Still depressed, but feeling a little better.
Thank you for your comments, and it has actually cleared my mind up quite a bit. Sometimes having outside perspectives is a good way to really sort throug things. I agree with a lot of it, disagree with some of it, but it has made it more clear in my mind what I think of the whole situation.
It's late again and I'm not getting on the treadmill. I'm tired, and getting on it and taking a shower will wake me up, when what I need is to sleep. I have to get on it in the morning, instead of putting it off. Then I will have it DONE and no excuse not to do it!
What I ate today:
Lunch: 1 cup rice, 1 cup chicken veggie stir fry, whole wheat toast w a little country crock, water
Snack: mini fudge round
Dinner: 1 tostada, a few chips n cheese (about 6) water
Snack: about 10 cinnamon almonds
Total Water: 48 oz
Going to bed, probably talk with Ray for the first time in a day and a half.
Thank you all for your support and for caring. Hopefully what ever decisions I come to will be respected. If you disagree that's ok. I welcome all comments and suggestions, As long as it doesn't get twisted. Don't be angry if we disagree, just as I wouldn't be if it were the other way around.
12 hours ago