It seems to me that EVERY Friday after weigh in, I never do well with food. Maybe it's the relief and knowing I have a whole week ahead to fix whatever damage I do? I don't know, but being Friday AND coming off my birthday both probably contributed to this disaster of a day.
I started off ok, I felt nauseous a lot of the day and wasn't really hungry... So all I had was vegetables for dinner. I was feeling ok with my day.
Then I started feeling better, FINALLY at about 8pm. And the munchies kicked in...
No excuses though, I could have used a little will power... could have made better choices! There is no reasonable explanation to why I would eat all this.
So lets get this out of the way and move on:
Yesterday's Food:
Coffee: 50
1/2 cup with 1 1/2 tbs pumpkin spice creamer
Lunch: 590
4 hard shell tacos, 1 bite of rice, 1 bite of beans
Iced Coffee: 55
1/2 cup with 1 1/2 creamer
Dinner: 55
1 1/2 cup boiled veggies (frozen mix- broccoli, cauliflower, carrots) with 1/2 tbs parmesan
Then came the snacking :( Binging is more like it...
1 slice of cinnamon raisin bread: 80
1 slice of cinnamon raisin toast with 1/2 tbs cc: 110
1 mini bagel with cream cheese and 8 pepperonis: 340
Veggie chips with cheese and salsa: 250
1 piece of cake:? 1/2 cup ice cream: 130
White Cheddar Cheez its: about 150
1 werthers: 23
This was all between 8pm and about midnight... Why? I really don't know, I have no idea. But even for those 2 weeks I was gone I didn't do this! I over ate a lot at meals, and I did snack a lot... but to just eat one thing after another, a whole new snack every 20 minutes... I am so disappointed in myself.
I am glad I got that out of the way. Even though it is HORRIBLE, I'm glad I got recorded it. Seeing it makes me have to face how out of control I got, and how easy it would be to just do that every day... to gain all my weight back- and then some! Those 2 weeks and this are set backs...
I have really been letting myself down lately... and in doing that, I also feel like I'm letting down those of you who support me... and I feel bad about that :(
I'm glad I got this all down and over with. I'm not going to dwell on it. just try to move forward.
Right Now, surprisingly, I feel great.
I have 6 days left till my next Friday weigh in and I still believe I can loose the 2.6 pounds if I really put my mind to it. My mind is to it right now, I guess the struggle is KEEPING it there.
ugh day
6 hours ago
Tina, maybe you could increase your treadmill time by a couple of minutes every time. Just thinking of the little things you could do to get to your goal.
ReplyDeleteDust yourself off and say enough is enough. Try to live in the moment and not let weight overwhelm everything else. You are taking the right steps, for the most part, and that is what matters most. I guess you need to ask yourself why you reverted back to old habits, if anything was upsetting, or bothering you.
ReplyDeleteI've been through the same cycle more times than a washing machine. And each time it breaks my spirit just that little bit more. So all I can do is say, tomorrow is another day.
And don't forget -
ReplyDeleteThis really isn't about what goes on
with the numbers on the scale.
It's about what we do in our health and
our thoughts!
When I go off plan, it's a great chance to ask
"OK....What is REALLY going on."
And it is never hunger.
Hey - just because I am without interwebs doesn't mean you can go and eat cake without me girlie! LOL
ReplyDeleteI noticed you didn't add it up - but in my [poor] math brain - it doesn't look that bad - perhaps you could weigh on a different day each week - mix it up a bit and then you don't have the onus of the "Friday"!
I know I hate having to weigh myself every morning to make sure the water isn't there [it depresses me, but for an opposite reason] but the scale can be a scary thing. Think towards how you FEEL and what you have done instead of relying on the numbers on a piece of metal on the floor. I swear sometimes I want to throw mine out the window. ;)
Thanks for coming around. I so appreciate seeing your smiling face, eventhough I am interweb-less...lol.
Love and hugs sweetheart - you hang in there.
I will see you on the flip side.
That's a great idea Jo. Thank you :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Verity V, I have been very stressed out lately... but I really have to train myself to not let that send me to food! Somehow lol! I don't see my stress going away anytime soon, so I really need to find other ways to feel better!
I think those 2 weeks away, and getting back onto old habits really set me back even more than I thought.
Thanks for comming by SkippyMom! I know you don't have the Internet, awful isn't it!?!? :)
Now that I look at it, the calories aren't that bad... but it's the fact that I just ate ALL of that without even being hungry... It's just something I CAN NOT let myself do!
I'm really not to stressed about the scale, more about the way I feel and how these bad habits are back and so hard to get rid of. Bleh
Thanks Skippy. Love and Hugs :)
You're right Anne H, it's not hunger.
Whatever it is, I need to get my eating under control! I wish that when I felt like crap I would just get on the treadmill... NOT eat :) I should really try and train myself to do that, I know that exercising makes me feel better... but when I feel like crap that's the last thing I want to do!
I don't want to gain all my weight back. I know what I was doing was working, now I just have to get back to it!