I wonder what the statistics are... Of obese people that TRY to loose weight and never do. How many succeed? How many go on and NEVER loose the weight?
Let's start from the beginning...
The very FIRST weight loss blog I started following was in October of last year. We will call her S. I found S because she wanted to loose weight so badly, she even went on Good Morning America and said she was doing this blog and going to loose weight in front of the whole nation. I thought that was so brave and awesome! I hadn't seen that before (and wasn't in touch with the world of blogging AT ALL) So I followed her blog. WELL. Even though she had all this free stuff from the TV show, even though she had a free gym membership, even though she had the support of her husband and was a stay at home mom, she couldn't do it. At first I sympathised, I hadn't started my weight loss journey yet, and I just admired her for trying... but it wasn't long before she wasn't trying. Don't get me wrong! I have had a HORRIBLE 2 months, but I am still trying, still posting what I eat even though it is embarrassing at times. I KNOW this is hard work and is going to be a life long commitment for sure. But the main problem I had with S was all the excuses. Excuse after excuse after excuse. She should have been honest with us, and just told us that it was harder than she though it would be. Acknowledging that she could have done better... Or admitted that she was addicted to fast food, that would be fine... Even if she said 'this is what happened and I headed to the fridge because of how it made me feel' that would be understandable to most of us! But that wasn't the case. It was more like 'I CAN'T because... or 'or it's IMPOSSIBLE to eat right because of THIS'. Or 'I did the BEST I could with the circumstances.'
So ANYWAY, I think it was about January when she took her blog down for good. Leaving a note saying that even though she wants to be held accountable... she really doesn't want to be held accountable.... not in those words of course lol.
It's to bad, and I wish nothing but good things for her. I'm sure she was quite embarrassed that she failed in front of America. (I know I would be!!!) My HOPE is that she dusted herself off and is doing great! Honestly! I found her on Facebook, and would LOVE to hear that she is going string... if she answers me I'll let you know!
(I hope this didn't sound to judgemental, I was just sharing my thoughts. I am in NO position to judge... I just think we need to be honest with our selves and each other if we ever want to change. This blog is about "My Life, My Weight Loss Journey, and Whatever else I want to Ramble About." So I do write about my life sometimes. My stresses. While these things sometimes make loosing weight harder, I KNOW it is up to me to make the right decisions. And I SO HOPE that they don't look like excuses... They are just parts of my life that may contribute to my problem. Sometimes I give in and eat like crazy, but I KNOW that was MY doing, and MINE alone...)
So from the comments on that blog, I came across 2 other bloggers. One being Tessa. She already had a blog and after checking it out I decided to read it all and follow her journey! She is going through this weight loss battle like a lot of us. She has good days and bad days like a lot of us. She is HONEST about her mistakes and most important, keeps on trying. She has become a dear blogger friend to me, and I am so thankful for her support and encouragement :) So thankful that we found each other.
The other blogger I started following at that same time we'll call M. She, like myself, had decided to start her own blog and try to loose the weight. She is about my age with a total opposite life. She is one BUSY lady. She has 2 jobs, (one being a lawyer) and a young daughter. I followed her blog from the start. She started off SO GREAT, loosing very fast. She would take little breaks from blogging, but come back to catch us up. She gained a little when she was away, but was ready to try again each time and I respected her for that. The last 2 times she came back, it didn't last long. Last time I think she had gained almost all her weight back. BUT she wanted it so bad, and was still trying! Well, the other day I realized it had been a while since she had posted that she was "back." I'm guessing 3 weeks? I went to her blog to see any comments and if I somehow missed any new entries.
THE BLOG YOU WERE LOOKING FOR WAS NOT FOUND
:( That truly made me sad. I can only think that she has given up on her weight loss journey, and my heart breaks for her. She wants to be able to play with her young child, to feel good about herself. All the things I want. It just goes to show how hard this is, and reinforce to me that I HAVE to do better before I wake up one day and have gained ALL my weight back. What would I do then? Give up??? I hate to say it, but yes. I probably would!
Anyway, S is the one that inspired me to do a blog in the first place. If it weren't for her I wouldn't be here. So even with all the excuses, I wish NOTHING but good things for her.
I hope M does go back to her weight loss journey. Whether she blogs about it or not, I really hope she is somewhere right now taking positive steps for her future.
So out of those first 3 blogs and mine, there is only Tessa and I. What does that say? 50%? I hope more than half the people that really try DO succeed! I am determined to be one of them! I will fall sometimes, but as long as I get back up and keep going- that's all that matters.
Almost all of the other blogs I follow about weight loss have been at it a long time. Have lost a lot and are still loosing, or even maintaining a great loss. They are doing awesome... but I wonder how many there are out there that start and don't finish? Out of the very few that I follow that are new to loosing weight, One more has already given up...
I started following a new blog yesterday. She JUST started last month. I kind of feel like I shouldn't get attatched... does that make sense??? BUT I caught up on all her post anyway, and am very interested and exited about her new journey :) I know she can do it!!!! I hope that everyone I follow succeeds and looses the weight!!! Maybe it's not realistic, but I TRULY hope it happens!!!!!! That includes me of course lol :)
What I ate today:
10am Drink: (67) 1/3 bottle iced coffee
Noon Brunch: (428) Scrambled eggs and ham (1 1/2 egg, 1 1/2 oz ham), slice of whole wheat buttered toast, 1 cup 2% milk
1:30pm Snack: (440) 4 choco chip cookies, 1 cup 2% milk
5pm Dinner: (550) 2 slices leftover bbq chicken DeLITE pizza, large romaine salad with 2 tbs sun dried tomato dressing, 5 croutons, 1/4 cup mozz cheese. Water. Pinch of mozz cheese ;)
9pm Snack: (71) 25 grapes (106 grams)
Total Water: 40oz
Total Calories: 1556
Definitely could be better, but I am fine with it :) The cookies are gone, so that's good lol.
I am going to try SO hard to get on a better schedule. I told my son that during the week we ARE going to go to bed at a descent time. No more staying up till I bring Ray to work, that is NOT working. So I will be going to bed soon, and if I do end up eating before then (i am hungry right now) it will be grapes, and I'll com back and write it tomorrow.
It's funny how invested I got into those blogs... I didn't know M or S and still was So disappointed! Have you had similar experiences? have you followed someone that gave up? How did it affect you???
PS: I ended up awake late again (more on that in next post), but I gave in and had a bowl of cereal. Still not to bad today over all...
5 hours ago