JUST got done writing that I could go one week without fast food... I told Ray this morning that I had made that commitment. Then I fell asleep around 4, woke up at 7 and still had to make dinner... Ray asked what I wanted from Pizza Hut and I told him "I don't care." Instead of saying "NOTHING!!!" But no excuses, no blame. It was my fault and honestly, just laziness! Even after it got here I kept telling myself, JUST ONE... but no self control... UGH. Now I have let myself down AGAIN, and all of you :(
I WISH I had the motivation or the excitement I did in the beginning... I don't. But I am sick of letting myself down, and feeling like crap. I will try and do better tomorrow... I WILL do better tomorrow.

Tuesday-
Snack: 90
Mocha Bliss Special K bar
Lunch: 500
2 slices left over pizza
Snack: 200
Cereal- 1 cup Special K Vanilla Almond w ff skim milk
Dinner: 535
About 4 oz BBQ chicken, 3/4 cup green beans + corn (with salt, pepper and a little bit of ranch seasoning), 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 350
Cereal- 1 1/2 cups Crunchy Granola Raisin Bran with ff skim milk
Total Water: 27 oz
Total Calories: 1675
Better calorie wise... but still not the best choices. As I ate that raisin bran, I thought 'Wow, this is GOOD. Must be a lot of calories.' Then when I looked, I was still surprised! 190 per cup, maybe I'll just let the kid have the rest of that...

Wednesday-
Coffee: 140
A little extra coffee, with 4 tbs pumpkin creamer
Breakfast: 140
1 slice whole wheat toast with honey peanut butter
Snack: 80
1/2 cup cottage cheese with a little pepper, water
Lunch: 1150
Arby's $2 toasted subs- Classic Italian and Turkey Club, water
Iced Coffee: 105
Coffee, ice, 3 tbs hazelnut liquid creamer
Dinner: 280
2 cups of Sweet and Sour Chicken (Green Giant frozen meal bag. Frozen veggies, pineapple, sweet&sour sauce. Add my own chicken) 1 cup, then 1 hour later another cup. Water
Snack: 165
2 pieces (1/2) World's Finest Chocolate Almond bar
Total Water: 36 oz
Total Calories: 2060
I really shouldn't have had Arby's at all. But having 2 instead of 1 :( It's because you have to get 2 for $4... but that is NO excuse. Next time Ray is just going to have to eat 1.. or 3! His choice! (I don't plan on there being a next time soon... but you know how that goes with me) I know it was a bad choice. I know I have to do better. I am going to try to do well for the rest of the day and keep those calories under 2000.
I went over by 60 calories, not bad... but if I would have only had ONE sub, that would have saved over 500! Grrr... I know it was stupid. SO stupid. I don't know what gets into me! And you want to know what else??? Ray wants to order pizza! We ALREADY ATE DINNER! I'm trying to talk him out of it, but if he really does... I'm not having any. I promise myself that, and you. It will be SO HARD, and the FIRST TIME EVER I am going to refuse pizza... but I will. Because I am dedicated to getting back on track. I need to get back to losing. I already messed up once today, I'm not going to do it again. I'm fine with 2060 calories, especially with all the exercise I got doing laundry. (Wet laundry is heavy! Had to wash it all, then bring 4 loads to the laundromat)
NO PIZZA TONIGHT, NO MATTER WHAT.
And tomorrow will be better :)

Grandmama Drama, and Catch Up

Hello! First let me say hi to a couple new 'followers.' To Bouncin Barb and Pengu, Thank you for joining me in my day!

Sorry I've been gone a few days again. I still am a little down I guess, but I am doing ok :) I have just been sleeping a lot. A LOT. So I haven't had time to write. I actually went to bed at 9 Monday night! Crazy right? Then when I get up in the morning, every day it seems I don't feel good :( I thought something had passed me by and I lucked out since I only felt feverish one day... but I don't know. I hardly ever get sick, so I'm hoping it passes without much hassle!

My computer is all fixed, so that's good :)

Not much new here.

My Grandmother's surgery is today. It's major surgery, very dangerous I hear. The top two vertebrae in her spine are completely gone. I guess she's been doing pretty bad. This is all news to me this last week, since my mother tells me NOTHING important. I guess she cries all the time because of the pain, and has fallen a lot lately because she can't hardly use her legs...
Now, I don't really feel anything about it. At first I was stressed and worried a little... but now? I really don't care. It may sound cold, but she has put my family through so much... she is no longer the grandmother we all knew and loved. That person was gone WAY before any of this started happening.
Without getting into everything that happened, the quick version is this: 3 years ago her spoiled selfish daughter finally convinced my grandmother to ban me from her house. Then to disown me, my mother (her other daughter!) my brothers, even her own sister. It was ridiculous. I mean, the stuff you see on talk shows, NOT in real life... NOT in MY family! It was all devastating... I loved my grandmother. I would have done anything for her. She was the one person in the world I knew would always be there for me. Then she changed...
It took a while but now my grandmother and her sister (my great Aunt) are back to being best friends. Even my mother talks to her now... kind of. She brought up about 6 months ago "I wish I could come see you sometimes." Her mother said "That's between you and Sherry (the spoiled bitch)." That right there shows ME that nothing has changed. Sherry still runs her life and her house. Sherry is still number one no matter what. So I really gave up any hope of ever having any kind of relationship with her. I haven't seen her in 3 years, since she hung up on me after disowning me.
Now to the present.
I had been stressing about this surgery. Should I send a card at least? But I decided that would be pointless. I already morned the loss of my Gramma 3 years ago, and she is not the same person anymore. This woman is NOT her. So what would be the point? There isn't one.
So last night my mother called her, (can't go see her cause she's not allowed- Sherry says so) and it's the last conversation Mom is going to have with her mother before this life threatening surgery. My grandmother could have said anything. She could have said she was sorry for disowning her. Or sorry for calling her and her family names, or sorry for letting Sherry take over her life and push everyone else out... but no. She tells my Mom "I just can't forget the horrible names you called me." My Mom did go off on her, AFTER everything else. Because my Grandmother had called her and hurt her more than she'd ever been hurt in her life... So my Mom apologizes for the things she said. Does Grandmother? Of course not. She finally says, "well I guess we should just let all this go." And of course my Mom is fine with this. So they are fine. Mom will be happy just seeing her once in a while (when they both visit my Great Aunt who lives close by.) Never being able to just call, or come over. Never being important again, now that Sherry rules everything. In fact, when my grandmother told my Great Aunt to tell my mother what time her surgery was, she said "But don't let Sherry know we told her, because I don't want her stressed out before surgery." wtf?
Grandmother thinks she is being the bigger person for 'letting it go' because she thinks she has done no wrong. I know for a fact that whatever Sherry decided is the version of what happened, has been pumped into Grandmothers brain for 3 years and she probably doesn't even know half of what really went on! But whatever.
I won't get in the way of my mother and her mother... but ME? I will not put up with that shit. People say life is to short to hold a grudge or not forgive someone. I say life is to short to allow people into your life that will turn on you at the drop of a hat. To give your heart to people that will stomp all over it. My mother will most likely be hurt in the future by her. I will not go down that road again.

My son has overheard a lot of what has been said the last couple days, so I told him about the surgery. And asked if he would like to make her a card or anything. He decided he wanted me to buy one for him to sign. He didn't get emotional or anything, he hasn't seen her in 3 years either. She does send him a card for his birthday and Christmas though. I told him he didn't have to, and no one expects him to. But he wanted to. He's a sweet boy, and he must miss her... I miss her too, but I miss what she USED to be. That woman is gone. So no matter what happens in surgery, I won't mourn her, I don't even know her.

Here's what the last few days have looked like:
Sunday-
Coffee: 105
with 3 tbs pumpkin spice creamer
Breakfast: 90
Special K vanilla Crisp bar
Lunch: 448
Tuna sandwich on whole wheat with 1 tbs miracle whip, jalapenos, cheddar cheese. 8 veggie chips, 5 baby carrots, 1 tbs light ranch. Water.
Dinner: 425
6 oz chicken, 1 cup red beans and rice, 1/2 cup ff skim milk
Snack: 230
Little Debbie Christmas Tree cake and 1/2 cup ff skim milk
Snack LATE night: 263
33 grams veggie chips, 1/4 cup cheddar, salsa. water
Total Water: 44 oz
Total Calories: 1561
Treadmill: 26 minutes/ 1 mile, Incline 2. Carrying 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

Monday-
Coffee: 53
Half of my cup with 1.5 tbs pumpkin spice creamer (3 tbs total)
Lunch: 464
Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat with 1 tbs miracle whip, 1 slice munster cheese, jalapenos. 15 grams veggie chips, 5 baby carrots, 1 tbs light ranch. water
Dinner: ?
3 slices of pizza, 2 bread sticks, water
Total Water: 35 oz

Tuesday-
Lunch: ?
2 slices of pizza, 1 bread stick, water
Iced coffee: 105
coffee, ice, 3 tbs hazelnut creamer
Dinner: ?
1 Parmesan stuffed chicken, 1 cup pasta
Snack: 23
1 Werther's
Snack: 235
Cereal- 1 1/2 cup frosted puffed wheat, 1 cup ff skim milk
Total Water: 38 oz
Treadmill: 26 minutes/ 1 mile, Incline 2. Carrying 2 lb weights for 5 minutes

I found this pumpkin spice liquid creamer at Aldi's, I LOVE it. Really, it is so good! I'm sure it's seasonal, so I'm going to have to stock up! The hazzlenut, not so much. It takes 4 tbs to get it good, and I onlt like it in ice coffee. Once it's gone, I won't be getting that again I don't think.
Found some whole wheat bread that is 50 calories per slice... but I don't like it as much as my normal (70 per slice)...
These Veggie Chips I also found at Aldi's. All natural, 130 calories for 28 grams (more than enough) and they are pretty good!
As you can see, it isn't horrible but I NEED to do better.
I didn't record all of the calories, but I'm trying to get back into the habit. I DID record EVERYTHING I ate though :)
Today is... ok so far, Ray has the night off and I'll be up late I'm sure. I will try not to eat anything else though, as I over ate for dinner (tacos) and I'm kind of full. I'll be back tomorrow with a full report.

SURGERY UPDATE:
She didn't get into surgery as soon as she was supposed to. So my Great Aunt didn't make it up there, but will see her tomorrow and give her my sons card. Now that she's out of the woods, I guess I'm glad. I still don't want anything to do with her. I know she doesn't want anything to do with me either, so it's all good. The card? I hope it makes her feel like the shitty 'Great' grandmother she is... I know it might not be right, but you know me! Honest to a fault, and I can't help how I feel.  

I feel really good though. I got a gift mailed out for my best friends baby today. Renewed my stupid license. They took my picture, and it looks HORRIBLE, but I think they are supposed to lol. She asked "Is this ok?" I said yes... because who makes them retake it??? But I should have, now I have to live with that picture! lol, oh well. Also, it asked my weight... my weight has never been on my license before! I hope it isn't now...
Ray has the morning off, so I don't have to get up at 3:30am! Woo Hoo!
ALSO I got a blog award from colenic, now that is enough to make a girl smile! I'll get to that soon. As soon as I can come up with the answers to the question! :) I also have some questions to answer from Tessa, so I have some thinking to do :)

Have a great night everyone!

My Squirrel Made Me Do It!!!

I just love my squirrel :) He's the best.

Here's a picture of him from May (when my camera worked right!)

Here's one of him coming to take his treat from me at the door another day

This is my Squirrel :) He started coming around the end of last winter. He eventually started taking the food from my fingers and would take it to the edge of the porch and eat it. He came more and more. Then it was EVERY DAY. As soon as I would open the door he would come running to get his treat (a big glob of peanut butter on bread or a cracker). He even started scratching at the door! If he came and I didn't see it, he would scratch, just to say "Hey it's me! I'm hear, come feed me please!"

WELL, he stopped coming one day. 2 months went by and I was pretty sad. I thought he must have been hit by a car :(

Then about 3 weeks ago he came back!!! I knew it was him because he is pretty scruffy looking with a weird patch at the base of his tail. He came right up to the door, but I didn't have any peanut butter! So I got him some bread... he is spoiled I guess, because he thinks he's to good for plain ole bread lol. He sniffed it, and even grabbed my hand! Then he turned around and left and didn't come back for another 2 weeks!!!! I bought peanut butter, and when he finally did come back a couple days ago, HE IGNORED ME! I think he was mad at me! LOL! I threw it to him, and he took it and ate it.

He was back out there today. I got him his treat and went to the door, I didn't even have to open it. I called him (a click-click-click noise with my mouth) and he came running :) He came right up to me like old times and got his treat and ate it at the corner of the porch :)

It's the little things that make me happy I guess :)

It may not seem like it... but this rambling story about my squirrel is leading up to another point :)

While I was getting his treat, I had way to much peanut butter on the spoon. I automatically ate it! As soon as it was in my mouth I had a "oh crap" moment. How many calories did I just mindlessly shove in my mouth!?!?! I'll tell you how many: 95. It may not seem like a lot in the grand scheme of things, but to just shove in my mouth? Without even thinking or wanting it??? THAT adds up!

How many times do I do that without even thinking??? I do it a LOT. And I swear, sometimes when I come and write down what I eat, I don't even remember it! It is just SO automatic. I mean, I remember if I do it with ice cream, or today's peanut butter, because it's not something I do all the time... but Cheese, that is the worst one. If I am making something and using shredded cheese I automatically take a pinch and eat it! A good size little pinch is 55 calories! I probably do that every other day, if I'm eating tuna sandwiches all week, then maybe EVERY DAY!

That has to stop. Instead of remembering what I ate at the end of the day, I am going to write it all down on paper as I eat it. That way NOTHING will be missed, and maybe I will think twice before eating it!

All of my crazy snacking and over eating also HAS to stop. I don't know if I can call the treadmill habit yet, but I am confident I won't stop doing it anytime soon. So I need to concentrate on my eating. I HAVE to do better.

What I ate Today:

Brunch: (455) 1/2 a ham and cheese omelet, 1 sausage patty, 8 oz orange juice

Snack: (95) 1 tbs peanut butter- Mindless Bite

Snack: (45) 1 bite of Heavenly Hash ice cream

Snack: (23) 1 werther's

Snack: (35) 1 bite of Mint ice cream (this was another of those mindless bites, while getting my sons ice cream)

Drink: (100?) Iced coffee with hazelnut coffee mate, milk, and sugar

Snack: (210) about 20 sunchips

Snack while making dinner: (55) pinch of cheddar- Mindless Bite

Dinner: (910) Asparagus stuffed chicken, 1 1/2 cups of chicken rice w/ cheddar, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: (200) Bowl of frosted puffed wheat cereal with 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 42 oz

Total Calories: 2128

Ray made breakfast, it was very good.

I liked my iced coffee today, but I didn't remember how much of everything I used! So I'm guessing it was about 100 because I used more sugar today... Tomorrow I plan on trying liquid creamer and see how that goes :) Lots of mindless snacking today. I'm not against bites of things... IF after I thought about it, I really want that bite. These are just 'Shove it in my mouth without thinking bites' and they have to go. From now on, I hope you never see "mindless bite" next to anything again!!!

The sunchips? I wasn't even hungry for them, they were on the table and I was making dinner and grabbed them. Ugh.. I've done worse as far as calories and fast food ect. But today I feel like it's so bad because it was just so much mindless eating! It really feels like a step back :(

But it's ok, tomorrow is Friday. My weigh in and a new week. A great day to start really trying harder!

Treadmill: 15 minutes/ .58 mile

10 days in a row on it! :)

My back hurt all day, but I took something and it felt great while I was on the treadmill. Hopefully it will start to feel better.

I have done pretty bad with my eating this week. I'm hoping the extra exercise with bike training, and doing the treadmill ALL WEEK will help me out on the scale :) Also I have to get up early and do laundry and go dry it at the laundry mat. That might help too. Wish me Luck!!!!

See you tomorrow!

Ray's Chicken Wraps... Mmmmm

I still feel great :) Still on a cloud from hitting that 40 pound mark! Thanks again for all of your happy congrats!!!!
I have to warn you, today was a high calorie day, but it just goes that way sometimes. I promise it's not that I have lost my ambition or anything, and it will not turn into an everyday thing. It CAN'T, because as I said: I don't ever want to see the 280s ever again. EVER!

What I ate today:
Drink: (100) 1/2 bottle iced coffee
Breakfast: (423) 1 bagel with cream cheese, 6 oz orange juice
Snack: (33) 1 bite of ice cream (low fat french silk)
Lunch: (615) Frozen Tuna Noodle Casserole meal, Romaine Salad with croutons, 2 tbs light ranch and 1/8 cup mozz
Dinner: (1070) Ray's Chicken Wraps- fried chicken, cheddar and jalapeno monterey jack cheese, lettuce and light ranch in a burrito size tortilla, with 15 sunchips, water
Snack: (260) 1 cup of light french silk ice cream
Total Water: 36 oz
Total Calories: 2501
Oh, I could have done SO much better. I should have only had half that bagel, 4 oz of orange juice. I should have had one of the lean frozen entrees instead of the stoufers one. I should have only had 1/2 cup of ice cream, yesterday I was completely satisfied with 1/2 cup.
Now to the dinner, I had no idea the wraps were that many calories! 310 calories in cheese alone!!! We don't have them often, but when ray makes them they are delicious. I wouldn't doubt it if we have them again for lunch tomorrow... I am going to do my best to see how I can cut that 1070 down. It will actually be easy. I'll give him a measuring cup an cut the cheese down, do my own ranch, eat half the chips... and that will help a lot right there! What I should do is just eat half of one... but I don't know if I have that much will power... we'll see lol. I didn't have pop though! The only thing that would have made the wraps better is some pop, and I didn't give in! :)

Crunches: 100 (40, 40, 20)

I am NOT hungry at all. I should be able to go without eating anything till bed. If I do get hungry I will have some grapes. NOT the sunchips that are calling my name...
See you tomorrow!

Why couldn't Weigh In be TODAY?

What a nice surprise!!! I logged on and saw something different today: Margie M's picture!!! I want to Thank You Margie, for "following" me on My Day! I have 3 people encouraging me now, which is 3 more then I expected! lol.

Ok, why the title of today's post you ask? Well, I felt bloated and just... heavy yesterday. I didn't think to much of it UNTIL today, when I didn't feel that way anymore... so I got on the scale and it was down another 2 LBS! What's up with that??? So if weigh in would have been TODAY I would have been down 3 pounds... ah well. I'll keep it how it is, officially weighing 296. Weigh in IS Friday after all... not what ever day looks good (i guess... LOL). As long as I do well this week, I will have a nice number for sure on Friday! I can't wait!!!

It's been a whole week of counting calories and I'm still at it! I think I will stick with it. Thanks Tessa!
I looked it up, and someone my size would have to have over 2500 a day to stay at the same weight, so I will definitely keep that in mind. I will be happy with myself if I get right around 2000 for now. If I get less-great!!! I am still not going to commit to a certain number yet... as of now I have lost weight almost every week... so I'm just going to stick( I should say "get back:") with my plan and eat smaller portions, eat only when hungry, and add healthier things to my diet. But- Even though I'm not always hungry in the morning, I will try really hard to have SOMETHING for breakfast. All that along with walking on the treadmill everyday.
Just doing better with my portions should really help a lot- I'm going to really try and get that under control... You know, just a bite of something is enough sometimes. I have to remember that.

Here's My Day:
Snack@ 4am: (200) Bowl of MultiGrain Cheerios with FF skim milk
Breakfast: (860) McDonalds- 1 egg McMuffin, a medium Mocha Frappe
Lunch: (296) Tuna Sandwich (1/2 tbs miracle whip, 1/8 cup cheddar, 1/2 can tuna) on Whole Wheat toast with hot banana pepper rings. 6 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch.
Snack: (100) Special K Strawberry Fruit Crisps
Dinner: (387) Chicken, carrots cooked with about 1/4 tbs honey, 1/3 cup of chicken noodles, 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (330) Large bowl (1 1/2 cups) of Honey Bunches of Oats- Strawberries with 1 cup FF skim milk
Total Water Today: 41 oz
Total Calories Today: 2173
Oh my goodness! 560 calories in that medium frappe!!! Those are one of my FAVORITE things... I hardly ever get one... which is a good thing I guess!!!!

Treadmill: 20 minutes (.67 mile) 5 minutes of that carrying 2 LB weights. -I forgot to write that I did that yesterday too :)

Counting Calories

This morning I woke up starving. WHY? I ate like a pig yesterday and I shouldn't have been hungry at all right. Well I was. My fiance made us breakfast and I asked for ONE of everything but of course he made me 2... Why? I don't have a clue. But you guessed it- I ate both eggs and 2 pieces of toast anyway! Ugh.

Even though I have not been doing great with my eating lately, including today- I am not going to let that get me down. I am going to make the best of the rest of my day, and stop eating so much RIGHT NOW! Tomorrow will be better :)

I don't count calories, but maybe I should start... I just don't know if it's something I will stick to... but I'll try it out. Maybe I'll do it this week and see how it goes, no promises though! I am NOT a quitter, but here's a heads up- if I find this to be to much, I won't keep doing it lol. It doesn't fit into my baby steps, trying to change a little at a time, but I will give it a try- maybe it won't be as difficult as I think! :) I'm not setting a certain calorie goal, like trying to stay within a certain range or trying to get down to 1500 a day, because I would NEVER stick with it... not now anyway. It is mostly because I am curious about how much I am actually consuming. Wish me luck! lol.

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (600 Calories) 2 eggs, 1 sausage patty, 2 slices of Whole Wheat Toast, about 1 tbs butter, about 8 oz of Orange Juice.
Snack: (34 calories) 1 bite of ice cream- Deans Fanny May Mint Melt away
Lunch: (649 calories) A spinach and Romain Salad with 4 grape tomatoes, 1/4 cup of cheddar, 1 tbs light ranch, 8 croutons. 1 small piece of leftover BBQ chicken pizza, 1/2 a bread stick, 1/2 can Mtn Dew.
Dinner: (977 calories) Cheeseburger with bun, olives, natural ketchup, and lettuce. 1/2 cup baked beans, 1/2 cup of macaroni salad, sour cream & cheddar chips, Water
Snack: (170) 1/2 cup of Mint Melt away ice cream
Total Calories For Today: 2430
Total Water for Today: 58 oz

Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile)
Well, I learned a couple things already! I always count my croutons, but the calories are based on tbs... AS IF croutons fit in a tablespoon!!! Macaroni salad has 330 calories per 1/2 cup, and I didn't even like it! So I'm going to throw it out, since no one else eats it. (If I don't throw it out RIGHT NOW I will end up eating it so it doesn't go to waste!)The good things I learned are: A serving of ranch is 2 tbs so I have been having 1/2 the calories I thought I was with that. Also, My wheat bread is 110 calories per 2 slices, so that is half the calories I thought it was too! So that's cool. I will have to fix yesterday's post if I wrote 110 calories per slice...
To make it easier for myself, i am making a list. Everything I find the calories for, is on my list so I will have it right in front of me :) Also I found a Calorie Counter Database http://caloriecount.about.com/ and that will really help me with this. It didn't have Vitale's... but it does have a lot! Maybe this counting calories stuff won't be so bad :)