Wednesday's Food

Dinner

Made Chicken Taco Soup

Ray's New Year's resolution

was to stop eating beef...

more on that later....

So I made it with chicken. It was good,

but I like it with extra lean beef better.

The calories for using chicken,

Only 1.1 less per serving!

Since I used 1 1/2 pounds though, It came out to a little more.

You can find the recipe for Taco Soup here :)

K, here's what I ate:

Coffee: 55

with 1 1/2 tbs DMC

Breakfast: 130

Fit&Active Apple Cinnamon Fruit and Cereal Bar

Snack: 820

Chocolate covered strawberry shake from Steak N Shake

Lunch: 360

Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat with pepper jack cheese, 1 tbs miracle whip. 6 baby carrots and 1 tbs light ranch. water

Snack: 23

Werther's

Dinner: 1078

2 cups of chicken taco soup. about 20 tortilla chips and 1/2 cup shredded cheese

Total Water: 44 oz

Total Calories: 2336

Ugh! You can't tell, but I actually planned today out. I knew I would be eating a fairly healthy dinner of Chicken Taco Soup, so when Ray wanted to get a buy 1 get one free shake... I thought that was ok. I'd just watch what I ate for the rest of the day. Now, that was a HIGH calorie shake, and it was a regular not a large. I'm not mad about that. It's only the 3rd time in my whole life I've had a shake from there, and it was delicious!

What I'm mad about, is my dinner. I took a fairly low calorie dinner and had 2 helpings, but REALLY ruined it by adding chips and cheese. Why? I don't know... I didn't need it. I just wanted it. Even so, I could have had LESS... 7 chips is a serving, so why 20? I really can't tell you. Stupidity I guess.

Treadmill: 10 minutes/ .37 miles

I really did not want to do this at all. And didn't feel better after I did either! But I did it, as I will everyday no matter what! Gotta stick to my New Year's resolution at least!

Bleh

Weigh Day... Oh The Horror!!!

First let me thank 2 new faces! Lanie Painie and Laura W. Thank you so much for joining me in My Day! Maybe I should say THREE new faces, since the picture for Lanie Panie are 2 very cute platypuses! SO cute, I never thought them cute before seeing that picture :)

Alright, now to the weigh in.
It wasn't pretty... so brace yourselves :(
And the scale says....

281.6

That is a Gain of 3.4 pounds this week

and makes my Total Lost 38.4 Pounds

Was on the treadmill only 3 times this week

Making the totals 1 hour 10 minutes

and 2.55 miles

UGH

I knew it would be a gain, but didn't know it would be so much. BUT I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

I know exactly why I gained, eating to much, only walking 3 days instead of 7. Simple. Now I need to fix it.

I got an award the other day from Shielah, and now have 2 new followers... on top of all you that support me already!!! Great reasons to be motivated and get my butt back in gear!!!

Why does it feel so hard?

I really don't know. I have lost motivation, and it's been kind of hard getting it back... Now look at me, back in the 280s. I NEVER wanted to see the 280s EVER EVER again!!! Grrr! I can only be mad at myself. I look at that list on the side of my weigh ins... and I'm the same weight I was 14 weeks ago. I feel like I have wasted  14 weeks, just poured them down the drain!

But it's time to take a deep breath and concentrate on what needs to be done.

Yesterday's Gone, Live for Today.

I have to remember that. I have to remember how good it felt to hit that 40 pounds lost mark, and make sure I do it this week!!! I want out of the 280s! If I put some effort into it, I'll get out of them for good this week. If I really work hard, maybe I can get back in the green by loosing 3.6 pounds. Then I would be at 42 pounds lost, where I was 3 weeks ago! I won't be mad if I don't hit 3.6, but I'm going to try. You know I usually don't set number goals for myself, but this week I am really going to try and hit that number. It WILL be a loss, and I'll do my best to get 3.6 :)

Get on the treadmill EVERY day

Eat Small portions

Get to bed no later than midnight

No fast food

Stop snacking so much

That's not so bad, and I know that's ALL I need to do. I'm not stuck at this weight because of a plateau, I'm stuck because I just haven't been putting in the work! So I should consider myself lucky. I have yet to really hit a plateau, and I see how frustrating that is! I just need to get rededicated. After I hit that 40th day in a row of being on the treadmill, I missed 2 days, but got back on it. I told myself "see, you don't have to do it EVERY day, it's still habit." Well it's been 2 weeks and now I missed FOUR days this week. NOT GOOD. I HAVE to do it EVERY DAY!

Today was pretty stressful, more money problems, and more stress I don't need! BUT before I go to bed, I'm going to concentrate on the good of today, and what made me smile :)

It was a beautiful day :)

Ray made me smile, he always does :)

My son got home from camp! It's so nice to have him home! :)

There, that feels better.

And a new one: Today is the last day I will be in the 280s!!! Damn it!!! :)

I'm pretty tired again tonight, so going to read up on your blogs and then getting to bed! Should be before Midnight, if I'm not done- I'll go anyway!!! :)

Goodnight All!

My Squirrel Made Me Do It!!!

I just love my squirrel :) He's the best.

Here's a picture of him from May (when my camera worked right!)

Here's one of him coming to take his treat from me at the door another day

This is my Squirrel :) He started coming around the end of last winter. He eventually started taking the food from my fingers and would take it to the edge of the porch and eat it. He came more and more. Then it was EVERY DAY. As soon as I would open the door he would come running to get his treat (a big glob of peanut butter on bread or a cracker). He even started scratching at the door! If he came and I didn't see it, he would scratch, just to say "Hey it's me! I'm hear, come feed me please!"

WELL, he stopped coming one day. 2 months went by and I was pretty sad. I thought he must have been hit by a car :(

Then about 3 weeks ago he came back!!! I knew it was him because he is pretty scruffy looking with a weird patch at the base of his tail. He came right up to the door, but I didn't have any peanut butter! So I got him some bread... he is spoiled I guess, because he thinks he's to good for plain ole bread lol. He sniffed it, and even grabbed my hand! Then he turned around and left and didn't come back for another 2 weeks!!!! I bought peanut butter, and when he finally did come back a couple days ago, HE IGNORED ME! I think he was mad at me! LOL! I threw it to him, and he took it and ate it.

He was back out there today. I got him his treat and went to the door, I didn't even have to open it. I called him (a click-click-click noise with my mouth) and he came running :) He came right up to me like old times and got his treat and ate it at the corner of the porch :)

It's the little things that make me happy I guess :)

It may not seem like it... but this rambling story about my squirrel is leading up to another point :)

While I was getting his treat, I had way to much peanut butter on the spoon. I automatically ate it! As soon as it was in my mouth I had a "oh crap" moment. How many calories did I just mindlessly shove in my mouth!?!?! I'll tell you how many: 95. It may not seem like a lot in the grand scheme of things, but to just shove in my mouth? Without even thinking or wanting it??? THAT adds up!

How many times do I do that without even thinking??? I do it a LOT. And I swear, sometimes when I come and write down what I eat, I don't even remember it! It is just SO automatic. I mean, I remember if I do it with ice cream, or today's peanut butter, because it's not something I do all the time... but Cheese, that is the worst one. If I am making something and using shredded cheese I automatically take a pinch and eat it! A good size little pinch is 55 calories! I probably do that every other day, if I'm eating tuna sandwiches all week, then maybe EVERY DAY!

That has to stop. Instead of remembering what I ate at the end of the day, I am going to write it all down on paper as I eat it. That way NOTHING will be missed, and maybe I will think twice before eating it!

All of my crazy snacking and over eating also HAS to stop. I don't know if I can call the treadmill habit yet, but I am confident I won't stop doing it anytime soon. So I need to concentrate on my eating. I HAVE to do better.

What I ate Today:

Brunch: (455) 1/2 a ham and cheese omelet, 1 sausage patty, 8 oz orange juice

Snack: (95) 1 tbs peanut butter- Mindless Bite

Snack: (45) 1 bite of Heavenly Hash ice cream

Snack: (23) 1 werther's

Snack: (35) 1 bite of Mint ice cream (this was another of those mindless bites, while getting my sons ice cream)

Drink: (100?) Iced coffee with hazelnut coffee mate, milk, and sugar

Snack: (210) about 20 sunchips

Snack while making dinner: (55) pinch of cheddar- Mindless Bite

Dinner: (910) Asparagus stuffed chicken, 1 1/2 cups of chicken rice w/ cheddar, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: (200) Bowl of frosted puffed wheat cereal with 1 cup ff skim milk

Total Water: 42 oz

Total Calories: 2128

Ray made breakfast, it was very good.

I liked my iced coffee today, but I didn't remember how much of everything I used! So I'm guessing it was about 100 because I used more sugar today... Tomorrow I plan on trying liquid creamer and see how that goes :) Lots of mindless snacking today. I'm not against bites of things... IF after I thought about it, I really want that bite. These are just 'Shove it in my mouth without thinking bites' and they have to go. From now on, I hope you never see "mindless bite" next to anything again!!!

The sunchips? I wasn't even hungry for them, they were on the table and I was making dinner and grabbed them. Ugh.. I've done worse as far as calories and fast food ect. But today I feel like it's so bad because it was just so much mindless eating! It really feels like a step back :(

But it's ok, tomorrow is Friday. My weigh in and a new week. A great day to start really trying harder!

Treadmill: 15 minutes/ .58 mile

10 days in a row on it! :)

My back hurt all day, but I took something and it felt great while I was on the treadmill. Hopefully it will start to feel better.

I have done pretty bad with my eating this week. I'm hoping the extra exercise with bike training, and doing the treadmill ALL WEEK will help me out on the scale :) Also I have to get up early and do laundry and go dry it at the laundry mat. That might help too. Wish me Luck!!!!

See you tomorrow!

UGH. I feel like Sh*t.

I weighed in today. I stepped on the scale and it said... 280!!! 40 Pounds gone! Woo Hoo! I was so surprised, I stepped on it again... 280!!! It's the 6 month mark, and I have reached 40 pounds!!!!! So I decide to see if I can keep one of the cameras on long enough to take a pic. I step on it... 283... try again... 283. And no, I wasn't holding the camera... I stepped on it about 4 more times. 283. That sounds more realistic... but still a disappointment from that sudden excitement. I move the scale and try again anyway... 283, dang it! So I'll go with that...

283

That's a gain of 1.4 pounds. It sucks, but

it is what it is.

Got on the treadmill once this week,

making my Weekly Totals: 32 minutes/ 1.24 miles

Plus the 78 minutes of walking to/from the library

Total Crunches: 130

I don't know what happened. I felt like I was back on track, and then I ruined it. I did good today and yesterday until dinner. Both days I over did it, but today I went WAY over board. I had 4 large slices of pizza, 4 cheese sticks, and about 24 oz of pop!!!! WHY? I don't know!!!! Because i was a little let down? Maybe... Well, I have been thinking about the holiday weekend and how I will probably do bad... that led to thinking those old thoughts of "I'll do really good AFTER..." which is a NO NO! I also got a call from my mother right before I ate that pretty much ruined my day... But I did not plan on just completely stuffing myself sick tonight. And that's just what I did. I feel AWEFUL right now. It's been hours since I ate, and I am SOOO full. And it wasn't even that good!!! Seriously! There's leftovers and I DO NOT want them.

Right now I feel like I could go forever without ever eating another slice of pizza ever ever again!

I hope that last... because I feel horrible, and I don't ever want to be this full again. EVER

Even though it is the holiday weekend, I am going to do well. I am going to really try and start doing really good. I feel like I have been wasting so much time... now I'm back to having lost 37 pounds... which is good! BUT that's where I was over a month ago... and it's less lost than last week. I want to see that number go down, and keep going down. Not up and down and up...

Time to get back into the game!

Which also leads me to a new challenge from Tessa. Through this journey, I have tried to just think of the big picture, not setting any weight goals or times... I know I have a LOT to loose, and it will take a long time. BUT when I joined Tessa's challenge last time, I think it was really good for me. I didn't get all the way to the goal, but I wasn't mad at myself, and was proud of how well I did... Well, she has challenged me again... and while I'm kind of hesitant... it might be EXACTLY what I need! Not positive what race we will be doing, but I'll keep you posted :)

I can't say I'm exited, because I feel soooooo crappy, but hopefully tomorrow I will be as exited as I was on January 1st 2010!!!

Ray has to work at 2am this morning, early for him. So I'm just going to stay up until it's time to bring him. There's no way I could sleep anyway! On top of feeling sick, Not 2 minutes go by without a huge BANG outside! Mostly fireworks in the dumpsters I guess. They are LOUD. I doubt Ray is even sleeping :(  Last night people were out there partying until right before we left! At 3:30 am!!!!!! Hopefully after this weekend things will calm a little. But it's summer... so probably not, but at least the fireworks might.

Here's to tomorrow being a better day!

A GOOD Weigh In!?!?!

And the scale says....

281.6

Woooooo Hoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's a 2.4 pound loss! 

My new Total lost is 38.4 pounds!!! I'm almost to 40, WOW!

I only got on the treadmill once

 making my Weekly Totals:

Treadmill: 20 minutes/ .76 miles, Crunches: 135

I am SO happy. I lost all of the 5.4 pounds I gained in the last month, AND THEN SOME! I am now at my lowest weight since I started this journey at the beginning of this year. I am feeling WONDERFUL!

Even though I am so happy, I am also very surprised. My eating was far from great this week, and neither was my exercise. I did get in at least 40 oz of water every day, that is the main change last week. I also had a few salads... The only other thing I can think of is how I was sweating my butt off all week in this heat. Any time I did ANYTHING I was sweating like crazy. Which also makes me think, I could gain this 2.4 pounds back VERY easily this week if I don't get my butt in gear!!!! SO, Here's to a AWESOME week ahead!!!!

I didn't post yesterday, so here's a quick run down. GOOD points for yesterday are: 40 oz of water, no pop, no snacks except a freeze pop. BAD points are: I Over ate for dinner. It was pizza and I had 3 slices plus salad and bread sticks, then I had a slice late night. Also I fell into a bad habit that I haven't in a long time:
Momma Do You Want the Rest of This?
That is the name of this bad habit lol. In the past, when ever my son didn't want to finish something (didn't like it, was full), he would say "Momma, do you want the rest of this?" and I would always say "Yeah Sure." I would eat it, mostly so it wouldn't go to waste, almost never because I was hungry. But I have not done this in a LONG time, I always say no! Well, yesterday Ray made us omelets (3 egg, ham, cheese, delicious) and mine was more than enough for me. My son got full and asked me the dreaded question... and I said Yes! Why??? I have NO idea... but just like the pop, it is a habit I do NOT want to be back into, so that was just a mess up, it is NOT turning back into habit! It CAN'T.

Here's what I ate today:
Late Breakfast: (486) 2 small pancakes, 1/8 cup syrup, scrambles eggs/ham (1 1/2 eggs), 6 oz orange juice
Drink: (150) 3/4 bottle of iced coffee
Lunch: (330) Romain/ Carrot salad with 2 tbs light ranch, 3 tbs croutons, 1/4 cup cheddar, water
Snack: (103) 20 Clancy's Onion Rings(mini generic funyons)
Dinner: (600?) 3 homemade enchiladas (from Ray's brother's home that is), 10 tortilla chips, a little salsa, Water
Drink: (50) 1/4 bottle iced coffee
Snack: (320) large bowl of Special K Fruit & Yogurt w ff skim milk
Total Water: 40 oz
Total Calories: 2039
Not horrible, but could be improved I know. I am thinking that my salads are way to many calories. I'll start by taking out the cheese next time and see how that goes... it will be hard, I LOVE my cheese you know :) But I think I can do it!

Crunches: 130 (35, 35, 20, 20, 20)

Yesterday- BAD, Today... BETTER

Yesterday I ate, and ate, and ate some more!!! I wasn't thinking it at the time, but I think I hit rock bottom. I think I was actually back to where I was before Jan 1st 2010. I ate whatever I wanted, whether I was hungry or not. It was HORRIBLE.
I can't even remember everything I ate... as painful as it is, I will try!

Here's what I ate yesterday:
5am snack: Large Bowl of cocoa  krispies ff skim milk
Breakfast: Fiber One bar with 9.5 oz iced coffee
Snack: A lot of pasta salad
Snack: 1/2 cup (only because that's all there was left of) crap salad with 3 large crackers
Snack: large bowl of ice cream
Lunch: 1/2 frozen pizza with light ranch
Snack: iced coffee
Snack: a few tortilla chips
Dinner: about 20 tortilla chips and cheese, 2 cups of taco soup, ff skim milk
Snack: another large bowl of ice cream
Total Water: 40 oz

Ugh, it was horrible. But I didn't think so at the time, I thought it tasted good and I didn't care. WHY? I have NO idea. BUT today I felt awful about it. Knowing that this is the first time I actually feel like I am right back where I started. So today I didn't want to over eat. I want to start over.
I definitely need to improve, but I did better. I went to the store where they sell those cookies I was eating the last few days (the best chocolate chips cookies I ever had) but I walked right by them. I KNEW that if I bought them I would eat all of them.

So here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: Fiber Plus Bar, 9.5 oz iced coffee (which I nursed for about 2 hours)
Lunch: Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat, 7 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch, water
Snack: 1/2 cup pasta salad
Snack: about 1 cup of ice cream
Dinner: Romain Salad with cheddar, croutons and 2 tbs light ranch, 2 medium slices of pepperoni pizza (take home and bake from grocery store) water
Snack: Chocolate eclair ice cream bar
Drink: iced coffee
Total water: 40 oz

I definitely need to improve, but I don't feel like it was just mindless eating of the last few days. I am not going to return to that.

If you have been reading what I eat at all, you will know that I used to have these 9.5 oz bottles of Beaumont iced coffee (cheaper but just as delicious version as a starbucks frappuccino) once in a while as a treat. Then everyday. Now it's twice a day an usually with something else sweet!!!! That HAS to stop. ONE a day for now, and with NOTHING. It is a treat by itself and I don't need cookies or anything else with it! I need to ween myself off of those things!!!

It is SOO hot and humid today. I am having trouble staying away from the ice cream. I bought those little freeze pops tonight, and am hoping that will satisfy the cold sugar cravings. Not the best thing, but a lot less calories then ice cream! I know, have to start eating my fruits!!

It is raining right now, which is good. It is bad because there is no way I can get on the treadmill tonight, I would not be able to breath because it is so humid. I swear to you I am sweating just sitting here writing this. But it is good because it keeps all the ignorant pieces of shit that live here inside! I haven't talked about where I live yet... and I'm not going to in detail right now. I just get so angry, these people should be thankful they have somewhere to live- but instead they are out causing trouble, ruining this place. It gets worse every summer. I don't complain often (I think this is the first time since I started this blog) because I KNOW there are worse places to live. Even though I am frustrated with it at the moment, I am thankful to have a roof over our heads believe me. I guess it's because it's summer, and that brings out all the idiots... So even though it's hot and miserable, I am very happy when it rains at night. Keeps things quiet around here. Ok, sorry about that- enough complaining for one night :)

We will probably turn the air on tomorrow, so I will be on the treadmill for sure!!!!

Thanks again for all of your comments on my last post. It really meant a lot to me.

Saturday's Cookout

WELL. It was a long day but lots of fun :)
I went grocery shopping at 4am, that's the best time to go lol. Went back to bed a couple hours, picked up Ray form work later, made my pasta salad and had that delicious breakfast that was horrible for me and a bad idea, got showered and ready, and we were off!
We had a good time at the cookout. I didn't do so well with the eating though :( I really thought I would do well, but I didn't. I was extra hungry which didn't help matters.
Fireworks were short, but we enjoyed them. We ended up not going over to the 'carnival' part, because we stayed at the cookout most of the day and my son was having to much fun in the little pool with all the other kids lol. They didn't have much over there this year, and what they did have was to expensive!!! It sucks having no money.
Over all I had a great day. My eating was horrible, it started  off bad, and ended bad. Summer is proving to be very hard for me. Especially these cookouts! I don't know why, I guess it's because Summer+Family+Friends has always equaled food for me. I hope by the next one I am back to eating better and have enough will power to finally be able to say "I was at a cookout and I did GOOD!"
 Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: Iced coffee and 2 chocolate chip cookies
Lunch: 1 hot dog on a bun, 1/2 a cheese burger on bun, about 2 cups total of 3 different pasta salads, bout 1/4 cup of potato salad, handful of potato chips, 1/2 cup baked beans, 1/2 cup pistachio pudding, Water.
Drink: 1 can of root beer
Snack late: 3/4 cup of my pasta salad
Snack later: 2 chocolate chip cookies and an iced coffee
Total Water: about 46 oz

I didn't get home till about 11pm, and knew I wasn't going to do the treadmill. BUT I went to 2 different stores today, and walked back and forth from my brothers to my cousins twice. I should have done it anyway, but it was just so late. I will give myself some slack on busy days like today, but I need to try and do it in the mornings, that way it will be done even if I do get home late!!!
I know, today was a disaster as far as eating, but I'm not giving up or throwing in the towel. Just have to do better... MUCH better.

DREADING the Weigh In

So my eating has still been pretty bad. Snacking especially. I even ate doritos straight out of the bag without counting, definitely an old habit I never wanted to see again... just mindless eating. So needless to say, I am dreading facing the scale tomorrow. But, no matter how much I've gained, I will not get discouraged. I am ready to get back at it. I fell off the wagon, big time, but I'm ready to jump back on it! Tomorrow will be great :)

I just have to get back to where I was a few weeks ago. On the treadmill every day and eating smaller portions. Counting calories seems to help (thanks Tessa), and drinking a lot of water. The only thing I've been doing lately is getting in enough water, at least 40 oz a day. 50 yesterday... which makes my over eating that much worse! I'm sure my stomach is stretched back out, so this next week or so I may be VERY hungry :( It will probably be almost like starting over... even though I have been over eating, it still hasn't been as much as before Jan 1 2010, but it's been close!!!!!
I NEED to blog everyday, even if it's just to put down my food. I stopped because blogger wouldn't let me... but I shouldn't have let that give m an excuse to eat like I have been! Next time, if that happens again I will write on the computer just like it's my blog. Then post it when it comes back up! Just like the treadmill, one day off just completely derailed me. One turns into 2, into 3 into 5... I need to do these things EVERY DAY. Even though it's only been since Friday night that the eating got SO bad... it really has been sneaking up on me for a while... eating a little more here and there... buying snacks I was keeping out of the house... and now I just finally fell right off the wagon. Maybe Tessa's challenge being over had something to do with it... I knew it was great motivation. But I guess it was more then that, it held me accountable, and made it so I HAD to write what I eat every day, weather I wanted to or not! Thanks to Tessa and Byron, I never even thought about NOT doing it... I need to hold myself to that same standard now. I did it before the challenge, and I can do it again!
And of course there is everyone else that has joined me on my journey. All the comments and well wishes... I can't keep going on like I have been this week. I would let everyone down!!! I would let myself down!

Yes. I fell off the wagon, BUT I knew I was getting close to the edge, and it's my own fault I didn't stop it! There is no excuse, and I know that. I could have backed away from the edge at anytime...

It's already 9:32pm. Nothing I can do about today, or the past week, but I will make sure the rest of the night is good. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to do a good job. I'm climbing back up on that wagon and staying there! Of course there will be bumps in the road, but I'm just going to have to get a grip and hold on tight!!!

I'm Back

Not that anyone noticed I was gone LOL. It wasn't for that long, but I've posted EVERY day for a long time, so for me it was :) Blogger wouldn't let me write! When I tried to post it would say "Blogger unavailable at this time. We are sorry for any inconvenience." I thought it was just down, but then saw that everyone else I follow was posting, so it was just me??? Crazy!

This weekend was an eating disaster! Friday night during the movie it started. Saturday the same: I was doing a lot of snacking. A LOT. Doritos and mini chocolate doughnuts somehow got into the house (ok I bought them...) and that was my main problem. BUT I was in a good mood... In fact I was in a GREAT mood. I wasn't eating out of depression or anything. My house was clean, I felt good. I had done the treadmill in the morning and it was out of the way- wonderful! I even went over to my Mom's and did a bunch of her dishes. I don't ever just go over there and do that! But she was having a cookout Sunday for her Birthday and I knew her house was trashed, so I decided to help. She really appreciate it :)

Sunday I stuck with ONE hot dog at the cookout, but managed to over eat anyway, with all the tasty sides everyone brought, I ended up with 2 plates. AND a piece of my Mom's birthday cake. A lot of family was there, it was nice. I brought fruit dip and cut up a bunch of fruit for it. Cantaloupe, grapes, and strawberries. I also brought watermelon, but that I bought already cut up, no room in my fridge for a watermelon lol. Mom sent home some of the sides with us, and I snacked on them instead of all my fruit... I did remember my water so I wasn't drinking pop the whole time. I did have 2 sips of ray's though...

Monday wasn't any better.
It was also my sons graduation dinner. I had to much dinner, and then had cake. That's 2 pieces of cake in 2 days!

Yep, my son graduated the 5th grade... how did he get so old so fast???

Here's a picture of after we got home :)

Is he taller then me??? No... he can't be...

I gotta tell you, I have been so antisocial for a long time, and things like Sarah visiting, cookouts and graduation dinners are very stressful for me. Once I'm there, it's fine. But waiting for them sucks. Hopefully that will get better....

Right after this picture was taken I went and changed into my '1st of the month picture' shirt, and got that over with too lol. So there is a new picture I have to post over in those pages. Of course, it was with the old camera... and I washed the shirt and I think it shrunk a little... So over all, taking my pic in the same outfit every month isn't having the effect I hoped for. Oh well lol.

So over all, these last few days have been good, but eating BAD. The good part? I got in at LEAST 40 oz of water everyday, 70 oz yesterday! The worst part? On top of all the snacking? I didn't do the treadmill Sunday OR Monday. Also, Since Friday, I have not done ANYTHING to this house. If we weren't eating somewhere else so much, the dishes would be HORRIBLE, but right now they are just.. semi horrible.

Today my son had another exciting day :) And he was exited! We had to get up at 5:40am. He had to be at school by at 6:15 for his class trip. They don't get back till 6:00pm. I'm happy he gets do go do that. I hope he has a great time :)

(I won't mention that they waited till the end of the year to cram EVERYTHING into these last 2 weeks. The only down side is all the money they want now at one time! But we won't get into any personal problems right now, a few came up this weekend, but I'd rather just keep it about the weekends good stuff today. The bad eating is enough bad news, no? Money? Bills? This place I live in? That's no fun to talk about lol.)

So anyway. My plan was to get back in gear today. Stop with all the snacking, and get my butt on the treadmill! Get to cleaning too!!! That is still my plan, but I haven't started yet. When I did get up, instead of digging in, I got on the computer. I became addicted to the game Collapse on facebook over the weekend too. I used to be very addicted to this game. On Xbox Live a few years ago I was actually #1 in the world :) I promised myself I wouldn't play ANY games on facebook, but I did... ugh. But I'll keep it to Collapse and Bejeweled... none of those farming, or zoo games that will keep me on it for HOURS at a time lol.

Now I have a head ache, but hopefully it will be gone soon.

I am still sticking to the plan! Especially getting back on the treadmill!!! I feel like I have pretty much wasted about 3 weeks when I could have lost another 8-10 pounds by now!!! Back at it today!!! I want to continue posting what I eat everyday...  I think not having to post it this weekend with the blogger not working may have had a part in all my snacking. I didn't think it at the time, looking back, would I have ate so much if I had to write it down??? Not sure... So anyway, here it is

What I ate today:

Breakfast: bagel with cream cheese and 3 strawberries, 1/2 iced coffee.

Snack: small handful of cinnamon almonds and the rest of the iced coffee

Lunch: 1 cheeseburger, a little bit of: pasta salad, another type of pasta salad, baked beans. Water

Dinner: 2 helpings of broccoli tuna helper, about 3/4 cup of peas, 1 slice whole wheat Parmesan toast, 1 cup ff skim milk

Snack: about 15 cinnamon almonds

total water: 40 oz

Well, bad news. My head ache just kept getting worse. I did some laundry but that's it. The food doesn't look great, but is so much better then the last few days. Going to bed. I feel pretty crappy, and just want to unload a bunch of emotional baggage... but I know it's mostly because I have a horrible head ache, and am so very disappointed in myself. So I won't. I'll go to bed and hope tomorrow is better. If it's not better... get your trash bags ready, because all my emotional garbage will be at your disposal!!! :)

lol, I think going to bed is a good idea, since I can't decide whether I'm in a horrible mood or in a funny mood. Good night. Don't worry, I think tomorrow will be fine, I guess you can put those bags back :)

Sugar Overload

Ugh, I didn't even realize how late it is!!!
I actually had a pretty good day today. NOT my eating, that was HORRIBLE. And I didn't do the treadmill, but not because I was depressed, but because I was gone all day. We went over to my brothers (and Mom's) and had a little cook out and then stayed there a while. We just got back at 11 pm. Our son is staying the night, and me and Ray are about to watch a movie. Hopefully he doesn't fall asleep lol.
I did talk to him a little today about what has been bothering me. Just a real quick talk... and It did help. My mood was kind of up and down, but mostly up I would say.
My food was so bad today. Whenever I go over there it is! BUT I can't blame it on my Mom, she didn't make me eat the burger... I also can't blame anyone else for my Sugar Breakfast either... that was all me. I ate just as bad at home today as I did there.
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: 9.5 oz iced coffee and a Fudge Round *wince*
Snack: Hershey's Nugget
Lunch: Italian Sandwich, 8 baby carrots with 1/2 tbs light ranch
Dinner: Hot dog on a bun, 5 pringles, 9 lays with sour cream and onion dip. Plate 2: more lays and a hamburger on bun. Water
Desert: toffee ice cream bar
Snack: Fudge round
Snack: Hershey's Nugget
Total Water: 56.9 oz
The only good thing I can say is I made sure to bring my water, and drank NO pop. I am really trying to stay away from pop and I'm doing good. So I got in a lot of water, and am still drinking. Oh, and even though I gave in and bought light ranch, I used half as much as usual. Got in some carrots that way...
The rest is all bad. I know it. SO much sugar today, oh my goodness what was I thinking??? I couldn't get enough of it!
Ray is heating up a frozen pizza right now, and I am probably going to have a small slice. SMALL slice. I'm hungry, because it's late now. i know I should have some fruit...

The Biggest Looser VOTE

First I have to say hello to 2 new faces!  Teresa and Mama Page, Thank you so much for joining me in My Day!

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (330) Fiber Plus Bar and 9.5 oz iced coffee
Lunch: (397)Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat, 8 baby carrots wit h1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (356) 15 Chips and cheese with salsa
Snack: (140) 18 strawberry yogurt covered raisins (one serving)
Dinner: (310) Meijer Lean Entrees- Thai Style chicken  (Frozen meal, wasn't very good)
Snack: (101) 8 strawberry yogurt covered raisins
Drink: (160) Most of a 9.5 oz french vanilla iced coffee
Snack: (16) 2 strawberry yogurt covered raisins
Snack Very Late: (143) 1.1 oz  of cinomon almonds
Snack 2am: (360)  large bowl of Reese's Cereal with 2% milk
Total Water: 50 oz
Total Calories: 2353
Ice cream and chips... I have been giving in a lot lately. A chips and cheese snack like I had today? I used to have that EVERY DAY, and twice as much. I have to cut that out right now or I will be right back to that point! I checked the tortilla chips for the calories just now, and noticed that it says All Natural and is 140 calories per 11 chips. That's better then the ones I usually have in the house, my usual tortilla chips are 150 per 7 chips! This is the first time we got these, grabbed them at Aldi's. They taste just as good so I'll stick with them I guess! I just can't have them with all the fixins every day!

I feel like all I did was eat all day... I am surprised to see the calorie count, thought it was much worse. I don't know what happened. I started the day off great... it got cloudy and rainy looking outside... I don't know if that did it or what... or if trying to figure out how we are going to pay our bills did it... I don't know. Guess I was just a little stressed today. I'm good now though :) Walking is good for stress I think.

Now to The Biggest Looser. As you may know I take my biggest looser walk while I watch the show every Tuesday. The last 2 weeks I didn't do as well as usual, ever since I got sick I just hadn't worked back up to what I used to do. But that's all over! Today I reached my weekly goal of increasing the distance of my Biggest Looser walk. It was only by .01 from the last record 3 weeks ago, but I am happy with that. :) I was sweating like CRAZY but I felt good!
Treadmill: 81 minutes/ 3.19 miles A New record Woo Hoo!
The Biggest Looser is going to be over next week!!! If you watch it, you know this, and you know that we have to vote to keep one of the 2 bottom people in the race for the title of The Biggest Looser, and a quarter of a million dollars. Through the WHOLE show I was rooting for Koli. He reminds me SO much of my Ray. He acts like him, is really just so much like him... like a long lost twin. Yes, he even looks like him. The same dimple and everything! So obviously he is my favorite....
BUT, then there's Daris. I still love Koli because of Ray, but the one I see myself in is Daris. He holds everything in, and isn't as emotional as some of the others.  Tonight he came back to the ranch and weighed in... +2 Pounds! Oh Daris! My heart sank for him. He did get emotional, and at the end when he pleaded his case to us, my heart broke for him. I saw myself in him more then ever. He went home, and couldn't stick with it. He got stressed, messed up and ate the wrong things... and gained. But even though he messed up, he wants it so bad. Even though he made mistakes, he still deserves the chance to win. Even though he gained 2 pounds, I think he still deserves the chance at a better life.

I mess up ALL the time, (including today) but I know I deserve this. I won't give up, all I can do is keep trying. So that's why in the span of about 3 minutes, I changed my vote from Koli to Daris.
If you want to vote for Daris, the number is: 1-866-492-6801
of course I am fair and have been so attached to Koli that I'll give you his number too lol.
To vote for Ray, er, I mean Koli LOL: 1-866-492-6802

I'll be happy for whoever wins :) I just see so much of me in Daris. He has his whole life ahead of him and I hope he can make the best of it! I hope the same thing for myself. I hope the same thing for ALL OF US :)

Attention SHAUNA

First I have to leave this message for Shauna LOL:
On the off chance that you are reading this, I wanted to tell you that I have been reading yours since you first joined mine a while back, but I haven't been able to leave comments for sometime. Even tried your "learn how to leave a comment" and no luck. I also can't follow it, for some reason it just isn't like other blogs lol. I just catch up on your post when I think about it... I wanted to tell you that those owls might leave the nest tonight, because you are where I first found out about them. And: good job the other day!!! Ok, that's all.

Now back to your regularly scheduled program ;)
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (200) 9.5 oz French Vanilla Iced Coffee
Lunch: (356) leftover tuna casserole with cheese, 1 cup ff skim milk
Snack: (250) Oreo Klondike Bar
Dinner: (1110) Papa Murphy's- 1/2 Italian Salad (1 serving), 1 large slice of Gourmet Chicken Garlic pizza with 1 tbs light ranch, 1 medium slice of pepperoni, 2 small cheese sticks (1 serving) with marinara sauce, 6 oz pepsi, water
Snack: (100) chocolate sundae ice cream cup
Drink: (200) 9.5 oz Mocha Iced Coffee
Total Water: 50 oz
Total Calories: 2216
I knew we were having pizza, and I was set on having JUST ONE slice, but my son's pepperoni pizza looked so good... I gave in. So one of each is what I had, plus all the other junk.  I got the salad to keep me from eating more then my just one- but that didn't work. I have to get back into the NO POP NO MATTER WHAT mindset. It's so hard... Now I'm really full :( I didn't do that well for the rest of the day either... I don't know what happened, I'm disappointed in myself, but not discouraged. I know I will do better tomorrow AND will loose when I weigh in on Monday :) OH, we got a large this time instead of extra large. I think next time we will get a medium because I really don't need a large, and since I can't control myself 2 mediums would be better... and if Ray wants to eat more slices then that's fine because I don't want the leftovers calling me anyway!!!!! NOT that I plan on getting fast food again soon, just for down the road. I'm hoping remembering how full and crappy I feel right now will keep me away from it a while...

Didn't get to sleep till LATE last night. But I got up at 8:45am and had no naps today. I will be up late again, but no bringing ANYONE ANYWHERE in the morning :) So I will sleep till a decent hour and hopefully be back on schedule! Last ate at about 7pm. I have to make sure I don't eat anymore tonight. If I get hungry I will have an apple :)

I have been craving these Beaumont Iced Coffees for a couple weeks now. It is the delicious but way cheaper version of a Frappuccino. All of a sudden Aldi's doesn't have them anymore, probably because people found out about them and buy them all as soon as they hit the shelf! Finally today when I wasn't even looking for them, they were there :) I got 14 of them LOL. Oh I was tempted to buy even more, but I didn't lol. So I over indulged and had 2 today, but I want to make them last so I will try for less then one per day now.

Treadmill: 26 minutes/ 1 mile   8 minutes of that with 2 LB weights
Crunches: 120 (60, 30, 30)
Side bend/stretch: 30 to each side
At least I'm back in the GET ON THE TREADMILL NO MATTER WHAT mindset :) Six days and counting! and a little extra exercise :) Woo Hoo!
I'm off to watch the owl cam some more, so exciting! :)

My Friday Weigh In!

It's Friday, my official weigh in day, and the scale says...

 That's down 2.4 from last Friday

and 36.6 Total! Woo Hoo!!!!

My Treadmill Totals for the week are:

2 hours 55 minutes/ 6.8 miles

I am pretty happy with that :) 2.4 pounds is pretty good. I was a little worried because of my Monday weigh in... maybe that was a little high since I had over eaten Sunday AND Monday... but I was hoping I could turn it around by Friday, and I did! Yay! I am a little surprised, but sooo happy :)

Last night I really did try to go to bed. At about 11:40 I got back up though. I couldn't sleep, and was in the mood to clean, so I did. I also had more water and one of those 100 calorie ice cream cups (those are one of the best ideas I have had lol). I got about an hour sleep, brought Ray and got about another 2 hours and got up with my son for school. Then today another 4 hour nap. But again, I am very tired right now and am going to try and go to bed. It will probably be about midnight and I should be able to sleep... we will see!

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (275) 1/2 bagel with cream cheese, 4 oz orange juice

Snack: (306) 8 tortilla chips with 3 tbs salsa con queso (taco bell brand and NOT good)

Lunch: nothing- sleeping

Snack: (67) 10 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch

Dinner EARLY: (1132?) 7 chicken wings (with a red pepper, soy sauce type mixture and fried)about 4 without any skin, 1 1/2 cups of white rice (made with bacon eggs and soy sauce.) 8 oz cherry coke

Snack: (80) 1 chocolate chip cookie

Dinner (409)again@ dinner time:  2 chicken wings, 1/2 cup rice

Snack: (310) 2 chocolate chip cookies with 1 cup whole milk

Snack: (403) 2 smore's

Total Water: 40 oz

Total Calories: 2982   *wince*

Went to my mom's today for dinner. I knew she was making this asain style chicken wing and rice dish she makes, and it is SO good. So I tried not to eat much today... don't know what was up with the chips and cheese, I don't like it... in fact, I'm going to throw it out as soon as I'm done because I'm the only one who eats it anyway. I tried to remember to bring my water so I wouldn't give into pop but I left it. It's no excuse, I could have had whole milk... Way to much sweet snacks over there, and I'm paying for it. My stomach hurts, and I'm sure my sons will to when he gets home... (who knows what he's eating right now!)

We had a nice time over there today. Everyone is in a good mood. Saw all my brothers today (both the ones that live there and the other came to eat) My Mom was in a really happy mood, made dinner and then a fire in the yard later. Something about sitting outside with a fire is so relaxing. She had smore's that her and my son had planned a while back, that was fun too. My son is staying the night there, and I'm not to worried about it like I usually am. Everything seems good right now :)

Lately when I go over there I eat junk I shouldn't... I think I gave myself a free pass last Sunday and Monday because we don't eat over there often, AND it was Mother's Day... but after today that is IT. No more free passes. If I am going to keep loosing weight I have to stick with it no matter what day it is, what holiday or how I'm feeling. I'm not going to beat myself up about today, besides eating to much it was a really nice day :) I'm sure she will have left overs tomorrow, but I will resist. If I do have any, it will be a reasonable amount and not 2 times!!!

I didn't even realize that I haven't had any fast food in a week! Last Saturday was the last time, and that was because my brother took me out to eat! :) To be honest, it's mostly becuase of money, but I didn't even miss it this week, so that's good right! I didn't even realize... now tomorrow Ray wants Papa Murphy's and I'm ok with that, but I am dedicated to having ONLY ONE slice. I CAN DO IT!!! :)

Treadmill: 26 minutes/ 1 mile     5 minutes of it with 2 LB weights

I came home and did the treadmill like a good girl :) 

OH! I forgot to tell you that while I was having the chocolate chip cookies, my brother was trying to convince me to get the pudding out of the fridge and dip them in it!!! That just sounded delicious to me LOL, but I didn't. That's something right? LOL.

What is GOING ON?

I don't know what is going on... everyday I say tomorrow will be better, and something else happens.
Today I woke up with a horrible head ache. I didn't realize it at first, but it IS my 2nd day without pop. So it was probably a caffeine withdrawal. The MAIN reason I have to stop drinking Mtn Dew. The head ache soon turned into a migraine and I was in bed until about 1pm. (except the one time I had to get up and be sick) So it wasn't the perfect start to my starting over, but I did ok...
I was SO HUNGRY all day, I think by over eating (especially yesterday and Sunday) I stretched my stomach back out. Seriously. I was hungry ALL day. I didn't give in though. I grabbed a bag of chips and literally thought "No! What are you doing!" and put it back after 2. I tried to do good with my portions and have some veggies. I need to do better, but I'm ok with how I did today.

As you saw yesterday, I gained 2.8 pounds. Ugh, depressing. The only good thing is that it wasn't my Friday weigh in, so I still have time to fix it before it goes permanently on my weight record! BUT it was still a bummer :( Big time. When I weighed in last Monday, I knew it wasn't really accurate, because I had been so sick. So I figured I hadn't really lost. BUT if I would have done well this week, I could have lost again, or at least kept it the same!!!!
Now Tessa's challenge only has 3 weeks left!!! I can't believe it has gone by so fast! So to get to my target for the challenge I will have to loose 15.75 pounds!!! That would be 5.25 per week... that's a LOT. I don't loose that much per week. I don't think I can do it, but I want to try my hardest. If I come close to that I will be happy. If I try my hardest and don't make it, I will be ok with that. I can't change how crappy I have done in the past, but I can try harder now :) (oh, I'm not even going to mention I am in competition with Emaciated Asphyxiation, I'm just going to pretend all I have to do is get to 271.85 pounds, and am only against myself LOL!!! Less stress that way haha)

I have actually been getting pretty depressed. Being sick and burnt threw my eating all off, and kept me off the treadmill. Later in the week, some of that was just an excuse, no doubt about it. On top of all that, I haven't been doing anything I have to do. It's like ever since Sunday I have been on autopilot. I was just getting through the days... I can't really explain it, I can't really remember most of the week, I can't believe it has been 9 days because it doesn't seem like it... I'm actually going to read my blog entries because I just can't really remember much... it's weird. Just because I was tired and down I guess... I know I had ZERO ambition, the few days I got on the treadmill were forced, but I'm glad I did. I haven't been keeping up with housework either... my house is trashed and that always depresses me.
OH! Today I realized 3 of my bills are late! I never do that! Last week I just didn't do anything I needed to do! Now I gained, and hate the thought of getting on the treadmill. My house is a mess. On top of all that, 3 $30 late fees on the bills I missed, UGH!!!

I guess I just got overwhelmed and shut down... that's the only way I can explain it. It is times like this that I really fear I am more like my mother then I want to admit. I hate it, and it only depresses me more...  I hate this feeling.
I especially hate that I fell back into old habbits that easily... maybe not as bad as before, but I was getting there- FAST.

All I can do is move forward. Tomorrow get started on all the laundry and dishes that are piled up. Ray did start on the laundry for me today, even did a little dishes. I don't know if he felt bad because I had a migraine, or if my mood scared him into it? lol, either way, it helped a lot and I'll get my butt back in gear tomorrow.

Here's My Day:
Lunch: (437) Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat, 10 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch, water
Snack: (9) 2 sunchips
Dinner: (590) 1 1/2 cup hamburger helper(with 96% lean beef), 1/2 cup mixed veggies (canned), 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (100) chocolate sundae cup
Snack: (260) strawberry frosted mini wheats with 1 cup ff skim milk
Total Water: 35 oz
Total Calories: 1396
I am hungry right now, but I know I don't need anything! It's going to be hard, because I can tell my stomach isn't like was before I started over eating again last week :( I know I can't keep eating though. I am pretty sure I will need that 4 am snack that I haven't needed in a while now... if I have to have one, I will make it small, just so I can go back to bed.

Treadmill: 64 minutes/2.5 miles
Tonight was The Biggest Looser. That show is such a motivation to me. I'm sure it gets old for some people, not me! Maybe because the people on it are actually my size, and to see them work so hard makes me realize I can do more. I try to walk a little more every week on Tuesdays while I watch it. WELL that is another thing I ruined this week. I couldn't go farther then my last record of 3.18 miles. In fact I couldn't even go that far. BUT I will next week :)

Today was OK, Tomorrow will be even better!!!

Monday Weigh In

And the scale says...

Woo Hoo!!!!

I am VERY surprised at this. I mentioned last night that I

was hoping to loose and not gain.

Well, I lost 1.6 pounds since last Monday! :)

I don't anymore good news for today. We had tacos, and while I did... OK... for dinner, I went and had more later! I didn't make good choices at all today.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: leftover medium slice of taco pizza with low fat sour cream and taco sauce, 2 drinks of pop, water.

Lunch: Fiber Plus Bar and 1 cup FF skim milk

Snack: 4 starburst jelly beans (still from Easter! lol)

Dinner: 2 tacos 'double decker' style, 1/2 cup red beans rice and salsa, Water

Snack: 1 double decker taco and 1/2 cup of red beans, rice and salsa, water

Total Water: 45 oz

Total Calories:

I have a head ache, so I'm not going to add up the calories right now. I want to know how much I racked up today, I KNOW it's bad. So I'll do it tomorrow and post it here.

Treadmill: 28 minutes/1.01 miles   15 minutes with 2 LB weights :)

I forgot to write yesterday about my fast food achievement! We stopped at Burger King, and since I wasn't hungry, AND since the last 2 times I had burger King I got sick, I didn't want any! A whopper did sound REALLY good, but I was like "Nope, I don't need it." So for the first time, I think EVER, I went to a fast food place and didn't get anything :) yay me!

If only I would have done that tonight!!! Even though the tacos where sooo good, I didn't need all that. One for dinner would have been plenty! I'll have tomorrow to get through with leftovers... I have to control myself!

Saturday

Oh the weekend... once desired and now dreaded... LOL, ok so I'm feeling dramatic today :) Really though, the weekend is so much harder. I guess lack of schedule is most of it for me. BUT- now having to weigh in on Monday too, I am going to have to get control of these evil days! haha.
Yesterday it was like my cold magically disappeared... thankfully! But today it is back. I have a cough and stuffy nose, but I feel pretty good anyway :) Nothing a few cough drops can't handle... I hope lol.

Here's My Day:
Snack @2:30am: (190) 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1 cup FF skim milk
Breakfast: (415) 2 eggs with 2 slices whole wheat toast w 1/2 tbs Fat Free ICBINB
Lunch: (282) 1/2 a Tuna sandwich on whole wheat, 10 carrots, 1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (147) 6 oz yoplait light- white chocolate strawberry yogurt with about 1/4 cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch mixed in
Dinner: (1550) Ordered Papa John's- 2 medium slices of BBQ chicken bacon pizza, 1 med slice pepperoni pizza, a garlic sauce, 4 small cheese sticks, a pizza sauce. Water
Snack: (50) One cookie (store brand Oreo)
Drink: (200) Beaumont iced coffee- french vanilla
Total Water: 74 oz
Total Calories: 2834
Well... I started the day off pretty good. For the first time I only had 1/2 a tuna sandwich :) I also bought some kashi go lean cereal to put in my yogurt. I wanted granola, and after looking at the different kinds I guess I grabbed the wrong one!!! This is "multi grain cluster cereal" and it will do the job, but I will get granola next time. I got this idea from Margie M's blog. I can't remember what exactly she uses in her yogurt, but I'm pretty sure it is granola of some kind.

I broke my own rule with the pizza!!! I try to just get one slice per plate, then I think I eat less (my usual is now 2 slices) but NO- I strayed from the plan!!! I told myself- "self, THIS is the ONLY plate you are aloud tonight." and put 2 slices on it and 3 cheese sticks. SO of course it's gone faster, and of course i want more, so I got another slice and another cheese stick. (it says 4 is a serving of sticks, but I did NOT need 4) Ugh... I am pretty sure if I would have followed my rule, i would have ended up eating 2 slices and 2 cheese sticks- which I would be happy with. Next time for sure!!! Eventually I will be able to do JUST ONE!!! Oh- and I didn't drink any pop with the pizza!!! :)

I got 3 cookies for snack, I didn't really like the first one, so I put the other 2 back :) I was proud of myself for that one. We usually don't have cookies in the house. I usually don't shop with my son either, he wanted them and I gave in... he is good about not eating a lot of them though. He is 11, but he still asks if he can have a snack, so I know exactly what he's eating and when. If I don't eat them, they will go stale. Which I will be fine with!!! No More eating stuff just so it doesn't go to waste!!!

Treadmill: 21 minutes/.7 mile

I didn't get much sleep last night, my fiance had another early schedule. I was up to early and will be up to late. When my schedule is off it really messes with me. I wish I didn't over eat for dinner, but otherwise it was an ok day. Next time I will follow my rule!!!!

LATER
I have to be honest, while I was eating the pizza, it was good and I enjoyed it. Now it is later, and I feel pretty bad about it. I was thinking of the groceries I bought, and the healthy things I could have made... and feel kind of sick thinking about it. I'm thinking about that show I saw yesterday, how I was so moved by it. And here I am the next day eating pizza... it just doesn't make sense! Ughh...
I read Barbara's blog a little while ago, and she has someone who orders out and sabotages her also. Mine is my fiance. He doesn't do it to sabotage me on purpose... I think he is just as addicted to the food as I am. But I have to start saying No. I'll have to make dinner... and I guess if he really wants to order out anyway, he will have to eat it all himself.... The other day I made a goal to not eat at any buffets until Tessa's Challenge is over. I have a new shorter term goal- NO fast food next week. NONE. I told my fiance and he said that's fine. So NO FAST FOOD next week. Not for breakfast, lunch or dinner. NONE.
Oh, and Barbara did SUCH a great job today by the way!

Tomorrow is another day, and today wasn't a total loss, I just made a couple mistakes. Mistakes that I can avoid next time...

The Weigh In, The Buffet, and The Food Revolution

THE WEIGH IN:

First we'll start with the good news. My new weight is...

Woooo Hoooo!!! That's a 3.8 Pound Loss this week!!!

My Totals for the WEEK: 3 hours 15 minutes/6.45 miles on the Treadmill, 300 Crunches.

We had a great day. We went to see How To Train Your Dragon in 3D and we all enjoyed it. I was impressed with the 3D, more then the other movies we've seen in 3D. We went to Old Country Buffet afterwards, because it is my son's favorite place and we never go there... I was pretty nervous about it. I actually looked it up last night and they have nutrition fact sheets right on there site, and it was SO easy to count the calories. So that was really nice.

THE BUFFET:

So I got my first plate... kind of a sample plate. I walked around and really thought about what I wanted and only got a little of each thing. I was so surprised at how good the New Orleans Bourbon St Chicken was!!! With the rice, it was SO good. The rice must have been the Cajun dirty rice. So I ended up getting another 1/2 plate. This one with more rice and chicken and some broccoli salad. I left most of the salad on the plate. Then I went and got nachos from the taco bar. And that should have been it... but there was dessert. I got a plate and went a little crazy I guess... I pretty much put anything that looked good on it. I just took VERY small portions of the stuff and got back to the table and looked at it LOL. So I only ate 1 or 2 bites of most of it. Except the ice cream and hot fudge cake, I did eat that. Oh and the tiny brownie. I know it was a lot of food, but all in all I thought I did ok, I left food on every plate... BUT then I got home and looked at it all and counted all the calories... Yeah... Not so good. I decided that buffets are just to much for me to handle- I should really just stay away from them for now!!!! I am seriously going to try and stay away AT LEAST till the end of Tessa's challenge :) That's a good goal I think!

So I wasn't hungry for the rest of the day. Just really thirsty so that's good I guess.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (435) 1 egg and 1/8 cup shredded cheese on sourdough english muffin,1 small sausage patty, 1 cup FF skim milk

Lunch: (2086) PLATE ONE: Bourbon chicken, Cajun rice, 1 roll, cornbread stuffing, mashed potatoes w/chicken gravy, 3 potato wedges PLATE 2(half plate) serving of bourbon chicken and dirty rice, tiny amount of broccoli salad PLATE 3(half plate) 7 tortilla chips w/ taco meat, nacho cheese, sour cream, salsa about 6 oz sprite DESSERT PLATE: 2 bites of cherry cobbler and bread pudding. tiny brownie. Hot fudge sundae cake with ice cream. about 8 oz  chocolate milk. (two turtle doves and a partridge in a pair tree!)

Dinner: nothing

Drink: (200) Beaumont Iced Coffee- Mocha (cheaper store brand version of Frappuccino)

Total Water: 54 oz

Total Calories: 2721

Treadmill: 20 minutes/.67 miles with 2 LB weights for 5 minutes of it

Crunches: 100

FOOD REVOLUTION:

WARNING this is about a show I watched, I rambled quite a bit, so if you already saw it or just don't care, you don't have to waste your time- I know it's alot to read LOL!!!

I just had to mention this show I watched tonight on ABC, I hope you had a chance to watch it! I thought it was really good. It really makes you think. It's called Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution. It is about a chef (Jamie Oliver) who goes to a town called Huntington. I think it is in Virgina, maybe West Virginia... anyway- it is the most obese/unhealthiest city in the united states, maybe the world. He wants to change this by making people go back to cooking natural foods and getting rid of all the processed stuff. Oh my goodness- Soooo much processed stuff. I am not in a position to judge at all, I am guilty of having lots of processed foods in my house... but the family he is working with, that's ALL they eat. The whole family is VERY over weight and I felt especially bad for the little girl, she is obese and I thought about 7- but she was only 4! Jamie was concentrating on the 6th grader, and trying to teach him to cook and really wants to help him. And the kid is all for it!!! Which was awesome.

He brought the whole family to the doctor and had the boy tested for diabetes because of warning signs. A warning sign was darkness of his neck... which I have never heard before. AND something I have... which really scares me... as I said before I don't go to the doctor because I don't even want to know- but this really did make me think. i hope that if I do have diabetes I can reverse it by continuing to change my eating habits and keep loosing weight. I hope I don't have it and will save my self from getting it at all.

I know I'm rambling, but a lot of this show really opened my eyes and surprised me. My son is also over weight. He isn't as big as these kids were- but if I were to keep up my bad habits he could very well get there. He knows I am trying to loose weight and get healthy. He knows that I am changing ALL of our eating habits so that he can be healthy too. I don't want him to be self conscious, but I don't want him missing out on life because of his weight either. So he knows I want him to loose weight. I have been very careful about talking to him about it (unlike my mother) so that he doesn't reject it. I tell him I love him and I don't care how big he is. It doesn't make any difference. I tell him that I just want him to be HEALTHY. And that I don't want him to grow up and be like me. Not because he will be fat, but because he will be unhealthy, not be able to do anything without being in pain and out of breath. I hope I am doing the right thing with him...

Anyway, back to the show! The main thing Jamie Oliver was concentrating on was the school food. It is SO ridiculous!!! The lunch ladies don't like him because he's in their kitchen telling them how unhealthy the food is... Now, it is understandable to a point, I mean, it's one thing to say "hey this is the best we can do with our budget and we are not in charge of what we serve..." but one lunch lady was just SOOO defensive and fighting him the whole show!!! It's ALL processed food, yet she was offended when called a lunch lady!!! She wants to be called a cook.... WHATEVER. So he asked her if she even knew what the ingredients mean, and she says "Beef- the first ingredient" or "potatoes- the first ingredient" and when asked about the rest of the unidentified ingredients, it didn't matter to her! Instead of just saying maybe your right- she was acting like it's all healthy the whole show! She said the potato pellets are a cooks best friend... when he first tried to serve healthy food and it failed she LAUGHED at him. I just couldn't get over her- she really is a piece of work.

The kids of the town are heading for obesity and it's not there fault at all... He did an experiment that ALWAYS works in England he said. He showed a group of kids all the parts of a raw chicken, and took the gross leftover pieces and they all agree that it's nasty and unhealthy. He grinds it up to "eeewwws and grosss" and makes chicken nuggets out of them. and when asked if they would eat them, they ALL said yes!!! He said it was the first time the experiment failed! When he went into a classroom and tested the kids about vegetables, they didn't even know the names of ANY of them!!! Not even tomatoes or potatoes! I just couldn't believe it!

Anyway, this ended up alot longer then planned LOL, I think I'll put a warning at the top LOL! and it's almost midnight so I'll end it! I hope it comes on again next friday. I really want to see if he helps this town, and if he helps the boy loose weight. K, I gotta go!!!!

Total Taco Binge (Wednesday continued)

I can't even believe what I did tonight. It is 1:10 am and I'm still up- so this is still for Wednesday. I feel like I'm at confession or something... I did horrible at dinner, and that was bad enough, but now I have to tell you all that I went on a binge tonight after my post. I really didn't want to write it :(  but I'm nothing if not honest, and so I have to. ALSO, I want it to be all done with tonight, so I can start over tomorrow. Today is the first time I just kept eating like that since 2009, and then it just got worse! After the post, I ate a bowl of Taco salad, with all the junk (cheese, sour cream, ect. and tortilla chips)and NO salad.  A good size bowl too. THEN I had a giant bowl of sugary cereal! I am so mad at myself, I feel like I let myself down, not to mention anyone reading this!!! So here is what I had after my post:
Bowl of Taco meat, beans, tortilla chips, cheddar, sour cream, and salsa.
large bowl of peanut butter/chocolate puff cereal with FF skim milk
My Total calories are well over 3000 for today
Water for the whole day: 34 oz
Thank you Tessa for your comment earlier, it makes me feel better knowing people care, even if you didn't know how bad I messed up yet! Now my Wednesday is over. Definitely my worst day since my weight loss journey started.

Think Spring!

Happy St Patrick's Day!
My son got home from school today and told me he saw a Robin. :) The first signs of spring! It is so nice and sunny today, I wish everyday could be like this. It got to about 63 degrees and it's beautiful, BUT this is Michigan and they are calling for snow over the weekend. Boo hoo. Hopefully they are wrong!

I have to tell you, I think a key part in my weight loss is going to bed at night and staying on some kind of schedule(which can be very hard for me). Most of my over eating used to happen at night when I was the only one up. Well- last night I stayed up WAY to late. I ended up hungry, and had a big bowl of cereal, which wasn't sooo bad. But then I grabbed an apple fruit pie... NOT a good thing. I took a couple bites and thought "What am I doing??? I have to write this down on my blog, I'm in a weight loss challenge... WHAT am I doing?" so I put it back in the box and in the fridge :) Damage was already done, but 1/3 of the thing is better then all of it...

Today I hurt myself :( Not from walking, crunches, or even housework. All I did was turn to hit the light switch, and that did it. Ever since, if I turn wrong or bend at all it shoots a pain up my back. My fiance thinks it is a pinched nerve, I don't know- I just hope it goes away FAST. I'm probably going to be able to walk the treadmill, but crunches are out for today (those didn't last long LOL)

Here's My Day:
Snack @1:15am: (488) about 1 1/2 cups of Special K- Vanilla Almond with 1 1/2 cups FF skim milk, and 1/3 Apple Fruit Pie (those single serving empanada shaped things)
Breakfast: Nothing
Drink: (85) 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Lunch: (391) Tuna Sandwich (1 can, 1tbs miracle whip, 1/8 cup cheddar, hot pepper rings) on whole wheat toast, 6 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (55) small apple
Dinner: (1230) 2 'double decker' style tacos(tortilla, hard shell, cheese, salsa, beans) with 1 tbs sour cream. 1/4 cup re fried beans, 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Snack: (370) 6 tortilla chips w leftover taco meat, beans and salsa. 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Total Water Today: Only 22 oz so far, will try to drink more though
Total Calories Today: 2619
Oh wow, I really messed up with the tacos. I have no reason or excuses- I just totally went overboard. Way Over Board. Ugh. I have to get back to my JUST ONE rule- which I haven't followed in a few weeks it seems like. Then to top it off, I had it for snack too.... Uggghhhh. And a can and a 1/2 of Mtn Dew! That is the most I've had in a day since 2009!!! UGHHHHH! It's seems like I have been messing up ALL the time, like every day... UUUGGGGHHHHHHH. I had such a nice day, then completely ruined it... not a great way to start off a weight loss challenge, that's for sure!!!
Treadmill: 20 minutes (.68 mile)

OOPS! Sorry Tessa. I've been staying up way to late, and it looks like last nights post was 6 minutes TO late lol. You made sense- :) I know what you mean.
It says the time at the bottom, in case I confuse you. BUT it shouldn't be a problem- I will definitely try and post earlier for you. It will be better for me too, since staying up to late messes up my whole system anyway! Sorry about that.

What was I THINKING!

I actually had a pretty good day, so lets get the bad stuff out of the way!
Today is the 4th day in a row I have had Mtn Dew... It is so hard to resist sometimes, it is ALWAYS in the house... but no matter! Tomorrow it is back to NO POP!

My eating today was bad... I didn't even want to write about the snack... the other day I even wrote I had to throw that macaroni salad away or I would eat it even though I didn't even like it!!! WELL, I put it in the fridge until I was ready to take out the trash- BIG MISTAKE. I went to the fridge (where there are delicious good for me fruits) and there it was. What would go good with that? potato chips... UGH!!! What was I thinking!?!?! At least I measured it out so I could count the calories instead of eating straight out of the container/bag. BUT I felt so horrible after I ate it, I threw it in the trash. Half the container still full- that is a big step for me...
So then we ordered inn. Usually I wouldn't be SO mad at myself since it was an improvement from before 2010... but it really is WAY to much food!  and oh my goodness the calories!!! On top of not needing to eat all that, (I was full), now I see how many calories were in it! OMG! Yeah, I'm embarrassed. BUT I said I would always be honest so I'm posting it anyway... as always...

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (185) Fiber One Bar- chocolate mocha, 1/2 cup of FF Skim Milk
Lunch: (263) Leftover potato/chicken in tomato sauce w/ 1/2 cup of white rice. 1 cup of 2% milk
Snack: (34) 1 bite of ice cream- Dean's Mint Meltaway
Snack: (575) 1/2 cup macaroni salad. 11 sour cream and cheddar potato chips. 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Dinner: (1252) Hungry Howie's- 1/2 Turkey Club Sub with 1 packet of mayo. 1 small piece of pepperoni pizza, 4 cheese sticks, 1.5 oz sauce, 1 cup of Mtn Dew.
Total Calories Today: 2309
Total Water Today: 50 oz

Oh good, that's out of the way...
Now to a little good news. Today was Biggest Looser Day, and I always try to stay on the treadmill as long as I can stand while watching it. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do my hour, since we had Hungry Howie's, but I did! In fact, I got to the hour and I felt pretty good, so I went a little farther! I did an hour and 18 minutes! That's the longest I've EVER been on the treadmill!!!! SO even though I made mistakes today, I ended it on a good note and feel great. I only have 3 days and it will be weigh in, so I need to get back on track tomorrow and stop this over eating nonsense!!!!! Now all I have to do is ignore the leftovers calling me from the fridge...
Treadmill: 78 minutes (2.5 miles) Yeah Baby!