Was just One Of Those Days...

I have my computer back :) Not that less then 48 hours should be that big of a deal, but we were told we would have it back yesterday, so that's what I expected! Like I thought though, now that it's been a day, I am fine. None of it seems bad looking back on it now lol. BUT at the time I was just ready to pull my hair out!
Let's start from the beginning:
Tuesday when the power came back on, some of our digital channels weren't coming in. Yesterday, NONE of them were. So that made me mad (made worse by the fact I had to miss Ultimate Fighter!) but I got over it.
We took out computer in just to update the security and anti virus and whatever else that was expiring soon. I was told it only took an hour and we would have it back yesterday. All day they didn't call. 5:00 comes around and Ray calls and they tell him they are doing it right now and will call us back. An hour and a half later I call and they are closed and I had to talk to a machine. I was mad.
On top of just not doing what they say, I have to report what I eat everyday for Tessa and they were messing with that too!!!
I had been waiting to make dinner because I figured they would call as soon as I got it started. So now it's almost 7pm, and I'm going to quick make tuna casserole, fast and easy. I start getting the stuff in the pan and- NO MILK. This is because we were going to stop and get milk when we went to get the computer when they called! But they never did and I forgot! Ugh!!!!
I was just like screw it! I decided to go to my brothers real quick and post my meals, and since it was after 8 and my son was hungry I stopped at taco bell.
Oh! And lets not forget my lovely heat stroke added into the equation. I was feeling a lot better but not back to normal. Maybe that's why I freaked out, just being worn out already without the day going all wrong. Ugh...

But I am good today. Better then good, I feel back to normal and I am great :) I started drinking some Gatorade (not my favorite thing but I really think it's helping) and now I need to focus on getting back on track! Ray got me the Gatorade, it isn't to bad! It's grapey, and he got me low calorie which I didn't even know they had. So thoughtful :)

Here's My Day:
Lunch: East Garden Buffet (1 plate, 1 small dessert sized plate) 3 crab cheese, about 1/4 cup sweet and sour, 1 egg role, about 1/2 cup pineapple chicken, 1/4 cup white rice, couple bites of jalapeno chicken, some baked chicken, couple bites Parmesan chicken, 1/2 cup crab salad, 1 bite of garlic bread. 1/2 cup ice cream. Water
Dinner: leftover chicken alfredo (one serving), 1 cheese stick, pizza sauce, 8 oz Mtn Dew
Total Water: about 30 oz
Gatorade about 10 oz
My step dad took us out to lunch. Me Ray 2 of my brothers my mom and him. It was nice. I didn't do TO bad, but I was full. I think my stomach shrunk when I was sick, because I just don't have an appetite really. I ate cause it was there and it was good, but I wasn't really hungry. Same for dinner. I need to concentrate on whether I'm hungry or not now, instead of just eating to eat! I know this, just have ignored it the last few days...
You know, I wasn't worrying to much about what I was eating today or while I was feeling sick... let's be honest. I was using this as an EXCUSE!!! I look at it and I KNOW I was. Just like an alcoholic, if something goes wrong in life, it's an excuse to hit the bottle. I have seen it so many times, and it's exactly what I was doing. And I didn't even feel bad about it! I was just like "I'm sick, I can't cook, I don't have the energy, who cares if I eat some fast food I just need to get better" and the guilt was gone just like THAT! On top of all the fast food, I have been drinking pop too :( Not alot, but for a couple days in a row now. All this ends tomorrow, or better yet, right now :)

I look back at yesterday and none of it was even important. It could have been SO much worse. There are so many worse problems and I feel stupid for being so upset and letting it all get to me so bad. I realize that I used to do that a lot more then I do now. I think since the beginning of this year I have changed a lot. Obviously I still have those days, like yesterday, but I think I am so much happier more of the time. I don't know, just concentrating on my goal, feeling better already since loosing some weight... I don't know. I hope I remember how unimportant cable and other things are next time, so I don't get so bent out of shape!

Anyway, I'm ready to get back at it!
I read this today on Asphyxiated Emancipation's blog. He called it A Message to a Friend, and even though he was talking to his own friend- I think it is a message that a lot of us need. Please take a minute to read it. It just makes so much sense!
http://lessofmethehardway.blogspot.com/2010/05/message-to-friend.html