Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Where I'm At...

Hi everybody :)
I hope all is well here in Blogland! I've missed it, haven't really been around in 2 months!
I have to say hello to Wendy:), Sorry I've been such a bad hostess to a new follower!

I have been going through a lot these last 2 months, not that it's much different than before... I've just handled it much worse...

I did very well staying on the treadmill every day, for about a month and a half. Then I missed a day, and struggled after that, until I just quit all together. It's been about 3 weeks since I've been on it.

That has been pretty much whatever I want. I actually do ok with portions most of the time, what I'm eating isn't good. I have coffee with 1/2 serving cappuccino mix (55 calories) every morning, but I also have something sweet with it. SOMETHING SWEET ALMOST EVERY MORNING... Like cookies, donuts, danish... Something new for me. Then a cappuccino later (110 cal) most of the time... and sometimes another sweet thing with that!
I haven't been writing what I eat. I stopped on purpose, thinking that it might help... I felt like ALL I thought about was food... I didn't plan on stopping my blog though. So I think I will try and do well without recording the food... It hasn't worked in about 8 months now. It worked at first, but you know what??? I was so motivated and excited ANYTHING would have worked... After recording everything for over a year, I think I know calories pretty well, and portion sizes... but if I feel it will help, I'll go back to it... We'll see what happens :)

The Weight
Every week I thought I would get back to blogging. So I weighed in every Monday, and took a picture every time. My camera is full of pictures of the scale lol. I will update the side chart properly when I get the camera and have the dates and weights. For now I've updated the stats. I am now at 294 pounds, a gain of 7 pounds this year. :( Makes me sick... I have gained back 16 pounds of my highest loss of 42 pounds :( I hoped to never see the 280s again, and here I am in the 290s!
It doesn't do any good to concentrate on the what ifs, or I should haves... I'm lucky I didn't gain more I guess...

So anyway, I am back :) I don't have any set plan, just watch my portions and stop with all the sweet stuff, and as always: cut back on the fast food! I still need to lose weight, and still have all the same hopes and reasons as when I started this blog last year... I am just having a hard time getting motivated, and staying dedicated to it. I know I NEED to though. I'm hoping that being back in Blogland will help me :) Reading all of yours always motivates me, and writing helps with stress...

If your still here thank you :)
If your not, or don't want to be, that's cool. Better to follow a blog that is more suited to you. I sure don't need any more negativity that's for sure!

Ok, here we go again... See you later!


  1. Hey Tina. I'm sorry you have been struggling and gaining, I have been too. I just posted an update myself after months of being gone. Maybe we need to start a little challenge up to get us all motivated again. Glad your back posting, best of luck. You can do it.

  2. YAY!! That's two fantastic posts this morning...welcome back!! I have missed you....sending lots of hugs your way....

  3. Welcome back, Tina. The wagon is waiting. Climb back on and let's get moving! I've missed you. Hugs.

  4. Hugs! It is nice to see you. You do what is best for you - that is what matters. You are answering to yourself and you are an incredibly strong woman.

    So many care for you and are going to be happy to see you.

    Take care. Glad you are safe and sound.

  5. Thank you all so much for the warm welcome back! :) It really feels nice to be here. I have sooo much catching up to do! I can't wait to see how you all are doing!

    Barbara, we aren't giving up and that's what really matters, not what we've gained back or any of that. We can do this!

    Colenic, I have missed you so much! All of your positive vibes... if I was smart I would have read your blog all this time and would have probably felt soo much better!

    Thanks Jo! I've missed you too :) I'm sure you are doing great, you are always such a motivation!!!

    Thank you Anonymous, that is so nice of you :)

    Hugggssss all! :)