Thank You

I want to acknowledge another new follower! V-Dizzle thank you for joining me in My Day! It surprises (and delights) me when that little number goes up one lol. I really appreciate all who are supporting me in my journey :)
Speaking of new followers, Tricia joined My Day yesterday. I swung over to her blog and she is actually in a blogger contest. It only takes 1 minute. If you can- help her out :) Here's a link to her post about it.
http://enduranceisntonlyphysical.blogspot.com/2010/04/pledge-for-better-health-and-giveaway.html
follow her instructions (it's so simple) all you do is make a pledge. My pledge is to walk at LEAST 7 miles every week. That is an average of 1 mile per day (less if I keep up the 3 miles on Tuesdays!) Not only will it help her out, but the pledge we make is great motivation also!!!

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: (180) Bagel THIN with 1/3 less fat cream cheese
Lunch: (200) 1 cup taco soup, 1 cup FF skim milk (I'm not sure of the calories, next time I make it I will measure it all and find out the exact calories per cup and record it on the recipe)
Dinner: (1104) Chicken Wrap, 17 french fries, 2 tbs natural ketchup, 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (330) about 2 cups of Honey Smacks with about 1 1/2 cups FF skim milk
Drink: (200) 9.5 oz Beamount Iced Coffee- french vanilla
Snack: (17) 1 cracker
Total Water: 35 oz
Total Calories: 2031
I knew we where having the wraps for dinner, so I tried to eat lighter the rest of the day. Definitely room for improvement! I did NOT need the giant bowl of cereal for one thing! I would like to start making chicken wraps healthier, these are Ray's chicken wraps- DELICOUS but not healthy. He melted about a cup of cheese on my tortilla for one thing!!! lol, I let him know that's to much for me now though :)

Treadmill: 22 minutes/ .73 mile

Before I go, I have to thank you Asphyxiated Emancipation and Tessa for your comments. I really do feel like I have support and it pushes me to do better. Thank you both.

AE asked if I sabotage myself, because deep down I don't think I deserve this. Deserve to be healthy and to have a better life. At first it was an automatic NO- that's not it... But I have thought about it today and I don't know for sure... In the past, why have I let it get so out of control? DID I subconsciously sabotage myself??? I think the answer might be yes... The more I thought about it, the more clear it became... I never stuck with loosing weight, and gained so many unhealthy eating habits, and never changed them... I WAS sabotaging myself... I don't think it was because I believed I didn't deserve better, I think it was because I just didn't have the confidence that I could do anything about it. I didn't have any support, I didn't have the will power... I just thought I wasn't strong enough to change. So I would just say "Why bother." BUT that's the old me.

This is the new me, and I am still sabatoging myself... now it's because of habit, and an addicton to fast food... but that is going to stop! Even though I fell off the wagon this last week... I still want this SO bad... So I got RIGHT back on... I have the support of my fiance this time, AND the people that support me here. I do not feel so alone in my struggle because I have you to go through it with. I have the support and knowledge that others are struggling just like I am, and getting through it! I have motivation! This time I KNOW I can do this, and I will not let anything, even deep down within myself, tell me otherwise.

I know I deserve this. And my fiance deserves to be able to be proud of me. Most important my son deserves a healthy mother that will be there for him. It will be a long journey full of ups and downs but I CAN do it, and I WILL.