Got the Munchies...

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (347) Whole Wheat Toast with about1/2 tbs FF ICBINB and 2 tbs peanut butter, 1 cup FF skim milk
Lunch: (475) Tuna Sandwich, Spinach and iceberg salad, Water
Snack: (364) About 1 1/2 cups of Cap'n Crunch. Immediately after: about 7 Lays sour cream and cheddar chips
Dinner: (700) About 2 cups of Creamy Broccoli Tuna Helper with added broccoli (which my son was NOT happy about, but Ray and I liked it), 1 slice of whole wheat toast with 1/2 tbs FF ICBINB and Parmesan, 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (290) about 1 1/2 cups of Capn crunch with FF skim milk
Total Water: 44 oz
Total Calories: 2176

I don't know what it was today, I just wanted to eat! I was craving some pizza is what I think the problem was... It got bad after lunch, I just had the munchies! After snacking on a couple things I realized I wasn't going to stop unless I did something drastic!!! HaHa, so I went to bed. LOL. I was pretty tired and figured if I was sleeping I wouldn't be eating... not the best way to deal with it, but it worked today :) and I didn't order pizza! I also had two helpings of tuna helper for dinner... I'm not mad at myself- but I REALLY didn't need two.
I had peanut butter today :) I LOVE peanut butter... I don't think I have had ANY since I started this blog. I had started getting heart burn from peanut butter, and I HATE having heartburn so I have avoided eating it. My son had it for breakfast and I just couldn't resist! The good news, I didn't get heart burn!!!! I'm really happy about that... but now I see how many calories is in it, so I'll try not to have it everyday.

It's Tuesday, time for my Biggest Looser Walk. I did 2 more minutes than last week :) which makes my new longest time on the treadmill 82 minutes! Woooo Hoooo! The back of my heals still looked messed up, but didn't bother me until I got in the shower again...STIIIIING! My right one is kind of bad. I just hope they are both healed up by next Tuesday!
Treadmill: 88 minutes/2.74 miles  :)
I'm going to go over to my mom's in the morning after I drop my son at school. She said she wants to loose weight too, and she wants to start walking. She said I should come over and walk with her, so I will. We'll see... Hopefully she gets up and we really do go for a walk.
I'm not worried, I know it won't be a long walk- but I also know that walking on pavement is different then my awesome treadmill LOL. So we'll see how it goes!

More of my Monday...

My wonderful fiance's name is Ray :) I am sick of writing 'my fiance' every time. AND this seems more friendly then I ever would have thought, so you can know his name :) I guess I didn't want to use it because of the fear someone I knew would read this and know it was me! But I know now that if anyone I knew read this, they would probably know it was me anyway. Also, I guess the people that know me... well they might already have noticed that I'm fat LOL, so who cares if they came across this :) I'm still not telling anyone though!!! Besides  Ray :)
Ray's mom is doing fine today, thankfully! She is back to normal and went to work and feels good. She better not scare us like that again!!!  :)

I have to tell you what I did last night! I was doing my blog and my fiance was eating some sugary cereal. That sounded really good and I wrote it in and added the calories because I knew I would eat some when I got done. I was all done, got off the computer and thought about it... I wasn't even hungry. SO, instead of just eating it because it sounded good, and because I had already wrote it- I got back on the computer and erased it!!! AND the 290 calories!!! HAHA! Take that Cap'n Crunch!!!!

Here's My Day:
Brunch: (603) Chips N Eggs(my migas- 6 tortilla chips, 2 eggs, 1/4 cup cheese, salsa, pepper, tiny bit of veggie oil), 1 slice of whole wheat toast with 1/2 tbs FF ICBINB, 8 oz Orange Juice
Drink: (200) Beaumont Iced Coffee 9.5 oz- French Vanilla
Snack: (147) 6 oz Yoplait Light FF yogurt (apple turnover) with 1/4 cup of Kashi Crunch. Water
Dinner: (795) 1 soft chicken taco, some chicken and re fried beans on the side. Spinach and Ice burg salad. FF skim milk
Snack: (330) 1 1/2 cups of Honey Bunches of Oats Strawberries with cup FF skim milk
Total Water: 34 oz
Total Calories: 2075
The apple turnover flavor is MUCH better with the crunch :) I am having Honey Bunches of oats cereal for snack, even though ray is heating up pizza rolls....
Treadmill: 21 minutes/.78 mile
Crunches: 100 (5 sets of 20)

I came across this blog entry... I don't know if I have a sick sense of humor or what, but I thought it was hilarious LOL. I was sitting here laughing so I thought I'd share it with you. I showed Ray an it cracked him up too, but he has the same sense of humor as me lol. So if you are a little twisted like us, check it out :) http://peregrination.squarespace.com/journal/2010/3/20/are-you-a-kitten-killer.html

Monday Weigh In

It's Monday! Time to weigh in for Tessa's Challenge! The scale says...

That's another 2.2 pounds lost for the challenge. 4.6 total.  :-)

If you don't know about Tessa's Challenge, It's 4 of us in a friendly race to loose 24.75 pounds. This is the week 2 weigh in. It ends on May 31st. That's 77 days total, and we need to loose an average of 2.25 pounds per week. I didn't make that average this time... but that's ok :) I'm happy with my loss. This was all Tessa's wonderful idea, and it's very motivating!!! (oh did I mention the $100 for the one who gets there first?)

To see how all 4 of us did head over to Tessa's Blog http://fattothininoneyear.blogspot.com/ later on after we all post our results!

I'll be back later for my regular daily post :)

Weekend...almost....over...

It's Sunday, so tomorrow is weigh in for Tessa's Challenge. I have to be good today!!!
Today also starts my NO FAST FOOD for a week goal. I know I can do it :) My fiance heated up leftovers for lunch, and is smelled SOOO good. I didn't even want it though... well kind of... but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. There is still more left, but I know I can leave it alone :)

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (200) Beaumont Iced coffee 9.5 oz- Mocha
Lunch: (388) Tuna Sandwich(1 can tuna, 1tbs miracle whip, 1/8 cup sharp cheddar, hot pepper rings on whole wheat toast) 5 baby carrots, 1 tbs light ranch. Water
Snack: (140) Fiber Plus Bar- Dark Chocolate Almond. Water. 1 slice of an apple (my sons)
Drink: (110) 8 oz of V8 Fusion
Dinner: (710) 2 chicken tacos(one hard shell one tortilla) with lettuce, cheese, salsa. about 1/2 cup of re fried beans, 1 1/2 cup of FF skim milk
Total Water: 50 oz
Total Calories: 1548

We had left over shells (and always have tortillas) from last taco night. If you remember, it was my total taco binge... oh the horror.... anyway lol. I have a lot of chicken I got on sale last week so I decided to boil it, shred it and make it with taco seasoning. It came out pretty good, but not as good as beef. Maybe that helped me control myself. That and the fact that I didn't want a repeat of the last taco night!!! ALSO, I used my pizza rule :) ONE taco on the plate. To have another I had to get up, prepare it and sit back down and eat it. After that I was actually full :)

Treadmill: 21 minutes/ .70 mile    5 min of that with 2 LB weights
Crunches: 110 (50, 15, 15, 15, 15)
Extra Exercise: 30 non-jumping jacks with 2 LB weights

We had a scare today.
I was going to have my mother in law(fiance's mom) over for some taco soup tonight. We got a call that she had called another of her sons to come get her from church because she wasn't feeling well. He knew it was bad if she was going to leave her car there, he went to get her. When he got there she was already in an ambulance, her speech was slurred and they were taking her to the hospital. We were so scared. I thought she had a heart attack.
She was only at the hospital for about 1/2 an hour and they sent her home. It was her diabetes! She hasn't been taking care of herself as well as she should be I guess, and her blood sugar was to high...
Thankfully she is fine now, she ate and was going to take a nap. She is just really tired so we'll make her dinner another day... I'm just so glad she is ok.
It makes me think though, I JUST mentioned Friday how I am afraid I might have diabetes or be getting close, and then this happens... it's the first time she has had problems really, NEVER had to go to the hospital before... My fiance is 29, and he was sitting here terrified he might loose his mother... If I don't stick with this, and make more changes to improve my health, my son will get a call just like that. Except it could be worse... and he will probably be younger then 29.
I have lost 27 pounds so far and am more determined then ever to stick with this and really change my life.

Saturday

Oh the weekend... once desired and now dreaded... LOL, ok so I'm feeling dramatic today :) Really though, the weekend is so much harder. I guess lack of schedule is most of it for me. BUT- now having to weigh in on Monday too, I am going to have to get control of these evil days! haha.
Yesterday it was like my cold magically disappeared... thankfully! But today it is back. I have a cough and stuffy nose, but I feel pretty good anyway :) Nothing a few cough drops can't handle... I hope lol.

Here's My Day:
Snack @2:30am: (190) 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1 cup FF skim milk
Breakfast: (415) 2 eggs with 2 slices whole wheat toast w 1/2 tbs Fat Free ICBINB
Lunch: (282) 1/2 a Tuna sandwich on whole wheat, 10 carrots, 1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (147) 6 oz yoplait light- white chocolate strawberry yogurt with about 1/4 cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch mixed in
Dinner: (1550) Ordered Papa John's- 2 medium slices of BBQ chicken bacon pizza, 1 med slice pepperoni pizza, a garlic sauce, 4 small cheese sticks, a pizza sauce. Water
Snack: (50) One cookie (store brand Oreo)
Drink: (200) Beaumont iced coffee- french vanilla
Total Water: 74 oz
Total Calories: 2834
Well... I started the day off pretty good. For the first time I only had 1/2 a tuna sandwich :) I also bought some kashi go lean cereal to put in my yogurt. I wanted granola, and after looking at the different kinds I guess I grabbed the wrong one!!! This is "multi grain cluster cereal" and it will do the job, but I will get granola next time. I got this idea from Margie M's blog. I can't remember what exactly she uses in her yogurt, but I'm pretty sure it is granola of some kind.

I broke my own rule with the pizza!!! I try to just get one slice per plate, then I think I eat less (my usual is now 2 slices) but NO- I strayed from the plan!!! I told myself- "self, THIS is the ONLY plate you are aloud tonight." and put 2 slices on it and 3 cheese sticks. SO of course it's gone faster, and of course i want more, so I got another slice and another cheese stick. (it says 4 is a serving of sticks, but I did NOT need 4) Ugh... I am pretty sure if I would have followed my rule, i would have ended up eating 2 slices and 2 cheese sticks- which I would be happy with. Next time for sure!!! Eventually I will be able to do JUST ONE!!! Oh- and I didn't drink any pop with the pizza!!! :)

I got 3 cookies for snack, I didn't really like the first one, so I put the other 2 back :) I was proud of myself for that one. We usually don't have cookies in the house. I usually don't shop with my son either, he wanted them and I gave in... he is good about not eating a lot of them though. He is 11, but he still asks if he can have a snack, so I know exactly what he's eating and when. If I don't eat them, they will go stale. Which I will be fine with!!! No More eating stuff just so it doesn't go to waste!!!

Treadmill: 21 minutes/.7 mile

I didn't get much sleep last night, my fiance had another early schedule. I was up to early and will be up to late. When my schedule is off it really messes with me. I wish I didn't over eat for dinner, but otherwise it was an ok day. Next time I will follow my rule!!!!

LATER
I have to be honest, while I was eating the pizza, it was good and I enjoyed it. Now it is later, and I feel pretty bad about it. I was thinking of the groceries I bought, and the healthy things I could have made... and feel kind of sick thinking about it. I'm thinking about that show I saw yesterday, how I was so moved by it. And here I am the next day eating pizza... it just doesn't make sense! Ughh...
I read Barbara's blog a little while ago, and she has someone who orders out and sabotages her also. Mine is my fiance. He doesn't do it to sabotage me on purpose... I think he is just as addicted to the food as I am. But I have to start saying No. I'll have to make dinner... and I guess if he really wants to order out anyway, he will have to eat it all himself.... The other day I made a goal to not eat at any buffets until Tessa's Challenge is over. I have a new shorter term goal- NO fast food next week. NONE. I told my fiance and he said that's fine. So NO FAST FOOD next week. Not for breakfast, lunch or dinner. NONE.
Oh, and Barbara did SUCH a great job today by the way!

Tomorrow is another day, and today wasn't a total loss, I just made a couple mistakes. Mistakes that I can avoid next time...

The Weigh In, The Buffet, and The Food Revolution

THE WEIGH IN:

First we'll start with the good news. My new weight is...

Woooo Hoooo!!! That's a 3.8 Pound Loss this week!!!

My Totals for the WEEK: 3 hours 15 minutes/6.45 miles on the Treadmill, 300 Crunches.

We had a great day. We went to see How To Train Your Dragon in 3D and we all enjoyed it. I was impressed with the 3D, more then the other movies we've seen in 3D. We went to Old Country Buffet afterwards, because it is my son's favorite place and we never go there... I was pretty nervous about it. I actually looked it up last night and they have nutrition fact sheets right on there site, and it was SO easy to count the calories. So that was really nice.

THE BUFFET:

So I got my first plate... kind of a sample plate. I walked around and really thought about what I wanted and only got a little of each thing. I was so surprised at how good the New Orleans Bourbon St Chicken was!!! With the rice, it was SO good. The rice must have been the Cajun dirty rice. So I ended up getting another 1/2 plate. This one with more rice and chicken and some broccoli salad. I left most of the salad on the plate. Then I went and got nachos from the taco bar. And that should have been it... but there was dessert. I got a plate and went a little crazy I guess... I pretty much put anything that looked good on it. I just took VERY small portions of the stuff and got back to the table and looked at it LOL. So I only ate 1 or 2 bites of most of it. Except the ice cream and hot fudge cake, I did eat that. Oh and the tiny brownie. I know it was a lot of food, but all in all I thought I did ok, I left food on every plate... BUT then I got home and looked at it all and counted all the calories... Yeah... Not so good. I decided that buffets are just to much for me to handle- I should really just stay away from them for now!!!! I am seriously going to try and stay away AT LEAST till the end of Tessa's challenge :) That's a good goal I think!

So I wasn't hungry for the rest of the day. Just really thirsty so that's good I guess.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (435) 1 egg and 1/8 cup shredded cheese on sourdough english muffin,1 small sausage patty, 1 cup FF skim milk

Lunch: (2086) PLATE ONE: Bourbon chicken, Cajun rice, 1 roll, cornbread stuffing, mashed potatoes w/chicken gravy, 3 potato wedges PLATE 2(half plate) serving of bourbon chicken and dirty rice, tiny amount of broccoli salad PLATE 3(half plate) 7 tortilla chips w/ taco meat, nacho cheese, sour cream, salsa about 6 oz sprite DESSERT PLATE: 2 bites of cherry cobbler and bread pudding. tiny brownie. Hot fudge sundae cake with ice cream. about 8 oz  chocolate milk. (two turtle doves and a partridge in a pair tree!)

Dinner: nothing

Drink: (200) Beaumont Iced Coffee- Mocha (cheaper store brand version of Frappuccino)

Total Water: 54 oz

Total Calories: 2721

Treadmill: 20 minutes/.67 miles with 2 LB weights for 5 minutes of it

Crunches: 100

FOOD REVOLUTION:

WARNING this is about a show I watched, I rambled quite a bit, so if you already saw it or just don't care, you don't have to waste your time- I know it's alot to read LOL!!!

I just had to mention this show I watched tonight on ABC, I hope you had a chance to watch it! I thought it was really good. It really makes you think. It's called Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution. It is about a chef (Jamie Oliver) who goes to a town called Huntington. I think it is in Virgina, maybe West Virginia... anyway- it is the most obese/unhealthiest city in the united states, maybe the world. He wants to change this by making people go back to cooking natural foods and getting rid of all the processed stuff. Oh my goodness- Soooo much processed stuff. I am not in a position to judge at all, I am guilty of having lots of processed foods in my house... but the family he is working with, that's ALL they eat. The whole family is VERY over weight and I felt especially bad for the little girl, she is obese and I thought about 7- but she was only 4! Jamie was concentrating on the 6th grader, and trying to teach him to cook and really wants to help him. And the kid is all for it!!! Which was awesome.

He brought the whole family to the doctor and had the boy tested for diabetes because of warning signs. A warning sign was darkness of his neck... which I have never heard before. AND something I have... which really scares me... as I said before I don't go to the doctor because I don't even want to know- but this really did make me think. i hope that if I do have diabetes I can reverse it by continuing to change my eating habits and keep loosing weight. I hope I don't have it and will save my self from getting it at all.

I know I'm rambling, but a lot of this show really opened my eyes and surprised me. My son is also over weight. He isn't as big as these kids were- but if I were to keep up my bad habits he could very well get there. He knows I am trying to loose weight and get healthy. He knows that I am changing ALL of our eating habits so that he can be healthy too. I don't want him to be self conscious, but I don't want him missing out on life because of his weight either. So he knows I want him to loose weight. I have been very careful about talking to him about it (unlike my mother) so that he doesn't reject it. I tell him I love him and I don't care how big he is. It doesn't make any difference. I tell him that I just want him to be HEALTHY. And that I don't want him to grow up and be like me. Not because he will be fat, but because he will be unhealthy, not be able to do anything without being in pain and out of breath. I hope I am doing the right thing with him...

Anyway, back to the show! The main thing Jamie Oliver was concentrating on was the school food. It is SO ridiculous!!! The lunch ladies don't like him because he's in their kitchen telling them how unhealthy the food is... Now, it is understandable to a point, I mean, it's one thing to say "hey this is the best we can do with our budget and we are not in charge of what we serve..." but one lunch lady was just SOOO defensive and fighting him the whole show!!! It's ALL processed food, yet she was offended when called a lunch lady!!! She wants to be called a cook.... WHATEVER. So he asked her if she even knew what the ingredients mean, and she says "Beef- the first ingredient" or "potatoes- the first ingredient" and when asked about the rest of the unidentified ingredients, it didn't matter to her! Instead of just saying maybe your right- she was acting like it's all healthy the whole show! She said the potato pellets are a cooks best friend... when he first tried to serve healthy food and it failed she LAUGHED at him. I just couldn't get over her- she really is a piece of work.

The kids of the town are heading for obesity and it's not there fault at all... He did an experiment that ALWAYS works in England he said. He showed a group of kids all the parts of a raw chicken, and took the gross leftover pieces and they all agree that it's nasty and unhealthy. He grinds it up to "eeewwws and grosss" and makes chicken nuggets out of them. and when asked if they would eat them, they ALL said yes!!! He said it was the first time the experiment failed! When he went into a classroom and tested the kids about vegetables, they didn't even know the names of ANY of them!!! Not even tomatoes or potatoes! I just couldn't believe it!

Anyway, this ended up alot longer then planned LOL, I think I'll put a warning at the top LOL! and it's almost midnight so I'll end it! I hope it comes on again next friday. I really want to see if he helps this town, and if he helps the boy loose weight. K, I gotta go!!!!

Got a Cold, but it's OK :)

Tessa left a comment yesterday about how we are used to food being our comfort, and how easy it is to go back to that when we are sick. That is SO TRUE for me. Hit the nail right on the head. I guess it's a good thing that yesterday, it wasn't very comforting. All it did was make me feel bad. I guess that is due to the changes I've made... though I have MANY more to make- the ones I have made have really changed me already. Take counting calories. Before- I couldn't care less about calories, but in the few short weeks I have been keeping track, now it's just natural for me! Not being able to count them and knowing how over board I must have went yesterday really bothers me! lol, also a good thing I guess.

If you were to look at me today, it would seem I have a horrible cold and must feel miserable. I have a runny nose, a cough and soar throat. BUT- the cough is very productive thankfully, and I actually feel pretty good :) A lot better then yesterday. I had burger king today... BAD IDEA. Unlike yesterday when I was starving, today I'm not really hungry at all. And when I ate that whopper I usually love, it didn't really taste very good (it didn't help that Burger King has no tomatoes either lol). So anyway, my cold was really acting up. I won't be graphic lol, but it did NOT stay in my stomach.

I'm going to make sure to eat a little even though I'm not hungry, or else I will probably feel really sick later. But honestly- despite all this I really do feel great lol.

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: (0?) Whopper and 3 fries... for a couple minutes anyway... Water
Lunch again: (146) 18 grapes, 2 strawberries, 2 tbs fruit dip. Water
Snack: (130) Fiber Plus Bar- dark chocolate almond
Snack: (160) 15 Lay's sour cream cheddar chips
Dinner: (559) Asparagus stuffed chicken, 1 cup broccoli with cheese, 1/2 small potato, 2 baby carrots, 1 cup FF skim milk
Drink: (200) Beaumont Iced coffee 9.5 oz (cheaper version of a frappuccino)
Snack: (340) large bowl of multigrain cheerios w FF skim milk
Total Water: 54 oz
Total Calories: 1535
I got pretty hungry before dinner, and again after dinner... but I did ok...
I still feel pretty good, nose is bothering me more though lol. I am VERY tired. I will be going to bed pretty early I think.
We're going to have a fun day for my son tomorrow. We still have a little money left and he doesn't have school. We are going to the movies to see How to Train Your Dragon.
Then we are going to go eat lunch at his favorite place- Old Country Buffet... I know- SCARY. I really don't feel like I should be going to a buffet, not only because I don't feel good but because I don't think I am far enough along in my journey to be good at one!!! BUT it is my son's day :) and since my fiance and I don't like that place very much, we hardly EVER go. Less then once a year. BUT like I said, the food is OK, definitely not one of my favorite places... but for some reason that never stops me from making a pig of myself! So much to choose from... and the fact that when you pay for a buffet like that you want to get your money's worth! (that's how I think anyway lol) But I am going to try really hard to take my time and really think about what I am putting on my plate. I just hope I still feel good and my nose gets a little better. Otherwise I might just send them to eat with out me. I'm not going to a buffet with a runny nose lol. Gross!!! LOL.
Treadmill: 20 minutes/.67 miles (5 of that with 2 LB weights)

Took a Sick Day...

That's the only way to describe it I guess.
I woke up and didn't feel good. I must be getting a chest cold. I didn't do anything all day except eat. Now on top of not feeling good I feel like crap because I ate to much. Ugh... tomorrow will be better, whether I feel better or not.

Here's My Day (unfortunately):
Breakfast: Begal and cream cheese. water
Snack: 2 leftover taco shells with cheese and salsa
Lunch: 10 0z sierra mist. A wet burrito (that wasn't even good)
Snack: 14 grapes, 1 large strawberry 2 tbs fruit dip
Dinner:  a little left over pot roast, 1/2 potato, 5 baby carrots. FF skim milk
Snack: 2 bowls of cereal (Lucky Charms, honey bunches of oats strawberries) w 2% milk
Total Water: 41 oz
Total Calories: A LOT
I don't know what I was thinking :( I didn't feel good and felt like I was hungry ALL day. There are going to be days I don't feel good- but eating really didn't make me feel any better. Only worse. I just have to make sure I remember that tomorrow. I'm pretty tired so I'm not going to count calories today, I know it's A LOT.

Treadmill: 20 minutes/.6 miles (5 minutes of that with 2LB weights)
I rubbed part of my heel raw last night on my 80 minute walk- I didn't even feel it till I got in the shower! STING. So tonight was a little hard walking. I put a bandage on and walked pretty slow.
I hope everyone else had a better day then me!!!!
See you tomorrow.

The Biggest Looser (want to be on the show?)

Today is Tuesday, Biggest Looser Day! As you may know, I try to stay on the treadmill as long as I can while I watch The Biggest Looser. For the past 2 weeks I have been on it 78 and 79 minutes- which are the longest times I had EVER been on the treadmill. (Even though I had to take a potty break last week) If I could add a minute every week, I could have a NEW longest time ever EVERY WEEK! So tonight my goal will be to stay on it for 80 minutes :)
Speaking of the Biggest Looser, I ran across this site looking for people to be on the show next season! I won't be filling out an application, I am NOT that brave. And to be honest, I could never hang! I mean those people work sooo hard! I would probably die! Anyway, here is the website if anyone else is interested!!!
http://www.thebiggestlosercasting.com/

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (312) 1/2 bagel with about 1 oz cream cheese, 6 oz orange juice
Lunch: (440) One slice of leftover chicken garlic pizza MINUS the crust, and the other half of the club salad. Water
Dinner: (523?) about 4 oz pot roast, 1/2 small potato, 5 baby carrots, a little bit onion, 1 cup FF Skim Milk
Snack: (154) 14 grapes, 1 large strawberry, 1 tbs fruit dip
Snack: (290) Frosted Mini wheats (24 squares) with 1 cup FF skim milk
Total Water: 58 oz
Total Calories: 1719
Today I used my crock pot for the first time :) I made a pot roast, well me and my fiance that is :) It came out really good. And I did soo good controlling my portions! I threw away the nutrition label before I wrote it down, so I had to use the internet and hopefully I got close...

Treadmill: 80 minutes/2.6 miles  Woooo Hoooo!
Crunches: 100
I feel great today. It's just one of those days :) There is room for improvement, but I look back at today and can see how far I've come.
I have to mention my fiance... I love him everyday, but some days I just look at him and realize I love him so much. He has never ONCE said anything to me about my weight gain, he always makes me feel beautiful even when I feel like the ugliest person in the world. He has loved me at every weight, and I am so thankful for that. I don't have to loose weight for him to love me, and that makes me love him even more, and want to loose it even more, so he can be proud of me.

More for Monday

This is my snack tonight

I am Happy to say we all did great this week for Tessa's challenge :) I am currently in last place, but you wouldn't know it because I am very happy. AND proud of my fellow challengers!!!!

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: nothing(sleeping)

Lunch: (436) Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat with hot pepper rings. 8 baby carrots. about 1 1/2 tbs light ranch.

Snack: (100) Yoplait Light yogurt cup

Snack: (130) Kellogg's Fiber Plus Bar- dark chocolate Almond

Dinner: (709) Papa Murphy's- 1 large slice of Gourmet Chicken Garlic Pizza  w 1 tbs light ranch, 3/4 slice of Hawaiian, Club salad, 2 drinks of Mt Dew (about 1/4 the can)

Snack: (215) 2 strawberries, 1/2 small apple, 20 grapes with fruit dip.

Total Water Today: 45 oz

Total Calories Today: 1590

I bought those Kellogg's Fiber Plus bars thinking that they were Fiber One bars. I have only tried the dark chocolate almond kind, but they are SOOO good, the best Fiber bars I have had! I would highly recommend them!!!

I didn't eat the crust of either piece of pizza, I thought "what the heck, I don't really care for the crust- might as well save some calories." I don't know how many that would be... I'll take 20 off per slice. Does that sound reasonable???

ALSO- I gave the rest of that pop to my fiance :) so it isn't in the fridge with my name on it! (I don't really put my name on my food, you know what I mean lol.)

The fruit dip I made by mixing cream cheese and marshmallow fluff... NOT very healthy, but super good lol. And I only had a little...

Treadmill: 35 minutes/1.17 miles
(15 minutes/.5 mile, 20 minutes/.67 mile)
Crunches: 100

Monday, Another Weigh In!

Today is Monday, time to weigh in for Tessa's challenge.

294.2 Woo Hoo! Down 2.4 from last Monday :)

I'll be back later for my regular post

I had a good day today, My eating was... ok.
My fiance has to be to work at 2am instead of the usual 4am... I'm not sure what will be better for me. Going to bed and getting 1 1/2 or 2 hours of sleep before I have to take him? Or just staying up... I'll probably just stay up. I hope it doesn't mess up my day to much tomorrow! Or make me hungry tonight!
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (540) homemade egg Mcmuffin(1 egg, 1 slice of cheese on sourdough english muffin), 1 small sausage patty, about 8 oz orange juice
Lunch: (865) Arby's- small jamocha shake and a junior roast beef w cheddar. A romaine salad w 1 tbs light ranch, 1/8 cup sharp cheddar, 2 tbs croutons.
Dinner: (340) WW Smart Ones frozen Meal- Pasta Primavera, 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (200) about 1 cup of multigrain cheerios with about 1 cup FF Skim milk
Snack: (200)about 3/4 cup of cocoa puffs w 1 cup FF skim milk
Total Water Today: 46 or 36. I think 46 but I lost track...
Total Calories Today: 2145
I didn't pass on the Arby's and I did get a value jamocha shake.(at 470 calories for that tiny thing, I am going to really try not to get anymore for a long time)Also, for the first time ever, I got a JUNIOR roast beef :) and that was hard since the subs are still on sale lol. In Tyler's blog he recently said he gets kids meals a lot, I thought about that. I was still hungry though- so I had a salad. I know that after I get my eating more under control my stomach will shrink more and I won't feel hungry like that, but as long as I have healthy stuff in the house I'll be ok when I do... as long as I control myself!
Treadmill: 20 Minutes/.72 mile
Crunches: 100 (2 sets of 50)
Extra Exercise: 30 of my 'non'jumping jacks with 2 LB weights
30 stretch/reaches (15 on each side)
30 bends (15 on each side)
I am staying up till I bring him, so I did some extra exercising :) woo hoo! I had the time and I think it woke me up some.

Gloomy... the Day. NOT me :)

'Spring is Here' my a**!

I took a few pictures of the birds out side today, couldn't decide which one

to post, so you get all 3 lol. Even though it is gloomy out, I am surprisingly happy today :)

I got up this morning at 3:35 and brought my fiance to work. I had put off grocery shopping all week, and decided to stay up and go at 6am. I had a lot to get and he always comes with me, but I was thinking of how much better I feel and that I could probably handle it myself. I was also thinking of all the calories it would burn (walking all over the store, packing it all up, putting it all in the car, bringing it all in the house, scanning it all for NCP, putting it all away) and now I'm proud of my self. Within the last 2 years or so, I don't ever make big shopping trips with out him, because I get out of breath, my back kills me, I even get sweaty just loading it all up onto the belt! But today I did it ALL by myself and I was fine :) I was a little hot, and a little out of breath after carrying it all in, but I'm good :) I wasn't sweaty and My back doesn't hurt at all!!! Now when he gets out of work he won't have to help me :)

I got lots of good healthy stuff at the store. I got through the whole loaf of wheat bread, and you know what? It wasn't THAT bad :) I bought a new loaf today, I think I might like it better. It took me along time to pick it out at the store, it has no artificial anything (which I just thought all wheat bread was like that, but I was wrong) and compared to the other loaf I had it looks healthier. It's Arnold brand. I couldn't find any that had more then 3 grams of fiber per 2 slices though... and once I got it home I noticed it is higher in calories then the other one. 65 per slice. So I don't know... I got other healthy stuff too: Lots of Fruits and some Veggies, yogurt, and some Irish Cream wine... wait what? lol

THIS is the first robin I've seen this year.

The poor thing!!!

A quick note about "Spring." When I got out of the store, it was snowing :( yuck! and it snowed ALL DAY! It was just 64 degrees 2 days ago, and right now it is 31. I had to turn my heat back on! Ugh! Why do I live in Michigan again??? Oh yeah... mom, brothers and in laws.... grumble grumble... stupid family.... LOL! Just kidding about that last part! haha, good thing they don't read this...

The Cardinals don't seem to mind

Here's My Day:
Snack @4am: (90) Special K Bar- Vanilla Crisp, Water
Breakfast: (242) 1/2 bagel with 1 oz cream cheese, 2 large strawberries, Water
Lunch: (451) Tuna Sandwich(1 can, about 1/4 cup sharp cheddar, 1 tbs miracle whip on whole wheat toast) with hot pepper rings, 8 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch, Water
Dinner: (627) Leftovers- 1 slice of tomato pepperoni pizza, 1 small cheese stick, Romain and Spinach Salad with about 1/4 cup sharp cheddar, 1 tbs light ranch, 3 tbs croutons
Snack: (200) the rest of that apple pie, which was about 1/2 of it.
Snack: (310) 1 1/2 cup of Cocoa Puffs with 1 cup FF skim milk    I know, not the best choice- but you know what they say! I'm cuckoo for... ah never mind. That was lame, sorry. I think I'm overly tired. Going to bed LOL.
Total Water: 48 oz
Total Calories: 1920
I want to let you know I passed on McDonalds today. Even though an egg McMuffin and a Frappe sounded SOOO good... I had already had breakfast and knew I didn't NEED it. So I said no :) go me!
Treadmill: 20 minutes/.67 mile
Crunches: 100

The WEIGH IN and the NEW SCALE

First I want to thank Laura and Bariatric Babe for joining me in My Day! What a nice surprise! It's so great that we all support each other, and that even though we are all so different, we are all so alike  :) We all have different amounts to loose. And we may be going about it in different ways, but each way has it's own struggles and we all have the same common goal. To loose this weight! For GOOD! Speaking of loosing weight...

I LOST 2.6 POUNDS!
That's 23.6 pounds so far- Woooo Hoooo!

If you have seen my week at all, you know I messed up. A LOT. A lot of little mess ups leading to my all out Taco night binge. And still managed to loose 2.6 pounds! That shows you how bad it USED to be. I went back and looked at Wednesday... I didn't want to, but I did. Now, while today it looks like a binge to me, Before 2010 that is EXACTLY how I would have eaten on a night I made tacos, and I wouldn't have thought twice about it!!! There were plenty of times when I ate MORE then that!!!
Make NO mistake, this is not an excuse for my actions (there is NO excuse for eating that much) but I just want you to know that I have come very far. For me to think that is a binge now, and a regular day back then... It has only been 3 months and 19 days and I already think a lot differently. Of course I have a LONG way to go, but I'm getting there.

SLOWLY BUT SURELY. I know some people look at my daily menu and probably see all kinds of mistakes, and wonder why I'm eating so much, ect. BUT I really have come a long way already. I HAVE made changes, and my goal is to make the changes slowly. Make changes I can live with for the rest of my life, and slowly improve those. If I try to change to much all at once- I KNOW I will get overwhelmed and FAIL ONCE AGAIN. So it is baby steps for me.
I love getting comments, all are welcome and appreciated. The advise too, I need all the help I can get! And I really do think about each and every comment, and consider every suggestions and do what I can. I know Tessa is concerned about my carbs, and I welcome that! It's good for me to hear these wonderful suggestions, but please don't be offended if I don't follow them right away :) Like I said BABY STEPS. Cutting out carbs would be impossible for me right now, but I have made positive changes. I switched to nasty 100 % whole wheat bread for one, LOL. That in itself has me eating less bread LOL. I always measure out my cereal now, instead of cramming as much I can into the bowl. I also NEVER eat chips with sandwiches anymore, if you've noticed I always eat baby carrots instead. Fruits and vegetables were pretty much non existent for me... While these changes may not seem like much to some, they are a lot to me. I continue to loose every week, so making the changes slowly is working for me, better then anything before.
LOL, sorry about rambling there. I had other things I wanted to talk about too! School food, that giant crazy lady, and more LOL. But I'll save it, as I've kept you long enough!!!!

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (480) 1 egg, 1 slice whole wheat toast (NO butter), 1/8 cup cheddar, salsa, 1 sausage patty, 8oz Orange Juice
Lunch: Nothing (Was napping... a no no)
Snack: (130) Kellogg's Fiber Plus Bar- Dark Chocolate Almond. Water
Dinner: (1167) Papa John's- 2 medium slices of pizza(1pepperoni&tomato, 1cheese) with 1 serving of garlic sauce, 3 small cheese sticks with 1 serving of pizza sauce, 8 oz of Coke, Water
Total Water: 40 oz
Total Calories: 1777
Man, I started the day off well with JUST ONE, but completly forgot that rule for dinner! AND broke my NO POP rule! Ugh, the weekend... I'll have to really do better though, so I don't gain for Tessa's weigh in!
Treadmill: 20 minutes/.69 mile
Here are my Totals for this week:
Treadmill: 3 Hours 44 Minutes/ 7.85 Miles
Crunches: 100

The old Scale...

It's Funny how I am FINALLY under the 300 pound limit...

and I go and get a new one! LOL.

I have to mention my new scale. It shows me 3 pounds Heavier then my old one (above) which sucks, but oh well. I think the new one is accurate, so whatever. It is what it is. So I will have to change my starting weight from 317 to 320. And so last week I really weighed 299 instead of 296 :(
I'm going to keep my weigh ins on Fridays, but I will have another weigh in on Monday for Tessa's challenge. Maybe weighing in twice a week will be good for me? We will see! Since I got my new scale on Monday, I used it to weigh in for Tessa, so that is all accurate- no need to add 3 pounds- Thank goodness!!! Even though I lost 2.6 pounds since MY last weigh in, I am only down .2 since my weigh in for Tessa. I'll have to be really good over the dreaded weekend!!! I hope that all makes sense...

OH!!! One more thing! Most of you probably already read Tyler's blog 344pounds, but if you haven't- you really should check it out today. He has a GREAT list of weight loss tips. I already do some of them. I have heard most of them, BUT it's funny how we forget! It was a good reminder!!!

A Bright New Day

Do you know what I would have done if not for this blog? After my huge disaster of a day yesterday, I'll tell you exactly what I WOULD have done. I would have said "Oh well, I'll start fresh on Monday." and then I would eat like a pig all weekend, and when Monday came I would say "I really messed up- I'll start again on the first of the month..." and so on and so on. I have done that SOOO many times. BUT NOT THIS TIME!
I think I took it so hard yesterday, because I have had so many bad days leading up to that- and I should have stopped it before it got that out of hand. But I am not going to dwell on it, I am going to consider myself lucky that I went a whole 2 months and 16 days without a complete binge like that! Now to do my best to make sure it doesn't happen again!

It is another beautiful day and I have the same hope and excitement I did on January 1st 2010, that I really am going to change my life. There will be bumps in the road, and It's up to me to get over those bumps :)

This is Miya, enjoying today's sunshine

Back to THE PLAN!!!!!

1. JUST ONE
2. NO POP       
3. LOTS OF WATER   
4. ADDING HEALTHIER FOODS TO MY DIET.   
5. WALK

Tessa is totally right when she says I eat to many carbs. While you probably know, I am against depriving myself of the things I love, but I NEED to eat less of them. I thought of Tessa's comment this morning when I went for that bagel. My JUST ONE rule, can also be JUST HALF when it comes to some things :) SO I had half the bagel.
My "Days of Our Lives Walking Plan" has not been working out. I am always busy, or eating lunch, or JUST had lunch and don't end up on the treadmill during the show. So I end up on it at about 8pm, doing it just to get it over with. BUT I think I will try something new. I'll still get on it in the evening, to do my Mandatory 20 minutes, but also try to get on it through out the day, even if for 10 minutes at a time. We'll see how this works out :)
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (310) 1/2 bagel with 1 tbs cream cheese. 8 oz orange juice
Lunch: (460) 9 tortilla chips with left over taco meat&beans, 1/8 cup cheddar, salsa. Romain salad with 1 tbs light ranch, 1/8 cup cheddar. water
Snack: (67) 1 bite of that apple pie
Snack: (46) 23 Red Grapes
Dinner: (387) very little bit of leftover taco meat&beans, 1/8 cup cheddar, salsa with 4 tortilla chips. Romain and carrot salad with 1 tbs light ranch, 1/8 cup cheddar, 2 tbs croutons. Water
Snack: (160) Apple with 1/2 of a single serving caramel dip
Snack: (200) about 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with about 1 cup of FF skim milk
Total Water Today: 55 oz
Total Calories Today: 1630
There is definitely room for improvement, but I did ok. The best thing to do would have been to stay away from the evil delicious taco stuff- BUT with the family heating up leftovers, I guess it was to hard for me. I only had a little though, and I'm happy with that :)
Treadmill Total Today: 35 Minutes/1.16 miles
(15 minutes/.5 mile, 20 minutes/.66 mile)

OK, I am refocused, and excited to continue on my journey! I want to thank everybody for your comments. You are so nice and so supportive. I know this journey is definitely up hill (I should say Up-Mountain) but I really do believe having this blog and people to support me is making the climb so much easier then it ever was before. Thank you so much.
Tomorrow is my weigh in day. I am pretty nervous... but no matter what happens I won't let it get me down!

Total Taco Binge (Wednesday continued)

I can't even believe what I did tonight. It is 1:10 am and I'm still up- so this is still for Wednesday. I feel like I'm at confession or something... I did horrible at dinner, and that was bad enough, but now I have to tell you all that I went on a binge tonight after my post. I really didn't want to write it :(  but I'm nothing if not honest, and so I have to. ALSO, I want it to be all done with tonight, so I can start over tomorrow. Today is the first time I just kept eating like that since 2009, and then it just got worse! After the post, I ate a bowl of Taco salad, with all the junk (cheese, sour cream, ect. and tortilla chips)and NO salad.  A good size bowl too. THEN I had a giant bowl of sugary cereal! I am so mad at myself, I feel like I let myself down, not to mention anyone reading this!!! So here is what I had after my post:
Bowl of Taco meat, beans, tortilla chips, cheddar, sour cream, and salsa.
large bowl of peanut butter/chocolate puff cereal with FF skim milk
My Total calories are well over 3000 for today
Water for the whole day: 34 oz
Thank you Tessa for your comment earlier, it makes me feel better knowing people care, even if you didn't know how bad I messed up yet! Now my Wednesday is over. Definitely my worst day since my weight loss journey started.

Think Spring!

Happy St Patrick's Day!
My son got home from school today and told me he saw a Robin. :) The first signs of spring! It is so nice and sunny today, I wish everyday could be like this. It got to about 63 degrees and it's beautiful, BUT this is Michigan and they are calling for snow over the weekend. Boo hoo. Hopefully they are wrong!

I have to tell you, I think a key part in my weight loss is going to bed at night and staying on some kind of schedule(which can be very hard for me). Most of my over eating used to happen at night when I was the only one up. Well- last night I stayed up WAY to late. I ended up hungry, and had a big bowl of cereal, which wasn't sooo bad. But then I grabbed an apple fruit pie... NOT a good thing. I took a couple bites and thought "What am I doing??? I have to write this down on my blog, I'm in a weight loss challenge... WHAT am I doing?" so I put it back in the box and in the fridge :) Damage was already done, but 1/3 of the thing is better then all of it...

Today I hurt myself :( Not from walking, crunches, or even housework. All I did was turn to hit the light switch, and that did it. Ever since, if I turn wrong or bend at all it shoots a pain up my back. My fiance thinks it is a pinched nerve, I don't know- I just hope it goes away FAST. I'm probably going to be able to walk the treadmill, but crunches are out for today (those didn't last long LOL)

Here's My Day:
Snack @1:15am: (488) about 1 1/2 cups of Special K- Vanilla Almond with 1 1/2 cups FF skim milk, and 1/3 Apple Fruit Pie (those single serving empanada shaped things)
Breakfast: Nothing
Drink: (85) 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Lunch: (391) Tuna Sandwich (1 can, 1tbs miracle whip, 1/8 cup cheddar, hot pepper rings) on whole wheat toast, 6 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (55) small apple
Dinner: (1230) 2 'double decker' style tacos(tortilla, hard shell, cheese, salsa, beans) with 1 tbs sour cream. 1/4 cup re fried beans, 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Snack: (370) 6 tortilla chips w leftover taco meat, beans and salsa. 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Total Water Today: Only 22 oz so far, will try to drink more though
Total Calories Today: 2619
Oh wow, I really messed up with the tacos. I have no reason or excuses- I just totally went overboard. Way Over Board. Ugh. I have to get back to my JUST ONE rule- which I haven't followed in a few weeks it seems like. Then to top it off, I had it for snack too.... Uggghhhh. And a can and a 1/2 of Mtn Dew! That is the most I've had in a day since 2009!!! UGHHHHH! It's seems like I have been messing up ALL the time, like every day... UUUGGGGHHHHHHH. I had such a nice day, then completely ruined it... not a great way to start off a weight loss challenge, that's for sure!!!
Treadmill: 20 minutes (.68 mile)

OOPS! Sorry Tessa. I've been staying up way to late, and it looks like last nights post was 6 minutes TO late lol. You made sense- :) I know what you mean.
It says the time at the bottom, in case I confuse you. BUT it shouldn't be a problem- I will definitely try and post earlier for you. It will be better for me too, since staying up to late messes up my whole system anyway! Sorry about that.

79 Minute Biggest Looser Walk

First- I want to thank Barbara and Asphyxiated Emancipation for joining me in My Day! I'm so glad you joined Tessa's challenge. I think it will really motivate us :) This is gonna be fun!

Today my fiance and I were out and about, and ended at the drive through at Arby's and I got a sub.(It's just so hard to pass up those subs when they are on sale for $2) but JUST a sub. This is the first time EVER I went to Arby's and didn't get a jamocha shake. I was thinking about how awful I felt the other night, and it wasn't hard to say no.
I definitely didn't do great on the snack either- and broke whatever small "no pop" streak I had going there... grrrr.

Today is Tuesday, Biggest Looser Day. I watch The Biggest Looser and walk on the treadmill as long as I can. Last week was my longest EVER at 78 minutes. I would love to be able to do that again, even one minute more would make today the longest EVER lol :)
I better start doing crunches again too...
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (210) 3/4 cup of Special K- Fruit & Yogurt with 1 cup FF skim milk
Lunch: (570) Arby's turkey bacon club sub
Snack: (361) 6 pizza rolls, 6 baby carrots, 1 tbs light ranch 1/2 can of Mt Dew
Snack: (90) Special K Bar- vanilla crisp
Dinner: (675) 2 servings of Creamy Broccoli Tuna Helper, 1 slice of whole wheat toast with Tiny bit of FF ICBINB, about 1/2 tbs Parmesan, 1 cup of FF skim milk (i really didn't need 2 servings...)
Snack: (60) 1/2 cup grapes
Total Water Today: 56 oz
Total Calories Today: 1966
I just finished the seedless red grapes. I forgot how good those are!
Treadmill: 79 minutes (2.56 miles)
Crunches: 100 (5 sets of 20)
Walking was a challenge today lol. As I was getting on the treadmill my son makes me get off and come look- one of the fish I just bought was evidently pregnant, and the tiniest little babies were in the tank. So of course he wants me to get them out so they don't get eaten... so after 10 minutes I saved TWO lol. Then I get on the treadmill and feel GREAT and have to get off at 46 minutes for a potty break. But I really wanted to do that 79 minutes so I got back on and finished the 53 minuites. Not the 79 minutes non stop, but I'll take it :)

Maybe the Buffet wasn't the Best Idea

This is one of my cats, her name is Gza, and she also has a bit of a weight problem. She got on the new scale today and weighs 14 pounds... she looks like she ate at that buffet too!

So Today was Monday and the dreaded weekend is over... but I had a huge challenge. I went to our FAVORITE restaurant. It's a Chinese place called Abacus and we got the buffet. I don't have any good news about it... just that it was delicious...

It's hard to believe but I actually did do better then my usual- but still NOT GOOD at all. It is just sooo good. Even though I did smaller portions, I guess I didn't do well controlling myself. It took me FOR EVER to figure out the calories... and I'm still not sure how close I am... but I searched the Internet and found the closest dishes i could, (mostly the same things- just different Chinese places) and did the best I could... and it's not pretty! But to be honest- I enjoyed the meal, and went on to have a great rest of the day.

My fiance, my son and I went to the store. Most of the bills are all payed up so we did a little shopping :) Among other things, I invested in my weight loss by getting a scale for my food like Tessa was telling me about some time ago. This will help a lot with counting calories. I also finally got a digital scale! I'm pretty happy about that... NOT happy that is shows me 3 LBS heavier then my old one, but oh well :) I'm sure it is accurate. Now there will be a decimal in my weight! Wooo Hooo!!!! haha.

Here's My Day:

Breakfast: (110) 8 oz orange juice

Lunch: (1596) Abacus Buffet- 2 plates, all together consisting of (my best estimating) 1 cup of egg fried rice w veggies, 8 small battered chicken pieces with sesame chicken sauce, 1/2 cup of broccoli chicken, 1/8 cup of Mongolian beef w onions and peppers, 1 meatball, 5 crab rangoon w 3 tbs sweet and sour, 1 egg role, water... AND A PARTRIDGE IN A PAIR TREE (lol not really)

Dinner: (330) Romain and spinach salad with 1 1/2 tbs ranch, 1/8 cup cheddar, 3 tbls croutons. 2 bite size pizza rolls, 1 cup FF skim milk.

Total Water Today: 46 oz (that food makes me SO thirsty)

Total Calories Today: 2036

So not the BEST start for Tessa's challenge... but it's ok. Surprisingly I did stay right around the 2000 mark (because I was full and didn't really eat much else!) I'm very exited and motivated to do better :) I am not mad at myself... but it might be a good idea to stay away from there until I really DO have my eating better under control...

Treadmill: 20 minutes (.67 mile)

Well... Maybe I shouldn't have posted that picture of Gza... she looks embarrassed...

WTF is Wrong with Me?!?

My Day started of great. I didn't make the best choice for lunch, but I was still fine. I actually put on a bra from the back of my drawer (because it no longer fit around me)- and it fit!!!! I couldn't believe it!!! I was SO happy! Then I came across Tessa's Challenge, and I was even more determined to start off this week right and really get going! I was on top of the world!!! My son and I did a little running and went to the pet store and I got a light for one of my aquariums that I have needed for months. I even got us a new fish. I was in a very good mood. We were running a little late so I stopped at Arby's. I thought I was doing good by only getting one sub and a TINY shake... but then I got home and ate it... I realized "What am I doing???" and it all went down from there...
Even though I had been on top of the world, I had got fast food anyway, knowing I shouldn't. Even though I looked at it and didn't want it, I ate it and felt guilty the whole time. Then I said Screw it i already messed up- and had a 400 calorie pie thing... My good mood- GONE. My motivation- GONE.
What is wrong with me? My Mom likes to tell me I'm bipolar (yeah, nice right?) and I always deny it. But it's times like today that I wonder. I mean my mood went STRAIGHT down.
But we all have bad days, and I really think it was just the guilt and the disappointment in myself... I had been SO exited and then- POOF I ruined it. Oh and if my mood wasn't bad enough, I felt SICK. I mean really sick, and nauseous. I don't know if it was all the sugar, or because I didn't have CLOSE to the amount of water I usually have, or both. I had a piece of bread and milk hoping it would help...  Right now the thought of pies, or shakes or even pizza sounds just disgusting! I can't believe I just wrote that, but it's true! If I could keep those thoughts after tonight- it would be a miracle!
Even though I felt so horrible physically AND mentally, I said I would do the treadmill no matter what. If it weren't for this blog- I would NOT have. So I dragged myself onto it to do the 20 minutes I promised myself. I also drank about 10 oz of water, and guess what... I felt better! I got to 20 minutes and felt good so I did 30 :) I'm so glad I got on it. right now my stomach feels sick again, but emotionally I am good. I am ready to get back on track AND take on Tessa's challenge :)

Tomorrow is going to be a huge test. My fiance and I are going out to lunch with his mom. We are going to out FAVORITE place, which is a buffet... Scary right? At this moment, I don't even want to go. But in the morning when I don't feel sick, I will probably want it and my new problem will be controlling myself... What I usually have is: 2 plates PLUS 2 egg roles and 5 or 6 crab Rangoon... Now, I KNOW I can't eat even close to that much... I am going to have to concentrate really hard to try and do good tomorrow.... I will think of my blog and how I will have to write down everything I eat... I will think of Tessa's challenge... I will think of how sick I feel at this moment.... Yes- I can do this!!! I can go to my favorite restaurant and control myself!!!! Right?????????
Oh wow... Sorry for rambling on so much....

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing (got up pretty late today)
Lunch: (761) 1 piece of leftover pizza, 2 small cheese sticks, Water
Snack: (230) Fiber One Bar- Chocolate Mocha and 1 cup of FF Skim Milk
Dinner: (805) Arby's- Turkey Bacon Club Sub, 1/2 a Value size Jamocha Shake (smaller then a small?)
Dessert: (635) other 1/2 of shake and an apple pie
Snack: (145) 1 slice of whole wheat bread with a tiny bit of FF ICBINB and 1 cup of FF skim milk
Total Water for Today: 22 oz (try to get another 6 before I go to bed)
Total Calories Today: 2576 UGH!

Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile)

Tessa's Challenge

For anyone who might be reading this, I just wanted to tell you that Tessa is having a challenge, loose 24.75 pounds. It starts tomorrow, ends May 31st. You have to go over to her Blog TODAY to join in the fun :) Oh, did I mention it is for $100? Her blog link is over there in my blogs, It's called: Dance Like There's No Tomorrow. Or click her in my "followers" Hurry! lol, I'll be back tonight for my regular post!

Why couldn't Weigh In be TODAY?

What a nice surprise!!! I logged on and saw something different today: Margie M's picture!!! I want to Thank You Margie, for "following" me on My Day! I have 3 people encouraging me now, which is 3 more then I expected! lol.

Ok, why the title of today's post you ask? Well, I felt bloated and just... heavy yesterday. I didn't think to much of it UNTIL today, when I didn't feel that way anymore... so I got on the scale and it was down another 2 LBS! What's up with that??? So if weigh in would have been TODAY I would have been down 3 pounds... ah well. I'll keep it how it is, officially weighing 296. Weigh in IS Friday after all... not what ever day looks good (i guess... LOL). As long as I do well this week, I will have a nice number for sure on Friday! I can't wait!!!

It's been a whole week of counting calories and I'm still at it! I think I will stick with it. Thanks Tessa!
I looked it up, and someone my size would have to have over 2500 a day to stay at the same weight, so I will definitely keep that in mind. I will be happy with myself if I get right around 2000 for now. If I get less-great!!! I am still not going to commit to a certain number yet... as of now I have lost weight almost every week... so I'm just going to stick( I should say "get back:") with my plan and eat smaller portions, eat only when hungry, and add healthier things to my diet. But- Even though I'm not always hungry in the morning, I will try really hard to have SOMETHING for breakfast. All that along with walking on the treadmill everyday.
Just doing better with my portions should really help a lot- I'm going to really try and get that under control... You know, just a bite of something is enough sometimes. I have to remember that.

Here's My Day:
Snack@ 4am: (200) Bowl of MultiGrain Cheerios with FF skim milk
Breakfast: (860) McDonalds- 1 egg McMuffin, a medium Mocha Frappe
Lunch: (296) Tuna Sandwich (1/2 tbs miracle whip, 1/8 cup cheddar, 1/2 can tuna) on Whole Wheat toast with hot banana pepper rings. 6 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch.
Snack: (100) Special K Strawberry Fruit Crisps
Dinner: (387) Chicken, carrots cooked with about 1/4 tbs honey, 1/3 cup of chicken noodles, 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (330) Large bowl (1 1/2 cups) of Honey Bunches of Oats- Strawberries with 1 cup FF skim milk
Total Water Today: 41 oz
Total Calories Today: 2173
Oh my goodness! 560 calories in that medium frappe!!! Those are one of my FAVORITE things... I hardly ever get one... which is a good thing I guess!!!!

Treadmill: 20 minutes (.67 mile) 5 minutes of that carrying 2 LB weights. -I forgot to write that I did that yesterday too :)

Time for the WEIGH IN...

The scale says... 296!!! That's another pound :) I am very happy with that. I am now down 21 pounds total. I really feel like I lucked out this time, I didn't expect to loose. I know I am working hard, I have been on the treadmill every day for over 2 weeks now... but at the same time, my eating has gotten worse lately. WAY BETTER then before 2010... but that just isn't enough. I can't keep making the excuse that it is better then pre- 2010, I need to do better with eating- PERIOD. That includes today.
I am SUPER happy though :) I'm glad my work is showing, even if it's only a little at a time. Once I get my eating under control, it will be a little more at a time! Slowly but surely is fine with me, but a little faster would be fine too LOL.  :) I would be thrilled with 2 pounds a week...or 2.5... yeah :)

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: (1497 Holy Crap) Ordered Pizza-  2 pieces of pepperoni and mushroom, 4 small cheese sticks, 1/2 container of pizza sauce, 1 honey BBQ chicken piece. Water
Snack: (170) 1/2 cup of ice cream
Dinner: (190) Large Romaine Spinach Salad with 1/8 cup cheddar, 2 tbs light ranch, 3 tbs croutons, 5 grape tomatoes. Water
Snack: (200) Bowl of Special K-Vanilla Almond with skim milk
Snack: little piece of an apple
Total Water Today: 48oz
Total Calories Today: 2057

Treadmill: 20 minutes (.67 mile) 5 minutes of that with 2 LB weights
For the past 2 weeks I was on the treadmill NO MATTER WHAT even if only for 15 minutes. I think I can up it to "No Matter What- even if it's only 20 MINUTES" :) We'll see, I am going to try my hardest and I am pretty sure I can do it!!!

To nice out for a Headache!

It's a beautiful day here in Michigan. It rained a little bit, but that just helped take more snow away! It's 54 right now and feels so nice. I HOPE winter is about over, I'm sick of it! 54 degrees... it has to be over right?!?

Even though it was so nice today, I had a headache for all of it. I'm just now feeling better. I get headaches quite often :( and it is always different. Sometimes I don't want to eat at all, sometimes I feel like I'm starving! Today was one of those. I was hungry ALL DAY! No matter what I ate, I still felt hungry and unsatisfied. I was CRAVING one of those Hostess chocolate pies... if my head didn't hurt so bad I would have went out to hunt one down! But over all I guess I did OK today. Definitely didn't do well with the portions, but I did ok considering. I would have ate even more, but I kept thinking that tomorrow is weigh in day and I REALLY don't want to gain!!! I also keep telling myself my brain must be confused because of the head ache... and I'm not really even hungry, it just FEELS like I am...

Here's My Day
Breakfast: (535)2 eggs, salsa, 1/8 cup cheddar, 1slice of whole wheat toast, tiny bit of FF ICBINB, 1 sausage patty, and 1 cup of FF skim milk.
Snack: (340) 1 cup of Ice cream (Mint Meltaway)
Lunch: (575) Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat toast with 1 tbs miracle whip, 1/4 cup cheddar and banana peppers. 1/2 cup baked beans, 5 baby carrots with 1 tbs light ranch
Snack: (310) Large bowl (about 2 cups) of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1 cup FF skim milk
Dinner: (747) 2 small chicken Tacos, 7 onion rings, 5 fries, 1 tbs ketchup, Water.
Snack: (40) 1/2 an Orange
Total Water Today: 46 oz
Total Calories Today: 2547
I guess I didn't do as well as I thought!!!! I really didn't realize I ate so much!!!  :(   I have a feeling my luck will run out and I'm going to gain tomorrow :(

Treadmill: 20 minutes (.67 mile)

Here are my Totals for this week:
Treadmill: 3 hours 28 minutes (6.84 miles)
Not to bad :) I hope it helps me when I weigh in tomorrow... but I don't know... I kinda doubt it....

There's a bone there!

Well, I have to tell you, I am SO shocked that I am seeing changes already. 20 pounds is a lot of weight, but for someone like me who has SOO much to loose, I just can't believe I'm seeing any results yet! (It must be the Treadmill, I have never exercised like this IN MY LIFE.) So, they aren't huge, but they are definitely changes. Some might be on the "Tina- that is TO MUCH information" list LOL. But I wanted to share this one...
Ok, so you know your collar bone? Well- I don't lol. I couldn't really feel it (and definitely not see it.) BUT I can now! I reached up to scratch my shoulder and thought- hmmm, that feels smaller! As I was pulling my hand away I felt it! My collar bone! Hahaha, I probably sound like a crazy woman, but I am very happy about this LOL. I even made the fiance come feel it LOL. Before he felt it he said he could see it. (I can't, but soon!) I think it was just the boost I needed :)

It's day 4 of counting calories, and I'm still at it! I am very happy I found that site- http://caloriecount.about.com/ You can sign up and do stuff on that site, but it was confusing me today... So I'll just continue using it to find out the calories for items I can't figure out myself (because they aren't marked, are fast food, ect.) and maybe some recipes...

Here's my Day:
Breakfast: (260) Fiber One Bar- Chocolate Mocha, 1 cup of 2% milk
Lunch: (470) Left over chicken potato stuff with 1/3 cup white rice, 1 slice of Whole Wheat Bread, 1 cup FF Skim Milk
Snack: (170) 1/2 cup of Ice Cream (Deans Mint Meltaway)
Drink: (110) 8 oz of V8 Fusion- Acai Mixed Berry
Dinner: (529) 1 cup of Tuna Helper, 1 slice of Whole Wheat bread w/tiny bit of Fat free ICBINB and parmesan, Spinach and Romain salad with croutons, 1/8 cup cheddar and 1 tbs light ranch, 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (310) about 1 1/2 cups of Special K Vanilla Almond with 1 cup FF skim milk
Total Water: 39 oz
Total Calories Today: 1849

Treadmill: 20 minutes (.67 miles)

There is room for improvement, but over all I am happy with how I did today :)

Oh! I wanted to correct something I wrote the other day. I was so exited about loosing 20 pounds and I compared it to gallons of milk. I thought they weighed 5 pounds, but I was wrong. They weigh more like 8 pounds. Sorry about that! So it's still like walking around with 2 and a half gallons of milk all day :) Not quite the 4 I thought- but I'm still just as happy about it LOL.

What was I THINKING!

I actually had a pretty good day, so lets get the bad stuff out of the way!
Today is the 4th day in a row I have had Mtn Dew... It is so hard to resist sometimes, it is ALWAYS in the house... but no matter! Tomorrow it is back to NO POP!

My eating today was bad... I didn't even want to write about the snack... the other day I even wrote I had to throw that macaroni salad away or I would eat it even though I didn't even like it!!! WELL, I put it in the fridge until I was ready to take out the trash- BIG MISTAKE. I went to the fridge (where there are delicious good for me fruits) and there it was. What would go good with that? potato chips... UGH!!! What was I thinking!?!?! At least I measured it out so I could count the calories instead of eating straight out of the container/bag. BUT I felt so horrible after I ate it, I threw it in the trash. Half the container still full- that is a big step for me...
So then we ordered inn. Usually I wouldn't be SO mad at myself since it was an improvement from before 2010... but it really is WAY to much food!  and oh my goodness the calories!!! On top of not needing to eat all that, (I was full), now I see how many calories were in it! OMG! Yeah, I'm embarrassed. BUT I said I would always be honest so I'm posting it anyway... as always...

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (185) Fiber One Bar- chocolate mocha, 1/2 cup of FF Skim Milk
Lunch: (263) Leftover potato/chicken in tomato sauce w/ 1/2 cup of white rice. 1 cup of 2% milk
Snack: (34) 1 bite of ice cream- Dean's Mint Meltaway
Snack: (575) 1/2 cup macaroni salad. 11 sour cream and cheddar potato chips. 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Dinner: (1252) Hungry Howie's- 1/2 Turkey Club Sub with 1 packet of mayo. 1 small piece of pepperoni pizza, 4 cheese sticks, 1.5 oz sauce, 1 cup of Mtn Dew.
Total Calories Today: 2309
Total Water Today: 50 oz

Oh good, that's out of the way...
Now to a little good news. Today was Biggest Looser Day, and I always try to stay on the treadmill as long as I can stand while watching it. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do my hour, since we had Hungry Howie's, but I did! In fact, I got to the hour and I felt pretty good, so I went a little farther! I did an hour and 18 minutes! That's the longest I've EVER been on the treadmill!!!! SO even though I made mistakes today, I ended it on a good note and feel great. I only have 3 days and it will be weigh in, so I need to get back on track tomorrow and stop this over eating nonsense!!!!! Now all I have to do is ignore the leftovers calling me from the fridge...
Treadmill: 78 minutes (2.5 miles) Yeah Baby!

TGIM

The weekend is over, and it's time to get back on track! It's funny how hard the weekend is... I still look forward to it, but know it's going to be a challenge. Hopefully I tackle the challenge better next weekend! Oh, and I know it hasn't been JUST the weekend. I haven't been doing so well with eating lately... I guess the fact that I am loosing weight in spite of how I have been eating, shows you how bad it USED to be!!! It might be hard to believe for some people, but I have improved a lot! But like I said- Time to get back on track!

It's day 2 of counting calories and I'm still doing it lol. It isn't as hard as I thought it would be! I can see that I will definitely have to check into that scale if I'm going to continue with this, that would make it even easier :)

Here's My Day:
Snack @4am: (200 Calories) 1 cup of MultiGrain Cheerios with 1 cup FF Skim Milk
Breakfast: (335 Calories) 1/2 a bagel with about 1.5 oz cream cheese. 4 oz orange juice.
Lunch: (290) Large Spinach and Romaine Salad with 2 tbs light ranch, croutons, 5 grape tomatoes, 1/4 cup cheddar. Water
Drink: (85) 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Dinner: (660) potatoes&chicken simmered in Natural tomato sauce, 1 cup of white rice, 1 cup of FF skim milk
Snack: (85) 1/4 cup (about 2.5 bites lol) Deans Mint Melt away ice cream 1/2 cup FF Skim Milk
Total Water Today: 40 oz
Total Calories Today: 1655

Treadmill: 15 minutes (1/2 mile)
I did ok today. I over ate for dinner though and I am paying for it :(  It was so hard for me to get that 15 minutes done on the treadmill, because I am full. Tomorrow is Biggest Looser Day and I hope to do another hour while watching it... but I sure wouldn't be able to do it in this condition!!! I hate being full now! I have to remember how crappy this feels BEFORE I eat it all huh...

Counting Calories

This morning I woke up starving. WHY? I ate like a pig yesterday and I shouldn't have been hungry at all right. Well I was. My fiance made us breakfast and I asked for ONE of everything but of course he made me 2... Why? I don't have a clue. But you guessed it- I ate both eggs and 2 pieces of toast anyway! Ugh.

Even though I have not been doing great with my eating lately, including today- I am not going to let that get me down. I am going to make the best of the rest of my day, and stop eating so much RIGHT NOW! Tomorrow will be better :)

I don't count calories, but maybe I should start... I just don't know if it's something I will stick to... but I'll try it out. Maybe I'll do it this week and see how it goes, no promises though! I am NOT a quitter, but here's a heads up- if I find this to be to much, I won't keep doing it lol. It doesn't fit into my baby steps, trying to change a little at a time, but I will give it a try- maybe it won't be as difficult as I think! :) I'm not setting a certain calorie goal, like trying to stay within a certain range or trying to get down to 1500 a day, because I would NEVER stick with it... not now anyway. It is mostly because I am curious about how much I am actually consuming. Wish me luck! lol.

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (600 Calories) 2 eggs, 1 sausage patty, 2 slices of Whole Wheat Toast, about 1 tbs butter, about 8 oz of Orange Juice.
Snack: (34 calories) 1 bite of ice cream- Deans Fanny May Mint Melt away
Lunch: (649 calories) A spinach and Romain Salad with 4 grape tomatoes, 1/4 cup of cheddar, 1 tbs light ranch, 8 croutons. 1 small piece of leftover BBQ chicken pizza, 1/2 a bread stick, 1/2 can Mtn Dew.
Dinner: (977 calories) Cheeseburger with bun, olives, natural ketchup, and lettuce. 1/2 cup baked beans, 1/2 cup of macaroni salad, sour cream & cheddar chips, Water
Snack: (170) 1/2 cup of Mint Melt away ice cream
Total Calories For Today: 2430
Total Water for Today: 58 oz

Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile)
Well, I learned a couple things already! I always count my croutons, but the calories are based on tbs... AS IF croutons fit in a tablespoon!!! Macaroni salad has 330 calories per 1/2 cup, and I didn't even like it! So I'm going to throw it out, since no one else eats it. (If I don't throw it out RIGHT NOW I will end up eating it so it doesn't go to waste!)The good things I learned are: A serving of ranch is 2 tbs so I have been having 1/2 the calories I thought I was with that. Also, My wheat bread is 110 calories per 2 slices, so that is half the calories I thought it was too! So that's cool. I will have to fix yesterday's post if I wrote 110 calories per slice...
To make it easier for myself, i am making a list. Everything I find the calories for, is on my list so I will have it right in front of me :) Also I found a Calorie Counter Database http://caloriecount.about.com/ and that will really help me with this. It didn't have Vitale's... but it does have a lot! Maybe this counting calories stuff won't be so bad :)

Whole Wheat Bread

Well... I bought some whole wheat bread yesterday. I've always heard it is so much better for you, and notice that on the blogs I read- that is what most people are eating. BUT... I don't like it. I will go through the loaf and hopefully get used to it.
I have a question: Is it really that much better for you??? I was holding the two loafs side by side in the grocery store, and the difference wasn't as drastic as I thought it would be... and the white bread seemed to have more nutrients... Did I get the wrong kind? Is there a certain kind any of you prefer? I bought Wonder Soft 100% Whole Wheat bread. 110 calories, 1.5 grams of fat... I picked it because it doesn't look to grainy like some I've had in the past. My son hates it LOL. I thought if I just made it and gave it to him he wouldn't notice. I guess he's to old for that trick because he sure did notice!!!! lol.

You'll see that I had a bagel this morning. I know that they are bad, but I saw them in the store and had to have them! lol. I do feel guilty now though, thinking "why buy whole wheat bread and turn around and eat a bagel???" Doesn't make much sense huh... But you know I am AGAINST depriving myself of things I love, so next time I am going to eat only HALF the bagel.

It's the weekend, which is always hard. My son has left for the night- so it's even harder!!! I have really been trying to watch what I eat in front of him (because I am making him eat more fruits and veggies, so I can't be eating junk in front of him! lol) so with him gone... it is going to be even worse then usual tonight!!!! I will try to keep my self under control. For the last 2 days I have been craving both sweets and salty stuff like chips. I usually don't CRAVE like this (except for tuna sandwiches lol) so that sucks. I'll have to try extra hard to get through today!

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: 1 Bagel with about 1 1/2 tbs cream cheese. about 8 oz of orange juice
Lunch: Spinach/Romain salad with about 1/4 cup of cheddar, 1 tbs light ranch, 10 croutons. A chimichanga and 5 tortilla chips with about 1/4 cup of cheddar and salsa. Water
Snack: about 1 cup of ice cream
Drink: about 8 oz of V8 Fusion- Acai Mixed Berry
Snack: 9 Lay's cheddar&sour cream chips
Dinner: Ordered Vitale's- 2 large slices of BBQ Chicken Pizza, 1 small slice, 2 bread sticks, about 2 tbs sauce, 1/2 can Mtn Dew
Total Water Today: 30 oz
UGH! Why did I eat all that?!?!?!? My stomach is definitely stretched back out some, because Even though I ate all that for dinner, I wasn't even stuffed- a couple weeks ago I would have been!!! BBQ chicken pizza from there used to be my favorite thing to order, but I honestly didn't even like it... yet I ate all that anyway... UGH!!!
Treadmill: 15 minutes (1/2 mile)