My day turned from very good to very bad. I'm very depressed, as some of you may know. But that's no excuse. I still planned on doing the treadmill, but after blogging it got to late. Can't wake up my sleeping son. Will try very hard to do it tomorrow. I'm still up, so might as well tell you what I ate.
What I ate today (Sunday)
Drink: 1/3 iced coffee
Lunch: 1/2 cup pasta, 1 cup chicken broccoli alfredo, 1 slice of buttered whole what toast, water
Snack: 20 grapes
Dinner @Mom's: 1 soft taco, 1 hard taco, 1 medium bowl taco salad, water (even though I was offered delicious pop multiple times)
Snack: mini fudge round
Snack @3:30am: mini fudge round
Total Water: about 50 oz
It's 6am. Gonna try and go to bed till I go get Ray (anywhere between 8 and 12) Goodnight, or good morning. I Hope you all have a nice day.
HBD
14 hours ago
thanks for the award
ReplyDeletei should drink more water that may b the problem
chicken alfredo sounds delish
I hope you get to feeling better, I'm a little depressed myself.
ReplyDeleteYour exposure to fast food/junk food is making a lot more sense now. Sorry.
ReplyDeleteAlso sorry you missed the treadmill - I never worry about waking up my kids in the summer time - they don't have to go to school - so if I have something I need to get done? They can just go back to bed or take a nap in the afternoon. And if I have something that needs to get done - like my therapy or walking the dogs? My kids appreciate that it comes first. They want to see me not in pain.
True fact: Exercise releases a chemical in your body that actually makes you feel better. Maybe it would be help if you exercise, just a bit? It might alleviate a bit of your depression.
Then again, what do I know?
Tina please stop putting everyone else before yourself. Skippy is right, it is summer time so I'm sure if you disturbed him he would make it up some time later. You need to start thinking about yourself and this mess that you call life. Start thinking about what you can do to help yourself and the whole situation. Find a counciling service (there are always lots of free ones listed in the phone book), or find a church nearby and talk to the pastor. Take a stand on the drugs and do not let anyone sway you. If all else fails grab your son and head to the nearest women's shelter and let their professional services help you start over away from everything. Where there is a will there is a way, and I am rooting for you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteBEE you are quite welcome :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Chubarella, I hope you feel better to. Depression sucks, but we will get though it :)
Thanks SkippyMom and Tessa. I don't know if they have quiet treadmills, but mine is NOT lol. Not only was my son sleeping right next to it on the couch, but Ray was also sleeping and had to get up for work. So yeah, I wouldn't have been putting myself first, I would have been being a jerk. What I need to do is get on it in the morning! You are right SkippyMom, with those facts. I know it makes me feel better, and I'm determined to make it a habit again... I'm not sure what you meant about the fast food, but you don't have to be sorry...
Tessa, My life may be a mess, but it could always be worse. I am thankful for what I do have, and thankful for the support. There's no way a homeless shelter would be better for me and my son. But thank you for caring and trying to help. I really do appreciate it.
Hopefully me being honest hasn't ruined that... people can agree to disagree is how I think... but then there are those that may now actually be angry with me because I don't agree with certain things... which is to bad. They don't live my life and until they are actually in my shoes, shouldn't be angry for how I decide to live it. Especially when I'm doing the best I can.