Where I'm At...

Hi everybody :)
I hope all is well here in Blogland! I've missed it, haven't really been around in 2 months!
I have to say hello to Wendy:), Sorry I've been such a bad hostess to a new follower!

I have been going through a lot these last 2 months, not that it's much different than before... I've just handled it much worse...

Treadmill
I did very well staying on the treadmill every day, for about a month and a half. Then I missed a day, and struggled after that, until I just quit all together. It's been about 3 weeks since I've been on it.

Food
That has been pretty much whatever I want. I actually do ok with portions most of the time, what I'm eating isn't good. I have coffee with 1/2 serving cappuccino mix (55 calories) every morning, but I also have something sweet with it. SOMETHING SWEET ALMOST EVERY MORNING... Like cookies, donuts, danish... Something new for me. Then a cappuccino later (110 cal) most of the time... and sometimes another sweet thing with that!
I haven't been writing what I eat. I stopped on purpose, thinking that it might help... I felt like ALL I thought about was food... I didn't plan on stopping my blog though. So I think I will try and do well without recording the food... It hasn't worked in about 8 months now. It worked at first, but you know what??? I was so motivated and excited ANYTHING would have worked... After recording everything for over a year, I think I know calories pretty well, and portion sizes... but if I feel it will help, I'll go back to it... We'll see what happens :)

The Weight
Every week I thought I would get back to blogging. So I weighed in every Monday, and took a picture every time. My camera is full of pictures of the scale lol. I will update the side chart properly when I get the camera and have the dates and weights. For now I've updated the stats. I am now at 294 pounds, a gain of 7 pounds this year. :( Makes me sick... I have gained back 16 pounds of my highest loss of 42 pounds :( I hoped to never see the 280s again, and here I am in the 290s!
It doesn't do any good to concentrate on the what ifs, or I should haves... I'm lucky I didn't gain more I guess...

So anyway, I am back :) I don't have any set plan, just watch my portions and stop with all the sweet stuff, and as always: cut back on the fast food! I still need to lose weight, and still have all the same hopes and reasons as when I started this blog last year... I am just having a hard time getting motivated, and staying dedicated to it. I know I NEED to though. I'm hoping that being back in Blogland will help me :) Reading all of yours always motivates me, and writing helps with stress...

If your still here thank you :)
If your not, or don't want to be, that's cool. Better to follow a blog that is more suited to you. I sure don't need any more negativity that's for sure!

Ok, here we go again... See you later!