Cook Out and Fight Night!

I'm doing a quick post now, because I probably won't get a chance later. We have a cookout at Mom's and then Me and Ray are going to my cousins to watch the fights. UFC... 116 I think :) We don't ever do anything, so tonight will be nice. Have a couple drinks, hang out with family and watch UFC. I'm a little stressed over somethings, but I'm going to try to forget about them tonight :)

So the challenge from Tessa is that I set some goal dates and goal weights. She is doing the same thing over at her blog if you wanna check it out :) She has a lot of important big events coming, me- not so much lol. BUT there are some things coming up that I can think of :)
My whole strategy has been Baby Steps. Just do a day, or week at a time. So setting goals for upcoming events isn't really in my comfort zone. I just know I have a LOT of weight to loose and that it will take a LOT of time. BUT I have been in a slump for over a month now, gaining, loosing, gaining... and maybe this is what I need! So I will give it a go!!! We will be able to encourage each other without actually competing, and it might be good for me, for both of us :)
I'll think of some events coming up that I would love to weigh less for, and post the list soon. The one I can think of is:
Christmas with my Dad's Family
We get together every year in December and have Christmas. It's the only time we really see each other unless we run into them in the store- which is rare. I would LOVE to loose enough by then to be really noticeable... that would be awesome :) That is over 5 months away, so I'll try and think of others :)

What I ate today:
Breakfast: (330) Fiber Plus Bar, 1 iced coffee
Lunch: (355) One medium slice of pizza, water
Yeah, the "I never want to eat pizza again." didn't last long... but even though I only had the one slice, I feel like crap again- and like I never want pizza again lol. We'll see if it last longer this time :)
I have the cookout tonight, and I am going to do a good job!!! I'll post it later or tomorrow.
Also have my cousins, and I'll be drinking a little. I don't like to eat when I'm drinking so all the calories will be in liquid form lol. It will be this Irish Cream stuff I like, which has a lot of calories... I can't get DRUNK or anything, I have to drive. So it won't be a whole lot anyway :) (the hole bottle wouldn't get me drunk anyway! LOL, but I won't drink the whole thing)

Ok, Have a good night everyone!!!

I'm back. I had a great night. I did over eat a little- but nothing crazy! I could have done without the pop, but over all I'm ok with how I did.
Dinner: 1 hot dog, 1 hot dog w/ no bun. about 1/2 cup baked beans, about 1 cup potato salad, 6 oz cherry coke.
At the fight night party: 3 pringles, about 1 cup crunch n munch?, about 12 oz Baily's Irish cream
I know, it has to be a LOT of calories... but for a cookout/and a fight night, I think I did fine.
Total Water: 45 oz

UGH. I feel like Sh*t.

I weighed in today. I stepped on the scale and it said... 280!!! 40 Pounds gone! Woo Hoo! I was so surprised, I stepped on it again... 280!!! It's the 6 month mark, and I have reached 40 pounds!!!!! So I decide to see if I can keep one of the cameras on long enough to take a pic. I step on it... 283... try again... 283. And no, I wasn't holding the camera... I stepped on it about 4 more times. 283. That sounds more realistic... but still a disappointment from that sudden excitement. I move the scale and try again anyway... 283, dang it! So I'll go with that...

283

That's a gain of 1.4 pounds. It sucks, but

it is what it is.

Got on the treadmill once this week,

making my Weekly Totals: 32 minutes/ 1.24 miles

Plus the 78 minutes of walking to/from the library

Total Crunches: 130

I don't know what happened. I felt like I was back on track, and then I ruined it. I did good today and yesterday until dinner. Both days I over did it, but today I went WAY over board. I had 4 large slices of pizza, 4 cheese sticks, and about 24 oz of pop!!!! WHY? I don't know!!!! Because i was a little let down? Maybe... Well, I have been thinking about the holiday weekend and how I will probably do bad... that led to thinking those old thoughts of "I'll do really good AFTER..." which is a NO NO! I also got a call from my mother right before I ate that pretty much ruined my day... But I did not plan on just completely stuffing myself sick tonight. And that's just what I did. I feel AWEFUL right now. It's been hours since I ate, and I am SOOO full. And it wasn't even that good!!! Seriously! There's leftovers and I DO NOT want them.

Right now I feel like I could go forever without ever eating another slice of pizza ever ever again!

I hope that last... because I feel horrible, and I don't ever want to be this full again. EVER

Even though it is the holiday weekend, I am going to do well. I am going to really try and start doing really good. I feel like I have been wasting so much time... now I'm back to having lost 37 pounds... which is good! BUT that's where I was over a month ago... and it's less lost than last week. I want to see that number go down, and keep going down. Not up and down and up...

Time to get back into the game!

Which also leads me to a new challenge from Tessa. Through this journey, I have tried to just think of the big picture, not setting any weight goals or times... I know I have a LOT to loose, and it will take a long time. BUT when I joined Tessa's challenge last time, I think it was really good for me. I didn't get all the way to the goal, but I wasn't mad at myself, and was proud of how well I did... Well, she has challenged me again... and while I'm kind of hesitant... it might be EXACTLY what I need! Not positive what race we will be doing, but I'll keep you posted :)

I can't say I'm exited, because I feel soooooo crappy, but hopefully tomorrow I will be as exited as I was on January 1st 2010!!!

Ray has to work at 2am this morning, early for him. So I'm just going to stay up until it's time to bring him. There's no way I could sleep anyway! On top of feeling sick, Not 2 minutes go by without a huge BANG outside! Mostly fireworks in the dumpsters I guess. They are LOUD. I doubt Ray is even sleeping :(  Last night people were out there partying until right before we left! At 3:30 am!!!!!! Hopefully after this weekend things will calm a little. But it's summer... so probably not, but at least the fireworks might.

Here's to tomorrow being a better day!