Thursday, April 8, 2010

ugh... whatever

Well, me and my mom got into it a little today. She is such a trip... it is just crazy the way she sees things. On top of it I ran into my youngest brother at the store and he was mad at me too! Since he is mad at me, the whole trailer is probably mad at me! (my mom, her boy friend, my brother all live with my youngest brother) He texted me to say he was sorry, haven't spoken to my mom though. Whatever, it's better this way because if I did, I would tell her off and it would be even worse then it already is... I'm sorry, I just think my son deserves a grandparent that gives a damn... that's just me I guess.... when she is done being mad, she will call and no matter what day or time I will be expected to drop everything and bring my son to see her... who cares if we have plans or are busy... whatever. And NO WAY she could come over here and see him... my house is to stable and maybe the clean air without all the smoke is just to much for her... ugh WHATEVER.
So I am VERY stressed out. Usually stress makes me just give in to whatever I want, and say "who cares" and I did do that a little... but I controlled my portions ok. Of course it could have been better, but it could have been worse too...

Here's My Day:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: (630) stuffed chicken- asparagus, 1 cup of broccoli cheese rice (packaged), 1 cup FF skim milk
Snack: (230) 3 store brand oreos 1 cup FF skim milk
Dinner: (610) Papa Murphy's- 1 large slice of Italian gourmet, 1 med slice of pepperoni, Water
Snack: (257) 1 cup of lucky charms with 1 cup 2% milk
Total Water: 34 oz
Total Calories: 1727
I had a hard time resisting more pizza, but I did it. I just kept thinking about weighing in tomorrow... I may have gained anyway, it's ok. I'm glad I didn't eat anymore :) I am having a hard time with sugary cereal lately! I was doing so good with that! I really messed up a lot this week, and I fear it will show on the scale... of course I am hoping to luck out yet again... but this time my luck might have really run out!!! Tomorrow is weigh in and marks the new week for me, I have to get back on track!!!
Treadmill: 29 minutes/ 1.03 miles 5 minutes of that with 2 LB weights


  1. Tina, sometimes family are the biggest sabators of our weight lose programs. I'm sorry you are having difficulty with your mom, I know what that is like, I haven' spoken to mine for almost 4 years and she lives in the same city as me. I still acknowledge her on Mother's Day, birthday and Christmas but I do not speak to her. Her choice not mine. I'm sorry to see you went back to the fast foods, you were doing so good. You may not have lost as much as you liked but I bet your were building muscle and that weights more than fat. Chin up girl, tomorrow is a new day.

  2. Thanks a lot Tessa.
    I'm sorry to hear you don't speak to your mom... me and my mom have always had problems, I'll get over this just like I get over everything else she has done through out my life (this is nothin...compared).
    yeah, the fast foods really made a comeback, and worse then it was too!
    Yeah, I really have to improve, it's like I relapsed this week!

  3. Hi Tina, thanks for popping over to my blog. Thought Id do the same 4 u! I want to say, Go girl. Its hard to go thru a day like that and not eat when u r stressed. As you can read on my blog, I lost 35lb and Im going to lose 5lb more. My hubby has lost about 40lb, and has about another 30lb still to lose. Did you grow up in a smoke-filled trailer full of cranky people? How did you survive it? xxoo

  4. Sorry to hear all that, Tina. I understand how family can be difficult. I moved over 800 miles, in part, to separate myself from my family. I haven't seen them in nearly six years, and haven't spoken to them in over two years now. Sometimes, the people who are supposed to be our support network just bring despair and anxiety into our lives.

    Hang in there.

  5. Thank you Byron and Michaela. It really made me feel better to log on and have such support...
    You are so right Byron, I am sorry to hear you don't speak with your family, but at the same time I can see how much less stress I would have if I moved 800 miles away!!!