My Day started of great. I didn't make the best choice for lunch, but I was still fine. I actually put on a bra from the back of my drawer (because it no longer fit around me)- and it fit!!!! I couldn't believe it!!! I was SO happy! Then I came across Tessa's Challenge, and I was even more determined to start off this week right and really get going! I was on top of the world!!! My son and I did a little running and went to the pet store and I got a light for one of my aquariums that I have needed for months. I even got us a new fish. I was in a very good mood. We were running a little late so I stopped at Arby's. I thought I was doing good by only getting one sub and a TINY shake... but then I got home and ate it... I realized "What am I doing???" and it all went down from there...
Even though I had been on top of the world, I had got fast food anyway, knowing I shouldn't. Even though I looked at it and didn't want it, I ate it and felt guilty the whole time. Then I said Screw it i already messed up- and had a 400 calorie pie thing... My good mood- GONE. My motivation- GONE.
What is wrong with me? My Mom likes to tell me I'm bipolar (yeah, nice right?) and I always deny it. But it's times like today that I wonder. I mean my mood went STRAIGHT down.
But we all have bad days, and I really think it was just the guilt and the disappointment in myself... I had been SO exited and then- POOF I ruined it. Oh and if my mood wasn't bad enough, I felt SICK. I mean really sick, and nauseous. I don't know if it was all the sugar, or because I didn't have CLOSE to the amount of water I usually have, or both. I had a piece of bread and milk hoping it would help... Right now the thought of pies, or shakes or even pizza sounds just disgusting! I can't believe I just wrote that, but it's true! If I could keep those thoughts after tonight- it would be a miracle!
Even though I felt so horrible physically AND mentally, I said I would do the treadmill no matter what. If it weren't for this blog- I would NOT have. So I dragged myself onto it to do the 20 minutes I promised myself. I also drank about 10 oz of water, and guess what... I felt better! I got to 20 minutes and felt good so I did 30 :) I'm so glad I got on it. right now my stomach feels sick again, but emotionally I am good. I am ready to get back on track AND take on Tessa's challenge :)
Tomorrow is going to be a huge test. My fiance and I are going out to lunch with his mom. We are going to out FAVORITE place, which is a buffet... Scary right? At this moment, I don't even want to go. But in the morning when I don't feel sick, I will probably want it and my new problem will be controlling myself... What I usually have is: 2 plates PLUS 2 egg roles and 5 or 6 crab Rangoon... Now, I KNOW I can't eat even close to that much... I am going to have to concentrate really hard to try and do good tomorrow.... I will think of my blog and how I will have to write down everything I eat... I will think of Tessa's challenge... I will think of how sick I feel at this moment.... Yes- I can do this!!! I can go to my favorite restaurant and control myself!!!! Right?????????
Oh wow... Sorry for rambling on so much....
Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing (got up pretty late today)
Lunch: (761) 1 piece of leftover pizza, 2 small cheese sticks, Water
Snack: (230) Fiber One Bar- Chocolate Mocha and 1 cup of FF Skim Milk
Dinner: (805) Arby's- Turkey Bacon Club Sub, 1/2 a Value size Jamocha Shake (smaller then a small?)
Dessert: (635) other 1/2 of shake and an apple pie
Snack: (145) 1 slice of whole wheat bread with a tiny bit of FF ICBINB and 1 cup of FF skim milk
Total Water for Today: 22 oz (try to get another 6 before I go to bed)
Total Calories Today: 2576 UGH!
Treadmill: 30 minutes (1 mile)
dumb and dumber
16 hours ago
hey tina, sorry about your day not going well...heh...mine went eXACTLY the same way. how weird is that! Plus, the whole, "since I already ate one bad thing I might as well eat everything I've been denying myself" feeling is totally one I am familiar with! Apparently it visits me every two week! ugh. heh. I'm glad this blog helped you stay motivated to get on the treadmill. I hope that you have a lot of success tomorrow at the buffet.
ReplyDeletejenny :)
Good morning Tina, and welcome to my challenge. We all have bad days but the way I look at it is if they are fewer than the good days, we are making progress. Buffets are murder on people with a weight problem and I wish you well with it. I avoid them like the plague because even though I tell myself that I won't overeat, I always do. Personally I think they should be outlawed, that way the temptation would not be there. Have a freat day and will check in on you later.
ReplyDeleteThank you both :)
ReplyDeleteToday I am feeling much better, but I don't have good news about the buffet. While I did a LITTLE better, it was still bad...